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Computer problems and more.....

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Hey all! Just wanted to let you all know that I'm still here, but my PCs and routers are all screwed up. One PC needs to be redone and now my wireless router is on the fritz causing my other laptop to be a pain to work on. I'm at work right now just to blast this out there!

Let's see - I've been busy being mom as usual and we went on a very stressful camping trip to Lancaster, PA. Full moon and my PMS brought about weird behavior from everyone in the family....but in the end we all had fun and learned a lot about each other - Family bonding - gotta love it! LOL Best lessons learned - 1) never camp for 7 days...keep it to 5 max....2) never leave after school ends....wait at least a week for the kids to decompress and then go in July.

The diet and lifestyle went right to the side of the road too...gained some back, but in a few days, the water weight is off and I'm still at my original goal of 150... NO COMPLAINTS!!! I beat myself up a lot during the camping trip b/c things were a little tight (Duh, period came) and I was all mental...but hey, it happens. I had a heart to heart with my husband too about how much stuff I had been doing for the family and how my stress level was uber-high b/c I never had time to take care of me....thus my constant yelling at everyone...thank goodness he listened to me and actually HEARD me. I started my walking again, and he did as well today. Happy happy ----joy joy! :)

While we were away, my sister booked her wedding date - Aug 29th of this summer!! I already have another wedding to get in shape for on Sept 5th, but now I really have to get on the ball! She wants me and my other sister to pseudo-match in the color department...Marge is a size4 and well....I'm not! LOL Completely different body types! This should be very interesting finding a dress! I'm going to look on the bright side, maybe I can use the same dress for both weddings! Always the economist. LOL

So that is it in a nutshell. The computer problems STINK...so if I'm quiet, you all know why. When I'm up & running again in a more normal fashion, I'll be back with a gusto. Until then, stay well everyone! I'm rooting for you all and thinking of all my sparkfriends quite often...I miss being here a lot.

Cross your fingers that my computer geek can repair me soon!!! emoticon

  
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OAKBORN 7/14/2009 5:14PM

    Hey girl! I'm still out here, as are you! Hey 2 weddings, 1 dress makes sense to me (esp considering I just did that for the March & June weddings I had to attend).

Camping with your period... whew, you are a braver woman than I Gunga Din.

Good job to both you and hubby for communicating!!

Boo to computer problems!!

Hang in there! emoticon

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GRALLEN 7/8/2009 4:28PM

    My fingers are crossed!!

It's helpful when the hubby's can lend a hand at home but also neat when they join us in this weight loss journey. It can make it so much easier to do on a daily basis.

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A weird feeling...a shared heart.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Yesterday I was away from my family WHOLE entire day! On Friday I dropped them off at the campsite and then went home to sleep...Saturday was an all day bridal showe/hangout with my high school friends...this morning was back to the campground to pack up the family.

While I was away from them, I had a BLAST! I drove the 3 of us into the shower, we met our friend and his beautiful bride (whom we've only met once before) and had a great time...later we went to the store for food and continued to hang out at my house until late. I looked good...felt great...except for ONE moment before our meal...

So lunch was more like dunch. We ate around 3:30 - usually no big deal because appetizer trays came around. I've been good every since I had a high stress bile duct sludge attack episode last week that I didn't blog about, but I digress. I drank my water all day long, but out of the blue - something felt wrong.

My heart felt like it was skipping a beat, my breathing became strange...I didn't want to alert my friends (both bride & groom are doctors for goodness sake and sitting right there)...so I went to the bathroom a few times. Once to stretch, another to pee (and see if I had an upset stomach - sort of), another to calm down. I knew I had to eat something - could have been low blood sugar because my eating was off, and then the dinner finally came....drenched in butter, of course!

I ate 3/4 of the the chicken...that's it and then felt better. My friend Steph (hey hon if you read this)...I think she picked up on it. My friend Fred (the doc) (hey dude if you read this) kept looking to see if I was eating anything off my plate...you know when you catch someone looking in between glasses to see your plate..he did that. I don't know if he caught on to how I was feeling or just making sure I eat in general - LOL! I totally skipped dessert, but had coffee. Anyway - the feeling passed and I felt better by the time we left. Much, much better. Normal, in fact. Weird, huh?

I told Steph later that I felt weird....and yes, she did pick up on it after all. We've only known each other for 20 years. LOL

So today, I went to pick up hubby & the kids from camping. My hubby was telling me his day (in order, of course) and he's been known to have anxiety attacks in the last few months under certain situations (checked out & all's fine, that's how we know), and guess what...while his parents were visiting him and talking about a particular subject...he started having an anxiety attack.

The time of this attack started around 3:30...the same time I was not feeling well 50 miles away!!!!! Coincidence???? I THINK NOT!!

Talk about WEIRD!!! We've been married 10 years this year. I joke to everyone that we share a brain. I guess we share a heart too.

  
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OAKBORN 6/16/2009 9:54PM

    Loving someone truly does that to you. I know from experience!

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AMJSATURN 6/15/2009 12:11AM

    Annie,

I think you must a share heart, that is surely coincidence that you were feeling the same that he was 50 miles away.

I am happy that it was something worst.

Happy Spark and enjoy your week.

Alexia emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Getting back to normal...at last!

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Hubby's butt is finally on the mend! What a thing to write!! LOL
His stitches came out yesterday & he's been more active, yet still "tender". That being said, he's going back to work tomorrow b/c he's going stircrazy and needs closure to the end of the school year...which is very good.

Anyway...this weekend is going to be a different one. High school friends are all in town this weekend for a shower - YAY!! I'm so excited! DH and the kids will be camping out east and I will be hanging with my friends on Saturday. I'm betting money that I'll be driving to and from the campground a few times, but to spend time with my friends will be worth it. I deserve this break.

So now I have to get to bed. Busy day at work (hopefully) tomorrow....I'm being proactive there because work is so sporadic. Hopefully, this too shall pass.& things will pick up. Fingers crossed.

  
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OAKBORN 6/11/2009 9:56PM

    Sorry it's been a few days since you posted until I posted a comment. I'm glad hubby is better and that you are going to get a break! Have a fun weekend!!

I'll be hanging out with my friend on Saturday too!

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AMJSATURN 6/9/2009 10:54PM

    Nice ending to his story.

Enjoy your visit with friends emoticon emoticon emoticon

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What I've been up to.

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

So much has gone on the the last half month - you would not believe!

First things first - my husband had a HUGE cyst and 2 fistulas removed from his behind. Yes, I said it correctly - tush, behind, butt - pick a word, it still had to be done and he's just fine and recovering 10 to 14 days until the sutures come out, but let's face it, a lot of stuff is falling on me now and in the end - I get the pain in the ass, not him! emoticon

Second - up to the surgery, I had to prepare a pack night for the whole troop on the same day as the surgury! No kidding! Great timing huh? Lots of things going on, like I said. This project was the equivalent to a very large presentation for a board of CEO's - except I don't get paid for it at all. Nada. Nothing. At all.

Lots of prep...lots of worry over hubby...lots of prep for what I'm doing with the kids...lots of stress....which in turn turns to LOTS OF STRESS EATING!!! I felt like a bottomless pit! You name it, I ate it (within reason, of course). I actually missed my period and had to take a pregnancy test because everything was so out of the ordinary and I was so ravenous!! Just imagine that one! LOL (no, I'm not prego...my IUD just kicked into not-period mode, which is totally normal to happen. Funny how it happened now though!)

So that's what's been going on in my world. Now things are calming down - somewhat. Hubby's recovery means that I have to get tons done because life doesn't stop. He's helpful yet can't push it too much or else he will be useless even longer than the recovery time.

Scouts is almost over, which is good too. One more meeting and one more pack night.

Today daycare has the kids & today is my day to play catch-up on all the house stuff once I get off of here - mow lawn, clean pool - stuff that I usually DON'T do! LOL

FYI - Realizing that the stress eating thing was a problem was eyeopening. I know I do it, but WHOA! I have to reign this horse in. Today. NOW.

So off I go to mow my lawn and drink my water and pee all day long in between. Come join me on the saddle! It's fun! LoL

  
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IAMLION 6/5/2009 7:28AM

    emoticon Wow! Talk about stress! Look at you being the great multi-tasker!! emoticon You are awesome!

I hope your hubby is feeling better! My husband had something like that once and it about killed him when they lanced the thing. I was in the room and it wasn't pretty. He can handle a lot of pain so it had to be a pretty painful procedure if it made him groan in agony! Your hubby is in great hands, I'm sure your are being a very attentive nurse emoticon

Take care!

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AMJSATURN 6/2/2009 5:23PM

    Annie,

Get well wishes to the hubby.

It is amazing how stress can contribute to getting your period or not. And I would much rather join you at poolside.
Let me know when you are done cleaning it.

emoticon. This is me in your pool.

Alexia

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SASSYSACY 6/2/2009 1:08PM

    Oh Annie! Busy, busy but once again your on top of it! Good for you---way to take control!

Hang in there and enjoy the ride!


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What my FB friends don't know...my SP secret.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Today was really cool when I opened SP and found out I was motivator of the day...for a few reasons:
#1 - I had no idea they even did that until about a month ago, in fact I missed a good buds day about a month ago (still feel bad about that one Oak - you know I would have thrown a ticker tape parade on that day)
#2 - the past week has been SOOOOOO crazy hectic, I've been off of the SP radar since my last blog on the 11th....it was nice to see some visitors on the old page! LOL
#3 - this world is waaaaay cooler than Facebook.

You might wonder why I even say that. Well, for one, I am me here. Totally. I pose no fronts, I hold nothing back. If you want my opinion - I will give it with a warm heart and helping hand. On SP - people see more "me" than even my family does. My emotions are put on display easier here than there. They knew me in different phases, but the whole time of being in those phases, I was the person I am - right here, right now. Does that even make sense to you? It's hard to explain. The self conscious, low self esteem person they knew - which at times with them was not the case on the outside - was there the whole time on the inside. Here at SP, the self conscious, low self-esteem side of me has emerged into someone new...more self assured, more self esteem, more self worth... than ever before. Does that make sense to you now?

So on FB, do you think I have posted any real heavy pics of myself??? 20 or so years has gone by with some of these people...some 15 years...some 10-12 years. All of those markers, I can honestly say were heavy markers - aside from my wedding when I was 154 (a low weight) and stuffed into my wedding dress. My good high school friends - my core group of 4 - they have seen me go up & down...they don't judge, but are happy for me...and I for them however they are because I love them with all my heart. But the question is still on the table...have I posted any real heavy pics of myself? The answer is an ambiguous "not really."

High school pics are up by other people - I am thinner now than I was then, so there you go.
College pics from College #1 - nope - none are up...kinda want to not display that era of stupidity if you catch my drift. LOL
College pics from College #2 - none yet, but then again, there weren't many taken with my friends b/c we didn't carry around cameras like today....I take that back - a few are up, but I'm hiding a lot.
Wedding pics - one is up of me & my core HS friends.
Prego pics - none up yet.
Post partum pics - one or 2 where I look 165 and haggard & then I went right back up again.

My good HS friends know what I'm up to...in fact one is here...and if you read this Steph...I love ya girl! My good bud Fred knows my secret too...he cheers me on from afar. I told one FB & HS friend my weight journey, but not my secret.

Another FB friend has a weight hiding secret on FB as well...she's lost about 50 pounds & she is a patient in my office....we joke about not revealing our heavyweight secrets on FB...but part of me is almost ready to say...."you know what, so what!!!" and to come out of the closet for good. I'm ready to post a pic labeled "yeah, that's me" and leave it there for all to see.

Is it the anonymity of SP that gives us this freedom to express ourselves and to find ourselves amongst our own baggage? Is it the paralyzing judgement of our peers on FB that freezes us into non-action of something as silly as posting pics of ourselves in an unflattering light?

I'm so sensitive to other people's self-images that I ask them permission before posting pics of them on FB, because that is what I would want them to do for me...and I've held back on family members' pics for just that reason.

Anyway....I didn't mean this to wax so philosophical on you, but I guess it was on my mind. I have Sparkpeople as a fav on my FB page, but noone has asked me about it thusfar.

I'd love to shout it out on FB that I was SP Motivator of the day too, because that made my week...but that will have to wait until some reunions come about.

In the meantime...thanks SparkPeople...thanks for being such a great website and support system for sooooo many people out there. I can't think of my life without you.

  
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BABYSTEPS93 6/1/2009 4:09PM

    Hi Annie,
I really enjoyed your blog and can totally relate. I love FB but I don't want people to see what I have become. I get so mad at myself for letting things go for so long and wasting so much of my life. I certainly don't want to be judged by others who have never went through the same struggles.
I think that is what is so great about SP, no one judges....they are truly there to support eachother. I haven't been on SP for such a long time and noticed that I have lost a few friends...which makes me sad. Thanks for hanging in there and being so brutally honest about your feelings. It is nice to know that there are others out there who feel the same!
Take Care,
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AMJSATURN 5/18/2009 9:13PM

    Annie,

You are so totally right!!. I don't know how your thoughts are so in tune with what many of us are thinking. You seem to put it in the right words , every time. emoticon.

I don't use Face book not really interested at this time. Lots and lots of invites. MySpace is really not me, I did try it and pulled the plug on that.

But Spark people is totally different.

Enjoyed the blog as always.

Alexia

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STACYAND 5/18/2009 1:06PM

    We seem to be on the same wavelength...I too have a Facebook and 'sensor' which pics I put on there depending on how I feel I look in them. I'm embarassed to say this but, I'll also go so far as to untag photos that friends have taken of me! But you are so right! So what? Who cares what I look like? My friends don't. And why should I care what people from a long time ago who see me think? Thanks for the encouraing words!

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WIMBLEDONMUM 5/18/2009 11:48AM

  Laughing so hard - just got back from holidays and have culled through all the pictures to put on FB - i think there is one of just my head from the chin up! Read your page and was very motivated by it. Am in a very similar situation as you were- 186.5 after 2 kids and trying to get back to the weight I was when i got married - 154... It helps wehn you can see someone who has been able to do it and the numbers are similar. Thanks for leaving the various comments and weigh-ins on your page.

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LEAVNTHEW8BHIND 5/18/2009 10:38AM

    totally understand this blog!

Sparkpeople is my "no hold barge" area - mostly because I do it under an alias. I'm embarrassed about my weight and don't want ANYONE (I know) to know what I'm doing. It's my secret and that's the way it needs to be - I need to do this for myself and with no one pushing me in my life, but with the online support that is nonjudgemental.

Keep it up!

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BIONIC2 5/18/2009 10:38AM

    I refuse to join FB or MS. They just don't do it for me. I think for me it's like you said, the anonymity of it helps. I've got to admit now, though, that I've put my before and now pictures up in my gym. It wasn't until I reached 50 pounds gone that I felt I even had the right to do it. My progress is there for the world to see and right next to those pictures is a SP flyer!

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GRALLEN 5/18/2009 9:47AM

    I have to admit, I haven't really posted anything on FB about my weight loss journey either. And I've been very selective on what photos of me are on there.

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MOMMA_GRIZZ 5/18/2009 8:28AM

    That was a very thought provoking blog - loved it! Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

Congratulations on being the motivator! You are doing fantastic!

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OAKBORN 5/18/2009 8:24AM

    Annie! You.Rock.

I understand subdividing your life between different blogs/social networking sites based on who might be reading it. I am open at different levels on different sites.

I am glad that you are comfortable here. Sparked friends are the best! (As I well know because of you!)

And you DESERVE this!! You've been my friend through a lot here! emoticon emoticon

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