AIMLESS07   18,217
15,000-19,999 SparkPoints
AIMLESS07's Recent Blog Entries

Long time gone

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Hello all.

A couple of updates on me.

First off, my weight is not in control. I am in the 190's and I am embarrassed and ashamed of my body. I haven't been working out at all. I am so incredibly lost and frustrated because over the past 2 years I have gained about 25 lbs and I have done that to myself. At some point I am going to get off my butt and do something about it. I just feel like I have dug myself in a deep hole again and instead of trying to get out of it, I have just given up and keep spiraling down deeper. I don' know why. I haven't ran on a consistent basis in about a year. Running used to drive me to be better yet somehow I have drifted away from it. I think I know how out of shape I am and if I try to run, I would struggle to run without having to take walk breaks. If I want to get back into it, walk breaks would probably ne necessary. I want to get my membership back at my old gym on the college campus because it has an indoor running track and we are going to have a very nasty winter this year. I hate treadmills!

For better news, we have broken ground on our home. They just poured the foundation today and we are so excited about that. So hopefully in the next few months we will be able to get this house built! It's been a long time coming and I am so glad things are finally progressing.

So anyway, that's just an update on me. I really want to get my weight back under control. I just need to get myself motivated again. The other aspects of my life are going okay. School year is off and going, hubby's health is in pretty good shape.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SAILOR64 10/22/2014 10:15AM

    Thanks for sharing. Realizing you have a problem is the first step toward solving your problem. If I'm reading this right, you have had a lot on your plate lately. You need to take time for yourself and back at it.

I would like to invite you back to the new and improved TriSports SparkTEAM. We have reorganized our TeamPage, started new challenges for the remainder of 2014 and 2015, organized new TeamGoals and much more.

You should come and check us out.

If there is anything the Team can do to help you, please let us know.

Jonny Mac emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MBSHAZZER 10/22/2014 9:04AM

    Hang in there Aims... you did it before you can do it again!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ROBINRDK 10/21/2014 10:53PM

  I am here to root for you. Start out with taking little steps to a healthier lifestyle. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment

I tried to save my uncle's life.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

This past weekend 15 members of my family went up to Estes Park for a family reunion. It was just a beautiful place. We stayed on a property that had llamas and elk. We got to pet them and feed them if they wanted. The elk liked Mike and Ike candies. Funny eh? Jason and I went on a run, we as a family went on a walk/hike for over 2 miles at Lily Lake. We went and checked out the Stanley Hotel and drove up Trail Ridge Road and took some glorious pictures. As a family, each couple is in charge of a meal. We all go to the grocery store and buy our ingredients for our chosen meal. We have done it that way for years. My sister and her husband chose to be in charge of all breakfasts and lunches because they didn't actually pay for the rental of the property because they came at the last minute due to their jobs. My mom, dad, Jason, and I decided on tacos. I love my family reunions and it's so nice to be around my Colorado family especially since my grandmother is getting older and my great uncle and aunt are getting older as well. My grandma's body is good for a gal in her 80's. She still gets around. But her mind is really bad. She doesn't even know who I am anymore. She doesn't even remember the home she raised my dad, aunt, and uncle in that she sold and moved out of a couple years ago. She is now in assisted living and I know she is frustrated because she knows she is forgetting things. But she still remembers my mom as her daughter in law, my dad, and his siblings, and their significant others. She also still remembers her brother and sister in law who were also at the reunion.

Early Sunday morning, my Uncle Ron ran into our sleeping area with was in another house saying my other uncle wasn't breathing and was not responsive. My BIL and I are both CPR/First Aid certified as is my husband. Jason, Beav, (my BIL's nickname) and I raced over into the other house. He was laying on the bed and was unresponsive. We picked him up and moved him out of the room into the hallway on the floor. I had never seen someone like that in real life and I was so scared. Beav checked for a pulse and he didn't have one. I looked at him and said we needed to start CPR. I had only performed CPR on a dummy during training. Beav did the compressions and I did the breathes. We counted the 30 compressions out loud just like I was taught to and I lifted his chin to make sure the air was going in. We kept at it for 10-15 minutes until paramedics arrived. The paramedics worked so hard on him and stabilized him. At least 7-8 paramedics and police officers showed up. Getting him down from a 2nd story house with a narrow spiral staircase was impossible. Luckily, the owner of the property lives on the premises and he said there was a trap door on the 2nd floor that was used to bring up the furniture when the home was built. We were able to peel up the carpeting and open the trap door and transfer my uncle down on the board. I stood underneath the trap door with Jason, Beav, my Uncle Ron, and other officers, EMS to lower him to the bottom floor.

Jason and I took my aunt to the hospital in our car and later on my Uncle Ron, my daddy, my mom, my sister, and Beav came shortly after. They were able to establish a pulse and blood pressure at the house. When they got to the hospital, his heart just wouldn't go. They would give him epinephrine and his heart rate would go up, but then it would drop down. He just couldn't survive what we think was a heart attack. We were trying to get a timeline on how long he was without help before Beav and I got there and started CPR. It was several minutes from what we have figured out.

He was such a good man and patient one as well. My aunt is kind of a quirky person and he accepted her wholly for who she was. They were together for 40 years which was before my momma became a part of the family and they never married. I know he asked, but I think she was too scared to. She lived at his house, but slept in her own room. It's probably one of the oddest relationships I have been around, but it worked for them. She hasn't had a steady job for years and he pretty much supported her financially. His only family is his niece who lives down in Florida. She is mentally handicapped and lives in some sort of home.

I am very concerned about my aunt. She is a pretty awkward person socially so she doesn't have any friends. Like she couldn't just call someone up and say, lets do lunch. He was her companion. He was her friend. And now, he isn't here. I really, really hope that she will take this unexpected change in her life and do something positive with it. That she could do something like join a gym and start exercising, maybe get involved in a grief group so she can get her feelings out. I want her to put herself out there because she doesn't need to sit in that house alone in her grief.

Right now they are trying to find paperwork that states his wishes. Despite the fact that he had cancer at one point and had a triple bypass about 6 months ago, he didn't have all his stuff together for my aunt to easily find. My aunt was pretty sure he wanted to be cremated. It reiterates to us that Jason and I need to get our stuff together. Jason wants to donate his body to science because of his MS.

Despite everything, I am proud of Beav and myself for taking quick action to try and save him and staying calm. I didn't know I had that kind of calmness in me in the face of adversity.

I wish they could have saved him, but I guess God decided He needed a computer genius and he lived a fulfilling life for the 71 years that he was here.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:



My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family! , Praying your Aunt finds those positive changes in her life. I know you will stay in touch with her and guide and encourage her as she starts a new path in her life's journey.
Blessing for you and your loved ones

Report Inappropriate Comment
NBUTLER91 8/4/2014 8:59PM

    Very sorry for you and your family's loss. Don't give up on your Aunt. Try to stay in touch with her and keep encouraging her to get out. Hopefully she will try to make friends and not sit home alone with her grief. A grief counseling group would be great for her and she would be with people sharing the same experience. My prayers are with you and your family.


Report Inappropriate Comment
VANGO79 8/1/2014 10:39AM

    Sorry for your loss. You did an amazing thing by staying calm and doing your best to revive him. Prayers for the family.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MBSHAZZER 7/31/2014 3:14PM

    Gosh, Aims, so sorry to hear about your uncle. I bet that was so scary. I am CPR and first aid trained - for insurance purposes, a certain # of people on each floor at work must be certified. Back in February, I was in a meeting and someone passed out and hit his head really hard on the floor. I TOTALLY FROZE!!! I couldn't remember anything at all from my training, except to ask "Are you breathing?". LOL. This wasn't as dire a situation, no CPR required. I bet it felt good to use your training, esp. for someone who was not a stranger or acquaintance.

As for your aunt, does she live near you guys at all? If not, it might be nice to call her once a week or so for the next few months to see how she's doing. I hope that everything gets sorted out quickly. It can be hard to simultaneously grieve and deal with paperwork!

Report Inappropriate Comment
JAMIRBLAZE 7/31/2014 8:34AM

    I'm sorry for your loss. I hope that your aunt is able to make some of the changes that you hope that she does.

Report Inappropriate Comment
EMMACORY 7/30/2014 9:09PM

    So sorry for your loss. May God comfort and console your Aunt and the whole family during this time of sadness. Blessings.... emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
LEANIE64 7/30/2014 9:09PM

    So sorry for the loss... ! It sounds like you have peace about it all..I am sorry though for your aunt..I too hope she can make some positive changes in her life. One never knows when we will be taken..I too need to get everything in order..I don't want our family to experience a difficult time during an already stressful situation.

Report Inappropriate Comment


Sunday, July 06, 2014

Exer-Ears are my solution letting runner’s run to their favorite music and paying attention to their surroundings…dogs, cars, weirdos, etc. I need your help to bring them to life.

Visit this link, but please read the rest of my blog entry!

People always say that good inventions come from solving a problem. Well, this idea of course came to me as I was running along a busy street with one headphone out of my ear like I always do so I can hear the cars coming and pay attention to my environment. I think that this realization of paying attention has come from becoming a police officer's wife and how even if we are sitting at a restaurant, he positions himself where he can see who is coming in and out of the establishment.

I have submitted my invention to which is an invention website for normal folks like us. We have ideas but don't have the financial means or knowledge to bring them to life. I didn't even know this site existed until last Sunday’s CBS Sunday Morning. The segment ended and my husband looked at me knowing this was the opportunity I had been praying for. I perfected my written submission and sketched up my idea. I am no artist but I did the best I could. Quirky approved it last night and it is now live on their site.

Quirky uses its community members to vote on ideas. The ideas with the most interest move on into the next stage of development. Join Quirky (for free) and vote for my idea, if you like it or course If the idea is manufactured, the inventor gets paid as do community members who "influence" the idea.

I know there are running purists who choose to run without music so I may not get their vote, but after doing 5 half marathons and 2 full marathons that there are PLENTY of runners who do run with music. They have their iPhone strapped to their arm and their headphones on before approaching the start line.

So I have taken this leap of faith, and we shall see where it goes. It may not get very far, but it’s worth a shot. Please, please, please, if you like my idea, go and vote for it. It won't happen without your help.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

VANGO79 7/24/2014 10:07AM

    I tried copying and pasting and it says that the idea has expired.

Good luck, it sounds like an awesome idea!

Report Inappropriate Comment
AIMLESS07 7/7/2014 6:13PM

    I tried again fixing the link and it still isn't working. If you copy and paste the webpage it should come up. Thanks Sharon!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MBSHAZZER 7/7/2014 5:15PM

    Hey Aims, the link didn't work

Report Inappropriate Comment
AJB121299 7/6/2014 10:48AM

    good luck

Report Inappropriate Comment

Housing updates

Friday, June 27, 2014

The guy who we were going to build our with got his numbers back and they weren't even close to what we could afford on the home. I got that email on Monday and I just cried. Let down, AGAIN. He was quick to add in that we could change some things to lower the cost, but he was 30K over what we wanted to pay.

So, we met with yet ANOTHER builder and a designer. What they suggested was paying a little money to reconfigure the guest wing of our plan. It was supposed to have a jack and jill bathroom connecting the 2 bedrooms and then a little powder room up at the front of the wing. By nixing that bathroom situation and doing a hall bathroom, we could save a good bit of money there by not buying an extra toilet, vanity, fixtures, plumbing, labor, etc. We are also going to trim 1 sq foot along the back of the house. The designer said we would never even notice it gone. Our master bath is very roomy, so we are going to try to make it a little smaller as well. They proceeded to say we could get the most bang for our buck by not doing 10-12 foot ceilings. Do 8 foot ceilings and then coffer them up higher. We will use less framing, brick, drywall, labor, etc. Plus, we will need smaller exterior windows which will have lower costs.

You know what really chaps my hide? I didn't know ANY OF THIS. I didn't know that higher ceilings cost that much more. I didn't know that you could coffer them up and still have higher ceilings, but pay less money. Why on God's green earth did none of the other prospective builders say anything? We aren't godzillionaire's with tons of money to throw around. We are a teacher and a cop. The cop bringing in quite a bit more :o) We just want to bring this dream that we have had for over a year to into reality.

So we are going with this new builder. His wife was our realtor when we sold our house last year so we know him and when looking at a recently finished build, liked what we saw.

Fitness-wise, I am doing okay. I still haven't stepped on the scale but plan to on Sunday. I have ran twice this week. I am doing 3 minute jogging and 30 second walking intervals. I have also been tracking my food and trying to keep my calories down. I hate that I haven't worked out recently because my biggest pet peeve is when my inner thighs rub together. I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MBSHAZZER 6/27/2014 3:44PM

    Hang in there.... Speaking as someone who renovates homes for a living, (or pays people to renovate homes, I should say), it's a learning process. Don't look at it as what you don't know, look at it as what you can learn.

My thighs totally rub together ALL THE TIME and it drives me NUTS!

Hang in there!

Report Inappropriate Comment

Weigh In, house building updates

Saturday, June 07, 2014

184.4 lbs
36 chest
30 waist
36.5 hips
43 butt
23 thigh
15 calf
12.5 arm

187.2 lbs +2.8 lbs
36 chest -no change
30.5 waist +.5 inch
37.5 hips +1 inch
43.5 butt +.5 inch
23 thigh -no change
14.5 calf -.5 inch
13 arm +.5 inch

So there it is. Lots of freaking pluses on measurements. Annoying as hell, but you know what? I did this to myself. I have a gym membership. I just was too lazy to go.

But yesterday, I went and did 35 minutes on the Arc Trainer elliptical and I did the circuit workout which alternates step ups and such with weigh machines. I have a wedding to go to in a couple of weeks and I would love to drop a few pounds. I even bought the most adorable dress for the wedding that I am going to wear with my cowboy boots. It fits just fine now, but it could fit better ya know!

I started tracking my food yesterday too. I like the updates Spark People did with their app. It's way better than what it used to be!

Housing update. We met with BFF's Uncle and his 2 partners a week ago. THey are working on getting the bids wrapped up and asked if we had picked things out. No. We haven't done hardly anything. We have sat on our butts for a year not knowing that we should have been picking things out and getting ideas. I feel like such an idiot b/c I didn't know and BFF SUCKED on communication. We picked appliances and sinks, toilets, and faucets back in October, but that's it. So I went and visited a flooring place and we know what tile we want for our bathrooms, the plank vinyl wood flooring for the kitchen/living/and hallways, and the carpet for the bedrooms. I went to Sherwin Williams and took home a zillion little paint cards and we have narrowed those choices down too. The big disagreement between Jay and I is the kitchen granite. He picked out Santa Ceceila Light and I am just not fan. Yes, it's less expensive, but I don't like the color. It's not white enough for me. I still need to take him to another granite place and have him look at a few more slabs, but he isn't overly excited because we haven't been given all our numbers yet from the new builder.

But hey, why not figure out what we like. It won't hurt us right? Plus the granite is kind of what I want to base the colors in the kitchen around so we can't really finalize other the cabinet paint colors/wall colors until we have the granite picked. Paint can be changed, stone can not. We also need to go and look at exterior brick. I apparently didn't know that prices of brick vary. I thought brick was brick. So we need to take that into consideration.

Here is my inspiration for my kitchen. Except I want white cabinets and a charcoal colored island. I love the transitional style and contacted the designer about where to get the hardware because I want that too.

I went to Ashley Furniture to scope out future furniture and decided to look at he new Tempur-pedic mattresses. We are getting a king mattress and need a new bed since our current bed is a queen. So a salesman approached me and threw out the idea of giving us free furniture if we went with a tempur mattress. I said that I didn't know when we could actually take the furniture because we aren't even remotely close to breaking ground. He said we could put stuff on layaway and start paying it down, and then when we are ready for the furniture, we can finance the balance. Wow. Sounds like a good deal. I kept wondering how they make money off of that if they are willing to give me furniture so that I buy the mattress. But then I saw online that furniture markup is really high so he wouldn't be given away that much anyway, but it would sure help us. So hopefully I will drag Jay to Ashley and have him check it out.

This is the bedroom furniture set that I want. Jay likes it too. And if we can get it for free, or almost free, that wouldn't be so bad.

So that's about it for now. I think at this point, instead of beating myself up over my weight like I normally do, I just need to move forward and accept my previous decisions. That's not something that is very easy for me, but I am willing to give it a go!

Later gator.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MBSHAZZER 6/8/2014 1:51PM

    Aims, when you have a lot going on, sometimes certain things need to take a back seat. I have a LOT going on right now and running has definitely become less of a priority for me, and that's OK because when my schedule frees up a bit, it will be there for me. As long as you are making mostly healthy choices, why add additional stress to your life?

I love your choices for the kitchen and bedroom!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ROBBIEY 6/7/2014 11:40PM

  Good Luck, Moving forward is my motto.

Report Inappropriate Comment

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 Last Page