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Ugggh - so frickin' mental.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

That's what I feel like.....Ughh.

Last week was the crappiest eating week on record in the longest time. Easter Week junk wound it's way into my worst stress eating week EVER! The 14th brought the quarterly taxes and the billing and the pre-estimated taxes...and me having to do everything because that is my job. I really screwed the pooch in my time management and I deliberately ate when I wasn't hungry...and about 80% of the time. I guess it was bound to happen eventually.

So here's the skinny on "maintenance" - I think it just plain stinks. You try to ween yourself off of SP, but let's be real - you need it. And that little tidbit of info really pisses me off. I don't want to NEED anything. I WANT to be able to live life without this crutch ( I really should say tool), but it looks like I NEED it to maintain. Mind you, during this whole week at work of stress eating, I'm getting compliments on how well I look! Hahaha LOL ROFL You'd have thunk it would have stopped me from shoving the extra slice of pizza in my mouth! NOT! The mind plays weird tricks and this blog makes no sense.

I'm camping this weekend (home for a little bit in between for kid's baseball) and I'm going to let things be until Monday, when normal routine is back in stride. I no longer watch my nephew, which means I can actaully get out of my house on Mon & Fri with the 2 kids and go food shopping for my fruits & veggies instead of relying on Peapod...and I can exercise easier when the little guy naps. Tracking begins in full swing too. Food & Fitness. My compass is off and I need to get it back.

I would love to get a tummy tuck. My middle is depressing. Pizza dough central. Sounds gross, but all true. I don't think a billion situps could fix this one, but I guess that is what I have to settle on. Tighten what's underneath as best as I can. I guess that's why someone invented Spanx. Why is all of this bothering me now? Who knows. I just reconnected with people who only knew me at 185, and we are planning to meet next week. Is there pressure to look extra extra good? Most likely. I'm 35 to 40 pounds lighter now, but mentally, I'm at 165 even that would have been 20 pounds lighter than when they knew me! ROFL....I know - I'm mental!

Anway - I can't blog anymore b/c I have to put my MOM hat on. Do I feel better? a little bit. Can't wait to start tracking again. Back to my comfort zone, as much as I WANT to resist, I NEED to do this again.

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AMJSATURN 4/20/2009 5:36PM


I see what you mean, maintenance can be a tough time. With all those factors against you
I bet you still are doing an awesome job.

Hang in there

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OAKBORN 4/18/2009 11:51AM

    Hang in there girl! And know that I understand. I can leave for a few days and not track, but I am too paranoid to leave my toolbox behind for more than a few days.

Maybe it's a crutch, maybe it's a tool... it really doesn't matter what you call it, but more in how you frame it. I prefer the term tool, I think it's a healthier frame in which to place it... something useful as opposed to something that you try to get past.

If part of your lifestyle change utilizes tools, think of it like keeping hammers around to hang pictures or repair stuff in your home.

I understand the mental thing... so well. We have a mirror in our front hall and I see myself in it numerous times per day... and I like what I see now as much as I avoided looking when I was fat... but what I still see still is jarring to me, since it's not what my brain still feels my weight to be.

It's okay. We are here for each other... mental or not, at goal or not...


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Glasses: to wear or not to wear...that is the question!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

I went to see my opthamoligist (however the heck you spell it) the other day and he's like "why are you here?" Well, duh, it's like 3 years and my right eye is getting a little blurry, I need new glasses and new sunglasses...duh again!

So the man takes my glasses, puts them in a device and says to me "you are so slightly near sighted. You use these all the time? for distance?" Again...duh. I thought that is what you have to do. So he puts me thru the paces and I am only very slightly worse whan before in my right eye.

The summation of the visit: I have been wearing glasses for ten years and was about to jump into contacts to get rid of the damn things when my eye doctor basically tells me to wear my glasses when driving to see "a little clearer" or when my eyes get tired at night or when I go to the movies or watch TV to make it clearer. In not so many words...that's what he said.

So the great eye experiment began. For 2 days at work, I have not used my glasses...with no headaches. I wear them for driving just fine. By 4 pm or 6 pm put them on...I stink in the dark it seems and when I'm tired. What's funny is that I could have been doing this all along! LMAO! Imagine that! Yeah sure - it's not HDTV like I'm used to with the glasses, but do I really need to see that branch on that tree in my neighbors yard? I can read everything in my office from across the room just fine! So can we say it just one more time - DUH!

I thought I was seems I'm really really really not. What the hell do I know. It was just easier to keep the glasses on ALL THE TIME than to take them off or think about when to actually use them effectively. Talk about a wake up call.

It seems I have gone thru an extreme makeover in one afternoon, with really no big to do at all! Who'd have thunk it!

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AMJSATURN 4/20/2009 5:44PM


You are really funny. You have been wearing glasses that you only need for reading!

Wow.. I wish my visit to the eye doctor would have yielded that kind of news.

I have been wearing glasses since 3 grade. I have been out of school since 1974.
So the glasses are eternally my seeing eyes.(lol)

Will not even consider the laser surgery too late in life now the close vision is dimming., really I can no longer read small print with out the aid of glasses.
And the laser surgery does not correct that .

Any event hang in there enjoy being glasses less. Or free from glasses while you can.

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FULLOFFAITH 3/30/2009 4:34PM

    Wow!!! Lucky you. I have been wanting to get rid of these glasses forever. I cant do the contact thing and cant afford the surgery at this time. And I def cant see without mine. emoticon.


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A Done girl birthday thank-you!!!

Friday, March 06, 2009

Thanks so much to everyone who posted on my page!!

It meant a whole lot, especially since I forgot I put it on the list and I haven't been sparking all that much lately!!

What a wonderful thing!!



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OAKBORN 3/10/2009 10:23PM

    I would have wished a merry merry and a happy happy if I'd known!

So, this may be late but its no less heartfelt!!


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Sparking at all time low...darn this winter slump!!! Spring where are you!

Friday, March 06, 2009

I feel like I've given up computing for Lent! Facebook was active for a while - now it bores me to tears. Sparking in Maintenance Land is a little light too, for whatever reason....I will say that I'm so busy being a "Mom" that we've been constantly busy and when I stop...I stop and sit because sometimes it's just good to stop. And sometimes it feels so damn good you don't want to get up and at 'em ...which means I really am avoiding the treadmill because the basment was FREEZING the last 3 months. Spring cannot get here fast enough for me!!

So here's the news for the spring/summer:
- we bought a "new to us" canoe for our camping trips this year! I'm gonna be soooo sore when the season starts! I can't wait.
- I'm reading at my friend Fred's wedding on Labor Day weekend! West Virginia, here I come! I have to look uber-good. He's a facebooker - so I'm going to be plastered on the web ;) I bought a dress at Kmart for $9.00 on clearance that I am seriously considering wearing. A nice black architecturally designed sheath dress. It's my back-up if nothing catches my eye. With the right shoes & accessories and hair cut - I'm gonna be smokin'.
- I'm getting my haircut today...a slump means that something has got to change, and sometimes, a reminder of change is needed the most where you see it every single minute of the day...thus the chop. Extreme chop too. Angular to offset my round face I think. If I hate'll grow in before the wedding in 6 months.

....PS So good to chop this hair off!!! I went to the girl who did my hair 10 years ago for my wedding...I was a real nice reunion! She gave it a good whack too! She's so current and is glad for the business (which makes me feel like I'm helping the small business owner in this crappy ecomony.) Thank god!! I feel renewed! So many things were done today, I cannot even describe - all within 4 hours. Accounting, haircut, kindergarten I said, time to sit and relax with my cherubs before the bus comes! LOL

....PPS I have to shout out to everyone for the birthday well wishes! You realy made my day! Thanks

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OAKBORN 3/10/2009 10:28PM

    I understand about blogging from MaintenanceVille! Once you've reached goal, something does change... you have (hopefully) learned to live in the real world again... and that reality kind of takes a bigger chunk of time again.

But you are maintaining and that is the important part!

I too had my hair whacked way short a few weeks ago and I love it!

Can't wait to see pix of you smokin' out the competition!

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IAMLION 3/9/2009 6:24PM

    I figured you were busy with life and an added web site. I find it a bit overwhelming at times to keep up to date with SP, MS & FB. I try to get my food/exercise logged in at least then if I have a few minutes, I hit my email and check in on a few friends and boards. I've slowed down on MS. Not much to do there except change my status. FB has heated up. A lot of people from school are joining and I am trying to figure my way thru it. It's amazing how many people I have reconnected with! I think we are having a get together in June so I need to get my ass in gear! I gained some of my weight back and now I am paying for it! Oh well, it tasted good going down and it was awesome to just be still.
emoticon on the new canoe! That sounds like fun! When we camp, I just sit around at camp or laze around on the boat. That's me an ol lazy bones camper!
Looked for a pic of your new cut, didn't see one. How did it turn out? I am trying something new with mine but not sure if I like it much or not? I'll give it another month or two to decide.
Take care girlie! I'll chat more later!

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Oh my! How time flies!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

I feel like I blinked and 2 weeks went by! Holy moly!

Right now, school's out for winter break and I'm in the midst of baby shower prep for my SIL! It's taking over the whole week, as I had thought, but the DH isn't so happy about it - which is weird because we never really do anything at all during this break anyway! Basically, he shouldn't be complaining about anything!

We rearranged the whole house today for the party - the kids like the change and movement of toys to different parts of the house. It looks good and ready to be decorated on friday. Food on the otherhand is ALWAYS last minute and I feel a little out of sorts on that end. the plan is in's just the execution at this point!

Food wise and exercise wise - things are not so hot. I was good up until 2 days ago. Then we went to a friends' house and I fell off the wagon a bit (darned pizza!). Hubby is doing great and has dropped 10 pounds out of fear of having a heart attack (no joke) and high blood pressure. if only he can maintain!! I'm very active, which is good, but the routine is still not where I want it to be! 2 days ago, I got back from my friends and felt very ill. Not my normal "ill" either (from grease) but rather like a belly ache. It's still there today and it pops up after I eat something - anything at all - which leads me to conclude that I have a virus or bug or something. I just hope it doesn't lend itself to a full blown throw-up-a-thon!! I got off the phone with my other friend last night b/c she has the same symptoms I just wrote about...she canceled our playdate today. Probably a good thing! LOL I don't need this now!! too much stuff to do! So there it is! AARGH!!!!!!

So pray that I'm not sick - that would suck! Send those vibes! I need them!!! ROFL!!

Wow - another wacky blog! hey it is what it is!!!

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OAKBORN 3/10/2009 10:30PM

    Hope you got over that fast! I had that back in November... eew.

Prolly a norovirus... just too freaking common and very nasty. Doesn't kill you, but certainly makes you want to!

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IAMLION 2/18/2009 7:22PM

    Healing thoughts and prayers coming your way! Hopefully you will not catch the sick bug!!!

Good luck with the babyshower. Man, I loooooove party food! Yummy!!

Take care!

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