Sunday, February 23, 2014
For the first time ever, I feel like I'm heading in the right direction. It's not like I'm seeing any huge successes this year. It's just a feeling, a change in attitude that says this journey will be different from the rest. I've been focusing and committing myself to small changes and not moving in my usual let's get through this ramp up quickly, then feel overwhelmed and discouraged because there is no progress with this approach. Instead I'm trying to master a few things and slowly ramp up. The real test this year was when I found out I was losing my job. This should have shook me off my plane and put everything in reverse, but instead, I'm holding my ground! I'm still loving myself, focusing on my self-care, and realizing that there will be ups and downs in life, everything won't be perfect, but I can keep myself moving forward regardless.
Sometimes when a storm comes, it's meant for a reason. I believe the storm hitting me right now is to prove to me that I'm stronger and more motivated than I had ever realized and that is something to celebrate because my daughter is seeing it and that is helping her self-esteem. She's loving herself just the way she is now. She's learning healthy habits. She's becoming my biggest cheerleader and I'm honored to be experiencing all this.
The biggest, most important change this year has been seeing how long it takes me to eat and working towards the 15 minute mark. I'm getting closer to that goal and I'm so excited. Why you may ask? Because it's so important to managing my reflux and weight loss. This morning was when I was really celebrating. I remember when I would have 3 4" or 2 6" pancakes and 2 light sausages for breakfast. I needed this to feel full. Today I had 2 4" pancakes and 2 sausages and I felt the same fullness. It's actually several hours later, and I'm still full! Now maybe a little of it is because I'm sick, but I think most of it is because it took me 15 minutes to eat my breakfast. This was a goal I wanted to achieve because when I had the 3 pancakes, my carb intake was too high and at 2, my cars are in range. Carbs are important to me because of my pre-diabetes.
Another exciting thing was today was my weigh in and because it's TOM, I was mentally prepared to see the scale go up, but it was surprisingly at the same weight I was last week. Once TOM is gone, I will take measurements to see if there is any off scale victories. I've also decided to hold off my next fitness test until after my cold is gone because I feel I will not see any strides in that area as it's been very difficult to do any exercise, but I'm very proud of myself because I'm still trying. For once in my life, I feel like I'm moving forward or standing still. I'm not back sliding at tragedy or set backs. I'm realizing it's not all or nothing. What matters is that I do my best and try and that in itself is enough to give myself a pat on the back for.
Saturday, February 01, 2014
After staring off pretty strong, losing 4 lbs, and doing my first fitness test, I had my first bump in the road. This week has been a struggle to meet my water on a consistent basis and exercise. It seems like I have so much on my plate and after awhile I just collapsed. However, I'm not giving up. I just looked at the events and said what am I going to do about it? Well, for one thing, I decided that I will track only the things I'm trying to implement so the most important things I do is track my water, sleep, and exercise. If anything else gets tracked, that's a bonus, but I'm just going to concentrate on these things for now. As for my game plan to make sure I get back to being consistent at exercise, I looked at my Pinterest board and realized I have lots of exercises posted. I can rotate what I have there while continuing to look for more to add.
Today I went swimming with my daughter. It felt so good to work my body like that and I felt so relaxed afterwards. With all the stress I'm under, anything that gives me a break from that is a welcome relief so that just brought it home even more how important it is that I do exercise. So I'm proud of myself for seeing the trend and instead of just giving up, analyzing it and seeing how I can get over this bump. I'm very happy for what I accomplished today in getting me back into the exercise mindset, but the real proof will be tomorrow and how I get through that week. Hoping I have a plan for success!
Monday, January 20, 2014
I went up north to visit my uncle and had some fun. I went snowmobiling with my daughter. It was a great workout and got me even more committed to strengthening my shoulder. I found a routine for abs that is standing so no pressure on my neck. How awesome!
Friday, January 17, 2014
I've been really dealing with my situation well. I thought this would kill whatever motivation I had, but nope. I've been hitting the gym or exercising however I can. I haven't been turning to food like I thought I would although I do enjoy a yummy dinner. I did have a couple cries. Mainly because I'm going to miss some of the people there. That place had become my second family. I'm going to miss working from home, my time off, and just having work/life balance. I won't miss the stress and working to burn out though and I'm thankful that I'm being treated with some compassion. I do have time to look for another job...that is awesome because it's easier to get my dream opportunity while I'm working. However, if that doesn't happen, I have a severance package waiting for me so I can take a little break, regroup, and look for something after that since people don't really get breaks as consultants. Mainly I'm staying positive that this will all go for good. I can only hope and pray that everything will turn out for the better. I'm going to go see some family this weekend and just relax and then hit the pavement some more next week. I applied for a job at a company my friend works at. Keeping my fingers crossed. It would mean Caley and I would have less time together, probably wouldn't have time to work out at the gym, but it would be a job with good benefits and that would be enough for me. I will just have to up my game and creativity to get those minutes in.. I can do anything I set my mind to.
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