Wednesday, November 18, 2009
I'm making it official today!
I'm NOT waiting for the number to say 137.00, because when I started this journey, my scale was CRAP and it said 187 - I think...could have been 188 for all I know! But that is it! I am making it official - I LOST 50 pounds on Sparkpeople!!
Now you all know why I was uber-happy on my status yesterday! When I saw that '7' on my scale, I fairly jumped out of my skin! I've done this with every pound that I have lost....I catch a glimmer...then it goes away...and then I get more determined to see that number again...and then it comes back and smiles on me once more. So after 2 days...it's staying, which means that it is official in my book. 137.
I laugh a bit here & there...like take off the 4 pounds off for sagging skin and I'm totally under that! LOL I do, I have a bunch of that...but, that is AOK...I am healthy and that is what matters most. I have energy, I have lost the wieght of one of my kids! I picked him up yesterday just to feel the difference....WOW is all I can say.
I don't really talk about how much I have lost with my husband...he has always loved me as heavy and he doesn't mind one way or the other. This is the thinnest he has every seen me since we are together....and he doesn't mind a bit, I don't think. Well, he came home yesterday, and saw that I was super-happy. He gave me a hug, and in his arms, I looked into his eyes and I told him that I have lost a total of 50 pounds.
His look was priceless! A mix of shock and happiness and surprise.
Being around me all the time, well, I guess he doesn't see the weight on or off...he just sees me...like he always has. He sees me...and that is why I married him. Met him when I was 188, wed at 157 (my lowest since highschool - can we say yo-yo diet here) and I ballooned up from there...and all that time, he saw ME. Loved ME. Not the body, not the weight... just ME.
He's not a guy to give compliments on looks either, but this time, he honestly said that I did everything the right way - slow & steady and that I should really think about helping people professionally. LOL - you see, I have talked to him about going to to school to become a Registed Dietician, but before, as with any kookee idea I have ever had, he kinda brushed me off. (I will add that this pisses me off considerably, & have said so...& he has apologized for it)...but I digress. This was the first time, out of his mouth, that he thought I could do something more than being a wife, a mother, a manager of a dental practice. Talk about seeing me...for the first time....again.
When I saw myself in the mirror today, I was a bit in shock myself. I saw a new person there. Being on maintenance for 146-150 for a year changed my mindset about my body image, and that was a very good thing. I think if I went directly to this weight back then, I don't know if I could have maintained it as well as the 146-150 range. That being said....I KNOW that I can maintain the 130s. It can and will be done. I don't think I'm done learning either...I have mushiness to work on and do some toning...and if more wieght comes off...that is fine...I always said that a body has it's own equilibrium it will settle down at...when it settles, I will maintain there.
There is always something to learn...onward and upward. I'm curious as to where I will land...we shall see!
Before I sign off on this post....Just want to thank ALL my Sparkfriends...Oakboarn & Iamlion & Fulloffiath & MommaKat...I give you the biggest shoutout right now because we have been Sparkfriends for over a YEAR AND A HALF! That is a long time in cyberworld...thank you for all of your support and for being there whenever I needed you. My newest Sparkfriends...thanks for all of your encouragement and inspiration as well. I am here whenever you need me - I love your new friendships and the support that you have given me most recently.......THANK YOU!!!!! I take Sparking very seriously...I wish you all the best in life and love and success on your own life's journey.
Couldn't have done it without you.
Monday, November 16, 2009
First off...thanks to everyone who popped by on the last few blogs....usually I make rounds and visit, but this week blew that out of the water completely!
So the update is this..... I have ONE LEFT with a fever. My youngest has a regular 101 going on which goes up & down with the Motrin/Tylenol. This started right after the flu shot, so I'm thinking that it's an adverse reaction. Still...the doc is getting a phonecall in a few minutes.
The other kids are off to school on the bus with me calling after them "I don't want to see you until this afternoooooon!!! I love you (but I'm sick of Youuuuuuu)!!!!" OK - the last part was under my breath...sort of.
My youngest is back on the couch, in his "spot", watching Handy Manny. He's cool...for now.
My hubby - well he is turning into a hypochondriac. He honestly said his face was numb yesterday and he thought he was having a stroke. I almost lost it on him. I told him to go to the doctor...but before he goes, feel his youngest who has had a fever for 4 days and tell him that nothing is wrong with him, as I hacked another loogy into a tissue and wheezed, coughed and simultaneously wet my pants. He shut up after that. I'm not heartless here...he went to the doc 6 months ago with "heart attack symptoms" & had a full body checkup - aside from his 205 weight, he's healthy as a horse. He's turning into his sister and father - both known hypochondriacs, and his mother - mental. Great. Yippee. Awesome. I get the whole enchilada.
This week was a weird eating week...I ate whatever, whenever because it was what I needed to do. Lots of soup. Lots& lots. It's funny, when you are sick and actually have been listening acutely to your body's needs for over a year, it's so easy to figure out what it needs. I will just say that during a stressful portion, I was eyeing the cake sitting in a box ontop of the fridge, but I prevailed. Like the calories would matter at all - HA! not likely since I was so under this week. It was the aftemath of how I would feel after eating the sugar/fat IN the cake itself. On top of this cold - who needs that crap too? Not me.
Anyhow...gotta go call the doc about the kiddo. Hopefully it's nothing and I don't have to bring him into the germfest of an office.
Update: The docs office is all "Monitor the situation, If he's acting normal, then keep him home and administer the Tylenol like you are doing. It's most likely 'the other flu'" I like that, "the other flu" - like it's taboo to say "H1N1" or "Swine Flu." Gimme a break!! Oh well...the others are all well....one left, like I said. If it is Swine, then we are D O N E DONE! for the season and we can breathe again!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Whew! What a crazy week! Today is the first day I can honestly say that I feel more like myself in 5 days...and the house is back into it's normal routine after a full week. The kids are all back to school/daycare and hubby is back to work as well. Fever in a family today basically means that, if you have a brain and some consideration to others, you quarentine your whole family to keep the fever contained and not spread those germs to others. So that is what we did. 2 out of the 5 of us had a fever...now it is gone. We all have coughs going on, but all in all, we are back in action.
I had a status up the other day that I was 95% sure that I had the swine flu. I can say that because my niece (who goes to daycare with my youngest) was confirmed to have it. We all had the same exact symptoms too...101 fever, weak, a cough...all of which would come & go when ibuprofen was administered. Oh well...what are ya gonna do. So many people have had the fever/cough combo, I wouldn't be surprised at all if swine flu was invading the 'burbs without a mention of it in the media at all. Even with the regular seasonal flu, you have to monitor your situation. Thousands of people land in the hospital from seasonal flu too. The best advice from my pediatrician was this: keep an eye on the temperature and the breathing...anything high or labored, get it checked out ASAP. So that is that.
So now, I have a residual cough and runny nose. No running in my world this week at all. Another week off will just make things heal up completely. Oh, did I mention I pulled my back out...yes, I think I did in my last blog...well, anyway, that is healing up nicely. The rest and Tylenol every 4 hours for the "flu" helped me rest it away. I just have a little stiffness. I'm so happy I did not pinch a nerve. I'll take a muscle strain any day over a pinched nerve.
OHHHH...and hubby...well, he became superman on Mon & Tues when I was sick...all the laundry was done, food shopping, kids tended to while I was sick in bed. He was a good sport on Tues, because he was just about to go to work when I called, very pathetically, from the bathroom that I needed him. He just took of his tie and sent an email to his coworker his plans for the day.
Thanks to everyone who came by with well wishes...I'll be popping by soon to say hey. I hope all is well with everyone in the meantime!
Well...I'm off to Lysol the house while the place is empty and then run off to work. Ciao!!
PS at 5:50pm
Scratch that....my middle guy was sent home from school AGAIN and my youngest has 100 and is on the couch while hubby is now complaining "my glands are big and sore, right??" OMG!!!!!! Just when I thought it was all safe and sound to go back in the water!!!!!
Nevermind....but now, SUPERMOM is on duty...here comes the chicken soup people! OPEN WIDE!!
Monday, November 09, 2009
Ever had a cough so bad you wet your pants?
Well, trust me, they exist.
So all day yesterday, I felt the sore throat building and the chest pressure increase, so while waiting for my hubby to get home from his shooting excursion with his dad, I rested as best as I could. My kids are awesome...one was sick up in my bed resting, watching tv and sleeping, and the others were napping and hanging around playing Wii. I made it thru dinner and 5:30, hubby walked in the door.
Did he ask me how my weekend was? No, not really. He jumped right into his.
Did I mention to him that I had a crappy one? Yes, when he called at 3pm to tell me they were running late, I kinda mentioned it.
Did I get that hug I wanted? No, not really.
Did he get defensive and say how he really couldn't help me anyway because he was away? Yes.
Did he throw it in my face today about how I gave him attitude that he was going away & I was stuck with the kids? Yes, he did
Did I give attitude? No, I was encouraging
Did I throw that right back at him today? Yes, I did.
Did it shut him up? Yes, it did.
We rarely fight...and yes, has he gone away before and have I given him attitude? hell yeah...but I made a point this time around NOT TO. A conscious effort on my part completely. As our relationship grows on, I realize that we are two people who need to be individuals as well as a couple. I can have friends and go out, and so can he. We are together all the time, best friends, but really, without new experiences, what are we going to talk about if we don't live life to the fullest? I have openly encouraged him to spread his wings and hang with the guys, because #1 all our best friends are far away and #2 he his so like his hermit-like mother it is scary...and he knows it.
Anyway...I was down for the count today and now Mucinex is my best friend (hahahaha). A gilrlfriend of mine just got a piano and we made a barter deal for me to teach her kids to play...and I KNEW I had my old notes from my lessons 30 years ago and I went on an escapade to find them....DUMB MOVE.
Under our upstair eaves, there is a closet that is really deep and has tons of room and shelves...in there was a box from the past. I took that box and sort of cleaned up some stuff. Didn't find that steno pad, BUT I did happen to pulled something in my lower back. I couldn't stand up straight...my pelvis right now doesn't want to tilt forward.
This stinks so bad. I haven't had back pain in 20 years...and before it was from being too heavy! I'm walking like an 80 year old that needs both her hips replaced! Aaargh!!! Add the stupid cough that makes me wet myself and I'm a pretty frickin' picture, I tell ya! Where are my Depends? See? Now I'm senile too! Hey..if I don't laugh, I'm gonna cry.
So I'm taking this as a sign from God. Rest, woman...just rest.
Saturday, November 07, 2009
It's not really a "b" blog...well...maybe, I'm not _itchy, I'm bummed.
Hubby's away for the weekend to go shooting in some remote part of upstate NY with his dad...he needs to do stuff like that more often, so I am totally cool with that. I planned to have a Mom's night IN with some girlfriends...at 9pm when the kids are upstairs in bed. So many of us are in desperate need of a vent session, so this was the perfect opportunity.
Well....until yesterday at 3pm...the elementary school called to tell me to pick up my middle guy...101 fever and a sore throat. CRAP! bad omen right there. The fever goes away with ibuprofen every time, so I figured a good nights sleep was in order.
Good night's sleep, woke up sort of fine...we all went to the office (I work in my dad's home office - easy to bring the kids in a pinch)....then we went to the store...he had a PITA fit about something - should have been a sign. We got home..he went upstairs and when I went upstairs, I found him passed out in my bed, fast asleep.
In the meantime, an idiot parent who couldn't sell her popcorn (she didn't even try) called and told me on my machine that the "Show & Sell" time was not good for her. This thing is FOR HER and her son...so now I have to move the time earlier. Thank god that it was doable...so after 5 phonecalls and 6 emails later, I still have idiot parents calling me asking me questions I have no idea to answer....thus making me the idiot. Well, this idiot (me)sent out some more email (which the others could have done as well) in hopes of finding some answer to their idiot questions...but I digress...
2 hours later, Goldilocks wakes up - HOT...101 again. CRAP! Now, I don't feel comfortable bringing everyone in, even tho the kids will be upstairs..the germies are still here and everyone has little babies. So I canceled. We are all bummed...big time
So my plans of getting tipsy with the girls is out...the kids had Happy Meals, and I'm having some hot wings I was planning on eating later tonight. I guess it's better than a McDonald's whatever and the heavy cals found there. Maybe it's a blessing in disguise.
I ordered a Nonfat sugarfree Mccafe latte - 2 thumbs up here - and that perked my spirits up a bit. My wings will be yummy, and now I am going to put on my pjs, and later I will break out my favorite period piece movies (Pride & Prejudice and Jane Eyre) and have a solo night in.
Tomorrow is a new day...with a Cub Scout popcorn sale at the local grocery store from 10 to 12...and my brother and father will be taking my eldest to mandatory mass for reconciliation at our church & then dropping him off at the grocery store where I will be with the 2 sick one in tow. joy.
When my husband gets home in time for the Giant game...I'm leaving the house and going for a much deserved outdoor walk. I heard the weather is going to be lovely tomorrow....I'd better take advantage while I can.
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