Thursday, March 06, 2014
No, I did not binge. I've just had really awful luck.
Yesterday I got home from work to find raw chicken sitting in my crockpot. The crockpot was on and plugged in, but it had never heated up. I was mad because I had really been looking forward to chicken enchilada casserole. I had to throw away a pound and a half of chicken. I hate wasting food!
We managed to scrounge up some leftover Italian bread, bottom round roast, cheddar cheese and some grapes for a makeshift "Ploughman's Lunch". It was yummy.
This morning I unzipped my banana and removed it's jacket, and promptly dropped the naked banana on the floor between the garbage and recycling bins, where it picked up all sort of nasty crumbs so I threw it away. *sigh* Then I scrounge through the fridge to find something for lunch. Leftover chicken fiesta cups! Yum! I toss it in a bag with a yogurt and an apple....and leave it sitting on the coffee table at home. Argh.
The good news is I have a shelf-stable Barilla pasta dinner in my desk drawer at work, but now I need extra protein, so I need to go to the Acme and grab a yogurt. No biggie I guess except this Acme's prices are exorbitant.
Speaking of prices, what's up with the price of beef lately? I've been craving red meat but it's never on good sales! Not even hamburger! So ridiculous.
It's TOM here so I'm not worried about the scale, but I'm tired and anxious because of the hormones.
Hubby decided we're going to his 20th high school reunion (he's 6 years older than I am, cradle robber) so I'm a little anxious about that, but his grad class was only 40 people. (Alanis Morissette went to his high school, btw, before he went there and when it was an all-girls school.)
Not much going on here. Not feeling much like writing.
Hope you are all doing well!
Friday, February 28, 2014
The word stubborn often has negative connotations.
1. unreasonably obstinate; obstinately unmoving: a stubborn child.
2. fixed or set in purpose or opinion; resolute: a stubborn opponent of foreign aid.
3. obstinately maintained, as a course of action: a stubborn resistance.
4. difficult to manage or suppress: a stubborn horse; a stubborn pain.
5. hard, tough, or stiff, as stone or wood; difficult to shape or work.
The word determined, however, has decidedly more positive vibes.
1. resolute; staunch: the determined defenders of the Alamo.
2. decided; settled; resolved.
I am most definitely BOTH stubborn AND determined. And there is nothing wrong with that!
Stubbornness and determination are both great assets when it comes to weight loss. And so is PATIENCE.
There is a phrase that is commonly used on SparkPeople, and it's TRUE.
"You didn't put the weight on overnight, it isn't going to come off overnight."
So why do so many of us think we aren't losing fast enough? This isn't a race, people. It's so much more important than a mere race.
Remember the story of the tortoise and the hare? The hare was, of course, faster. But he was also erratic, irresponsible, and burned himself out halfway through the race, allowing for the slower, more dedicated tortoise to win.
Think about it: it's tax season, and I'm sure a lot of you have a third party calculate and file your taxes for you. Do you want them to do it fast, or do it right? I bet everyone one of you would rather have your taxes done correctly than quickly and incorrectly.
What happens when you speed through a project at work? Do you make more mistakes than when you take your time? What happens when you don't read all of the assembly instructions for that tv stand from Ikea? (Ok bad example, I have a degree in engineering and those instructions are poorly written.)
I'm just saying think about it when you're upset because you "only" lost one pound. For the last few days, I've lost "only half a pound". But I've lost half a pound every day for FOUR days straight...and guess what? That's TWO POUNDS. Now, I've been at this long enough that I know it could be another month before I lose another ounce. Heck, it was 58 days between my last loss period and the current lost period I'm on now. 58 days of not losing ANYTHING. But I stuck to my plan, heck, I even UPPED my calories by 100 a day, and by the time my next loss period came around I was losing again.
Because I was STUBBORN. Because I was DETERMINED. Because I didn't give up.
Set your goals small. Small goals add up. For me, small goals have added up to losing 82 lbs since starting SparkPeople, and a total loss of 105 lbs. I set my goals for 2 lbs at a time now. You might say:
"Hey Andrea, two lbs is nothing, why such a small goal?"
I repeat: SMALL GOALS ADD UP.
If you have more than 100 lbs to lose, which is more daunting: 2 giant goals of 50 lbs apiece, each of which could take you a year, or 20 goals of 5 lbs apiece, each of which might take you a month or so? Can you imagine what it's like to celebrate meeting a goal EVERY MONTH? It's FUN!
I have rewarded myself so much on this journey because I set so many goals. But the biggest reward is the confidence in myself and the personal achievement of getting this far.
And I did it by being a tortoise.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
The last week has been just about the most dramatic week I could possibly have without someone I love falling ill or dying. I have had the week of technology HE**.
Last Tuesday after lunch I was pottering around on my work computer when all of a sudden *ZZZZZZZZZZAP* my screen turns to plaid and the computer freezes. (Ok, not actual plaid, but you get the idea.) I restart the computer manual and am unhappy to discover that the computer will not post. (For those of you who aren't as computer savvy as I am, it means that I'm getting no display at all on the monitor, not even a cursor. Basically the computer is getting power but not enough to actually boot.) I don't panic yet because my husband is pretty good at fixing computers. I bring it home and he takes a look at it and gives me the really bad news. FRIED MOTHERBOARD. (Explanation: if you fry your motherboard you might as well buy a new computer.)
We call my boss and order a refurbished system that will work. In the meantime, I say I'm going to bring my home computer in to use that until we get the new computer set up, as I have Quickbooks on my home computer. Bring my personal computer in Wednesday morning and plug it in. When I insert the power cable into the back of the PC there is a BZZZT noise. This is not good. I am filled with dread. I hit the power button and... my personal computer won't post.
MY WORK FRIED TWO MOTHERBOARDS IN TWO DAYS, ONE OF WHICH IS MY PERSONAL COMPUTER WITH EVERYTHING I OWN ON IT.
At this point, I FREAK OUT. My boss, who is very kind, offers to take it to a repair shop, where they have to replace the motherboard, memory and CPU. So I basically have a brand new computer in the same case, except for the hard drives. All my programs work and all my data was saved, but at $275 repair costs, I could have bought a brand new computer.
At this point I think it's a power issue. The power cable I'm using to plug the CPU into the power strip is old, so I replace it. The next day my hubby sends me to work with a cruddy computer to use. I plug it into the power strip with the new power cord... AND IT WON'T POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THREE COMPUTERS IN AS MANY DAYS HAVE DIED INSTANTLY AT WORK!
At this point I'm invoking the name of God even though I'm not remotely religious, because I'm starting to feel like something even WORSE is going to happen. My anxiety kicks in full throttle, and I'm texting my hubby to make sure he makes it to work okay, worrying about my dog being hit by a car or eating raisins. I'm seriously freaking out.
I go to install Quickbooks on my coworkers computer and boss comes in. While I'm trying to figure out what happened to the THIRD computer boss sits down on computer where I'm installing Quickbooks and starts watching Carlos Mencia YouTube videos loudly on the speakers. I call my husband, who is home sick, to discuss the options. Boss interrupts me to tell me he wants to speak to hubby. I ignore him because I'm trying to listen to my husband, and Boss asks AGAIN. This enrages me. I angrily say "When I'm DONE you can talk to him!" Boss sits sulkily. When I'm done with hubby I hand boss the phone and he goes "no it's okay, forget it". I yell "take the phone, I'm going for a walk!"
I grab Bingley and my coffee and take a walk to cool down. When I come back, Boss is done with hubby and I ask my coworkers to leave the room and I have it out with my boss, who, surprisingly, doesn't yell back at me. I honestly think he was surprised at how angry I was. I was SHAKING. I told him I was trying to fix things and he comes back here and takes over the only computer that works that isn't being used to watch YOUTUBE videos and then INTERRUPTS me while I'm talking to my HUSBAND trying to fix the computer issue. He doesn't apologize (he never apologizes, so that's not a surprise) but I think I get my point across. Drama.
Friday morning I go to the doctor and I get excellent feedback. My blood pressure is "exquisite", I'm decently happy considering it's still mid-winter and most people are depressed (HappyLight to the rescue). He asks me if I'm happy with my weight where it is and I say I would be happy with 10 more lbs OR less of a muffin top...and he asks if I'm doing crunches, lol. I want to tell him you can't target a part of your body but instead I say "Yes, I'm incorporating more strength training." He gives me a huge pat on the back and tells me how proud he is and how I should be proud, to which I reply that I am.
I leave the doctors office happily only to find that my rear driver's side tire is really low. Not flat, but low. The good news? I'm 1/16th of a mile from the Pep Boys I bought the tires from. I drop the car off and hubby meets me. He drives himself to work them I borrow his POS car for the day. Bingley has no idea why we're driving Daddy's car to work, so in spite of taking the same route I always take, he whines the whole way.
Well we figure out FINALLY that the problem is the danged POWER STRIP! Boss buys new power strips and we plug in a FOURTH computer on Friday. Fourth computer runs fine now that problem is removed. *PHEW* I manage to get payroll done on the coworkers computer and get regular work done on other coworkers computer as they are both part time.
After work I run home to drop off Bingley then drive to hubby's work to pick him up. We stop at Pep Boys to drop me off and hubby orders pizza since I didn't have time to cook dinner. We order a medium tropical pizza (ham and pineapple). The news at Pep Boys is good, I just needed a patch on the tire and they fixed it for free. Things are looking up.
I eat half the pizza because I'm so hungry when I get home. It was about 900 calories. I am marginally upset but not too upset, I had a really rough week, and I'd only gone over my calories by about 300, nothing to panic about. Before bed I walk into the bedroom to put on my jammies and it smells like burning plastic coming out of the heating vents. ONE MORE BAD THING HAPPENING!!!!
A quick Google search says we should turn the heater off, because it could mean an electrical problem. We put in a maintenance request but don't worry about it too much because it's "warm" this weekend and we don't need the heat.
Saturday I fiddle with the fourth computer which won't connect to the internet, but runs fine. I give up shortly, as without the internet I can't do any work, so I go back to coworkers computer. But I'm so antsy and the back room is in such disarray that I decided to reorganize. I unplug everything, set up all the new power strips, remove superfluous cables and put them away, and rearrange my desk and coworkers desks back to their original configuration. I'm feeling much better. On top of that, two of my favorite people come in to drop off some jewelry and give me at least 10 hugs before they leave. I love hugs.
(To quote Pandora.com - Are you still listening? I promise you will be rewarded at the end!)
Sunday hubby and I go grocery shopping as usual and then I decide I want to go for the library so I suggest we go to the park near the library first to get some exercise. I'm wearing my New Balance trail runners that I've had for about 3 years now. They are mesh. Bad idea. This park has no path so we're walking across a soccer field that has absorbed (badly I might add) about 18" worth of snow in less than 2 days. It is muddy and wet and we walk MAYBE 10 minutes and my socks are soaked through. I could have wrung them out. I'm pretty miserable at this point, so we decide to go to the mall right across the street from the library and get me new shoes, which I need anyway.
Macys is having a huge clearance sale on shoes! I need new shoes for doing my hike come March, so I picked out a pair of Jeep Trail-Rated shoes.
Regular price 89.99, I got them for $39.99! We go to the library, I pick out a couple books, then we head home. I make homemade calzones for dinner and we spend the rest of the day goofing off. I got 10,500 steps in for the day.
Yesterday I go to the dentist. Dental Hygienist is gushing over my weight loss. She tells everyone that comes in the room about it, lol. I try to tell her about SparkPeople but she tells me she doesn't own a computer or a smart phone. Weird! My teeth look good, but I have an old filling that needs to be redone, not a big deal or my own fault. My gums don't even bleed at ALL! I am definitely doing a better job with my teeth.
So I get home from the dentist and ask hubby if the heater had been looked at. He says no, and I get mad because he said he would call at 10 am if no one had shown up, and he didn't even do that. I get mad because if I can't depend on him to do stuff while I'm out doing other things I have to do it myself. He drives down to the main office and asks for a maintenance guy instead of calling. *rolls eyes*
Within 15 minutes maintenance guy arrives. We explain the problem. He looks at the heater, no obvious electrical problems, but we do need a new filter. No smell while he's here. He says he will be back in a few minutes with a filter. While he's gone, smell comes back. He show him. He nods like he knows what the problem is, goes back out to the heater and cleans a whole bunch of stuff and replaces the filter. He says to keep an eye on it and call the emergency number if there are any problems. Smell goes away within an hour! No crisis there!
So yesterday hubby makes his "famous" chili which is loaded with veggies and less than 400 calories a serving. We have chili for dinner with cheese and sour cream, then he decides he wants to go out because he has cabin fever. We decide to go to the mall and get Bubble Tea. I park at the opposite end of the mall and we walk to the end with the bubble tea, get our tea and enjoy it walking back to the car, with a few stops along the way to browse. As we're leaving, we notice the new Christmas Tree Shop is now open across the street from the mall, so we go over there and check it out. Really beautiful store full of thousands of things I don't want/need!
So the weekend turned out fairly well. I'm finally relaxing a bit and ready to start a new, better work week. I'm getting commission for a $3200 watch that sold on eBay over the weekend, which is a good thing. Should make boss happy, too, since he had to put out $600 for computer last week!
To top everything off, I hopped on the scale this morning before making coffee and I was 172.8. That's 0.2 lbs up from yesterday, which has been my lowest weight since December 29th. I was a little disappointed, since it's "Weight Loss Week" (week between ovulation and menstruation). I had to wait for the coffee to brew and when it was done I kinda felt like I had to pee again, so I did, and then I said, what the heck, lemme get back on the scale. 172.0!!!! New low weight! Things are definitely looking up in the Freitas household!
I hadn't lost any weight in more than EIGHT WEEKS but did I give up? Heck no! I just kept going, and if anything, I raised my calories a little bit. (And, if I remember correctly, I didn't lose much last January either, so perhaps winter is not my weight loss friend.
Anyhoo, I hope you all have a FABULOUS week, and I will try to post another spice blog this week.
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
This article blows my mind with how good it is.
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