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Form fitting clothing phobia

Friday, May 08, 2009

I have that....BIG TIME. Bathing suits season is here, and I will wear one (under duress mind you), yet in my daily life I have form fitting clothing phobia. I would love to know the real medical name for that one.

Today, I pulled out of my drawer, a stretch type, fitted T that I bought from the Kmart clearance rack by accident (the shoulders are all screwed up & are gonna piss me off all day, but I digress). I usually buy the cotton ones w/o the stretch because in the past, God forbid! I show off the back fat! and I usually by the size up so they have room to shrink. Nice mentality I have, huh? Years & years of low self-esteem coming thru loud & clear. Anyway, today is my SAHM day, and no one is going to see me - except my SIL coming over, so why the heck not. I HAVE TO GET OVER THIS!

So today I'm going to wear this clingy t-shirt and look in the mirror whenever I pass it. I've talked about the mental picture before - I'm still at 162 for some reason...well, this month at least. Every bump, every divit, bring it on.

Why am I blogging about this is another question...well, I lost a few extra pounds & last night, I tried on a few dresses that I bought on clearance to see if they fit better- like I have anyplace to wear them. Actually, I take that back. I'm a godmother in 5 weeks, so there I go -an occassion! The size M and size 10 both fit...albeit with bumps, but going a size up would be worse. I have a giant load of loose skin on my belly that isn't going to go away overnight, it looks like a 6pack, which cracks me up. So what to do? what to do? Well, I'm going to buy some Spanx - LOL - to help with the 6pack & I'm going to get over my phobia today if it kills me...which it won't, kill me, that is.

This all comes about from an article I read on Spark about liking oneself in a bathing suit. The writer basically said to wean yourself into the situation. I like that advice & am going to put it into action.

This is a weird challenge for me because even as I type this, I want to rip this stupid shirt off and put on my comfy loose cotton t-shirt.

6PM update....I made it through the day! My SIL came over & she was like, that shirt really fits you (it was under my fleece b/c I was cold) So I took the fleece off. She was all like - it look awesome! It really fits you well! She knows how I was, so she's really happy & supportive like that.

Anyway, we got into this whole conversation of fitness & goal weights and maintainablilty. She just had a baby, so she can relate to my world now really well. Anyway, it was a good day, nonetheless. I'm not ready to go out food shopping in the shirt, but it's a start. emoticon

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OAKBORN 5/9/2009 8:11AM

    Oh Anne!! How well I understand what you just said. I like the other person calling it Claustroclothia... it took me awhile to start doin the form fitting stuff... but now that I have... I LOVE showing off all my hard work.

The Spanx advice sounds spot on, ease yourself into the transition and your mind will change with it!

My belly is hilarious... tight in the middle around the belly button and then skin that hangs in a weird oval around that. I'm considering some surgical intervention. emoticon

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FIREFROG76 5/8/2009 11:21PM

    Let's call it Claustroclothia. sounds like you're well on your way to beating it! You're doing great and mabe by wearing fitted clothes at home you'll get used to them before the next 5 weeks are up!

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The life of the party!

Saturday, May 02, 2009

I went out last night with some people I haven't seen in 10 to 12 years. They were pre-husband and were actually there we had our very first date, and one was at my wedding, but after that..well, people moved on & life got in the way.

Well - first off...they knew the heavy Anne. I felt like I was the fat girl friend in this group of 2 women (this includes me BTW) and 8 guys. I crushed on each & every guy in the group at one point I think, but was too self conscious to do anything about it. & my old girlfriend reconnected thru FB, and I with another one of the guys, and Whallah! a reunion took place last night at an old restaurant we used to go to.

It was such a great time getting together with these people - I cannot express! I still have that huge grin on my face from last night. No awkwardness, no weird vibes - just smiles & laughter...probably because nobody dated one each other in our group! LOL

I will say this, appearance wise, everyone else looked the same, but I absolutely FLOORED my friend John (ROFL) and my friend Ann (LMAO). Ok, Ann gained a little, but she was a size 0 way back when, and now she looks, well, normal. I think she's a size 4 or6 now - LoL & she looks fabulous!

The weirdest thing about this group is that we have only a few pictures of our time together from way back when...but I really wish we had at least some. Well, we took a few pics and had a bunch of laughs and I was no longer the self conscious one this time... I was the life of the frickin' party!!

I don't think we'll ever let 10 years go like that again. I'd like to add that there is a certain freedom and comfort that comes with getting older & wiser...we are all in great relationships and happy in our lives...but there's also an added exhilaration about making one of my past secret mini-crush's mouth hang open on first meeting. That was cool. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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IAMLION 5/7/2009 7:28AM

    That's awesome!! So glad you had a great time!

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OAKBORN 5/2/2009 6:59PM

    How fun! And what a great reaction from ex-crush guy!

Keep on rockin' it!!

BTW, cottage cheese is GREAT food... meant to say that earlier! Low in fat and PACKED with protein! Mix with fruit or whatever floats your boat and yummmmm..... I love it with pineapple too!

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Back to myself & craving cottage cheese.

Friday, May 01, 2009

A few entries ago, I blogged about how things were off track. By taking control and using the tools here - things took a turn around. It didn't happen right away, but I had faith that it would work if I kept my nose to the grindstone and did tracking and being active in general. I'm sure mu lching the yard didn't hurt! LOL That faith paid off. When I stepped on the scale this morning (which I wasn't even going to do) I was very pleasantly surprised at the result. I also noticed that the belly looked much less bloated and more how it was a few months back...even before the holidays hit and winter took its hibernating toll on my system. Anyway...that's that.

Now here's a new thing...I am craving cottage cheese with pineapple! I just went to the store and stocked up on Dannon Light & fit yogurt and a bunch of flavored cottage cheeses and my all time favorite, Stop & Shop fat free cottage cheese with pineapple - 2 tubs. I can't eat ice cream, so I guess this is the next best thing to crave in its place! Very weird.

I also saw a watermelon and bought it. The kids were thrilled! It's probably a stinky one, but I have to try - I miss my melons oh so much!! Haha - that sounds funny ;)

BTW - last quick note: Remembering that this is a journey also helped me focus. A few bad weeks are a drop in the bucket...accept it, move on, and change it.

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OAKBORN 5/1/2009 11:02AM

    Amen sistah!!

You rock my dear! Remember that you want those new clothes to keep fitting!

I did mostly okay through the winter months... but now with my hip acting up, I am going CRAZY and just feel my hard-won muscles turning to flab.

Spring is here, life is skittles and life is beer!

Hang in there! emoticon

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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Just went to Kohl's and blew a load of moolah on a whole new summer wardrobe! (whoa! totally just remembered I didn't use the giftcard in my pocketbook! Oh well - I have to return a dress anyway...I'll pick up some more clothes! LOL)

I raided the petite section and got about 10 pairs on summer bottoms - size 10P, thank you very much. It's a victory and a nice thing to see and say, because that means I'm maintaining well. Last summers sad 12s are going buy buy officially. Only the ones that really fit will stay, but baggy is not allowed anymore.

I'm still a large in the tops for some reason....hmmmm....the boobs maybe? Anyway..the styles of tops still suck. I'm still not pregnant, nor do I plan to be!!! I bought one of each of the Kohl's classic seasonal graphic t-shirt. Mediums were to tight in the shoulder (I hate that). Larges were a little to big. I bought the Larges. They can shrink all they want to in the drier - I don't care at $5.50 a piece! LOL They will be very useful camping too.

Now - the bathingsuit is still not bought. I try them on in the stores and they all stink. I don't think I'm a separates type of person. I'm going to give QVC a try instead.

I treated myself to 3 pairs of new sandles too. The ones on my feet now are ten years old. They look OK, but for goodness sake!

I gave a little fashion show to my 4 week post-partum SIL. We had fun, and she's in that weird, new, foreign body of gives her hope that things come back to normal. She approved of all my purchases, which made me feel good. She still can't believe how "skinny" I am. I put that word in quotes, because I'm still 162 in my head...and I do not feel skinny. It's nice to talk with a new mom about how things change when a baby comes. We now have a big chunk of stuff in common and she sometimes needs my knowledge...and it's nice to be needed and appreciated like that. She's a great mom...she's doing just fine. I gave her a few L shirts that I bought thinking that she might need a boost of normal non-maternity clothes - actually, they look better on her than me! I'll go back and get some more with my never used gift card! LOL

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SASSYSACY 4/30/2009 9:03AM

    Wow! New clothes are so much fun especially with a new skinny body!


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AMJSATURN 4/28/2009 9:41PM


emoticon on the new wardrobe , love your stories . I can't wait until you share another piece of you.

Alexia emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Friday, April 24, 2009

I was just looking at pics from this past year...I am wearing the same green sweater, or aqua sweater, or maroon fleece in 90% of the pics! Holy cow!! I can honestly say that I missed the after xmas sales competely, and I rarely get out to shop, so that is most of the problem right there, but for GOODNESS sake - you'd think I'd have more sweaters during the winter! I do have to admit - my husband did the laundry and noted that I own waaay too many zippered hoodies. Oh well...warm weather is a comin' and I have to check out those clothes soon too....I already know that I am sorely lacking in everyday t-shirts (my staple) and shorts are sad, as well as work out gear. Maybe I can get some sweet clearance stuff next week on my day off.

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OAKBORN 4/25/2009 9:00AM

    I understand so well! I feel like my wardrobe is sooo limited. Have you thought of garage sales? You can find some good stuff cheap if you know what neighborhoods to hit. I send money with my boss who has good taste and knows how to shop garage sales.

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