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Accepting things is OK

Monday, November 24, 2008

Sometimes, we have to accept things the way they are for right now.
It doesn't mean we give up or give in. It doesn't mean that we don't care about ourselves.

For the last month (let's face that one head on) - my good intentions of exercise have come up flat....I've flat lined in that department, big time. 180 minutes in total for this month. I've gone thru the emotions and self-beatings, but things have to be said plainly - not as an excuse, but more as plain fact - that life gets in the way sometimes.

Looking back on all my exercise tracking - I see holes - all where a month dropped out of sight because I was being a Mom, a wife, a sister, a daughter an office manager, a volunteer. All wonderful things that make me happy and make my world go 'round. So why am I going to beat myself up over this month, at this time?

Is it because of the holiday season - when everyone is talking about possible failure and/or game plans and strategies for getting thru them without failure? Am I being a self sabbateaur (is that even a word?) and blowing it way out of proportion to make myself feel like a failure - even though I am not? So many silly questions that are just plain that....silly.

Sometimes our best intentions get blown out of the water. I know - people will shoot back at me and say "you are the one in control of that" - but before I get shot down...look at where you are in your own life before throwing that first stone. Sometimes life does get in the way of our good intentions for's not a permanent thing, just a delay of our plan. For most of us (I hope) this is going to be a loooong life, and a looong journey to find ourselves and keep ourselves healthy and fit; and to beat ourselves up over one month of lost good intentions is just plain silly in this giant journey of our lives.

So for right now - my busy life is OK. I will not lose sight of the journey or what I've done to get where I am now. I will get back to my 10 minutes a day in due time...without any attached guilt. I will get another stability ball - my DH owes me a new one after he let the kids pop my other one...and I will not wait for Xmas to get it.

Soccer has ended (hooray!) and that is my weekend back, which means another shift in the sand to get through. Cub scouts really isn't all that time consuming as it was in the beginning,,,,it's not that bad, reallly. Work is what it is...things will pick up. Christmas shopping will get done, and if I forego my 10 minute TM intention at lunch to get a money saving deal while the kids are in school - then so be it. Will I eat apple pie at my in-laws? hell yeah! Will I eat a large piece, no not really...I can feel my insides getting sick already with all the fats from the day. Will I prepare for the day by drinking my water and taking my vitamin - yup, you bet. Will I beat myself up for living my way in hell.

On a quick side note - which has something to do with my MIL and my early journey into SP. When I was preggers with my 3rd, she told me that I would probably gain the weight back, even though I was having a great pregnancy (nice huh?) that thought she put in my head crushed me, even though she probably didn't mean to.... but I digress...My MIL came over for Sunday breakfast the other day. We had not seen each other in a few months, believe it or not. Her first comment to me was this "wow, you look great! Have you lost more weight?" My response was, "no, I'm maintaining 146 pretty well for the last 4 months. That's the hardest part of the whole thing." She replied, "yeah, I know. How do I look? I gained 10 of the 40 I lost. It's not what I'm eating, it's how much, and for some reason, I just have a hard time with it." I actually felt sad for her, because of her yo-yo dieting tendencies. I've seen her go up and down 4 times in the last 12 years. Emotional eating, stress eating, no exercise, heart meds...the whole enchilada. Guess what she's getting for Xmas? A Leslie Sansone video and a hug from me.

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BABYSTEPS93 11/30/2008 2:29PM

    Thank you so much for checking in on me...I really needed a friend to keep me accountable! I can totally relate to your blog, I have done the same thing. I started spark people in the summer before I started back to work teaching. Now I am back to work and life has gotten in the way of my good intentions.

I have three kids also and I am trying to involve them in things. Being a good mom, wife, employee etc. takes time. =) I was so happy to hear from you and them my computer crashed and I never log on at work. I am up and running again and hope to start getting connected again.

There are going to be days when we simply don't have time to exercise..but you are obviously doing something right or you wouldn't be maintaining your weight loss! I think as long as it continues to be on your mind despite your busy life you will get back on track when you can. You might not be able to do as much as you were a month or two ago, but it all adds up! Don't beat yourself up about are doing great!!!!!

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IAMLION 11/25/2008 8:23PM

    You have hit it right on the head!! Life does get in the way at times. Especially when you have little ones. There is never enough time in the day. You are doing an awesome job of being flexible!! Life is all about testing your flexability and you are bending, stretching, etc... like a pro! Keep up the great work!! emoticon emoticon

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OAKBORN 11/24/2008 8:24PM

    Hey girl! I understand! I have fallen way short of my exercise minutes this month too! I don't know what has happened, but it just seems like exercise is an afterthought of late for me.

But you are holding your own in weight loss arena and you will get back with it.

More hugs from Missouri!

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I hate it when life gets in the way

Thursday, November 13, 2008

What a wacky week....I see a pattern developing here. One good week, one bad week, one good week, one bad week. Somehow, life keeps getting in the way of my efforts to keep my dates with myself. Self sabotage?

Last week, very good with the new game plan of 10 minutes a day on the TM until Thurs, when I started to feel rundown and a cold coming on....thus I took it easy and no TM...Friday was a kid day and I was still feeling icky. Sat - worked til 12:30, birthday party 1-3, ate dinner, another girls night out party 6:30 - time there. Sunday...recoup in the morning for and hour then raked leaves for 2 hours, then soccer, then dinner, then baths...Monday, kids again and den outing, Tues raked leaves all day, Wed worked and took kids to doctors for checkups....I swear to heaven above, that the headcold paranoia killed the streak on the spot. CRAP!!!!

The result (include bad food choices and social drinking to the above list of nuttiness) was 3.5 pounds. I know, I know...up and down...up and down. But it really blows when you see your scale go up one pound at a time and you still don't stop the chip from going in your mouth, even though you know better. CRAP!!!!

Oh well. I can't sob into my Fiber One toast for too long. Back in the saddle for the billionth time. This won't be the last time I write about this either, I'm sure. Sure as heck hasn't been the first time! LOL

Today's fun is a sick pathetic 4 year old going to the office with Mommy to lay on his grandfather's couch and watch TV while Mommy tries to get work done. Good thing today is a short workday for the office. AARGH. There goes my 10 minutes again. Maybe before the kids get home from school I can wedge it in.

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TRECECOOKS 11/15/2008 6:42PM

    When you can do better, you will. As will I. I can sing along with your entry today!!

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IAMLION 11/14/2008 7:48AM

    Oh Anne!! I'm on that up and down, good intentions train with ya! I had a great week and then I didn't make it to the gym or do too good w/eating & drinking since! I'm going to get a running start and try to hop back on again!
Take care of yourself and your sick little one!

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OAKBORN 11/13/2008 7:48AM

    What comes to mind is: Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans...

Sounds like you have everything going on... and being sick is truly a monkey wrench. However that is the time that you MOST need to take care of yourself!

Keep trying to shoehorn in your exercise. Also perhaps take stock of exactly how much time you have taken for just you lately... there might be a pattern there?

Just remember you are an important priority in your life!

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The New Game Plan

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Everyone once in a while, we have to reassess and see what works and what doesn't.

RIght now, because of life...the 30 minute workout thing is not working out as planned and my strength has been interrupted by my stability ball getting popped by my cherubs playing outside with it, thanks to my lovely darling hubby, who wanted to keep them occupied outside. Love them!

So on Monday, I worked out on the TM for just 10 minutes and got off. Told DH last night that I wanted to go on the TM for 10 minutes again, but got 20 minutes in instead, and then got off. I'm actually running during those times, increasing the time at each session. It honestly feels good and I now know why people run. The endorphine rush is very nice...not exactly orgasmic and not tipsy, but close to why not continue - what's not to like! Not too many things can make a girl weak in the knees! ROFL!!

So that's the plan. I can squeek in 10 minutes a day...and if it goes up because of time availability, then that is great. I'm trying to focus on it as stress management, and the 10 minutes and other things will help me out there.

And today, I am buying a new digital scale - the spring is shot on my old one and I keep playing guess what weight you are irritating!! I get it set up just so, then the 2 yo moves it and then I'm back to square one!

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VANESSAANN83 11/6/2008 7:35AM

    I'm sorry, but I couldn't help but to giggle at your little game name "...guess what weight you are today." Ha ha. I hope you love your new scale :)

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IAMLION 11/5/2008 9:14PM

    emoticon sorry I am laughing about the ball! Those husbands, aren't they something!! Whatever keeps the young ones happy!!
Wow! on the running! I have never liked running, I really hate it!! But I will slip it in when I can! Now I see why so many people run, they must get the same effect from running as you do! Wish I did!
Great job to fitting in the exercise as you can!! emoticon

oops, emoticon I apologize for being long winded on your spark page!

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OAKBORN 11/5/2008 8:11AM

    Do what 'cha gotta' do!

Running is hard but great! Welcome to the new tennis shoes club!

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Remember to breathe

Monday, November 03, 2008

Sometimes we forget to breathe...we take on stresses that really should not be stresses, but happy fun stuff, and make them into...stresses.

So today is a day when I sit back and breathe.

Everything is fine and good. It's time to decompress.

That's the plan for today.

Track some exercise and yoga...and breathe.

And smile.

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IAMLION 11/4/2008 7:57AM

    I agree, I have been having a lot of stress lately and I find it hard to breathe! I find that I am taking short, shallow breaths and I long for the deep, cleansing breath! I'm still working on it! But I am smiling a bit more often so hopefully the good breathing will follow soon!

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OAKBORN 11/3/2008 10:34AM

    There you go! Connect with the Universe/God/Your Chosen Higher Power and BREATHE!


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Busy week = no TM = crazy mom

Sunday, November 02, 2008

That was my life in a nutshell this past week. So busy with my nephew sleeping over from Tuesday night to Friday night (that's 4 boys in tow) with Halloween and church and Den meetings and holiday parties, homework and soccer practice, slean out the camper, etc. etc.

I hate those weeks. By the time work ended yesterday, I was draggin' ass - big time. Came home - told DH I was done and wanted to pass out right then and there, when son #1 took a header over his handle bars and split his lip. Drama ensued (he's fine) and then things finally calmed down enough for me to have a power nap. Son #3 had a fever on Tues and Wed too, so I was on the night shift with him. All that lack of sleep put the exercise on the back burner because at that point - sleep was just more important to function properly.

I'm stilil recouping (I think) because that paragraph above is just so out of sorts wacky....too foggy to fix it! LOL With everyone milling around, it's hard to think too! Ahh the pitter patter of little feet! Well, at least the little guy is feeling better and leaving me alone now!

It's a tracking day here - busy mom = no tracking mom. I'm making it a priority today to get things more under control with Sparking too. I need to use this site, especially when things are crazy. So that's what I'm going to do. It keeps my focus. So that is that.

But right now...I need more coffee...this time change had my kids up at 4:30 this morning. fun fun Where the heck is my coffee?

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IAMLION 11/2/2008 3:05PM

    Busy, busy, busy!! It's enough to drive you nuts at times!! I remember those days when my girls were young. Seemed like I would never get a stress or drama free moment to myself! It will get better, I promise. As they get older you will get bits and pieces of sanity time to yourself. Hang in there girlie!

Glad to her your sons are fine! Bumps, bruises, cuts, fevers and illnesses are no fun!!


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OAKBORN 11/2/2008 2:38PM

    Oh my goodness you poor poor dear... we can go to Akron and I can hire a handsome man to pat your hand and say 'poor poor dear' for two weeks while you are sitting under a nice shady tree (this is a reference to the movie Harvey w/ Jimmy Stewart).

I hope your son is okay! It's so scary when they are leaking red stuff or otherwise hurt in a way you know you need help with! (I do understand!!)

I'll keep you in my prayers for sanity and centeredness!


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