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Back to myself & craving cottage cheese.

Friday, May 01, 2009

A few entries ago, I blogged about how things were off track. By taking control and using the tools here - things took a turn around. It didn't happen right away, but I had faith that it would work if I kept my nose to the grindstone and did tracking and being active in general. I'm sure mu lching the yard didn't hurt! LOL That faith paid off. When I stepped on the scale this morning (which I wasn't even going to do) I was very pleasantly surprised at the result. I also noticed that the belly looked much less bloated and more how it was a few months back...even before the holidays hit and winter took its hibernating toll on my system. Anyway...that's that.

Now here's a new thing...I am craving cottage cheese with pineapple! I just went to the store and stocked up on Dannon Light & fit yogurt and a bunch of flavored cottage cheeses and my all time favorite, Stop & Shop fat free cottage cheese with pineapple - 2 tubs. I can't eat ice cream, so I guess this is the next best thing to crave in its place! Very weird.

I also saw a watermelon and bought it. The kids were thrilled! It's probably a stinky one, but I have to try - I miss my melons oh so much!! Haha - that sounds funny ;)

BTW - last quick note: Remembering that this is a journey also helped me focus. A few bad weeks are a drop in the bucket...accept it, move on, and change it.

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OAKBORN 5/1/2009 11:02AM

    Amen sistah!!

You rock my dear! Remember that you want those new clothes to keep fitting!

I did mostly okay through the winter months... but now with my hip acting up, I am going CRAZY and just feel my hard-won muscles turning to flab.

Spring is here, life is skittles and life is beer!

Hang in there! emoticon

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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Just went to Kohl's and blew a load of moolah on a whole new summer wardrobe! (whoa! totally just remembered I didn't use the giftcard in my pocketbook! Oh well - I have to return a dress anyway...I'll pick up some more clothes! LOL)

I raided the petite section and got about 10 pairs on summer bottoms - size 10P, thank you very much. It's a victory and a nice thing to see and say, because that means I'm maintaining well. Last summers sad 12s are going buy buy officially. Only the ones that really fit will stay, but baggy is not allowed anymore.

I'm still a large in the tops for some reason....hmmmm....the boobs maybe? Anyway..the styles of tops still suck. I'm still not pregnant, nor do I plan to be!!! I bought one of each of the Kohl's classic seasonal graphic t-shirt. Mediums were to tight in the shoulder (I hate that). Larges were a little to big. I bought the Larges. They can shrink all they want to in the drier - I don't care at $5.50 a piece! LOL They will be very useful camping too.

Now - the bathingsuit is still not bought. I try them on in the stores and they all stink. I don't think I'm a separates type of person. I'm going to give QVC a try instead.

I treated myself to 3 pairs of new sandles too. The ones on my feet now are ten years old. They look OK, but for goodness sake!

I gave a little fashion show to my 4 week post-partum SIL. We had fun, and she's in that weird, new, foreign body of gives her hope that things come back to normal. She approved of all my purchases, which made me feel good. She still can't believe how "skinny" I am. I put that word in quotes, because I'm still 162 in my head...and I do not feel skinny. It's nice to talk with a new mom about how things change when a baby comes. We now have a big chunk of stuff in common and she sometimes needs my knowledge...and it's nice to be needed and appreciated like that. She's a great mom...she's doing just fine. I gave her a few L shirts that I bought thinking that she might need a boost of normal non-maternity clothes - actually, they look better on her than me! I'll go back and get some more with my never used gift card! LOL

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SASSYSACY 4/30/2009 9:03AM

    Wow! New clothes are so much fun especially with a new skinny body!


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AMJSATURN 4/28/2009 9:41PM


emoticon on the new wardrobe , love your stories . I can't wait until you share another piece of you.

Alexia emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Friday, April 24, 2009

I was just looking at pics from this past year...I am wearing the same green sweater, or aqua sweater, or maroon fleece in 90% of the pics! Holy cow!! I can honestly say that I missed the after xmas sales competely, and I rarely get out to shop, so that is most of the problem right there, but for GOODNESS sake - you'd think I'd have more sweaters during the winter! I do have to admit - my husband did the laundry and noted that I own waaay too many zippered hoodies. Oh well...warm weather is a comin' and I have to check out those clothes soon too....I already know that I am sorely lacking in everyday t-shirts (my staple) and shorts are sad, as well as work out gear. Maybe I can get some sweet clearance stuff next week on my day off.

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OAKBORN 4/25/2009 9:00AM

    I understand so well! I feel like my wardrobe is sooo limited. Have you thought of garage sales? You can find some good stuff cheap if you know what neighborhoods to hit. I send money with my boss who has good taste and knows how to shop garage sales.

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Take control before it gets worse

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I have someone in my life who is the pessimistic yo-yo dieter of all time. She dropped 40 pounds and then gained 10 back over the summer, and now it looks like she gained another 10 over the winter. I kid you not. She's the person who put it in my head 3 years ago that I'd probably gain back the weight after my last pregnancy, and you know what? that comment put me into a spiral of more weight gain.

But here is the deal...I've learned my lesson. Before 3 pounds creeps up to 10 pounds, you have to stop and take control.

It's sooooo easy to get depressed over weight gain and then that leads to more eating and the cruel and viscious cycle begins again.

I've been there and done that, and I thought this past weekend I was a big old failure for gaining 4 pounds, but I promised myself to Spark more than Facebook on Monday and I'm so glad I did. Taking control is empowering, which leads you to the brighter side of life than the dark side.

It's like Star Wars - The Dark Side of the force to be resisted. I joke about it with my husband all the time.

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GLAMOURGIRL-9 4/22/2009 8:01PM

    100% right! It's all about taking back the control and rem. how good it feels to be in control!!! emoticon

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SASSYSACY 4/21/2009 1:28PM

    Well the timing of me reading your blog is really perfect. I've been slacking. Tommorrow is judgement day and the beginning of a new challenge for me. BLC-10 thru Spark. Need to finish this thing. So glad to read your inspiring blog and nice to know there really is safety in numbers. I'm worried what the scale will tell me tomorrow but it can only get better.

Have a great one Annie! Keep up the good work and stay away from the Dark side!


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OAKBORN 4/21/2009 8:00AM

    Great post Annie!! I really can't add anything to that.

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Ugggh - so frickin' mental.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

That's what I feel like.....Ughh.

Last week was the crappiest eating week on record in the longest time. Easter Week junk wound it's way into my worst stress eating week EVER! The 14th brought the quarterly taxes and the billing and the pre-estimated taxes...and me having to do everything because that is my job. I really screwed the pooch in my time management and I deliberately ate when I wasn't hungry...and about 80% of the time. I guess it was bound to happen eventually.

So here's the skinny on "maintenance" - I think it just plain stinks. You try to ween yourself off of SP, but let's be real - you need it. And that little tidbit of info really pisses me off. I don't want to NEED anything. I WANT to be able to live life without this crutch ( I really should say tool), but it looks like I NEED it to maintain. Mind you, during this whole week at work of stress eating, I'm getting compliments on how well I look! Hahaha LOL ROFL You'd have thunk it would have stopped me from shoving the extra slice of pizza in my mouth! NOT! The mind plays weird tricks and this blog makes no sense.

I'm camping this weekend (home for a little bit in between for kid's baseball) and I'm going to let things be until Monday, when normal routine is back in stride. I no longer watch my nephew, which means I can actaully get out of my house on Mon & Fri with the 2 kids and go food shopping for my fruits & veggies instead of relying on Peapod...and I can exercise easier when the little guy naps. Tracking begins in full swing too. Food & Fitness. My compass is off and I need to get it back.

I would love to get a tummy tuck. My middle is depressing. Pizza dough central. Sounds gross, but all true. I don't think a billion situps could fix this one, but I guess that is what I have to settle on. Tighten what's underneath as best as I can. I guess that's why someone invented Spanx. Why is all of this bothering me now? Who knows. I just reconnected with people who only knew me at 185, and we are planning to meet next week. Is there pressure to look extra extra good? Most likely. I'm 35 to 40 pounds lighter now, but mentally, I'm at 165 even that would have been 20 pounds lighter than when they knew me! ROFL....I know - I'm mental!

Anway - I can't blog anymore b/c I have to put my MOM hat on. Do I feel better? a little bit. Can't wait to start tracking again. Back to my comfort zone, as much as I WANT to resist, I NEED to do this again.

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AMJSATURN 4/20/2009 5:36PM


I see what you mean, maintenance can be a tough time. With all those factors against you
I bet you still are doing an awesome job.

Hang in there

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OAKBORN 4/18/2009 11:51AM

    Hang in there girl! And know that I understand. I can leave for a few days and not track, but I am too paranoid to leave my toolbox behind for more than a few days.

Maybe it's a crutch, maybe it's a tool... it really doesn't matter what you call it, but more in how you frame it. I prefer the term tool, I think it's a healthier frame in which to place it... something useful as opposed to something that you try to get past.

If part of your lifestyle change utilizes tools, think of it like keeping hammers around to hang pictures or repair stuff in your home.

I understand the mental thing... so well. We have a mirror in our front hall and I see myself in it numerous times per day... and I like what I see now as much as I avoided looking when I was fat... but what I still see still is jarring to me, since it's not what my brain still feels my weight to be.

It's okay. We are here for each other... mental or not, at goal or not...


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