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Beer., beer, and more beer....

Monday, September 29, 2008

That was yesterday. When we got home from our 4 year and 6 year olds' soccer games, DH handed me a beer and said "we deserve this"....clink, clink....

Now - I think I can count on 2 fingers when me and DH both got tipsy in the last 12 years of knowing each other. LOL Can you say uber-uptight and in control? We usually designate who is going to drink because of the kids, driving...blah blah blah.... A beer, yeah sure, once in a while at the same time...but 4 each? LMAO We are such light weights it's NOT funny. The kids were hilarious - never have they seen mom and dad so relaxed and giggly. Watching football together was actually enjoyable for me! Now I know why beer and football go hand in hand...took me 12 years to figure that one out - duh!

As dinner time approached, we could feel the kids getting antsy, so we tossed around take-in Chinese, but it would take way too it turns out, DH had pizza dough in the fridge - dinner problem solved! Next thing you know, my dad shows up...and then my sister and my nephew...a jar of sauce and a box of macaroni - WHALLAH - instant dinner party! Carbs carbs everywhere - oh, well. A good time was had by all...and all the party beer is now gone from my fridge - at last!

Party beer? What's that, you may ask. We all have it. You have a party, tons of people bring extra beer and never drink it or take it home, and you are left with a fridge full/basement full of the stuff. This particular beer was from August of this year...the stash before that was regifted to my sister for her son's August birthday - it was from my son's June birthday and cans were from my Aunt's Jubilee in April...nothing like spreading the wealth of skunky beer amongst family, especially the cans...yummy.

I will not lie - it was a crappy weekend of eating - all comfort foods. Homemade mac& cheese, chili, , pizza. I haven't had that stuff in months. Too let loose was a little bit liberating, but the calorie factor is an underlying current in my brain now. I've been officially brainwashed!! LOL I'm not complaining, just observing. To not be obsessive about it is on the fringe as well. DH even noticed that I'm not as "Sparky" as I was a month ago, which to me, at this moment, is a compliment. It means I'm doing things right. I'll own up to the fact that being anal about tracking helped me out a lot, but it drove my dh nuts (he will never say it to me, though).

Now to confess another thing - I am cheap. As some of you know, I was really trying to eeeke out as much wear from my size 12 pants as I could, even though I have recently gotten into a size 10. Well, yesterday, I could not hide the fact that I looked like an idiot. Big XL tshirt and baggy pants, even with a belt literally holding them up, looked just plain stupid. I have 2 pairs of size 10 pants - one jean, one black. One in the wash, the other too "fancy" for watching the kids or wear to a muddy soccer field. I gave away all my XL loungepants to my pregant SIL. Why did I only buy 2 pairs of size 10??? because I didn't know where I'd land and I'm cheap, but existing like this is just plain dumb. Foolish.

Soooooo the fool went to Old Navy - my place for jeans. Size 10 fit ok, but something happened in my brain. "Try the 8's" it said.
"Yeah right," the logical side of my brain said.
"You won't know if you don't try," it said again. So I tried. The damned things fit. Form fitting. No need for a belt. Not uncomfortable in the least. One word....bizarre. I'm wearing them now - 2 pair for $40. Bizarre.

4 pairs of pants in the rotation now - let's see how I do with that. A couple things in my closet have tags and may have to go back to the store because my body has changed since their purchase - another bizarre there too. Never done that before.

Writing this makes me feel like I've been in a Twilight Zone episode...things competely out of the norm. I guess that is what makes life interesting and sparky, and that is just fine. emoticon

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IAMLION 10/7/2008 10:29PM

    The subject title caught my attention!! Beer, one of my favorite things!
I am a bit confused by the term "party beer"?? We've never had beer left over!! emoticon
Size 8!! How awesome for you!!! I know what you mean about trying to make the clothes you have last as long as possible. I too wore my size 16's until my co-workers begged me to ditch them!! Even though I knew I looked stupid wearing them, I actually loved that I was too small for them! It felt great to swim around in clothes that were once too small! But the real reason I wore them so long is I hated to come up off the money to buy new clothes, I too am cheap!
Enjoy your new size!!

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TENACITY! 9/30/2008 4:51PM

    I'm jealous...........

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OAKBORN 9/29/2008 10:29AM

I think we live in similar universes with similar brain patterns or something.

I think my calorie counting has driven Markle up a tree too, esp. since I wouldn't eat something until I'd weighed it... or entered the nutritional info into SP... etc. He's encouraging me to relax a bit since I'm still in my range and holding there just fine.

Markle and I don't drink beer, but our friends do and bring them to our house for various gatherings... so we do have orphan beer, including a Romulan Ale (which is blue) that was a gift last summer from when we were in Las Vegas at the Star Trek Experience. If it hangs around long enough, we just use it for pizza dough... we have a great beer recipe.

I also understand about the clothes. Some 10s are starting to fall off and inch towards the give-away bag, 8s fit the best. I gave my friend Ambiaka a bunch of my nice 16's last week... she's convinced I'll end up in a 6 as my body adjusts to being thin.

Hang in there girl! Look at yourself in the mirror ALOT and enjoy what you see! It will also supplant the old mental image! emoticon

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Camping rain-out - BUMMER!!

Friday, September 26, 2008

Oh well!! I don't know who is more disappointed, me or the kids. We were looking forward to this trip for 2 months - a halloween adventure at Jellystone with new friends - trick or treating, a costume contest, site decorating - the whole bowl of candy corn! NOPE - It's a RAIN OUT!

So 20 pounds of candy, 4 sets of halloween lights for the tent...all down the drain. Literally. Now you may think - 20 pounds of candy? Just use it for halloween. Sure! great idea! Only problem here is that we get a total of 2 kids per year!!! NO JOKE! I hope the receipts are still in the bag. The candy has to go back.

We made the right decision too because it's pouring outside. The other family's sister and mom pulled out too - they have pop-ups too. Unfortunately - they rented a cabin and this place is super refunds or switching days. They sure know how to make money.

So here I sit...bumming out. Now I get to - clean my house and mop the floors because my youngest got a hold of a milk cup with no cap and splashed milk everywhere (fun)....go to work tomorrow morning (fun,.fun) ...have my inlaws over for the afternoon because we haven't seen them in a few weeks (fun fun fun)...the list of fun goes on and on....yay. emoticon

Bumming Annie needs to hit the TM bad. But alas, that too shall have to wait because the day of babysitting the cherubs has yet to begin. The more I write, the crappier I feel. It's going to be a looooong day if I don't snap out of it.

The good thing is that the day has just begun and I have the power to change it's outcome. Wish me luck.

Update from this morning's bumout....I had extra energy and angst so I rearranged 2 rooms in my house. Complete swap out of the sitting room and dining room - LOL! The kids were like, "What are you doing that for?" It entertained them and gave me a new sense of coziness that I guess I was longing for. Moved a buffet and piano all by myself!! Was easier than you think, being that we have wood floors. Slow & steady is all. Nothing like resting the eye on something new to give one a sense of peace and accomplishment - especially on a wind swept, rainy day. Made the kids clean up the trashed family room too. Ahhhh - peace has settled over the land again... emoticon

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IAMLION 9/29/2008 8:02AM

    Sorry your camping trip was cancelled! Two days of our weekend plans (our plans started on Thursday) were also rained out. I got to sleep in on Thurs. & Fri. morning. Luckily on Friday evening the rain went away and we were able to get out and enjoy Friday evening & the whole Saturday!

Hope you didn't get stuck with all that candy!!

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AMJSATURN 9/29/2008 12:57AM


I can see you have been plenty busy, new pictures and all. I miss the one of you upside down.

Camping trip rained out too bad. I hope you find the receipt for the candy also.

Enjoy because two more days and October will be knocking at the door.

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TRECECOOKS 9/27/2008 6:38PM

    Sorry for your disappointment, but I'm glad that you could channel the energy productively!!

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OAKBORN 9/26/2008 6:38PM

    Sorry your camping got rained out!

But you are such a blast to read!!

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A no food-log week - What????

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Last Thursday was when I logged my food last because we went camping the next when I got back, well, the "s" hit the fan and I just haven't had time - you know that old chestnut...MOM!! I NEED _____________!!!! Between that and being a football widow on Sunday & Monday, getting the laundry done and cleaning the house, and working...I've slacked on the tracker. Eating the same, just not inputting the stuff.

Now this phase of the SP plan should have been done back, oh - in MAY, but I wasn't there just yet, so the tracking continued up until last week. I can honestly say that I'm not flipping out over this at all. It feels like a natural progression really, which is a good thing. I'm growing up! LOL

I have to also say that if I don't get some TM time in/alone time - I'm a real bitch. From Thursday to yesterday - no me time even though we went camping...very bad, very bad. You'd think I'd be relaxed. I was flying off the handle at the kids and holding grudges against DH for watching foozeball. Like I said - being a bitch. It's amazing what a half hour yesterday at lunch on the treadmill did for me. I went to work that morning high strung and complaining...after lunch was a mellow girl and no complaining. Too funny. Boy, that sounds a bit like before and after you know what...whew! give me a cigarette, I'm spent!

Speaking of that - I treated myself to a trashy witch/demon novel for fun. I'm not in the mood for cerebral Jane Austen or Charlotte Bronte or Harry Potter right now. I needed something to get me through the football season and this one has 3 books, thank goodness. It's pretty good, so I"ll probably be done with it in 2 days! Nothing like a trashy novel. Best $7 I've spent in a long time! ROFL My brother is a writer, so delving into a new sci-fi book always makes me think of him. Where do they come up with some of this stuff?

But I digress...back to being mom again! It's 7am and the day has yet to begin! I need to get breakfast and clothes on the kiddies before 7:30 or I'm going to be off-track. The mom bus leaves the station promptly at 8am.

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OAKBORN 9/24/2008 10:06PM

    Hey Annie! I agree totally with you about how important that exercise time is!!

Taking care of yourself is so so important... just remember to take that time! It's NOT selfish, it's good for you!


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FULLOFFAITH 9/24/2008 4:14PM

    You are so funny. Your life sounds a lot like mine. between the Kids and DH def never enough me time. Well glad you got a good book to escape with.

My mom bus leaves at 7:15am. I feel ya on that one. if I get off track throws off the day.

Hang in there and have a good day!!!


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Fall Camping Kick-off

Friday, September 19, 2008

I love that shot of my boys watching the world go by from their was taken in July at Hither Hills State Park. They were watching the neighbors play bocce ball... now imagine 2 families learning that they were from the same town, all because some little boys were cheering from a pop-up bunk! Small world!

As some of you know - I am an avid camper. Our new pop-up turns 1 year old this month and by the end of the year, we will have camped about 9 times! I'd say we've got our money's worth out of it this year.

Our last 4 trips are starting today - quiet family trip on LI for 2 nights. I'll have to work in the morning and commute at 6am, but I'll be back in time for afternoon snack. It'll give Dh & the boys some quality camping time together. The weather should be cool and a fire should feel great - I can't wait!!

So if anyone is wondering why I'm quiet - that's why. Back on Sunday in time for football too! LOL My Dh gets all of his favorite things in one weekend! LMAO!

As for maintaining - I'm not worried...I've noticed a few things since hitting goal. If I eat normally - my natural cal range is 1300-1600 without even thinking too much...which means I don't have to feel any guilt when I have a s'mores or a beer during camping. My SP maintenance range is 1550-1950. It's a nice thing to know when you start maintenance - ranges keep things in perspective.

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IAMLION 9/22/2008 9:46PM

    I love this pic too!! Sooo cute! They are so sweet when they are still, aren't they emoticon

Our family camping trips are done for the year. Now the hubby and I have a few alone time camping trips planned! I love those!! We camp near an island that he hunts on and I get lots and lots of pampering and quiet time! He cooks my breakfast when he returns from the morning hunt, we spend a couple of hours hanging out, he cooks dinner before he leaves for the evening hunt and then it's all about Me, the fire, a good book, snacks and beer!! I can hardly wait for our October trip!! emoticon

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OAKBORN 9/21/2008 10:05PM

    Love that pic!

I miss camping (I like tents and fires!)...


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FULLOFFAITH 9/21/2008 11:05AM

    What a cute picture. I know you are having a good time. I have never been camping. one of these days hopefully.



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Re-evaluation time

Monday, September 15, 2008 some of you can see, I've lost a few more pounds in the past week, for whatever reason. Part being that I'm watching the dairy, part being that I'm exercising again and burning cals, part being that subconsciously I wasn't totally done, part being that I believe that there is an equilibrium that I'll eventually settle at and I'm not there yet....lots of little things.

It's weird to have dropped a few more because I just bought a bunch of new shirts that were slightly snug...I was 150 when I bought them, and to tell you the honest truth, they fit and look better 2 pounds lighter. At 150, I had the side pooch thing - love handles? - that I wasn't really thrilled with...2 pounds down and they were down too...not gone, just down. That makes me happy.

My closet has been completely redone and I can wear everything in it without cringing...that's something very foreign to me. I kept old and added some new, and I'm happy with that. I tossed yet another bag to goodwill - I think it's my 4th one. Trust me, there is still some to go, but I can use what's left to my advantage. I need shoes though....pretty bad.

This week at work, every single person was shocked to see me. I'm in the health field, so people see me sporadically. Every person was like, "Whoa! What have you been up to? You look great!"

We went to a party and I wore something I bought with my sister from Express - a blue fitted button down that had no gap-osis going on and a pair of black wide leg pants... I wore it to work and went right to the party...these are newer friends that we are socializing with now because of school...but I digress. I embraced form fitting clothes in public for the very first time. Talk about diving in with both feet. Our friends openly asked, so I talked about SP the whole time. Even my older friends are a little shocked.

I think my DH is going to throw up soon. I think my co-workers are going to throw up soon. They hear it all the time!

Anyway, I've kind of come to the conclusion that whatever will be, will be. Is maintaining hard? Sort of and yet not, at the same time...I have done it for 2 months. More food is weird to do, especially when you are so used to the "diet thing". Moderation with food and exercise is a balancing act. It's really a personal journey that takes a lot of trial and error. What's good for me, might not be good for you. Is dieting easier? As you can see - for me, yes, it is. Again, a very personal journey. If I knew back then, what I know now, I would have done this when I was 20.

If you think my body is some tight, muscular thing - you are so off base!
It is what it is - a six-pack of well defined fat attached to muscles - I'm just happy the spare tire is gone; arms that wave good-bye after I have stopped waving; cellulite and stretch marks are part of who I am - I accept that one with arms wide open. I don't think I need to go on, you get the picture.

So here's the deal with all this re-evaluation:
- I refuse to let myself go over 150 for the rest of my life if I can possibly help it.
- 150 is a good and happy place - I'm glad I maintained well there
- the uber-ultimate goal of a healthy BMI at 136 pounds is totally doable and if it happens to be my equilibrium spot, then so be it.
- I'm not deliberately dieting to get to 136.
- Just being in the 140s is a thrill for me and I LIKE IT!

I looks like Ms. Done might not be totally done. emoticon

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OAKBORN 9/21/2008 10:10PM

    Frabjous! Absolutely frabjous!!

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IAMLION 9/16/2008 8:04AM

    How awesome!! I am smiling very big for you!! emoticon emoticon

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SFOSTER 9/16/2008 3:12AM

    I agree I always find your posts uplifting and you seem to always post when I need it the most. Thanks for sharing your continued success and encouragement.

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GLAMOURGIRL-9 9/15/2008 1:02PM

    Wow! I can not tell you how inspiring your blog was or how i envy where you are. I can not wait to be 150 ! I can not wait to feel the way you do. It so happens today is my RECOMMITTING day and reading this inspired me more! emoticon

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DREAMNSCHEME 9/15/2008 1:02PM

    Congrats on all your success! emoticon

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