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Good to be back "tracking"

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Ahhh....I love life lessons.

"Honey, stop wrestling, someone is going to get hurt."
"Honey, please stop running, you're is going to get hurt."
"Honey, please stop teasing your brother, he's gonna hit you in defense."

.......the outcome, because they never stop when you tell them to, is a life lesson.

Same thing with this whole maintenance/weightloss journey....life lessons. You try something, you don't succeed, you try try try again. Never give up. One step back, two steps forward....always.

You'd think you would get sick of the roller coaster, but without the dips, there would be no inclines, and what fun is that? A boring rollercoaster for sure, that's what it is.

I'm back to tracking and did my second day of lunchtime treadmill. I've come to realize that that is the only me time I get with absolutely NO guilt. No kids. No hubby. All me. So for 3 days straight (Tues, Wed, Thurs)...TreadMill Me time and then the rest of the week will be random. That's just how it has to be for now. So far, so good. We'll see how next week will be. I think I've finally found my routine I was looking for. Took long enough!!! LOL

BTW - Thanks for all the support for my crazy month of non-tracking/stressfilled fun. It means a lot and that's what SP is all about. Thanks. Can't say it enough. Thanks.

  
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BATHMOM 10/21/2008 6:16PM

    Hi, Anne! Great post! I have been taking time off from Sparking, too, and now I'm back, so I relate. It's good to see you again. You're looking great--and I like the new fall look on your SparkPage. emoticon

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OAKBORN 10/19/2008 11:22AM

    Great job girl! You have the tools and you know what to do and you did it!

Maintenance is its own interesting place to be sure. What is working for me is remembering that what got me to Maintenanceville are the things that will keep me here!

What are your boys going to be for Halloween?

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Confession time: I'm not perfect...back to the tracker!

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

2 weeks without tracking and being Sparkfree....Sparkless....DeSparked...nice experiment, but I'm not ready to live there right now.

The last 2 weeks opened my eyes to a few things, which I will share with you now....
---I am a stress eater - BIGTIME! Becoming a Den leader to the Tiger Cubs was stressful, and those cookies I made the den didn't stand a chance! I'm embarrassed to say how many I even ate....10??? it was over 2 days, but still....I ate 'em.
--I eat when I PMS....is it that time...most likely. Add that to stress - not good.
---I had plenty of opportunities to workout, but I had so much stuff to do, I didn't...I opted for increasing my stress levels, when I know damn well that they would have been reduced and my head cleared by working out. I eventually did do that, but that was 8 cookies into the wreck already...oh well, at least I did something - finally.
---I think I gained 2 pounds...again, not surprised.
---I skulk by my scale when I feel upset with myself, like it won't show up, or it doesn't exist if I ignore it....I get on the stupid thing and confirm my guilt...and then I want an emotional pacifier of a cookie...don't worry, I'm not going to do that one. Been there, done that 8 months back.
---I'm not going to beat myself up over this because it just isn't worth it. S&iT happens....

So there you have it. I admit it....I am NOT PERFECT!!!!!! I tried to be Sparkfree, but, at this moment, I cannot. The first week was unintentional and fine, the second week with the new stress, was not so fine.

There is something very freeing saying all this outloud. It's back to the tracker and back to my fitness....to be scheduled and not missed out on because of Cub Scout stress, or work stress for that matter as well - for heaven's sake! How ridiculous is that! Where has my head been? Up my keester, that's where! What's funny about all this, is that my father and my husband noticed that I was slacking and not tracking...how funny is that? Dad told me to get back on it...because "it works and helps me be the best me I can be". That's a direct quote from my Dad....isn't he sweet?

Confession is over...now back to reality...and tracking...and fitness...and sanity.

  
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TRECECOOKS 10/10/2008 1:36PM

    Aren't you glad we can always come home to Sparks? It's here, our friends are here, and no one will be critical, just welcoming. emoticon

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GLAMOURGIRL-9 10/9/2008 3:31PM

    You already started back on track just by coming in here and sharing the truth , the whole truth and nothing but the truth! Step 1 = check ! You know this , it's old hat .It all about knowing your limitations right? So you know your not quite ready to be weaned from Spark & Tracking! You figured it out and rather quickly and so your back in the game!!! emoticon



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OAKBORN 10/7/2008 3:41PM

    emoticon Hang in there bud! You can do it, you already have. But the good news is that you recognized it before it got out of hand!

And your friends are always here and your SP pony is always waiting and ready to be ridden as needed!

And 2 lbs isn't 20, and one week of mistakes isn't a month or a year!



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Just call me Den Mother!

Thursday, October 02, 2008

I always say that we all have a path in life, all we have to do is just trust it and follow it. Then sometimes an unexpected turn brings you to new joys and the path is shifted...and the faith and trust is still there to be followed once again.

I was faced with my DH, an "almost" eagle scout, wanting to sign our son up for Cub Scouts, which is just fine. Then a friend of ours was going to sign up her son, especially if we signed up our son. The Cubmaster asked her to do the Den Leader thing, but she already had religion class to take care of. She mentioned it to me that they were looking for a leader and "Why don't you do it?" came out of her mouth.

Do you know that feeling you get when something is right, but all you need to do is jump in with 2 feet and just do it? The nagging feeling that it's not only the right thing to do, but it's a good thing that will affect a lot of people and that you have a lot to offer? That was my feeling. I slept on it. Talked to my DH about it. It's a huge committment that people shy away from - it can last 5 years, up through Boy Scouts even! It's scary! But that feeling was still there.

And then I thought about Sparkpeople. In Stage 4 they talk about challenging yourself in different ways, maybe with a new job or sport or craft or trip, or anything out of your comfort zone. I guess I was waiting for something to fall in my lap, or my path to turn, but I was waiting for something. Something big. I guess when the Cub Scout thing came across my path and that feeling was there, I knew that this was it and it was right.

I went to my first meeting with the Cubmaster and Asst Cubmaster to get things figured out and signed up...and after all that was done they sprung it on me....11 boys, each with their parent! That's 22 people to organize, talk to, lead! I left the meeting with a ton of materials to help me out, and a pat on the back with "Welcome to Scouting, you're gonna love it!"

I (have) had 5 days to get a meeting together - with crafts and motto's - the whole shabang!! I got home exhausted and cranky. DH was all "I told you it was a committment" - the fool agreed to be my co-leader, so I just told him to stuff a sock in it so I could get my head around everything. The next day was better, emails were sent to all in the den. Today is even better, now that a game plan is forming. I'm crafty, so this suits my strong points. DH is a teacher, so you know his strong points. Together, we are a good team and we don't take any foolish crap from kids, so I predict a good meeting, especially with the parents there as team players. They are there to learn respect

As each day passes, the oh-my god-what-did-I-get-myself-into jitters are being replaced by the excitement of a new adventure. I love that feeling. I wish I could bottle it up and put it on my shelf for those uber-crappy days that hit every so often.

So here I come Pack 438! Ready or not! You aren't gonna know what hit ya when ya get a load of me!

  
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OAKBORN 10/4/2008 11:31PM

    Here's a salute to a woman braver than me... well sorta, I was the leader of my kid's Camp Fire group for a year. Sort of like herding cats!

You're # emoticon!!

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D1AN4M 10/3/2008 12:54PM

    Good luck to you Den Mother. I am an adult parter to a wolf scout(my nephew)and boy is it challenging. My nephew signed up as a tiger and after one meeting my brother told my nephew that scouting was not his "thing" and he would not take nephew anymore. My nephew thinks I am some kind of hero so I had no choice but to volunteer to take him. It is a challenge for both of us as his parents refuse any involvement and I am disables but we enjoy every minute of it as I am sure you will. These boys will remember you for the rest of their lives and when they are older they will appreciate the sacrifices you have made to take on this responsibility.

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Beer., beer, and more beer....

Monday, September 29, 2008

That was yesterday. When we got home from our 4 year and 6 year olds' soccer games, DH handed me a beer and said "we deserve this"....clink, clink....

Now - I think I can count on 2 fingers when me and DH both got tipsy in the last 12 years of knowing each other. LOL Can you say uber-uptight and in control? We usually designate who is going to drink because of the kids, driving...blah blah blah.... A beer, yeah sure, once in a while at the same time...but 4 each? LMAO We are such light weights it's NOT funny. The kids were hilarious - never have they seen mom and dad so relaxed and giggly. Watching football together was actually enjoyable for me! Now I know why beer and football go hand in hand...took me 12 years to figure that one out - duh!

As dinner time approached, we could feel the kids getting antsy, so we tossed around take-in Chinese, but it would take way too long...as it turns out, DH had pizza dough in the fridge - dinner problem solved! Next thing you know, my dad shows up...and then my sister and my nephew...a jar of sauce and a box of macaroni - WHALLAH - instant dinner party! Carbs carbs everywhere - oh, well. A good time was had by all...and all the party beer is now gone from my fridge - at last!

Party beer? What's that, you may ask. We all have it. You have a party, tons of people bring extra beer and never drink it or take it home, and you are left with a fridge full/basement full of the stuff. This particular beer was from August of this year...the stash before that was regifted to my sister for her son's August birthday - it was from my son's June birthday and cans were from my Aunt's Jubilee in April...nothing like spreading the wealth of skunky beer amongst family, especially the cans...yummy.

I will not lie - it was a crappy weekend of eating - all comfort foods. Homemade mac& cheese, chili, , pizza. I haven't had that stuff in months. Too let loose was a little bit liberating, but the calorie factor is an underlying current in my brain now. I've been officially brainwashed!! LOL I'm not complaining, just observing. To not be obsessive about it is on the fringe as well. DH even noticed that I'm not as "Sparky" as I was a month ago, which to me, at this moment, is a compliment. It means I'm doing things right. I'll own up to the fact that being anal about tracking helped me out a lot, but it drove my dh nuts (he will never say it to me, though).

Now to confess another thing - I am cheap. As some of you know, I was really trying to eeeke out as much wear from my size 12 pants as I could, even though I have recently gotten into a size 10. Well, yesterday, I could not hide the fact that I looked like an idiot. Big XL tshirt and baggy pants, even with a belt literally holding them up, looked just plain stupid. I have 2 pairs of size 10 pants - one jean, one black. One in the wash, the other too "fancy" for watching the kids or wear to a muddy soccer field. I gave away all my XL loungepants to my pregant SIL. Why did I only buy 2 pairs of size 10??? because I didn't know where I'd land and I'm cheap, but existing like this is just plain dumb. Foolish.

Soooooo the fool went to Old Navy - my place for jeans. Size 10 fit ok, but something happened in my brain. "Try the 8's" it said.
"Yeah right," the logical side of my brain said.
"You won't know if you don't try," it said again. So I tried. The damned things fit. Form fitting. No need for a belt. Not uncomfortable in the least. One word....bizarre. I'm wearing them now - 2 pair for $40. Bizarre.

4 pairs of pants in the rotation now - let's see how I do with that. A couple things in my closet have tags and may have to go back to the store because my body has changed since their purchase - another bizarre there too. Never done that before.

Writing this makes me feel like I've been in a Twilight Zone episode...things competely out of the norm. I guess that is what makes life interesting and sparky, and that is just fine. emoticon

  
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IAMLION 10/7/2008 10:29PM

    The subject title caught my attention!! Beer, one of my favorite things!
I am a bit confused by the term "party beer"?? We've never had beer left over!! emoticon
Size 8!! How awesome for you!!! I know what you mean about trying to make the clothes you have last as long as possible. I too wore my size 16's until my co-workers begged me to ditch them!! Even though I knew I looked stupid wearing them, I actually loved that I was too small for them! It felt great to swim around in clothes that were once too small! But the real reason I wore them so long is I hated to come up off the money to buy new clothes, I too am cheap!
Enjoy your new size!!
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TENACITY! 9/30/2008 4:51PM

    I'm jealous...........

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OAKBORN 9/29/2008 10:29AM

    Annie,
I think we live in similar universes with similar brain patterns or something.

I think my calorie counting has driven Markle up a tree too, esp. since I wouldn't eat something until I'd weighed it... or entered the nutritional info into SP... etc. He's encouraging me to relax a bit since I'm still in my range and holding there just fine.

Markle and I don't drink beer, but our friends do and bring them to our house for various gatherings... so we do have orphan beer, including a Romulan Ale (which is blue) that was a gift last summer from when we were in Las Vegas at the Star Trek Experience. If it hangs around long enough, we just use it for pizza dough... we have a great beer recipe.

I also understand about the clothes. Some 10s are starting to fall off and inch towards the give-away bag, 8s fit the best. I gave my friend Ambiaka a bunch of my nice 16's last week... she's convinced I'll end up in a 6 as my body adjusts to being thin.

Hang in there girl! Look at yourself in the mirror ALOT and enjoy what you see! It will also supplant the old mental image! emoticon
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Camping rain-out - BUMMER!!

Friday, September 26, 2008

Oh well!! I don't know who is more disappointed, me or the kids. We were looking forward to this trip for 2 months - a halloween adventure at Jellystone with new friends - trick or treating, a costume contest, site decorating - the whole bowl of candy corn! NOPE - It's a RAIN OUT!

So 20 pounds of candy, 4 sets of halloween lights for the tent...all down the drain. Literally. Now you may think - 20 pounds of candy? Just use it for halloween. Sure! great idea! Only problem here is that we get a total of 2 kids per year!!! NO JOKE! I hope the receipts are still in the bag. The candy has to go back.

We made the right decision too because it's pouring outside. The other family's sister and mom pulled out too - they have pop-ups too. Unfortunately - they rented a cabin and this place is super strict....no refunds or switching days. They sure know how to make money.

So here I sit...bumming out. Now I get to - clean my house and mop the floors because my youngest got a hold of a milk cup with no cap and splashed milk everywhere (fun)....go to work tomorrow morning (fun,.fun) ...have my inlaws over for the afternoon because we haven't seen them in a few weeks (fun fun fun)...the list of fun goes on and on....yay. emoticon

Bumming Annie needs to hit the TM bad. But alas, that too shall have to wait because the day of babysitting the cherubs has yet to begin. The more I write, the crappier I feel. It's going to be a looooong day if I don't snap out of it.

The good thing is that the day has just begun and I have the power to change it's outcome. Wish me luck.

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Update from this morning's bumout....I had extra energy and angst so I rearranged 2 rooms in my house. Complete swap out of the sitting room and dining room - LOL! The kids were like, "What are you doing that for?" It entertained them and gave me a new sense of coziness that I guess I was longing for. Moved a buffet and piano all by myself!! Was easier than you think, being that we have wood floors. Slow & steady is all. Nothing like resting the eye on something new to give one a sense of peace and accomplishment - especially on a wind swept, rainy day. Made the kids clean up the trashed family room too. Ahhhh - peace has settled over the land again... emoticon

  
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IAMLION 9/29/2008 8:02AM

    Sorry your camping trip was cancelled! Two days of our weekend plans (our plans started on Thursday) were also rained out. I got to sleep in on Thurs. & Fri. morning. Luckily on Friday evening the rain went away and we were able to get out and enjoy Friday evening & the whole Saturday!

Hope you didn't get stuck with all that candy!!




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AMJSATURN 9/29/2008 12:57AM

    Annie,

I can see you have been plenty busy, new pictures and all. I miss the one of you upside down.

Camping trip rained out too bad. I hope you find the receipt for the candy also.

Enjoy because two more days and October will be knocking at the door.

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TRECECOOKS 9/27/2008 6:38PM

    Sorry for your disappointment, but I'm glad that you could channel the energy productively!!

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OAKBORN 9/26/2008 6:38PM

    Sorry your camping got rained out!

But you are such a blast to read!!

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