Saturday, April 18, 2009
That's what I feel like.....Ughh.
Last week was the crappiest eating week on record in the longest time. Easter Week junk wound it's way into my worst stress eating week EVER! The 14th brought the quarterly taxes and the billing and the pre-estimated taxes...and me having to do everything because that is my job. I really screwed the pooch in my time management and I deliberately ate when I wasn't hungry...and about 80% of the time. I guess it was bound to happen eventually.
So here's the skinny on "maintenance" - I think it just plain stinks. You try to ween yourself off of SP, but let's be real - you need it. And that little tidbit of info really pisses me off. I don't want to NEED anything. I WANT to be able to live life without this crutch ( I really should say tool), but it looks like I NEED it to maintain. Mind you, during this whole week at work of stress eating, I'm getting compliments on how well I look! Hahaha LOL ROFL You'd have thunk it would have stopped me from shoving the extra slice of pizza in my mouth! NOT! The mind plays weird tricks and this blog makes no sense.
I'm camping this weekend (home for a little bit in between for kid's baseball) and I'm going to let things be until Monday, when normal routine is back in stride. I no longer watch my nephew, which means I can actaully get out of my house on Mon & Fri with the 2 kids and go food shopping for my fruits & veggies instead of relying on Peapod...and I can exercise easier when the little guy naps. Tracking begins in full swing too. Food & Fitness. My compass is off and I need to get it back.
I would love to get a tummy tuck. My middle is depressing. Pizza dough central. Sounds gross, but all true. I don't think a billion situps could fix this one, but I guess that is what I have to settle on. Tighten what's underneath as best as I can. I guess that's why someone invented Spanx. Why is all of this bothering me now? Who knows. I just reconnected with people who only knew me at 185, and we are planning to meet next week. Is there pressure to look extra extra good? Most likely. I'm 35 to 40 pounds lighter now, but mentally, I'm at 165 again....lol even that would have been 20 pounds lighter than when they knew me! ROFL....I know - I'm mental!
Anway - I can't blog anymore b/c I have to put my MOM hat on. Do I feel better? a little bit. Can't wait to start tracking again. Back to my comfort zone, as much as I WANT to resist, I NEED to do this again.