Sunday, November 02, 2008
That was my life in a nutshell this past week. So busy with my nephew sleeping over from Tuesday night to Friday night (that's 4 boys in tow) with Halloween and church and Den meetings and holiday parties, homework and soccer practice, slean out the camper, etc. etc.
I hate those weeks. By the time work ended yesterday, I was draggin' ass - big time. Came home - told DH I was done and wanted to pass out right then and there, when son #1 took a header over his handle bars and split his lip. Drama ensued (he's fine) and then things finally calmed down enough for me to have a power nap. Son #3 had a fever on Tues and Wed too, so I was on the night shift with him. All that lack of sleep put the exercise on the back burner because at that point - sleep was just more important to function properly.
I'm stilil recouping (I think) because that paragraph above is just so out of sorts wacky....too foggy to fix it! LOL With everyone milling around, it's hard to think too! Ahh the pitter patter of little feet! Well, at least the little guy is feeling better and leaving me alone now!
It's a tracking day here - busy mom = no tracking mom. I'm making it a priority today to get things more under control with Sparking too. I need to use this site, especially when things are crazy. So that's what I'm going to do. It keeps my focus. So that is that.
But right now...I need more coffee...this time change had my kids up at 4:30 this morning. fun fun Where the heck is my coffee?
Friday, October 31, 2008
If I could choose my costume to match my mental state right at this moment, it would be Scrooge.
Happy go lucky, busy with my world and then....duh duh duh (insert evil music here) my Dh talks to his parents about Halloween. It's not just Halloween, it could be Arbor day and there is going to be drama. Pick a holiday, any holiday - I dare you. There's a very long story here...which, unfortunately, I will not share because it is WAAAAY to complicated, confusing etc. etc. Writing it will probably get more confusing without having additional diagrams to demonstrate the mother in-law's mental baggage.
One day, I am going to explode my pent up opinions all over everyone who has pissed me off over the last ten years. I can feel it brewing up inside of me like a volcano. I feel like I want to hold a board meeting like you see on TV and go through each person and set them straight, one at a time. They are all linked together in their stupidity and selfishness, self-loathing and martyring behavior. They are all right, everyone else is completely wrong. Individually righteous. Individually stupid in my God honest opinion.
You might shoot back at me and say, "Well honey, you're being just like them." I can honestly say, without any pretense that I am not. I'm the one who keeps her head down and listens to the stupidity and watches it all go down in a ball of flames. I live my life and stay out of theirs. I'm the giver, the nurturer, the hearth tender, the steady one who is constant and sane...there for whomever wants to have sanity in their lives if they recognize and acknowledge that that is who I am. Some do, others not so much. Sounds saintly, huh? LMAO yeah right. Try more centered and content, that's all. Just stuck in the middle of drama and a little pissed off that that is where I am always put.
Boy that feels better. Don't you just love it when things are going fine and then BOOM CRASH! Drama. Stress. Crap. Family. Stupidity. All flares up at once like a bad haemorrhoid.
My horoscope said today that I'd feel stressed and want to voice my opinion, but to hold off and to let things play out like I usually do. Too funny to read that in the morning when you know things aren't all peachy keen.
Haven't had a b-blog in a while...unfortunately, this is how I keep my sanity and my eating under control. I'm sure we'll have more in the next few months! LOL ROFL!!!!
OK - feeling more myself and I think the costume I'd put on now instead of Scrooge would be....hmmmm....a Witch. Making potions in a cauldron. Waiting pateintly to see how the brew will turn out...
Friday, October 24, 2008
I'm just going to say that I ROCK at maintenance.
I have to pat myself on the back here, because if I don't, no one will! Well, I take that back...my SP buds will because your awesome!
Whenever I feel like I screwed the proverbial pooch, I seem to come back just fine. I'm calling it Magical Maintenance. Sure, can I workout a little more? Of course! Everyone should know by now that I have always hated to work out - even though I know it's good for me. But some is better than none, and I guess I do enough to maintain well. In my life, sitting down is a luxury...I'm on my feet and moving all day long (not ADHD...mom to 3 little kids)...so much so, that to relax is a stressful thing! Yup - I'm one of those! Last Monday I was on the computer doing emails for scouts for 4 hours and my tailbone was sore! Too funny.
To relax lately - I read my trashy novels. (just discovered these - what can I say - I'm too intellectual for my own good sometimes - I'm learning NOT to be). It plants my butt in one spot and gives me an escape for a half hour during the day. Don't think I don't watch TV either....my shows are back on (Thank god!) and I get to veg out before passing out for the night. DH has football - I have Ugly Betty and Gray's Anatomy...and now they have a new hunk to drool over...h-o-t...HOT!!
But I digress...things are good. Getting back to tracking helped me focus again...talking with my buds helped too...joining a new team...all good things that help. I love SP - thank god I found it when I did. Keeps me centered.
New things I tried this week - I RAN a HALF MILE!!!!!! RAN! first time really. and it felt good! The lunch hour walk is working out very well...skipped Tues because my body/brain was just tired from the weekend and I took a much needed powernap instead. Wed did 45 minutes instead of a half hour...did only 10 minutes on Thursday becuase of time constraints and tons of laundry. Ran up & down 2 flights of stairs all day instead - that counts for something, although hard to calculate on a tracker.
Today is Friday - a babysitting day for my 2 youngest and my nephew. Today is also a stability ball day - breaking it out with the kids and having some fun with it. It'll be something old-something new for them to play with and for me to workout on while they goof around. Finding those opportunities for fitness (for about the 1000th time). Hey - we do what we can - when we can. That is what this journey is all about.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Ahhh....I love life lessons.
"Honey, stop wrestling, someone is going to get hurt."
"Honey, please stop running, you're is going to get hurt."
"Honey, please stop teasing your brother, he's gonna hit you in defense."
.......the outcome, because they never stop when you tell them to, is a life lesson.
Same thing with this whole maintenance/weightloss journey....life lessons. You try something, you don't succeed, you try try try again. Never give up. One step back, two steps forward....always.
You'd think you would get sick of the roller coaster, but without the dips, there would be no inclines, and what fun is that? A boring rollercoaster for sure, that's what it is.
I'm back to tracking and did my second day of lunchtime treadmill. I've come to realize that that is the only me time I get with absolutely NO guilt. No kids. No hubby. All me. So for 3 days straight (Tues, Wed, Thurs)...TreadMill Me time and then the rest of the week will be random. That's just how it has to be for now. So far, so good. We'll see how next week will be. I think I've finally found my routine I was looking for. Took long enough!!! LOL
BTW - Thanks for all the support for my crazy month of non-tracking/stressfilled fun. It means a lot and that's what SP is all about. Thanks. Can't say it enough. Thanks.
Get An Email Alert Each Time ANNIEONLI Posts