Wednesday, July 30, 2008
That's all. Mental wreck with no motivation to do anything whatsoever. Just a phase, I am sure, but it stinks nonetheless.
I'm pulling all my mottos out tonight...
- this too shall pass.
- tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it.
It seems like every 3 weeks is an oomphless week...and it is so funny how it does not correspond with PMS or MS!! Maybe it's the ovulation week! LoL!! but if that was the case, wouldn't you think I'd be wanting something! NOT!! LMAO - poor DH!
Anyway - I know why I'm a headcase. It's that week.
So here is some accountability - I ate CAKE!!! Lightening then struck me thru the window. LOL!! I really don't eat that many refined sugars anymore, but I made it for my aunt's 75th birthday today and it was a chocolate layer cake with cherry pie filling in the center, covered in fluffy vanilla frosting - almost like a black forest cake, I guess. I could not resist. Oh well - what is done is done. Was it good, you ask? Hell yeah! I make a mean box cake mix!
It's late and the kitchen is a disaster from dinner still....I guess that is what I'l be doing after I sign off...yay :P
Dirty little secret - I love "So You think you Can Dance?" WOW!
Newest thing I tried this week - bellydancing on the FitTV channel - it is so hard! only lasted 20 minutes.
I'm hoping blogging will get me over this hump. Overall it was a good week and day aside from the exercise and cake. Eating more cals for maintenance is a little weird and I feel like I am cheating...I have to get over that mental block. I just don't want to let my guard down and turn to old habits. That reason is why I am blogging. I can look back and see the pattern, and then work on that.
I refuse to beat myself up about a crappy few days. Nobody is perfect. This is a journey and not a marathon.
See.... I use my own advice when I need it most. It is the execution that needs a little help is all. LoL And it's even more important to laugh at oneself during these idiotic times.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Nineteen years ago, I was 16 years old and my mom died of pancreatic cancer. Yesterday was the 19th anniversary of that most uber-crappy day.
A lot has changed since then, and yet a lot has stayed the same in some ways. I'm the mom-type of the family, being that I was the oldest girl...and that is just fine by me. I keep the home fires burning.
My younger brother called me up last night and told me that he and his wife were going to have a baby!! They had just seen the doctor and had to spread the news! I'm so happy for them! They are going to be great parents! I love being an aunt! Since I'm done having kids, it will be great to have a new little person to snuggle and give back! "Hey, you stink - daddy needs to change you!" That kind of stuff! The best of both worlds!
Every year, this anniversary sneaks up on us. Some years are moodier than others, and most of the time we don't know why until a week or so later; and that is when we have that 'Aha!' moment and recollect the past.
It's nice to have a year where the circle of life is so recognizable and apparant. My mom lived life. Life is meant for the living, she would always say. I'm going to live that way too.
Hindsight is 20/20 - what I have learned from that experience is that you have to make your own memories, and I want my boys to have some really great memories. If my time comes way too early like it did for my mom, then I want to know that they have some great stuff to look back on and smile.
Doing SP and taking back control is a big step into giving them those memories. I played soccer the other day with my 2 oldest and 2 little boys we befriended at a picnic. I wanted to play instead of sitting on my butt talking to my relatives I see every week. Doing new stuff is part of this new lifestyle and it is really fun!
I think my mom would be super proud of me. In fact, I know she is. Life is way too short to be sitting on my ass.
Friday, July 25, 2008
I started SP with a haircut. Today, I got another haircut...the first since then. I'll have to update my page now...the other pics were taken on the most humid day EVER!
When I saw my hairdresser (a lovely lady named Rose at Ulta3 who has even worse curly hair than me), I sat down in front of the sink and gushed how she helped me start my healthy living journey. She was shocked! She had no idea that that is what kicked off this whole thing. I even cried!! Who knew that that would happen?! LOL!!
Anyway, we got to cutting and I told her all about SP.
So when we were done, I have been itching to get this Maxiglide Hair Iron that I saw on QVC, so I asked if they had it there - THEY DID!
My big splurge was the iron, the straightening serum and the finishing serum - My DH doesn't even know how much it cost yet! LOL Forget the clothes for now - that will come...I've wanted this thing for MONTHS!!
I left Rose a huge tip too...
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
I live with 4 males...one is 37, one is 6, then 4, then 22 months old.
Summer is at it's boredom peak in our house and I want to run away! Dh is a teacher and puts on the Mr. Mom hat every year, and every year we go thru the same garbage. No routine set by him (even though he says he will - every singel year!) and the kids fighting and running around in their pjs until they hit the pool at 6pm when I get home from work. That was my yesterday...lovely, huh? There is more to this picture, but you get the point.
On top of this stupidity is the male PMS factor. They all have it (so do I, but that does not matter - I'm the girl here and entitled to my moodiness once a month). The boredom kicked it off and I finally opened my mouth this morning and said something! Yay me! Let's just say, my kiss goodbye was much better than yesterday's. Attitude adjustment accomplished. Jeesh!
I'm going home for lunch in about 10 minutes...I hope things are a little bit calmer. I haven't resorted to food (thank god) but I can feel it coming on. Along with my PMS and boredom - it is a bad combo. This too shall pass.
I wish I made a butt-load of moolah sometimes...the kids would be in camp 2 days a week to break up the monotany for them (and us - LOL). Summer is catch up season in our house - no extra spending if at all possible. I've been doing this for so long, you would think I'd be used to it! I guess I'm bored and want to shop! LOL
Well, I feel better now that it's out. Time for lunch! I'm STARVING! Not good!
Friday, July 18, 2008
I am so happy! We are going camping in an hour, but I had to blog about this one! I am typing so fast!!!!!!!
OH HAPPY DAY!!!!
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING! EVERYONE!!!
I LOVE YOU MY SPARKY FRIENDS!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!
I'll see you all when I get back!!!!
SMILES and Much Sparky DONE luv!!!
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