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ten whole days of hell..

Tuesday, July 02, 2013

Right here in my home. I had 10 days of a drinking binge. A bottle a day. It sure wasn't fun. I fell, I lost my wedding band (hubby found it, phew), had a big fight with my 18 year old, and blacked out virtually every night. I am covered in bruises..I even think I had a concussion. The positive part? How could there be a positive part? But, really. I believe that living my life in a healthy way for the last year has helped me recover myself this quickly. It is amazing to me how quickly the body changes...I began to notice my muscles degenerating practically before my eyes. I think after all the hard work, meal planning and education I have invested is living a good healthy life I just can't bare to let it go to mush. Last tie I drank I was drunk for 5 years..so this is kinda wonderful..rescuing myself because I do believe I have worth!

  
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ALICIAYOUNG1127 7/3/2013 10:47AM

    Thank you everyone for your support!!! You have no idea how much it means to me!!!

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LADYFROMTHEWOOD 7/3/2013 9:00AM

    I wish I had words that would help after a binge, but I would be faking it if I tried, so I won't. You see a big difference in yourself which has given you hope despite 10 hellish days, so I'm extremely happy of that.
You certainly DO have worth. LOTS of it. Learn your lessons, do what needs to be done, get back to your healthy living so you won't lose what you've worked so hard for this past year. You can do this. I believe in you.
~Teresa

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STEVEN_D 7/2/2013 2:39PM

    Sounds like you are pretty lucky. I have noticed my drinking has increased lately and usually my injuries come the next day like bumping into things, walls shelves. Duh! Lots of empty calories, too. I hope this was just a temporary thing and not the beginning of another 5 year plan. I do find people that people are less tolerable when I drink, especially ladyfriend and daughter. Hang in there!

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BLUENOSE63 7/2/2013 2:18PM

  Wow is all I can say! Your honesty is thought provoking. Amazing the power of spirit to pull yourself off the ground.



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JPVALPO24 7/2/2013 2:07PM

    It is great to hear that you are hanging in there! You can definitely do this, just keep all the positive things that have happened since you started living healthy! emoticon emoticon

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PRNCSRIAH 7/2/2013 1:38PM

    I am really proud of you for realizing you are worth it! It's super hard to change behavior. It sounds like you have the tools you need to keep yourself up in the future.

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First 30 day challenge for me ...

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Tomorrow! I can't wait..not exactly sure what to track. I will obviously track my weight..my scale gives me muscle percentage and total body fat..I honestly am too hot and sticky to consider getting out the measuring tape. I will honestly be so damn proud of myself if I do this this every day for 30 whole days! I know I can do it!!!

  
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ALICIAYOUNG1127 5/23/2013 9:07AM

    Thanks Robin! Lady , any program where you see change is one to stick with..until you are bored. I have a starter program that I found..for example, the first day is 25 jumping jumping jacks and then 15 squats...and thats it...if you are interested I could email it to you for when you get bored! thanks for commenting on my blog!

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LADYFROMTHEWOOD 5/23/2013 6:24AM

    You're in MUCH better shape than I am! Best wishes for a successful work-out!

I've been trying to do a 30-Day Ab Challenge, and am seriously considering going back to the SP work-out videos for the 28-Day Bootcamp Challenge. I saw more change with them, and less pain than anything else I've tried.

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REALLY_ROBIN 5/22/2013 5:57PM

    Yes, you can! You've got this!

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I am worth it, right?

Monday, May 20, 2013

Hi there anyone! How are you? lol Just in case, you never know someone might find my title interesting. The depression has hit me a bit today. I have been trying to stay so positive...because you know I have a lot going on...and 30 lbs to go..and I know the only way to make it through all the other poop is to be positive..eat healthy, exercise and I will come out the other side of the problems..healthier and proud of myself. That little seed of self doubt..that makes you eat poorly that one day, that turns into two days..you feel bad so you dont think you are worth the effort of working out etc..I hope this blog reminds me I am worth it

  
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LADYFROMTHEWOOD 5/21/2013 8:50AM

    YES, you are worth it!
Depression is so hard, but you can get to the other side of it. You sound like you've done this before. Of course, do get help if you haven't already. The strength it takes during days like these steal all the strength that you would normally put toward living a healthy lifestyle. No sense in going it alone. A good doctor is like a spotter at the gym, there to support your efforts! Some days you have to just keep saying your mantra over and over. Wishing you all good health and a quick recovery so you can reach the goals you DESERVE. You are a beautiful, worthy, amazing person!

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REALLY_ROBIN 5/20/2013 5:10PM

    You've got this and you are worth it. Maybe you should go take a walk to get those good endorphins humming and make the depression go away! Hugs...Robin

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NEPTUNE1939 5/20/2013 4:28PM

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CREEKLADY1 5/20/2013 4:14PM

  YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!!! Everyone of us has times when we have bouts of over-eating....hang in there and keep going.....you are worth it!

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I am worth it, right?

Monday, May 20, 2013

Hi there anyone! How are you? lol Just in case, you never know someone might find my title interesting. The depression has hit me a bit today. I have been trying to stay so positive...because you know I have a lot going on...and 30 lbs to go..and I know the only way to make it through all the other poop is to be positive..eat healthy, exercise and I will come out the other side of the problems..healthier and proud of myself. That little seed of self doubt..that makes you eat poorly that one day, that turns into two days..you feel bad so you dont think you are worth the effort of working out etc..I hope this blog reminds me I am worth it

  


why would the universe do this???

Friday, April 26, 2013

I went back to the orthopedist for a follow up after my on the job injury to my back...had been doing physical therapy in hopes that it would help. It helps..but as soon as I get in the bus seat it's all over. When I went in to see the Dr I couldn't even sit to talk to him...just pace. So he referred me to see a pain management Dr. He also put me out of work until Dr Pain...which happens to be May 31?? wow that's a month! I don't like being home feeling useless..or that I had to file workers comp claim...but now I can't run in The Wally Waddle race on May19!!!!another dnf.. I am just so angry!!! At everyone and everything! When we go broke I do not like it to be my fault!!! There really isn't anyone to blame...I just hope I can keep moving forward and not get side tracked by this! My Mother tells me yesterday that she is engaged, ok good for her..but the next words are, "so you better get on a diet" Well that's just so sweet of her, isn't it? I mean she is the one that had gastric bypass and has gained 30 pounds back...I do not make disparaging remarks to her ever..just not fair. I wish I could be mean like her..not really but you know what I mean! At least I get to spend quality time with Lucy!

  
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REALLY_ROBIN 4/29/2013 5:31PM

    I'm so sorry this is happening, and your Mom...oh my! I love Ladyfromthewood's response and I agree, find the stuff that you can't normally do and enjoy your time off. The financial thing will work out, it always does. I had to work part time during a year and half of the recession and I made it work. You will definitely have to get creative about your expenses, but it can be done. I will be praying for a complete healing and for you to have peace beyond measure during this time. Hugs...Robin

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ALICIAYOUNG1127 4/28/2013 9:41AM

    Thank you so much for commenting on my blog..I guess it was kinda whiny. Lady from the wood, thank you, your comment really helped me a lot!!!! Thank you for the trophy and the perfect advice that I needed to here! have great day!

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LADYFROMTHEWOOD 4/27/2013 8:45PM

    I don't know if this will help or not, but as your buddy, I am hoping it will. My sister-in-law fell on ice while she was doing home heath visits. She has been off work and on comp since January. She said she about went crazy the first 2 months, but the 3rd month she realized that she needed to be sure she was completely healed before going back to work. (She had to have surgery on her knee.) Otherwise, going back too early would mean that she could not have an income or maybe even a job if she had to take off again to heal the other parts of her that have flared up (her back.) Now she realizes that she has to find out what her life is outside of work and fill it with something productive. She has just recently sorted her loose photos and gone through her closets to declutter. Visited more people she's always said she would visit... one day. I hope this might give you an idea to fill your days. I know it has to be SO frustrating and I feel for you.

As for your mom, you took the high road and need some recognition for that... I FEEL YA! Here's to having friends who completely empathize! You rocked the high road there. Some people only know how to make themselves feel better by cutting others down.

emoticon Here's an "I took the high road" trophy! You certainly earned it!

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LJOYCE55 4/26/2013 3:50PM

  Dog is cute, but your lack of activity is clearly getting to you. Hope you feel better soon.

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