Tuesday, November 12, 2013
I have been meaning to blog for quite some time now. However, it's has been the most crazy few weeks ever.
First my son was sick with a fever. Very scary as he is only 14 months. So we were doing everything to keep the fever from spiking. Despite our efforts it kept spiking really high for 3 days and the hospital told us what to do at home as it's all they would do if he was taken there. So we kept him home. Finally he seemed to be doing much better.
I then get strep throat right as he gets better. Thankfully, my son was going to be spending a week at his grandparents as our daycare provider was on holidays. So I was able to avoid giving him strep.
But my son took a turn for the worse while he was at his grandparents and ended up on antibiotics for a chest, ear and sinus infection. Very frustrating since I was in and out of the doctors and was told he was fine and that he just had a fever.
He came home this past Friday looking much better but had just started teething again. The poor little guy! I am hoping the teeth come through soon because it's been about 3 nights of very restless sleep.
Here he is having fun over the weekend at his cousin's birthday party.
Now onto my fitness. I started my hybrid schedule and am truly enjoying it a lot.
I have been feeling really drained lately. I find I am not feeling like I am getting in decent workouts or sweating enough I should say. I constantly feel tired and drained emotionally.
I have a lot of stress going on in my life right now. It wasn't until my son was away last week that I realized something. Normally I wake up at 4am to workout as my son wakes up anywhere from 5 am to 7am. He's unpredictable so waking up at 4am meant I got my workout in.
Last week I woke up after 5, closer to 6 and felt amazing after all my workouts. I chalked it up to getting un-interupted sleep.
But yesterday, instead of waking up at 4 am to workout I let myself sleep in because my son had been up multiple times through-out the night. I instead did a quick HIIT workout while my husband cooked dinner after my son went to sleep for the night.
I had so much energy for my workout it was amazing! It was only twenty minutes, and I have done this workout many times - but last night it was different. I felt I put forth a greater effort. I sweated more. I jumped higher. I squatted lower.
So it got me thinking and after a discussion with my husband I feel perhaps I am pushing it too hard by waking up at 4 am. Especially with my son's unpredictable sleeping right now it's not doing me any good to be so sleep deprived. I originally like working out in the morning so I have my evenings free. But I am so moody, tired and ready for bed by 5pm each evening that it's not doing me or my family any good.
So I plan to now workout in the evenings. My husband is fully on board and said he'll help more with dinner so I can workout. I think eventually I will go back to morning workouts when my son is a little older.
But as a new mom I am still discovering and learning as I go.
I think this will be good.
I have also decided to not focus too much on weight loss right now. Yes I do want to lose the last 10 lbs. But between job stress (massive lay offs happening in January), money stress, some family stress, new mom stress, house up-keep stress, and more...adding in stress on myself to lose weight by a certain point isn't helping. In fact, it's made weight loss become a chore. I love working out and want to get back to that.
So I am no longer focusing on the scale until the new year. I am focusing on working out 5 - 6 days a week and eating healthy but I am not going to worry about the scale right now. I also feel that the last 10 lbs is all lower body and running will help. I don't run outside in the cold winter so I plan to start training for a half-marathon come spring time.
Some may not understand this. Yes health is important to me. But I am at a healthy weight right now. Yes I am 15 lbs from my pre-pregnancy body. But I need to get a handle on all the stress I have in my life first before I can fully concentrate on weight loss efforts. (Plus stress plays a huge roll on weight loss).
So right now I plan to concentrate on my family. On finding a new job. On paying off some debt. Working out is now for fun and stress release. I am still going to do as much as the hybrid schedule I created as I can.
Once I have a handle on all this emotional, and financial/job stress I feel I will be better situated to focus on the last bit of weight I want to lose.
So I am not giving up. Just choosing to refocus my stress and worries. I will still blog about my workouts and nutrition. But I now will not worry about the scale and will not beat myself up for still carrying this little bit of extra weight.
And who knows? Perhaps by focusing my efforts on trying to solve the other major stressors in my life I will end up losing weight!