Thursday, August 28, 2014
Would you believe it that the twitch I wrote about a few days back is on its way out? Noticeably changed....almost nonexistent!
So what was the change?
a vitamin a day - I actually felt in my gut that I was lacking something and that vitamins was it, especially since I have been off with my eating lately. It seems I was right! Immediately notices a change. Coincidence? I think not!
hydration - making sure I really got it in, especially since I was taking the vitamin a day - no need to keep anything that is not needed in the body...flush it out I say!
10 minutes of gentle exercise a day - started with yoga for the stress - adding a little variety now...the kids love doing it too :)
Better eating and tracking it again, to see how things were faring up there. I'm still right on point when I want to be. :)
Sleep - go to bed right away when tired instead of forcing myself to stay awake for whatever stupid reason
Leaving work....at work! well, not tonight for a little bit, but mostly, leave it there and when there...relax and go with the flow. I have a very hyper active coworker I really respect and like .... I actually get more calm around his high energy. Strange, but true.
Change up the wardrobe! Shopped in my closet today, made me feel....good!! That really probably has nothing to do with the twitch.
It's nice to feel more "normal" again....maybe it was also weird energy, because another friend of mine was saying she was "off" as well....and she is really into that aura and earth energy stuff.
Going to keep up the tracking and vitamin a little longer - cut back to every other day, like I normally would if I was actually consistent with the giant horse pills! LoL
Looking forward to the long weekend....should be relaxing. That's what I am planning to do: relax!!!
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
The twitch started last Thursday. It's a neck thing, that is the only way I can describe it, and it does catch me off guard at times, but I am pretty sure it is stress related.....and I am monitoring it, so no...I have not gone to a doctor yet.... but don't worry, I will if it continues... but first....
First I have to analyze what is going on in my world, because usually, stress gives me a pain in the neck with stiff muscles...and this is in the same area, so that's why I am not freaking out just yet.
OK ---- let the analysis begin!
work: stressful - the last 3 weeks, most def. Can't get in to details, but there it is.
Family: stressful - why? because summer is basically over and I feel like I didn't have one. Booohooo...poor me, right? Nah, not with all that "me time" in July, but I do feel like I missed out on being with the kids this time around. There is more this category, but the aforementioned is the most on my mind
School year: stress - it's coming on fast! just thinking about the morning routine is stressing me out a bit....I don't have everything ready for them to go back. One weeknight out at Staples will fix that, but still.... The lunches, the arguments over what to give them for that and breakfast, and outfits... yay. And the bus schedule... yay. Add that on top of the mom-not-being-there guilt and that equals more stress! yay
Labor day party/birthday party for my son: stress - I don't want to have a big thing. I just don't. So I am not. My sis just had one, and I am just not up for it. I was barely sociable at hers - bad mood central (which I apologized to her for, and she understands - we get each other) - so why am I going to do something I don't want to? The answer is this: I am not - I raise the white flag.
Eating: horrific - high salt content, alcohol, no freggies in a while - lacking in nutrition overall (well yesterday and today are better and tracked - a fresh start)
Exercise: nonexistent (well, it was up until last night - and now again tonight - using the Sparkguy's 10 minute exercise challenge as my Spark to get moving this week)
Weight: for me: scary! I just broke 140 for the first time in a very very long time on the scale yesterday (thanks to the weekends salt and beer intake for sure - it was fun while it lasted) and today, I was down 3 pounds - go figure) but I think I am stressing over this subconsciously.... I need to cut myself some slack while I am reigning it in for the bazillionth time. Which is what I am doing, as usual when I get out of my range, but why am I stressing? Because I am.....because I have a health coaching client....and that makes me want to be a good inspiration and lead by example.
The last 3 - I have the power to control, so I am going to. I have done it before. I am thinking that the neck twitch is also nutrient based since I have been eating so poorly. I even took a multivitamin, 2 days in a row, just to see if I felt better - and yes....I feel better already. Something to my theory.
Now work stress will take time to regulate, but it's doable....this too shall pass. I am still getting used to the place it seems...the different people/personalities....etc etc
Family stress - again....this too shall pass, it's part of the cycle of life of being a mom and working. Going to go camping in the next few months - that helps to have something to look forward to :)
The twitch - my gut is telling me that this too shall pass now that I am more aware of things. Sitting here, quiet, writing - nothing. Last night with yoga poses - nothing. Dozing off & sleep - nothing. High stress work - zap! Twitch out of the blue!
Biofeedback is key when you come across something new....My Nana was a big believer in that. You need to learn to listen.
So I am listening.
And now....I am going to do my 10 minutes of exercise
Thursday, August 07, 2014
Just when you think it's safe to go back in the water.....
Just when you think the good week you are rocking is going to continue as such...
You get a "reality" check that makes you doubt and kick yourself down to the curb.....
Out of the blue, you get a compliment that was unexpected, and you hold onto it for dear life as that one positive thing that can float you along for a little bit because, for some reason, your hormones and the upcoming full moon decided to play their evil game of "let's make this bigger in her head than it should be" game.
True enough, that is has been what was going on since Monday for me. An OK start to a week bought me to an old friend who always says what's on his mind when we link up, who gives me the open compliment of how awesome I look (because he is still in shock I think) and gives the biggest hugs throughout the hour we were together, just because he has to store them up because he misses me. Nice huh? Makes me want to get together more often instead of just once a year! LoL And as we should...my calendar is out right now with free dates on it!
Yesterday, I made a dorky comment to someone, basically putting myself down in a negative/positive way, and he genuinely and quickly commented that I WAS really cool and he totally would want to work for me if given the chance. I wish I could remember my words but I was in shock and happily surprised when he responded so quickly in a positive to me. Totally made me smile that I was having a positive impact and I was liked. It was a good feeling that lasted the rest of the day!
Those small things are hard to remember when you are in a bad mindset... but they can be the little lifeline you need to get by.
My kids running up to me and hugging me hello ---- lifeline.
My morning kiss goodbye and hello kiss from my hubby --- lifeline.
My kids telling me I should try out for a tv show because of some silly talent I only show them and them thinking I am awesome when I do it ---- lifeline.
Talking with my kids openly and teaching them how to be good people...and then seeing them do it all on their own ---- lifeline.
They old saying "don't sweat the small stuff" is constantly running through my head right now... sure, that is very true when it comes to a negative that shouldn't be blown up into a major issue, but the other parts of the small stuff - the positive stuff? Those parts should be held onto and cherished.... locked away in out mind's vault to bring us back up when we start sweating the negative small stuff and before it begins eroding all that was built up for the good of our being.
There are tons of positive things we can all list about ourselves - we probably just don't do it enough. Acknowledging those positive strengths can be the lifesaver when we need it most.
Thursday, July 31, 2014
Ugh.... diet drinks.
Hi everyone, my name is ___________, and if you buy my magic diet drink, you too can look like this in 30 days!
Hi everyone, my name is __________, and this brand supplement drink shake___________ will help you lose adipose tissue.
Ugh... vitamin pills.
Hi everyone, my name is ________, and if you take these 4 vitamin pills of these various plant extracts, you too can loose adipose tissue.
Now, let me tell you this: the first one is from 2 friends on facebook...the next 2 are from numerous health coaches I am in contact with from the unnamed course I am doing.
In the last 2 months - the amount of "you too can look this good" from shake users has gone up and up...and lucky me, I get to see it and fume with each and every entry.
The amount of "health coaches" pushing vitamin and mineral supplements, and natural oils and such is also ASTOUNDING in my eyes!
I just can't wrap my little tiny brain around this one... I would NEVER tell anyone to take anything unless I knew for CERTAIN that it wasn't going to jack up my own system.
If they want to take it on their own...go ahead, we will analyze it together and how your body reacts to it...journal it, log it, and determine (through a pre and post blood test results with your doctor) if anything has changed for the better.... but to TELL you and PUSH you to take something because I am in bed with a company for extra money??? Absolutely not.
For you see...I have been there, and done that. I did shakes. I did pills even. The only thing that works is what spark teaches here and what I will be teaching as well....except I will be rounding it out by analyzing the underlying causes and finding out the "Why".... because, people, there is a "Why" in our behavior, even if you don't want to admit it or look for it.
Want a real fix? Look in the mirror. Stare into your eyes. Say "I love you".
Bet money with that one simple act.... you will start crying because we don't tell ourselves enough that we love ourselves because a lot of people just don't love or care enough about themselves the way they should.
Anyway....I rarely unjoin something on FB because I don't want to "hurt" anyone's feelings...but this one is a must, because I just cannot see it everyday.
Will anyone from the group come back on in 4 months and say they were right back where they started???? Nope, probably not.
Is anyone going to read the review they read about liver-damage and tell them that pineapple and cucumber and drinking a ton of water do the same exact thing without hurting the body, and they don't have to pay a company to get it in a tiny "All-natural" chemical pouch??
There should be a SOAP BOX emoticon....because I sure am on it right now.
Anyway...I must have needed to vent this. Do I feel better? Meh... maybe when I leave the group....but on the other hand...that group of people might be a pool for potential clients later on. Business sided brain is saying to stay and just ignore or keep and research the reactions... it's got potential for really helping people when they come down off the drink "high".
Food for thought....that is for certain.
Friday, July 25, 2014
Sunday is the 25th Anniversary of my Mom's death.
In years past, depending on how life was going, my siblings and I would have a really crappy week right before the anniversary date.... it would fluctuate between all of us who would get the crap end of the stick that year ( like last year, it came and went and I barely noticed) but for some reason, this year is a doozy for me.
Neck ache that won't go away.
Little things in daily family life with people I absolutely adore, basically bugging the crap out of me.
Me constantly holding my tongue so I don't spew my random negative thoughts at people about something they do that pisses me off - why make trouble when, seriously, this too shall pass. Creating an argument is not really what this is about. If it passes and it still bugs me, and I am in a better state to calmly discuss...then that is when I have to address it.
That is where I am at this week.
I know why....it just has to pass. It's taking it's frickin' time passing though and that is just another source of irritation...like a burr under a saddle.
Thank God today is Friday.
BUT (and there is always a but) Saturday is when Hubby and eldest leave for Boy Scout Camp and I get to coordinate and finagle the other 2 with being a working mom. Not used to that one, so I have to call in the cavalry for assistance with morning reading work shop and karate and football. Yay.
Saturday is all about hanging out with other people (birthday parties and such), so that will be a nice distraction....then Sunday is the anniversary and mass and a brunch (I think).... and then the single-mom fun begins on Monday.
I should have enjoyed the early July quiet more I guess.
But there is the other thing: I did enjoy it, and I got some serious much needed self-care in that week...and the trouble really is when I have the family around and distinguishing when I should/can/would/could get that same self-care in when they are around. It's not like we are doing anything all that great anyway, and they are old enough to take a walk and keep up now, and would like to spend the time as well...but I want alone time for that sometimes and alone time for me = mom guilt when they are around. Total catch 22 in my head that I have to work out because this is not going to go away. I work 9-5, they are my family...this needs to be sorted out for health/sanity's sake.
Eww...that last paragragh was a nice bit of purging.. but true nonetheless.
Probably really should get the calendar out and plan things.... that is what needs to happen. If it's on the calendar, I tend to do it. Same thing with the extra business stuff -- if it is not on the calendar, I don't do it. Bad thing....easy solution... so why don't I do it?
Because all I do is schedule things (it's been my life's work for the last 20 years if you think about it) and when I am home...I want a break from that...but that is fantasy, not reality. Reality needs both. Scheduled and non-scheduled things. Order amongst the chaos.
Love how blogging clears the head....maybe today will be a better day than the last 3 now that it's out.
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