Wednesday, March 05, 2014
and I will not lie....I even read my last blog about "who takes care of you" and it just goes to show that nobody is perfect when it comes to that.
This week has been a rough one (and it's only Wednesday)... emotionally draining too. Goes to show how much you are affected by outside energy because you actually care about people, even if they really don't give a hoot about you...or even like you.
Meh...moving on. It's all part of the game, I guess.
Anyway - yesterday was a "didn't get to eat lunch at all" day...and towards the end of the day...I almost passed out. No joke. My coworker looked at me and was like "you've got to be kidding right?" as I stopped everything and shoved an orange into my face like my life depended on it. And while on the run, I shoved another in.
Well, on the way home, my bag of chips from lunch was gone by the time I hit the main highway....and then I got home, consumed a glass of wine with a mishmash dinner and was ready to pass out from exhaustion...but alas, a meeting was being held at my house. From which I excused myself to babysit all of the children in my family room. Yes, indeed... a lovely day for sure.
When I see these kinds of days, I try to rethink how I could have done things differently...a complete re-hash of things that are now basically in the past, but some continue on into the future...and then the worrying starts in my head and I lose sleep.
I try to think about happy thoughts, of good things, but sometimes they are elusive. Worry wins.
Which is ironic for this week because the priest at church did his homily about worrying just this past Sunday and I actually paid attention and laughed to myself that this was so about me!!!
And then I look at my health coaching course (which I am 5 weeks behind in btw) and a lot of it has to do with finding joy and self care, movement and eating right...and all good things, but sometimes.......those things can seem very far away when you are in the middle of a rough patch. Right? Sure....totally right.
So what do you do about it?
Well.... hellllllloooooo.... here I am blogging about it! When push comes to shove, sometimes, you have to vent what really is at the root of the matter. I worry. I am a worrier. I care too much I guess....maybe I have to care less in some situations. Kinda hard for a Pisces to do, but I will try ...and not ruin my karma in the meantime.
And here's another thing - WINTER SUCKS! GO AWAY ALREADY!!!!!!!!
I absolutely - positively - cannot stand being trapped in buildings!!! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
I hate that my basement is a meatlocker and I cannot exercise like normal.
Is this an excuse - sorta kinda....but now that I want to exercise - I am so cold all the time, the last thing I want to do is exercise in my meatlocker basement!!!
I want sun.
I want warmth.
I was a warm breeze.
I want green grass and birds.
I want to put away the shovels and winter gear.
I want to take a walk with my kids after dinner.
I want to not have to keep the heat just above artic in my house in order to get warm because heating costs so much!
All in due time....right? Right.
For some reason...it feels like Groundhog day - the movie.... where the day repeats over and over and over again.
OK - hopefully this rough patch ends with this beeotch blog of mine.
Thanks for listening Sparkfriends!!
As Disney World employee's say: "Have a magical day!"
Saturday, February 15, 2014
Seriously. Who does? Who ultimately does?
Your kids (if you have) - rely on you.
Your significant other (if you have one) - supports you in that effort (at least that is what they SHOULD do, right?)
So it really, ultimately, falls onto YOU.
Yeah....deep stuff, huh?
And that is where we get overwhelmed with... well... everything! Geez, when we think about it that way, let's just crawl back into bed and hide!
But let's break this down to the simplest form...into baby steps, if you will.
1) Intake - what we bring into our bodies is important! Water, whole grains, veggies, suffient protein, vitamins, minerals --- all play an important part on how our bodies work at their peak. So if things are lacking there....we have the power to change that one step at a time.
2) Output - Move much? Probably not enough really, especially in the winter months. This part is easier said than done, but any movement is better than none...something to build up over time...in baby steps. 10 minutes a day. Go for it. Spring is coming - think about a daily walk - yay! Heck....turn the radio up and dance! It will bring a smile to your face...guaranteed!
3) Self-care - Get out of bed, make the bed (it will make a difference if you don't - mini-psychology at work going on here - if you don't think it makes a difference in your day, try it out) - shower it up and put effort into that process: nice smelling shampoo & conditioner, scrub the dead skin off (stimulates the skin and underlying lymphatic system btw - all good things to get moving)... buy new good smelling deodorant, experiment with the hair (& makeup for the ladies). You can go even further with mani/pedi, spa day stuff, but this is really just for the day to day right now. When looking in the mirror...look at your eyes and say how pretty they are out loud! Because they are.
4) Learn how to breathe. Stress stinks - comes from out of the blue at times too. Overwhelm of day to day, not having a good day (the morning was not as calm as it was and sent you into a tizzy - been there, done that). We have to learn to breathe more. Turn off the phone...the web will still be there in 10 minutes when you are done breathing. Turn off the world (ie phone) when you are driving and breathe while listening to your favorite tunes or while sitting in traffic.
The four things above are a day to day things that I think about and actually do, every... single...day. It took time to get there, but eventually, it became a routine.
Things that are just as important are family - friends - relationships; spirit; career - but the day to day tackling of the above four are where and how it should start....with you.
You ultimately take care of you.
You are one hell of a beautiful thing to behold.
Friday, February 07, 2014
Indeed....2008 was when I cut off my long, curly hair at the salon... it was when I looked in the mirror and said "Enough is enough - you deserve to treat yourself better than this." and that was the day I joined Sparkpeople and have been here ever since.
My stats are on my page....I won't ever take them off.
187 start weight - Feb 7, 2008
150 - goal weight - achieved 6 months later and maintained for a year. Nov 2008.
140 - achieved after I got to know the new me in the 150s and fell off track and then kickstarted myself into tracking nutrition and exercise again to stay on point. Maintained that for another year....get used to another "new me:
130s - achieved after the 140s maintenance run....again, not expected or anticipated...but I have been in the 130-135 range ever since.
Today I am at 130.
I tried on my "Maintenance" dress today too....fits like a glove, 2 years later...I wish I could wear it out, but it's a floor length navy bridesmaid gown...not work appropriate.
Was thinking about how to celebrate it today - the first thought was to get something sweet at Panera Bread before work, and then I immediately smashed that idea because I really don't like sweets anymore.
So instead I am here to say THANK YOU to Sparkpeople. For being a great site for people to congregate and commiserate, support and cheer, and for keeping it free for so many to use the tools on here to work towards a healthier lifestyle.
And really - that is what it should be about - a healthy overall lifestyle - good food, good family, good friends (relatioships matter), good spirituality, good work (work or volunteer - something has to be positive). All these things matter to have a healthy lifestyle - Spark even gives us the articles to read and absorb...if you haven't delved into those archives - I encourage you to start reading an article a night.
If you make the small changes you need to, the weight that is bugging you WILL eventually come off. It just takes time, patience, reevaluating constantly, trying new things, omitting old things, and tracking and logging your journey as you go along. Patience and persistence and positivity.....all hard things to learn, but achievable in small baby steps.
Probably the most important. SEEING is believing...and when you SEE in black and white the calories in and out, emotions in and out... you can reevaluated easier than just thinking about it in your head.
OK - enough with the soap box....I am done
I really don't know where I would be today with out all of you guys.
Saturday, February 01, 2014
Well, yesterday, I was greeted with a number I haven't seen in 2 years.... 129 lbs.
The last time I was there, I was exiting a maintenance overhaul (tracking nutrition & fitness to get back on track) and it was my littlest sister's wedding and I will openly admit it...I was stressed, but actually eating and drinking (wine) a lot, but the number appeared and I even went down to 127..but to maintain that was very short lived.
I don't consider myself even wanting to be in the 120s for maintenance for personal reasons - like I like the way I look now really. It is livable...it is maintainable.
So here comes this new number...and how I did it came about this time. Well, from my last year and my last 6 months with 2 to 3 jobs and stress...attached to a more sedentary position at a desk...I was maintaining things just fine. I missed moving though, I will admit that. Exercise? What exercise! Eating was a sandwich in the middle of the day and some nuts to supplement when I got those hunger pangs mid-morning and mid-afternoon.
Today, with the new 9-5 job....I don't stop moving....ever, it seems. And to control stress levels, I eat well in the morning - a hearty 7-grain hot cereal after my coffee....and then I have a snack (brazil nuts or almonds) when I feel some hunger coming on in the afternoon....and when I get to eat lunch (usually at my desk and working) it is just a simple turkey or ham on a kaiser roll with some celery, pineapple, or pringles (yes, healthy indeed! A treat really).... and dinner is dinner when I get home. So yes, my calorie intake is the same as before I started the job, but different when it comes to the main boring foods I eat....I switched out an old boring for a new more nutritious boring.
Maintenance is boring...I think I have said that before.
But THIS new number on the scale was NOT what I was looking for OR anticipating.
I think I might be the only person on Sparkpeople right now who is complaining about going DOWN on the scale! Oh, the irony!
What changed to have this occur:
more movement - that is for sure
introduced a true whole grain breakfast daily - keeps cortisol levels at bay (stress hormone) from spiking... plus feel full longer, extra fiber, omega-3 fatty acids... all good stuff.
finally happy in my workplace (despite the stress of a high learning curve)
the kids & hubby are happy with the new schedule - it is working better - which mean I am
But with all of that - there are things that need improving:
are lacking...as a family we need to refocus
vitamins and minerals therefore are lacking in me....and I feel it. I took a vitamin mid week and felt immediately better, but I would truly rather get my vitamins and minerals from vegetables...have to re-prioritize my intake here and eat some more during lunch if I can
for lunch break - my half hour...I have to change how I eat lunch....might have to leave the building for a little to refresh/recharge. I am entitled. I should take it.
As you can see..I am constantly re-evaluating everything - it's part of the maintenance game, and it's part of my health coaching curriculum. I encourage everyone to re-eval themselves every month.
With that said and done...this week brought me to wear a belt again on some brand new petite pants I just bought....I looked like I was wearing diapers without it. Ironic because on Jan3rd I bought all new pants - one was a petite 8, another petite 6...a regular 6 too long, but I will hem...and a khaki petite 8 that looks dirty the minute I enter my work area. Note to self: don't buy pants ever again after the new year b/c you probably won't be that size a few weeks later after all the holiday bloat goes away!!!
Saturday, January 25, 2014
It is 4a.m. and I am awake....
I have a stuffy nose and wanted some decaf tea with honey.
Some rest and I should be good to go for next week.
Aaaaaannnyywaaaaay....now that you know I am honking my schnoz into a tissue while germing up my keyboard, we can move on now.
It's been 10 weeks since I started my Health Coaching Course and I can honestly say that I have learned a lot. Honestly, more about myself and other people, and some about how different diets are in general and culturally based - with merit, I might add - but it's more about the whole of the person than the diet that people need to focus on. Very Sparky.
First off - I will say this: I am taking a course where the majority of the people are vegan. and LABELING is rampant among the people I am in contact with- everyone has to put their label on "what they are" - who is paleo, who is tetramarshaterrian (I made that one up) - you get my drift. For those of you who know me....I am a moderate eater - don't deny, eat everything in moderation - eat to feel good, learn what works for your body, etc. etc. I guess if I had to label myself, I am a moderatarian??? LOL After a while, I see humor in reading what people "say they are", especially on a FB group chat, where everyone is chiming in with their opinions....and yes, at times, judging.
I hate that part - as you can see above, I guess I am judging them, but more for them judging others. Does that make sense?
I hate labels...always have... always will. Eat to live people...and move on.
Well, in the course we are told to experiment with different foods, cooking styles, etc. etc....and I am doing that (in moderation of course) and that part has been pretty cool....along with learning the more eastern philosophies on body types, foods to eat for them, personalities and temperaments. Neat stuff - I highly recommend reading up on it yourselves, especially Ayurveda from India. Yoga enthusiasts probably know about this already.
SO I started eating beets again (not enough to turn beet colored, but I added them to my weekly diet - in moderation - LOL). I grew up eating beats, part of my mom's family culture - heck, her maiden name meant "beet" in Slovak, there must be a connection. I can honestly, I missed them..there is a mom-daughter connection there, that is still there, even though she is no longer here... and it is through one simple root vegetable. Cool huh? Oh, and it's also really really good for you too. I feel more grounded (as root vegetables tend to do - see? I am learning) and that has been key in handling some of my recent life transition anxieties that pop up from time to time.
ANYwho....I have a test next week - have to finish up a few lectures and assignments, but I'm not really stressing - Having a good Sparkbase has certainly helped me out with this one. :)
I have to continue on my train of thought next week....my brain is starting to hurt...must need to go back to bed and rest! LOL In the meantime: we have food for thought!
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