Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Nineteen years ago, I was 16 years old and my mom died of pancreatic cancer. Yesterday was the 19th anniversary of that most uber-crappy day.
A lot has changed since then, and yet a lot has stayed the same in some ways. I'm the mom-type of the family, being that I was the oldest girl...and that is just fine by me. I keep the home fires burning.
My younger brother called me up last night and told me that he and his wife were going to have a baby!! They had just seen the doctor and had to spread the news! I'm so happy for them! They are going to be great parents! I love being an aunt! Since I'm done having kids, it will be great to have a new little person to snuggle and give back! "Hey, you stink - daddy needs to change you!" That kind of stuff! The best of both worlds!
Every year, this anniversary sneaks up on us. Some years are moodier than others, and most of the time we don't know why until a week or so later; and that is when we have that 'Aha!' moment and recollect the past.
It's nice to have a year where the circle of life is so recognizable and apparant. My mom lived life. Life is meant for the living, she would always say. I'm going to live that way too.
Hindsight is 20/20 - what I have learned from that experience is that you have to make your own memories, and I want my boys to have some really great memories. If my time comes way too early like it did for my mom, then I want to know that they have some great stuff to look back on and smile.
Doing SP and taking back control is a big step into giving them those memories. I played soccer the other day with my 2 oldest and 2 little boys we befriended at a picnic. I wanted to play instead of sitting on my butt talking to my relatives I see every week. Doing new stuff is part of this new lifestyle and it is really fun!
I think my mom would be super proud of me. In fact, I know she is. Life is way too short to be sitting on my ass.
Friday, July 25, 2008
I started SP with a haircut. Today, I got another haircut...the first since then. I'll have to update my page now...the other pics were taken on the most humid day EVER!
When I saw my hairdresser (a lovely lady named Rose at Ulta3 who has even worse curly hair than me), I sat down in front of the sink and gushed how she helped me start my healthy living journey. She was shocked! She had no idea that that is what kicked off this whole thing. I even cried!! Who knew that that would happen?! LOL!!
Anyway, we got to cutting and I told her all about SP.
So when we were done, I have been itching to get this Maxiglide Hair Iron that I saw on QVC, so I asked if they had it there - THEY DID!
My big splurge was the iron, the straightening serum and the finishing serum - My DH doesn't even know how much it cost yet! LOL Forget the clothes for now - that will come...I've wanted this thing for MONTHS!!
I left Rose a huge tip too...
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
I live with 4 males...one is 37, one is 6, then 4, then 22 months old.
Summer is at it's boredom peak in our house and I want to run away! Dh is a teacher and puts on the Mr. Mom hat every year, and every year we go thru the same garbage. No routine set by him (even though he says he will - every singel year!) and the kids fighting and running around in their pjs until they hit the pool at 6pm when I get home from work. That was my yesterday...lovely, huh? There is more to this picture, but you get the point.
On top of this stupidity is the male PMS factor. They all have it (so do I, but that does not matter - I'm the girl here and entitled to my moodiness once a month). The boredom kicked it off and I finally opened my mouth this morning and said something! Yay me! Let's just say, my kiss goodbye was much better than yesterday's. Attitude adjustment accomplished. Jeesh!
I'm going home for lunch in about 10 minutes...I hope things are a little bit calmer. I haven't resorted to food (thank god) but I can feel it coming on. Along with my PMS and boredom - it is a bad combo. This too shall pass.
I wish I made a butt-load of moolah sometimes...the kids would be in camp 2 days a week to break up the monotany for them (and us - LOL). Summer is catch up season in our house - no extra spending if at all possible. I've been doing this for so long, you would think I'd be used to it! I guess I'm bored and want to shop! LOL
Well, I feel better now that it's out. Time for lunch! I'm STARVING! Not good!
Friday, July 18, 2008
I am so happy! We are going camping in an hour, but I had to blog about this one! I am typing so fast!!!!!!!
OH HAPPY DAY!!!!
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING! EVERYONE!!!
I LOVE YOU MY SPARKY FRIENDS!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!
I'll see you all when I get back!!!!
SMILES and Much Sparky DONE luv!!!
Thursday, July 17, 2008
My 9th anniversary was yesterday and my mini-goal of my wedding dress being loose was totally accomplished...my chest and shoulders have disappeared, that's why! So I was super happy yesterday about that! My weigh in today was 151 - so close!!! Soon, very soon!!!
Good things too - for the big day, DH and I went to the Cheesecake Factory...it's a place where the food is do die for and the desserts are too! I saved cals and everything, so I did not feel guilty at all eating my meal...funny thing - we never even ate cheesecake!! I can't!! really, I can't digest that stuff anymore...bile duct issues...but I digress.
We walked around the mall, sans kids, and went into a few stores that I was itching to look at the last time we were there with the whining cherubs of my heart. Eddie Bauer (OK, I'm a preppy at heart - sue me) and this store called White House/Black Market (all B&W stuff). Oh was I drooling!! I need new clothes SO bad it's not funny. I tried on some stuff at EB and can get into a M top there - SHOCKING! But things were $30 on sale and that's a little high right now for me, plus who the hell knows where I'll be in the fall?! So we walked out w/o anything except a big grin on my face!
I'm still getting used to this body. I am in line and fitting in with my sisters now, which blows my mind! My one sis even said she probably has clothes for me....ME! WOW! I'm even in my closet trying things on and taking them off for whatever reason 2 times before I step out the door - another first. So weird. It blows my mind that I can go into a store and try stuff on in the M, size 10/12 range.
Today I packed up my size 16 pants to give to a co-worker - and that brown jacket in the Feb 7 start picture is there too. It's a 1X. I tried it on and it was HUGE. I also tried on the green jacket from my little sister's white coat ceremony and that was huge too. I almost cried.
My DH gave me a football jersey in a L YEARS ago - tags still on it...it fits fine now, and that made him really happy. My eldest was watching me go thru my closet this morning and when I tried it on and said that it was good, he said, "No Mom, that is great." That made ME feel great.
I did this for me.
I did this for them.
Nothing can beat this feeling of accomplishment.
Thanks SP for existing - without you, I might still be heavy.
Thanks to ALL of my SP friends for your support - you helped me along and kept me going when I needed it most.
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