Sunday, March 09, 2014
A little background...I as laid off in June..in fact...my job was cut. No reason as to why...just...you no longer teach here. The school district was filled with serious financial woes. It was a small a school and I have stayed "friends" with my fellow teachers on Facebook, however, today, I stumbled upon a picture of a fellow teacher's baby shower. Yep...I was not invited. I have been hanging on to these "friends" I think for validation that I was liked there and they miss me. Guess not.
***Failed to mention that we are not all working in that building anymore. We are all spread out. Out of the eight people in the picture, only two work there now.
Everyone was in that picture...but me. I strangely hurts a lot. I need to move forward and keeping contact with these people is hurting me. I need to go and unfriend them but feel like I can't. I feel like I am this secret awful person and I don't know it. Then I feel, "why don't they like me?". It was a very lonely job last year. God moved me to a new school district where my talents are valued. It is a perfect fit. I need to move on. I think it is part of my "fat" mentality now...
So...that moment that I realized I was not invited...should be a powerful movement...I exercised a bit and am going to end contacts with them. They don' search me out and won't even notice...but I notice and that is unhealthy.
So here goes...