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Summer boredom....boys get PMS too

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

I live with 4 is 37, one is 6, then 4, then 22 months old.

Summer is at it's boredom peak in our house and I want to run away! Dh is a teacher and puts on the Mr. Mom hat every year, and every year we go thru the same garbage. No routine set by him (even though he says he will - every singel year!) and the kids fighting and running around in their pjs until they hit the pool at 6pm when I get home from work. That was my yesterday...lovely, huh? There is more to this picture, but you get the point.

On top of this stupidity is the male PMS factor. They all have it (so do I, but that does not matter - I'm the girl here and entitled to my moodiness once a month). The boredom kicked it off and I finally opened my mouth this morning and said something! Yay me! Let's just say, my kiss goodbye was much better than yesterday's. Attitude adjustment accomplished. Jeesh!

I'm going home for lunch in about 10 minutes...I hope things are a little bit calmer. I haven't resorted to food (thank god) but I can feel it coming on. Along with my PMS and boredom - it is a bad combo. This too shall pass.

I wish I made a butt-load of moolah sometimes...the kids would be in camp 2 days a week to break up the monotany for them (and us - LOL). Summer is catch up season in our house - no extra spending if at all possible. I've been doing this for so long, you would think I'd be used to it! I guess I'm bored and want to shop! LOL

Well, I feel better now that it's out. Time for lunch! I'm STARVING! Not good!

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IAMLION 7/23/2008 6:56PM

    Ahhh, I remember those days like they were yesterday! It does get better as they age!

I have one who is hardly ever home between her part-time job, boyfriend and her friends, and the other is home a good bit but she likes to bounce between our house and my parents house and occasionally to my in-laws house. My youngest is the one who gets bored because she doesn't like to hang out with her friends too often. She is about to start a volunteer position at the hospital. It's only one day a week but she is super excited!

Stay strong sister!!


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FULLOFFAITH 7/23/2008 12:56PM

    Yes, I agree we women are not the only ones who PMS.
Hope you made good choices for lunch emoticon.
I don't make the moola but both kids have to go some where for the summer so My son's camp is 135 a wk and my daughters camp is 100 a wk so be glad you don't have to come off that change for the summer months. But, I would pull my hair out if they were home all day they go stir crazy when they don't get out and burn that energy.


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Friday, July 18, 2008

AT LAST!!!!!

I am so happy! We are going camping in an hour, but I had to blog about this one! I am typing so fast!!!!!!!





I'll see you all when I get back!!!!

SMILES and Much Sparky DONE luv!!!

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SFOSTER 8/3/2008 10:48PM

    I don't know how I missed this. I thought I had subscribed to your blog.

You should be very proud.


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PUMPKINFACE73 7/22/2008 1:08PM

    Yay girl! Isnt is an amazing worked hard and you did proud of you!

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KERIBELLE 7/19/2008 3:34PM

    That is so cool, good for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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IAMLION 7/18/2008 8:01AM

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WOW!!!! Congratulations!!! So happy for you!

Enjoy your camping trip!

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One away!

Thursday, July 17, 2008

My 9th anniversary was yesterday and my mini-goal of my wedding dress being loose was totally chest and shoulders have disappeared, that's why! So I was super happy yesterday about that! My weigh in today was 151 - so close!!! Soon, very soon!!!

Good things too - for the big day, DH and I went to the Cheesecake's a place where the food is do die for and the desserts are too! I saved cals and everything, so I did not feel guilty at all eating my meal...funny thing - we never even ate cheesecake!! I can't!! really, I can't digest that stuff anymore...bile duct issues...but I digress.

We walked around the mall, sans kids, and went into a few stores that I was itching to look at the last time we were there with the whining cherubs of my heart. Eddie Bauer (OK, I'm a preppy at heart - sue me) and this store called White House/Black Market (all B&W stuff). Oh was I drooling!! I need new clothes SO bad it's not funny. I tried on some stuff at EB and can get into a M top there - SHOCKING! But things were $30 on sale and that's a little high right now for me, plus who the hell knows where I'll be in the fall?! So we walked out w/o anything except a big grin on my face!

I'm still getting used to this body. I am in line and fitting in with my sisters now, which blows my mind! My one sis even said she probably has clothes for me....ME! WOW! I'm even in my closet trying things on and taking them off for whatever reason 2 times before I step out the door - another first. So weird. It blows my mind that I can go into a store and try stuff on in the M, size 10/12 range.

Today I packed up my size 16 pants to give to a co-worker - and that brown jacket in the Feb 7 start picture is there too. It's a 1X. I tried it on and it was HUGE. I also tried on the green jacket from my little sister's white coat ceremony and that was huge too. I almost cried.

My DH gave me a football jersey in a L YEARS ago - tags still on fits fine now, and that made him really happy. My eldest was watching me go thru my closet this morning and when I tried it on and said that it was good, he said, "No Mom, that is great." That made ME feel great.

I did this for me.

I did this for them.

Nothing can beat this feeling of accomplishment.

Thanks SP for existing - without you, I might still be heavy.

Thanks to ALL of my SP friends for your support - you helped me along and kept me going when I needed it most.

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JXSTOCK 7/19/2008 12:00AM

    Wow, it is so great to hear about your success. It makes the 20 more pounds I have left not feel that far away. Congratulations! You have worked hard to get where you are and you deserve to really enjoy it! I can relate to wanting to fit in with sisters. I always wondered why my sisters got the skinny genes and I didn't. I am now trying to prove that I did in fact get the skinny genes too. Thanks for inspiring me to keep going. Way to go!!!!

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OAKBORN 7/18/2008 11:24AM

    Wow girl (this is for both yesterday and today's posts! 7/17 & 7/18)

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I could throw in a few more pix, but nah!

This is your moment! Savor it! Remember the taste and feel!


And we are all still here to be your buds in maintenance too!!

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IAMLION 7/18/2008 7:58AM

    I am sooo excited for you!! How awesome it must feel!!
Glad to hear you had a great Anniversary!
I agree on the clothes and the high prices, wait just a bit longer then you'll be ready to spend, spend and spend!

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MIPIERCE 7/17/2008 8:38PM

  I couldn't be prouder of you. I knew you could do it. I know you will keep on doing it. I can't wait to see you!! miss you so much! love you! xoxo

your super proud sis

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The elusive 3 pounds

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Yes, I am talking about those last few pounds til goal - those elusive 3 pounds...I know that things came up that did not help my goal, but the last 2 weeks was not all THAT bad - gimme a break! And this week got me down to the 153 I was before vacation, which was good, but something has just NOT been right.

It began with the fitness tracker screaming at me in red that I went WAY over calorie burn to lose weight and I should increase my calories; that was something I was already doing naturally because I was genuinely that went up. I'm not surprised at all. Camping was non-stop up and the crack of dawn, walk everywhere, go to sleep early kind of stuff, and eating like crazy because we were so active. That week was not tracked...this week was, and the results were crazy!

I usually don't track every active thing I do. Like playing with the kids? So subjective. Swimming? What is SPs true definition anyway? Cleaning the house? subjective. So this week was VERY different...I tracked swimming and bike riding in addition to my cardio (which I did faithfully) and my strength (some is better than none). WAY over ranges. WAY. I did this before about 4 weeks ago - SP fitness yelled at me then too.

I changed the cardio cals burned to just get rid of the red, and SP diet skyrocketed my cals...holy crap! I was shooting for my 1200-1550 range, well not anymore! Try 1370-1690! Whoa nellie! I'm totally not used to thinking like this! No wonder I was not losing so much and stalling on some weeks - I am not eating enough calories! I've been hitting the 1350s most days this week before I even changed the diet - imagine that!

So now I am in jump start thinking and behavior to finally blast those 3 pounds away for good! Time to hit the market tomorrow for more fruits & veggies. Track all food & fitness. Strength is going to be done - period. Cardio in the morning - period.

I'm done with this BS and a little angry at myself for not tracking the fitness better. I probably could have been more proactive toward my goal. Oh well - one step back, two steps forward to goal. I don't expect to make it by Wed, but I'm going to give it my all to try. Old me would have said something really negative, but new me is fighting hard not to listen to the dark side of what-used-to-be. New me is here to stay and will not give up.

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OAKBORN 7/13/2008 5:12PM

    Sounds like we've been going through something similar! I understand about the calorie jump! I'm not changing mine, though since I'm satisfied if I get pretty close to the current 1740 of my current range. If I'm hungry, I will recalculate it!

You can make the last 3! It's but a tiny number! emoticon

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IAMLION 7/13/2008 2:18PM

    I was (and still am) in the red when it comes to my fitness tracker too. I only track my gym fitness and when I play softball. I am a bit skeptical about the softball calories burned b/c not sure how they come up with that number?? SP changed my calorie allowance to 1550 - 1900! That seems to freak me out a bit! This calorie number changed a bit ago and I can't remember what my calorie allowace was before, but it was much lower.

Your're doing a great job!! Those last three pounds don't stand a chance against you!! emoticon

emoticon Connie

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LILLIAN364 7/12/2008 11:20PM

    My range is much higher than 1200 to 1550 that I get without addition cardio. I have it set at 4200 on my fitness tracker. I had it set at 3000, but I was always in the red (much over the amount). I'm still in the red. I see the daily goal as a minimum instead of an average so I beat it.

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I'm back from camping (again!) & little revelations

Friday, July 04, 2008

We got back last night from camping, and we made it a full week without killing each other!!! A week is a long time, and don't get me wrong, there was a time Tues/Wed when the kids just laid there like lumps, bored out of their skulls, but all in all, they had a blast at the beach and lots of miles-stones were made:

My oldest now rides without training wheels!
My middle guy practically jumped in the ocean with his clothes on the first time down at the shore - the last time we were there in April, he would NOT go past the dunes to even look at the ocean.
My little guy - well... he's still a weasel and addicted to his binky, but we are working on him....who wants a screaming kid being weaned off a binky during a camping trip - NOT ME! He did like the water though, but not the sand - he's like me that way.

Any trip now will be a piece of cake. 2 days - HA - no problem! I laugh at that! HaHA! We forgot some key things, like the frozen premade chicken braciole and the bacon, but that was DH made 3 racks of baby back pork ribs on a 14 inch grill that were to die for! I swear he's a gifted man - he can cook gourmet anywhere.

Food wise - meat, bread, donuts, chips. That was the diet. Water & veggies & fruits were real issues and pee issues really. So now it's "CAMPING DETOX" - water water water!!! Food shopping is tomorrow, which means - veggies, fruits and good breads and skim milk!! YAY I can't wait!!!!

So the bathing suit was REALLY funny, because my ever disappearing ass has now made my suit look stupid. I had to buy some black shorts to wear OVER the suit, and now the back part around the chestal area is getting loose!! Gimme a break!! If I really had guts, I'd post it online, but that my friends, you will never see!

So here is another random thought I had today...and if you had similar weightloss, you will experience this's the mental concept that your body really is not all that bad. Think about it. Go to a beach and sit and people watch and you will see. Go to a museum and look at the sculptures and nudes of "back in the day." Women are made and depicted in a certain way for centuries for a reason - we are women! We have the round curves, the belly pouch, the poochy arms and full thighs. Every single Roman and Greek statue I have ever seen has had those similar features. Womanly, motherly, sexy features. And the artists - MEN. Think about it. Think about that power the female form has over the male...for as long as man and woman has walked the earth, the goddess and mother earth cultures. I can go all ethnographic and anthropological on you guys, but I think I made my point somehow: sometimes that little bit here and there that we HATE is what the other half loves the most about our body.

So my conclusion is this (long winded, I know, but hey, it's been a week!)
Lose what you want to lose to make you happy with your body, whatever weight that may be. Love yourself first and foremost, and that starting point will bring about such wonderful changes in your world - Confidence, Self-esteem, Time for YOU.

PS - I'll be bopping in to see y'all soon! Just give me some time to do the laundry - 5 loads easy!

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IAMLION 7/7/2008 8:06AM

    Sounds like you had a great time!!

We went camping for the long weekend and it was just plain rough! Poor husband continued to make the wrong decisions and continued to get into trouble! Oldest daughter was a pain in the neck!! I was a pain in the neck to everyone else as well! The youngest was the only one who didn't get into trouble or cause other people any problems! Saturday was a much better day but by the end of the evening, we all decided to pack up our stuff (around 11:30 pm) and call it a weekend and head for home to enjoy our Sunday in peace! Sunday was definitely the best day of our whole trip! I am exhausted!

Like you, food wise I ate lots of not so good for me stuff and it tasted GREAT! Today will get back on the food and exercise track.
emoticon I am going to give it a few days but I am sure I've gained some of my weight back and will have to change my tracker emoticon oh well, today is a brand new day with a brand new clean slate!!
It's Monday, have a great day and an awesome week!!

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OAKBORN 7/5/2008 10:05PM


You rock! I have had similar thoughts about art from former times! We don't have to be friggin' sticks to be healthy. There are scientific benchmarks that are pretty good.... but really you are right... it's a case of really needing to feel comfortable in your own skin. The messages that society gives us leads us to some really screwed up and mixed up self-talk. We are told we need to be healthy and rail-thin at the same time. (WTF?!)

You are a commenting fool tonight, my goodness! Welcome home from camping and thanks for the pants. (Have you ever seen the cartoon "The Tick"... "come to ze pants...")

Hey considering you were away and didn't have your usual access to healthy food, you did fine! I wouldn't worry about it. Just get back on the horse... it's always waiting for you.

Your comments and blog encourage me too! Just to keep on keepin' on! Thanks my friend!


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