Tuesday, July 22, 2014
The first time I saw or heard of TOM on SparkPeople, I was like, "Who is this dude?" Then I came to realize what it stood for and thought, "Pretty clever." Well, lately I've begun to hate TOM. I know when he's coming. I get emotional and I hate it because it takes all I can to stay positive and at peace as it is. I find myself letting things go in one ear and out the other while still giving me time to grieve for the family members I lost this year, the job I miss, and of course, pray. However, when TOM comes, I start to question everything. Words sting more than usual. I laugh because I have to be tough, but inside I'm crying and wondering what I want to do with my life.
Coupled with my emotions is the lack of energy or the desire to want to sleep, which increases when I do not get good sleep. The last 2 days my daughter has woke up crying and I've comforted her back to sleep and then wake up tired and not wanting to go to work. I so would like a day off, but that's not my life anymore and I have to take off enough time for appointments and stuff like that so I'm then having an argument with myself to quit my complaining and just go do my job. I come home missing my daughter and wanting to spend time with her. Of course, this has just killed my intentions to start back with my exercise program. While I can't put too much on my ankle, I had come up with a plan to do strengthening and cardio that I could do sitting, but Monday I wasn't feeling it in the morning so I thought maybe at work I could do some calisthenics. Didn't happen. Home...missing daughter and played Legos. This morning was the same about my cardio. I still have lunch and hoping I can do something. Even if it's moving my feet like I'm running in place but in a chair would be better than nothing. Trying to fidget a little bit as we speak, but too hard to type and do that at the same time. LOL
To make matters worse, I have an aversion to healthy food. I'm forcing myself to eat grapes right now. Grapes! I generally love grapes. They are so sweet, well, the green ones are more sour than sweet, but still much better for me than chocolate or the other things I've been craving. I've had no desire to cook. I'm like a slug. I will be so happy when TOM is gone and then I can see which stuff is being magnified by TOM and which stuff is things I actually need to deal with. One thing is for sure. No big decisions will be made this week. LOL
Thanks for listening. I know this is not my usual type of blog, but from reading others blogs, we need to share it all: the good, the bad, and the ugly.
Monday, July 21, 2014
This weekend, I did not want to be stopped or limited due to an ankle injury. Where I live, nice, hot weather is around for a limited time and we have to make the most of it. Plus the coupons that Caley earns from her summer reading program expire so every weekend is action packed and precious. There are no weekends to lie around and wish away injuries. So I setup a game plan as I wanted to knock out 2 coupons this weekend.
Saturday we went to the zoo as the weather was perfect. Warm enough that the misting stations would be available, but not so warm that we would be sweating hard and uncomfortable. My Mom was encouraged to go after she heard about my ankle injury because that meant we would be going at a relaxed pace. She's getting older now and because she does not exercise regularly, these outings are especially hard on her. (Another reason to motivate me to be active every day!)
I have discovered if I take small steps, I can walk. This was a necessary discovery for my job so I walk pretty well now. I just take slow, small steps. If I go too fast or my stride becomes too wide, my ankle lets me know and then I have to rest until my ankle can handle it again. Both members were very understanding. I let my daughter hold the map to keep her further entertained. Plus she knew we weren't going to be able to see everything so this would help us plan the most efficient routes. We had to park at a further gate so we didn't come into our usual entrance and saw the giraffes first and then worked our way to the penguins and on to where the sea lion show was. I figured that would be a nice long break for my ankle and I. Afterwards, we went to see the sting rays and sharks so we could pet them and have that experience and then proceeded to see other animals at the zoo. We rested at benches and tables whenever my daughter was hungry or I just needed a break from walking.
Despite taking this laid back approach, we did see quite a bit, but it was nice to stay at an area and really watch an animal. It's hard to say what my favorite animals were, but I'd say all the ones that were active!
Here are some pics of our zoo adventure:
My Mom and my daughter:
My daughter and I:
My daughter and I at the sea lion show:
Looking for a sting ray to pet.
Enjoying the misting station:
Sunday was a nice, hot, sunny day so after I got the grass mowed, the trim done and did a little gardening, I took Caley swimming at McCarthy park and we dried off a little at the park afterwards:
It felt good getting out there and getting some activity in. Going to see how I do this week.
Wednesday, July 09, 2014
Even though I've been listening to my body, somehow I hurt my ankle? My feet were sore on Friday so I changed to my good tennis and that helped...No issues. I didn't do anything crazy Saturday or Sunday so how come when I step out of the car on Monday to take my daughter to school, I can hardly walk. I do feel soreness in my hamstrings and back so I've been stretching to relieve that, but I can barely walk on my right ankle. The pain is in the back part where the hamstring attaches. When I came home from work Monday, I elevated the ankle, iced it, and just relaxed. Yesterday at work, I took two boxes so I could do the same. Then when I came home last night, I added ibuprofen to the mix. Hoping this heals soon.
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