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Lazy and having the courage to finally admit it!

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Today, I have finally faced the real truth and that is I am just plain lazy when it comes to exercise!! It's really ridiculous because I can run around driving the kids here, there and everywhere, being a Girl Scout Leader, working full time, cleaning the house, coooking, doing laundry, taking care of hubby, taking care of my disabled dad, etc...

SO why can't I get off the couch or off my chair staring at the computer and just go for a walk??

L A Z Y!! That's what it is... or I am just burned out from doing the above... lol

Well the bottom line is I have to do all of the things above, so I do them. For some reason I have never looked at walking/exercise as something I have to do, but rather something that I should do, but don't wanna!!

Thank God for SparkPeople. I was looking at all of the Spark Teams and saw the Leslie Sansone Walking team and realized that I have owned one of her dvd's for like 5 years and have used it maybe once a year. Well, I just went downstairs and dusted it off and guess what? Tomorrow morning , I am gonna start the day with Walking Off The Pounds and attempt to do it every day, as I just joined that Spark Team.

I am going to add that walking dvd to my "TO DO" list and check it off at the end of the day like I do all of the above tasks.

Wish me luck!!

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ZOMBIEGIRL.NET 1/23/2011 2:38PM

    you are definitely not LAZY! haha - did you take a look at that quick list you wrote out, just at the top of your head, imagine if you really thought about all the things you do in your schedule, no wonder you want a break in front of your computer. you are just not selfish enough to make time for what you need vs what you feel you need to do for everyone else. I'm the same way. I easily put myself last on the list of people who need to be taken care of, pretty much all the time. Normally it's cool with me, but being on sparkpeople makes me realize that I do need to shuffle things around for more me time. I know a lot of people schedule their exercise in to their day like an appointment to make sure that they don't miss a workout, I'm not there yet, but it's a suggestion I'll be looking into to shortly. I LOVE the walk away the pounds series!! (FYI my local Target and amazon.com has some good deals right now if you want to expand your library.) It's what I use to exercise like, 80% of the time. Good luck with that! Just keep walking, it'll add up!!

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MACMOM57 1/23/2011 9:45AM

    GReat blog. I know just what you mean. I do love the walking video its awesome. I know you can do it.

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DIANE7786 1/23/2011 12:42AM

    The walking tape is good. It sounds like you have a busy schedule. Don't forget that three ten minute segments of exercise are just as effective and continuous 30 mins. Cleaning the house, playing with the kids count too. It doesn't matter how we get our exercise as long as we're active 30 mins a day.

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MKPRINCESS007 1/23/2011 12:31AM

    My vote would be for burned out! But, you are tackling this issue and prioritzing yourself by adding the walk to the "to Do" list.......awesome plan!

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Valentine's Day! MY day of Love!!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

For the first time in a long time I am going to celebrate Valentine's Day!! My husband and I love each other and our children are loved beyond words, but we have always felt like we did not need a designated day to celebrate our love for each other... My husband and I don't lavish ourselves or our children with Valentine's day gifts, nor do we go out to a fancy dinner...sure we send cards to our family & friends and we bake cookies or some other goodies with our children, but other than that we don't celebrate it in a lavish or expensive way. We love each other every day so in our home, every day is Valentine's Day.

I always show and give my love to my family and friends, however this year I am adding MYSELF to the list .

I have decided that I am going to LOVE myself for once!!

I am not going to buy presents for myself or eat an entire box of chocolates or anything like that, but I am going to write myself a loving note and love myself for the entire day. I plan to compliment myself and only think nice thoughts about me!!

Maybe it sounds corny, but I give my love to everyone I know and I have decided that it is time to love myself and what better day to begin than Valentine's Day... the day of LOVE!

Happy Valentines Day!!

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AMIEMICHELE 2/11/2010 1:24AM

    That seems like a wonderfuul idea!

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It's a brand New Year!! Is this MY year??!!

Sunday, January 03, 2010

It's a Brand New Year and once again I am looking at the New Year with big dreams. That's all they have been... dreams. I stopped setting goals for the New Year many many years ago because I always failed!!

For some reason this year feels different... like this is the year FOR ME!! I have never actually thought that before, so I am hoping my gut feeling is right.

I am at the heaviest weight I have ever been. I am miserable... truly miserable. To be honest, I have even consulted with a Lap Band surgeon. In my heart, I really don't want to go that route, but I am starting to feel desperate. I am a loner now. I only have one close friend that I confide in and it's at an "arms distance" length. I have pushed everyone else away because of my weight. I have used my weight as an excuse for everything!! I used to have so many friends and loved entertaining and having fun. Now I find any excuse not to have fun. How sad am I? My poor children do not deserve this at all. Did I mention that I am a Girl Scout leader too. Oh boy, the places we could have went if I wasn't so heavy.

Wow, I have never written a blog before so this feels a little weird... but I will admit something...it feels really good to write down what I am feeling right now.

I think that I will start writing things down, which is something I never do. Maybe if I write down (or blog) my TRUE and HONEST thoughts and feelings I will start to see what's really "eating" at me and start to change my life for the better. I am actually creating goals this year... I know that throughout the year I will add more goals too. Well, here goes...

GOALS for 2010:
Stop Procastinating
Love, Love and truly Love my family & myself
Allow my husband to love me
Have more patience
Stop being afraid of everything (this one bugs me...I will elaborate more later)
Be more active... i'm not calling it exercise or else I won't do it
Be less involved with my daughters' school and more focused on my home & family (more details later)

That's it for now... I know that there are more to come for sure... I just feel that this is just the tip of the iceberg.

Happy New Year to all of you and may all of your hopes and wishes come true :)

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2MOMMY2 1/8/2010 2:50PM

Wow, Thank you for all for your kind words and encouragement!!

I really do believe that I need support from people going through what I am going through!! My hubby is my best friend and biggest supporter, but he truly cannot understand the way that I feel in my heart and in my head. You know the thoughts that we heavy people always have... like can I fit in that booth or that seat, etc.... My hubby was heavy many, many years ago until he was hospitalized and diagnosed with diabetes. Well, he immediately lost 60 lbs. and conquered the diabetes beast and the overweight beast. I am proud of him!!
What I am trying to say is that I need to reach out and ask for help from this awesome place!! Maybe I have been alone in my thoughts and misery for way tooooo long!! I will reach out and learn from everyone here on Sparkpeople!!
Have a Blessed Day!! I already am!!

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AMIEMICHELE 1/3/2010 6:49PM

    Happy New Year! Good luck with your goals this year.

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BIGGIRL2082010 1/3/2010 6:13PM

    Hon, if you just focus on changing ONE little thing for now and stay consistent with that, that alone will propel you to bigger and bigger things as the year goes by. You CAN do this, just focus on TINY changes to start with!

And for inspiration, go read BOTZZZ's blogs ... he started SP when he weighed 534 pounds - today he's somewhere less than 330 pounds. He, too, started with very similar feelings to what you describe, isolating himself from others, considering surgery, etc. He decided to try to do some work on his own - and the rest is history! Check out his blogs: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.a

Believe me - the ONLY thing stopping you is probably whatever YOU believe - so, choose to believe you are MORE than what your weight is! There is a joyful, vibrant person inside you - choose to be THAT person!


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VGIMLET 1/3/2010 5:52PM

    You can make it your year this year, it sounds like you are ready.

You can make all your goals come true. You can do this thing!

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