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19 years later & the circle of life continues

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Nineteen years ago, I was 16 years old and my mom died of pancreatic cancer. Yesterday was the 19th anniversary of that most uber-crappy day.

A lot has changed since then, and yet a lot has stayed the same in some ways. I'm the mom-type of the family, being that I was the oldest girl...and that is just fine by me. I keep the home fires burning.

My younger brother called me up last night and told me that he and his wife were going to have a baby!! They had just seen the doctor and had to spread the news! I'm so happy for them! They are going to be great parents! I love being an aunt! Since I'm done having kids, it will be great to have a new little person to snuggle and give back! "Hey, you stink - daddy needs to change you!" That kind of stuff! The best of both worlds!

Every year, this anniversary sneaks up on us. Some years are moodier than others, and most of the time we don't know why until a week or so later; and that is when we have that 'Aha!' moment and recollect the past.

It's nice to have a year where the circle of life is so recognizable and apparant. My mom lived life. Life is meant for the living, she would always say. I'm going to live that way too.

Hindsight is 20/20 - what I have learned from that experience is that you have to make your own memories, and I want my boys to have some really great memories. If my time comes way too early like it did for my mom, then I want to know that they have some great stuff to look back on and smile.

Doing SP and taking back control is a big step into giving them those memories. I played soccer the other day with my 2 oldest and 2 little boys we befriended at a picnic. I wanted to play instead of sitting on my butt talking to my relatives I see every week. Doing new stuff is part of this new lifestyle and it is really fun!

I think my mom would be super proud of me. In fact, I know she is. Life is way too short to be sitting on my ass.

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OAKBORN 7/30/2008 2:53PM

Thanks for coming by my page today. I'm returning the visit and your entry made me cry. I understand on so many levels.

I hope you can give your kids the kind of memories you want to. Those are the building blocks of who they will grow into.

I'm sorry you lost your mom at such a young age, but I'll give a shout out to her that I think you are a total sweetheart! I'm sure she is proud of you... look at all you have accomplished!

And such wonderful news! Becoming an Auntie! The cycle does repeat. (I have the Circle of Life from the Lion King running through my head right now.)

Consider yourself hugged!! emoticon

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My big reward - a new haircut & a new toy

Friday, July 25, 2008

I started SP with a haircut. Today, I got another haircut...the first since then. I'll have to update my page now...the other pics were taken on the most humid day EVER!

When I saw my hairdresser (a lovely lady named Rose at Ulta3 who has even worse curly hair than me), I sat down in front of the sink and gushed how she helped me start my healthy living journey. She was shocked! She had no idea that that is what kicked off this whole thing. I even cried!! Who knew that that would happen?! LOL!!

Anyway, we got to cutting and I told her all about SP.

So when we were done, I have been itching to get this Maxiglide Hair Iron that I saw on QVC, so I asked if they had it there - THEY DID!

My big splurge was the iron, the straightening serum and the finishing serum - My DH doesn't even know how much it cost yet! LOL Forget the clothes for now - that will come...I've wanted this thing for MONTHS!!

I left Rose a huge tip too...

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FULLOFFAITH 7/28/2008 1:07AM

    Girl you deserve that hair iron and all the goodies to go with.


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BATHMOM 7/26/2008 3:12PM

    That is so neat, Anne! I got teary reading about it. :-) It's great that you rewarded yourself with something that you really wanted. And it's kind of symbolic, too, because it represents how your journey started & ended and what all of that means to you. You have really done so well. And your pics look great!

Thanks for your comments on my Declaration blogs. As you may have guessed, you're one of three people who have inspired me to take it to the next level. I have watched you do this thing and know that I can do it now too. And I'm glad to hear that you're sticking around SparkPpl!

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IAMLION 7/26/2008 1:48PM

    Annie you look AWESOME!! After all your hard work you deserve any toy and accessories you want!! You earned your rewards!!!

I love your curly hair! I was thinking about getting a spiral perm, I haven't had one in years! Some of my co-workers keep asking me to get one. My hair was curly when I started there. Funny how if your hair is naturally straight you want it curly and if you're naturally curly, you want it straight! My youngest uses a flat iron thing to straighten hers out, she has some curl to it.

I am soooo happy for you!! Hopefully I will be arriving in 150ville to visit with you soon!!! Be looking for me!

emoticon Connie

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Summer boredom....boys get PMS too

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

I live with 4 is 37, one is 6, then 4, then 22 months old.

Summer is at it's boredom peak in our house and I want to run away! Dh is a teacher and puts on the Mr. Mom hat every year, and every year we go thru the same garbage. No routine set by him (even though he says he will - every singel year!) and the kids fighting and running around in their pjs until they hit the pool at 6pm when I get home from work. That was my yesterday...lovely, huh? There is more to this picture, but you get the point.

On top of this stupidity is the male PMS factor. They all have it (so do I, but that does not matter - I'm the girl here and entitled to my moodiness once a month). The boredom kicked it off and I finally opened my mouth this morning and said something! Yay me! Let's just say, my kiss goodbye was much better than yesterday's. Attitude adjustment accomplished. Jeesh!

I'm going home for lunch in about 10 minutes...I hope things are a little bit calmer. I haven't resorted to food (thank god) but I can feel it coming on. Along with my PMS and boredom - it is a bad combo. This too shall pass.

I wish I made a butt-load of moolah sometimes...the kids would be in camp 2 days a week to break up the monotany for them (and us - LOL). Summer is catch up season in our house - no extra spending if at all possible. I've been doing this for so long, you would think I'd be used to it! I guess I'm bored and want to shop! LOL

Well, I feel better now that it's out. Time for lunch! I'm STARVING! Not good!

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IAMLION 7/23/2008 6:56PM

    Ahhh, I remember those days like they were yesterday! It does get better as they age!

I have one who is hardly ever home between her part-time job, boyfriend and her friends, and the other is home a good bit but she likes to bounce between our house and my parents house and occasionally to my in-laws house. My youngest is the one who gets bored because she doesn't like to hang out with her friends too often. She is about to start a volunteer position at the hospital. It's only one day a week but she is super excited!

Stay strong sister!!


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FULLOFFAITH 7/23/2008 12:56PM

    Yes, I agree we women are not the only ones who PMS.
Hope you made good choices for lunch emoticon.
I don't make the moola but both kids have to go some where for the summer so My son's camp is 135 a wk and my daughters camp is 100 a wk so be glad you don't have to come off that change for the summer months. But, I would pull my hair out if they were home all day they go stir crazy when they don't get out and burn that energy.


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Friday, July 18, 2008

AT LAST!!!!!

I am so happy! We are going camping in an hour, but I had to blog about this one! I am typing so fast!!!!!!!





I'll see you all when I get back!!!!

SMILES and Much Sparky DONE luv!!!

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SFOSTER 8/3/2008 10:48PM

    I don't know how I missed this. I thought I had subscribed to your blog.

You should be very proud.


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PUMPKINFACE73 7/22/2008 1:08PM

    Yay girl! Isnt is an amazing worked hard and you did proud of you!

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KERIBELLE 7/19/2008 3:34PM

    That is so cool, good for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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IAMLION 7/18/2008 8:01AM

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WOW!!!! Congratulations!!! So happy for you!

Enjoy your camping trip!

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One away!

Thursday, July 17, 2008

My 9th anniversary was yesterday and my mini-goal of my wedding dress being loose was totally chest and shoulders have disappeared, that's why! So I was super happy yesterday about that! My weigh in today was 151 - so close!!! Soon, very soon!!!

Good things too - for the big day, DH and I went to the Cheesecake's a place where the food is do die for and the desserts are too! I saved cals and everything, so I did not feel guilty at all eating my meal...funny thing - we never even ate cheesecake!! I can't!! really, I can't digest that stuff anymore...bile duct issues...but I digress.

We walked around the mall, sans kids, and went into a few stores that I was itching to look at the last time we were there with the whining cherubs of my heart. Eddie Bauer (OK, I'm a preppy at heart - sue me) and this store called White House/Black Market (all B&W stuff). Oh was I drooling!! I need new clothes SO bad it's not funny. I tried on some stuff at EB and can get into a M top there - SHOCKING! But things were $30 on sale and that's a little high right now for me, plus who the hell knows where I'll be in the fall?! So we walked out w/o anything except a big grin on my face!

I'm still getting used to this body. I am in line and fitting in with my sisters now, which blows my mind! My one sis even said she probably has clothes for me....ME! WOW! I'm even in my closet trying things on and taking them off for whatever reason 2 times before I step out the door - another first. So weird. It blows my mind that I can go into a store and try stuff on in the M, size 10/12 range.

Today I packed up my size 16 pants to give to a co-worker - and that brown jacket in the Feb 7 start picture is there too. It's a 1X. I tried it on and it was HUGE. I also tried on the green jacket from my little sister's white coat ceremony and that was huge too. I almost cried.

My DH gave me a football jersey in a L YEARS ago - tags still on fits fine now, and that made him really happy. My eldest was watching me go thru my closet this morning and when I tried it on and said that it was good, he said, "No Mom, that is great." That made ME feel great.

I did this for me.

I did this for them.

Nothing can beat this feeling of accomplishment.

Thanks SP for existing - without you, I might still be heavy.

Thanks to ALL of my SP friends for your support - you helped me along and kept me going when I needed it most.

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JXSTOCK 7/19/2008 12:00AM

    Wow, it is so great to hear about your success. It makes the 20 more pounds I have left not feel that far away. Congratulations! You have worked hard to get where you are and you deserve to really enjoy it! I can relate to wanting to fit in with sisters. I always wondered why my sisters got the skinny genes and I didn't. I am now trying to prove that I did in fact get the skinny genes too. Thanks for inspiring me to keep going. Way to go!!!!

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OAKBORN 7/18/2008 11:24AM

    Wow girl (this is for both yesterday and today's posts! 7/17 & 7/18)

JUST emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

I could throw in a few more pix, but nah!

This is your moment! Savor it! Remember the taste and feel!


And we are all still here to be your buds in maintenance too!!

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IAMLION 7/18/2008 7:58AM

    I am sooo excited for you!! How awesome it must feel!!
Glad to hear you had a great Anniversary!
I agree on the clothes and the high prices, wait just a bit longer then you'll be ready to spend, spend and spend!

emoticon Connie

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MIPIERCE 7/17/2008 8:38PM

  I couldn't be prouder of you. I knew you could do it. I know you will keep on doing it. I can't wait to see you!! miss you so much! love you! xoxo

your super proud sis

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