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Black Friday...

Friday, December 26, 2008

For some reason, after all is said and done...presents given and received, food made and eaten, hugs and kisses passing every germ known to man...the day after the holiday hubbub is always the same. The title of this blog says the mood. Enough said.

The 2 days prior to this were all good...the Eve is always the better of the days...the excitement of the children, the company is way better than usual, kids are behaving and we parents are more relaxed than ever before (a conscious effort this year). The company yesterday was great, and the food was waaay too much, and gifts given and received were appropriate for once! Yay!

Christmas day was not without it's family drama...in-law stupidity and well, stupidity...kept a chosen few away because they were "sick". if they truly were, I hope they feel better. If they were sick because of their karma over the past year...then, they deserve what they get. The disappointment is weighing on me today. In the movie "Love Actually," a theme of the movie is that on Christmas, you tell the truth. The spirit of the holiday is rebirth and renewal and forgiveness. One side did all of the good things and extended the proverbial olive branch on both days and both times, the other party involved was "sick"...and now I just learned that they were glad and happy to be "sick" this year. So drag in the rest of the family to keep the facade going, at all costs, on them being "sick". Honestly - their behavior is abhorrent and the result has made me....sick. Lucky me! Tomorrow is Sat and we are having dinner at my in-laws and I bet my SIL and her family will all be well and over and eating pasta....fully recovered.

There - I actually feel better just writing this out. Me being me - I make nice tomorrow, as usual.

But I digress....the house is halfway decent - forget about the family room....inundated with toys just like it was when I was a kid! It can stay like that a few more days. My kids, in their uber polite way (almost disturbing in my opinion) were their normal restrained selves when they saw all the Santa presents (side note...I did NOT do this to them...it's just how they are! We have 2 years of this behavior on tape as proof.) They piled them, slowly opened them, and slowly took each thing out of their packaging...it took all day, and some today. Weird. Very unkid-like. Very Unchristmassy....another thing to shrug off as "that's just how they are." I will interject that my eldest got to his wii game and immediately put it in and started playing happily,..my middle guy got a bike and rode it up the hall all day with his Leapster in tow...my little guy got a bunch of play food (he likes to throw it - how 2 y.o.) and a shopping cart that he ran around the house with....alll were happy and pleased...which makes me very happy.

Blogging always makes me feel better...I'm thinking about changing the title....Nah...

Food wise - I DRANK A LOT!! lots of useless calories consumed there...LOTS and LOTS. I never do that, so I'm forgiving myself. Food was OK, but desserts/snacking - BAD NEWS! I know I gained weight...haven't hit the scale yet - the clothes say it all! LOL But the great news is that the water is going and tracking is in swing once again. The alcohol was put away until new years and the cookies are being THROWN OUT.....it's my favorite part of the year that I call "THE GREAT COOKIE TOSS" - it feels good, cathartic almost, euphoristic, orgasmic, powerful....try it...you'll like it, I promise. Toss the evil into the can and breathe again!!!

Exercise wise...my older stability ball is blown up and will be used today...TM is for tomorrow. I got a new iPod from DH - shocker there! We got gifts for each other this year - first time, long time, last time for a while again. I have to load all of my tunes for the TM tomorrow,

Head wise..feeling better now that I vented. Can't do this on facebook, that is for damn sure. Can't talk to DH about it - doesn't want to hear it again. Can't talk to sister - rehashes the above story b/c we share family. Oh, well...back to my friends here! That's why I'm a lifer. Ready to get back in the saddle and lose the weight gained and get fit again...3 months off is enough.

WISHING EVERYONE A WONDERFUL BLACK FRIDAY!!!!! emoticon

Yeah, I'm losing it... emoticon

  
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MVMEME 12/26/2008 3:32PM

    that's holidays for you...we grew up in the states without any relatives and always thought it would be wonderful to have a large family all gathered together for the holidays and i have heard your story more than once and wondered if maybe we didnt have the better deal out of it....who's to day!

hope you enjoy the New Year!

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OAKBORN 12/26/2008 11:25AM

    Hey Anne-dear!

You can tell it all here! We are your virtual shoulders! Sorry you are feeling the after-holiday letdown! I used to feel that a lot too, but it's gotten better. I'm not sure what has worked to change it... but it has something to do with changing my expectations or something like that. For what it's worth...?! emoticon

This year, there is so much more I wanted to do, but didn't get it done due to time constraints and getting sick last weekend. Sigh. It just finally had to be what it is. I think I'm going to send the cards late, why not?!

Here's a virtual emoticon from Missouri to you!

Like I have always told my friends, I have padded, waterproof shoulder pads on at all times!

And I forgot to mention: Now that you have an iPod, you can use Nextfitness (formerly Podfitness). Here's how to get it cheap: walmart.com! Just look under fitness accessories! It's $30 for a 6 month prepaid card. You upload your music and pick the type of workout you want and it mixes it with a trainer's voice to cue you with treadmill changes and stuff. It's really easy and since you are computer savvy, you can do it!

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Ho ho ho...it's baking time!

Friday, December 12, 2008

I love baking!!! Can't eat a lick of it, but I love to bake.

It is my kryptonite - every goodie that comes out of my oven needs sampling, or so I thought a month ago. I had a lick of icing a few weeks back, and my gut did a 360 and I felt like crap in less than 30 seconds...can we way processed & refined sugars? Add that to the list of things that I absolutely love, but cannot eat any more. First it was ice cream, then cheesecake, then icing...now add chocolate to the list and certain cookies and my apple pie. I have to consider them as allergies, which absolutely SUCKS, because I love all things that are sweet and processed and refined. Natural sugars...no problem there, so I can still get a sweet in here and there.

I guess this is a blessing in disguise, because now I won't have all of those extra calories, but having to accept that is hard to take, especially around the holidays, when things are so abundant and tempting. Rats. Maybe writing it down here will help me deal with this issue. Today is a baking day - the goal is to keep things out of my mouth so I can feel good before I go to bed. Baby steps.
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Beside that...things here are holiday crazy, just like everyone else on here! Sparking is on hold because I am so busy, and I miss chatting and hitting the boards, but we can't always spend time on the computer - the gifts won't wrap themselves...which reminds me, still has to be done.

Catching up after Christmas is what I'm looking forward to. Getting back into working out, and visiting, and relaxing with the family while the kids play with all their toys and let me and DH veg out together on the couch...now that is a holiday dream I can wrap my head around. LOL Ahhhh....(sigh)...that's a Christmas wish that I think can make come true.

But right now....I've got to defrost my butter and get my oldest to school...Ahhh, the life of a mom, gotta love it!!!

  
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IAMLION 12/13/2008 12:00PM

    Yeah, that sucks you can't eat Christmas goodies!! I'm happy to say, I will be eating my goodies this year! I'm sad to say I will be hitting the gym hard after the holdiays!! Will have to relose the weight I eat on!! Oh well, I can live with that.
My tree is still not up yet! But the carpet is clean emoticon
I hear ya on the not much time to spark! I hop on here (sometimes I go a few days before I get the chance to) and check the mail, my page and pop in on just a couple of people & one board then I'm off again. It's all good, we are all busy, busy, busy!
Enjoy your baking time! Mine starts next week.

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OAKBORN 12/12/2008 9:31AM

    Oh total bummer on the cookies and CHOCOLATE! emoticon

But GREAT way to look at the flipside! emoticon

You sound like you are getting into the holiday swing... I'm still trying to catch onto the rope!

(No tree or deco's up, no cleaning done, nary a cookie in sight... argh!)

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Ahhh...Sleep, perchance to dream

Thursday, December 04, 2008

Insomnia update...it's over! At last. Boy, my subconscious must have had something big going on and it all worked itself out. After my shows last night and putting the 2 yo to bed (I tried going down with the other 2 kids, but the little guy wanted mommy), I actually fell fast asleep. Sure, I was woken up by the 2 yo and went up to the spare bed with him in a huff, a rare thing to, but sleep deprivation calls for drastic measures....but at least I slept 7 full hours.

No midnight workout necessary! LOL

BTW - I loved everyone's responses to my sleep crisis! And as for the facebook thing...totally using it as a fun goof around thing. Right now, my HS alumni are all joining facebook like crazy...like someone spread the word that it's the place to be and do. I'm not one for peer pressure, so I'm using it as fun and only befriending people who actually spoke to me in HS. I can see how some people get addicted to that stuff - hey look at us here on SP!! LOL I think I'll keep SP as my place of permanent addiction - it's way healthier for me.

So that's the update people - thanks again for the support!!
Love you guys!!!
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PS - ELK - It's what's for dinner.

  
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IAMLION 12/5/2008 11:32PM

    emoticon on getting your sleep on!!

What did you finally do with the elk? How did it taste??

It's tme for me to get some emoticon I have a big shopping day planned for tomorrow. Plus I have to help my Mom do her myspace page. FUN stuff.

Have a great Saturday!!

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MVMEME 12/4/2008 7:55AM

    the head is an interesting organ...glad it fixed itself! hope you have a gread day!

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Insomnia - night #3

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

I haven't had this in....well, since I was prego! I can't blame reconnecting with past people (like the last blog) either, because I'm in a worry mode now ...What's the future going to bring? What career path should I take for my next thing? Should I follow my passion? How do I do that? Should I go back to school? I have to call this or that person back. I have so & so to buy for still. When am I going to wrap? What should I get DH? When am I going to decorate (all by myself)? When are we getting the tree? All that crap is keeping me awake. My mind won't shut off.

I've tried the deep breathing techniques....yoga....milk...beer...counti
ng sheep...If it happens tonight - I'm hitting the treadmill. Some might say I need something else, but let's keep this g-rated...besides that is the very last thing I want to do when I'm in this mental mode. Maybe that's my problem! LMAO

Funny ---- I used to blog about food and exercise, now I'm venting about my head! Anything helps...'tis the season, right?

Anyway - Glad to get that off my chest.

  
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IAMLION 12/3/2008 9:31PM

    Oh my, you are a bit stressed out huh?? Ususally, that is me. I used to have insomnia a lot. Once I started working out, I started falling into sleep a lot easier! I say bump up the work out routine or maybe bump up the "other" workout routine emoticon hehehehehe. Yeah, I was just telling my DH the other day that when I am stressed out, the "work out" is not on the top of the totem pole for me. Poor guy, he didn't understand where I was coming from. Oh well.
I'll say a little sleep prayer for you when I get into bed tonight!! Good luck!!

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OAKBORN 12/3/2008 1:57PM

    Loved your list of relaxation techniques... I'd get up and treadmill... sounds like a plan!

I hate it when I can't shut my brain off! I usually get up and DO something, like blog, especially and then I can get back to sleep.

You could put up the tree in the middle of the night...? emoticon

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Stepping out of my comfort zone

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

I can't sleep for the last 2 nights...my mind is racing. I did that stupid free tarot card reading online and now my brain won't shut off. My HS friends visited on Fri, and we had a great time...they are all on facebook, so I joined facebook and now I can't sleep. Is it because I actually know people there? And the requests for adding friends is totally weird because some of these people I barely said 2 words to in HS and then there are some I don't ever want to talk to again for the rest of my life! Or is it time to become the bigger person and let things in the past stay there?

Here's the thing about me and HS....I was the geek... the fly on the wall with no boyfriend...the smart girl that no one wanted to be with "in that way" for whatever reason. I knew that I was the marrying type - even back then, so I guess it never bugged me when I never had a boyfriend. Sure - I had my good friends - we still are very good friends and I wouldn't change that for the world...but then there were the others that really could care less...or they cared about themselves way more than they ever cared about me, or even if I existed. And then there were the jerks - everyone has them. Now they are asking to be my "friend" when I really want to just ask "why? Why now?" Is it to add me to the alumni list and rack it up or is it to spy on my life? one of these people is in the latter category, and I have to think about this hard.

So that's what is keeping me awake. It's so much easier to come to SP - where everyone is more "distant" and yet sympathetic/empathetic, than to open up to people I once knew. Let's face it. They know me in some form or another, just like you, but when physical contact and personal space has been breeched - even so long ago...it changes everything. I like my SP buds...no past or present judgements.

Computer is dying and it's midnight...gotta go to sleep...if I can.

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Edited on the morning after.....sleep and comments give new perspective on the issue.

The whole FB thing is almost a non-issue...I lived fine before....it changes nothing except keeping me in the loop with my alumni. The aforementioned person...well, he knows my feelings about the situation - for goodness sake, I certainly gave him an earful when we met up in college, and I have to actually thank the dope for hurting my feelings because then I wouldn't be friends with my best friends from HS now. Forgiveness comes in time....I guess this was the time for me. I'm probably the only one with the issue, so I should just let it go.
Thanks for the perspective everyone...it helped a lot.

  
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IAMLION 12/3/2008 9:23PM

    Well, the best I can tell you is to do what is best for you. If you don't want these people in your life, don't respond to them. Some people are looking to reconnect, some are looking to "spy" and some are just wanting to add people b/c they think the more "friends" they have the more popular they seem. I have to say, I do fall into the first two. I have enjoyed reconnecting with some of my old "bestie" friends I had from school and I have also spied (sp?) on people that I wouldn't really care if we connected again or not. I can be a bit nosey sometimes! I also have my myspace page open for anyone to spy on me and my fabulous family if they choose to. They can't leave comments or anything w/o being a friend though.
High school for me was fun, except for the whole getting up early, having to study and having to do school work thing. I can thankfully say I didn't have any lasting hurtful memories. I got the occassional teasing about my freckles, crispy white skin and my curvy badonkadonk but nothing that serious.
As you say, forgiveness does come in time. No need to rush, take all the time you need!
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VALERIE:) 12/2/2008 10:16AM

    I completely know what you mean. I have had people contact me on myspace from school and I think, why bother? I remember all of my school years being the fat girl and being tortured for being fat by everyone. Honestly, I had and still have very few close friends. It bothers me now that they want to be my friends on myspace, and they leave comments like, WOW you look sooo good, GOOD for you... etc. Because it feels like they are actually saying, about time your not fat anymore, you know? I can definitely sympathize with your situation. I agree with some of the other comments, I guess I am partially still wounded too.

But now I am a confident woman, and don't need people like that in my life. Try not to let it keep you from too much more sleep!!!

PS, I love my Sparkbuddies too!!

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VANESSAANN83 12/2/2008 9:04AM

    Ya know, I've never been able to hold a grudge...it's just not in me. SO, I cannot QUITE understand where you're coming from, but I was also in your shoes in HS. I have a facebook, and I simply do not approve friend requests from old HS friends...unless we are still pretty close. I just cut all ties, especially since I live in a new state now. I'm not upset with any of them, I mean...we've all done mean things, myself included. I just don't care to deal with the upkeep of relationships that I don't care to have. Also, my life is MINE...and I don't want to share with them ;) Good luck in your decision!!

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OAKBORN 12/2/2008 8:14AM

    Wow, do I understand what you are talking about. I was the one picked on from early on in school, geeky, etc.

I'm on Facebook too and have connected with a few folks from high school... and added a few that I didn't know so well. I have been kind of careful though.

Honestly I think that a lot of them are trying to recreate connections in a nostalgic way, whether they existed or not. A lot of "those people" wouldn't even remember the way they treated you... or care... though it is seared into your heart's memory.

I do "get" it because I was there back in the day... and I haven't forgotten it, even if they have. Dare I say that perhaps part of me is still wounded?

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MVMEME 12/2/2008 12:39AM

    HI...just started reading your blogs...I think your picture says it all...you are the only upside down image so far...you are unique and willing to be yourself...just because you happened to go to school with them years ago doesnt mean you have to have a relationship now...you be in charge of your space...so called friends are time drainers and energy drainers and as you said sleep drainers...so just say NO it's OK you are not a bad person...sleep well emoticon

PS dont know but you may not even have to do anything except not respond to their requests...dont use facebook myself...but have just deleted requests for other social contact that i didnt want...

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