Thursday, October 10, 2013
Lately, I found myself running short of time to do all the things necessary for the BLC. I mean I have literally been exercising at 9 pm! Although it is clear that I need to plan better (whenever possible), I think it is also reflection of my commitment to myself. I am no longer saying to myself, it is okay, because I had a long day. I am no longer saying to myself, skip it and do it tomorrow. I am no longer okay with any excuse I try to come up with to avoid exercise.
Now, don't be concerned. I am NOT becoming a fitness nut or something. I think what is happening is that I recognize the importance of doing things for myself - NOW, not later. Also, I think it is because I am working on my self image, and not just my goal of weight loss. I actually said to myself, I only have about 50 pounds to go when I can say "bye bye forever to speciality size stores". I can't remember the last time I place the word "only" on any weight loss goal.
And what is impacting my time crunches is not just the exercise, but all other things that are necessary to max out the challenges. The other things, like organization and decluttering- are as important to my more positive outlook.
I am working on better organizing my time. However, I am so please that I am making ME a priority again.
Monday, September 30, 2013
I am in the BLC23 True Blue Team. I requested to be on this team because I believed that it would help me address non-weight problems that are interfering with my goal of healthy eating and more active lifestyle. This is the first week of the challenge and on the very first “Mindful Monday”, True Blue has helped me view things in a different light.
The question of the day asked me to choose from a list, my number one non-weight goal. And there is was, on the list – something I have always felt, but never quite voiced. That goal – “Nature your whole self and discover more joy and a healthy appetite for life”.
You see for me, losing weight by itself is not enough. I am smart enough to know that the number on the scale does not determine happiness. Intelligently, that is. But, emotionally, that’s the tricky part. And that emotion is linked to how I compartmentalize my life. I have separated out my weight loss efforts with all or nothing focus. Totally ignoring my other needs or wants. I am not just someone who is overweight. I am so much more than that – daughter, co-worker, friend, sister, etc.
And I do enjoy so much more than exercising and eating better. I love to travel, garden, spa pampering, reading, etc. And, I am certain there is still more for me to do and enjoy. Exercise and eating better can be accomplished with all I want to do.
I definitely need to and deserve to create time and schedule time for self care and not just the 20 -30 minutes of exercise I committed myself to, but anything and everything else that I tend to place on the back burner – like why can’t I just get my nails done even if Mom doesn’t want to do it on that day?
I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason. That reason does not have to be a negative one. My joining the BLC23 and becoming a True Bluer is the kick in the behind, eye opening and soul searching step, I deserve, need and want right now.
A change is coming!
Friday, September 13, 2013
The BLC round 23 begins on September 25, 2013. "Officially" begins that is. I have fully participated in the training program for the challenge. It consists of daily challenges and 4 day weekend challenges. Already the scale has moved in a big way. Already my fitness numbers are higher than usual for this time of the month.
I am so motivated and at the same time scared. I know that 12 weeks will not make me skinny, but I want so badly to see a change. A significant change. My goal is about 25 pounds and I have about 20 more to lose thanks to the training. It should reassure me, but it doesn't. Visions of past failures keep reappearing. Silly, isn't?
I know I have to believe. I know I have to walk on faith. And I know I have to just do it.
So I will.
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