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Sunday, November 29, 2009

Okey Dokey people - part 1 of the dreaded trifecta Holiday Season is OVER!

Bring on Christmas and New Years...go ahead, we're gonna be ready, right?

DID YOU HEAR ME? WE'RE GONNA BE READY....RIGHT?

Damn straight we are!

So, in retrospect of this last blast of calorie consuming non-tracking nonsense...which I will confess, is probably the worst I've been since my anniversary drink-fest...I'm going to share with you my usual insight into "the yuk."

What - praytell - is "the yuk"????
Well, for me - gas, bloating, lethargy - they hit first and hard....EWWW! Totally unSparky, don't ya think? Then.....The neck bloat...AAARGH! NOT THAT!!! emoticon

Hahaha...I just hit the post button...someone is going to read this and go ?????? Was she finished?

Back to the neck bloat. It's when I totally get all poooochy in the neck area and my double chin comes out of NOWHERE!!! AAAAHHH! Not That!!

That is when I KNOW I have to get back on track. I HATE the neck bloat....so unattractive now...I'm never going to have the neck bloat again!


SO - I ask you this: What gets you back on track? How can you tell when you've over-done-it? Inquiring minds want to know????

well, at least, I do!

  
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MELTEAGUE 12/1/2009 3:48PM

    I don't get "neck bloat" but I get tummy bloat....and it all goes straight to the hips!

My swimming motivates me to keep on track!

well , 1 down , 2 holidays to go!

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OAKBORN 11/29/2009 7:10PM

    I don't have the neck bloat.. I have the butt-spread!

get it get it get it!

Haven't counted, barely exercised, shoulder flared up again... argh argh argh!

Will do better. Must do better. Have no choice.

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JENSHAWN 11/29/2009 3:32PM

    At least you didn't have a turkey neck. You know,the ones who went "under the knife". It seems like I have exercised twice as much this past week than since I have started. I haven't been on the scale for a week. I will find out Monday what the scales say! Wish me luck!

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ERNURSERN 11/29/2009 2:57PM

    I hate the yucky tired after eating feeling....I also hate the dry feeling when I wake up in the morning and I didn't drink enough water the day before AND ate too much salt...I feel awful and nauseated!!! I hate the chin thing too!! YICK...

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HEALTH4LYFE 11/29/2009 2:56PM

    My new size 6 jeans (yes I said 6) are snug, more snug than I want them to be.
I feel really full! And during dinner I could taste all that extra salt, especially in the seasoning of the dressing.

To recoup, I went right back to staying so so so on track, fighting the urges to eat, eat, eat that little taste of this or that and did some serious stationary bike time on Friday and went for a rather lengthy run on Saturday.

Just finished a bike ride outside and those temptations are only as low as a murmur. emoticon

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Happy Thanksgiving

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Wow - what a day!
Can't say I overate, but I did eat a little bit of everything, and it was all very very good...I left half of the food on my plate too. Well, I couldn't expect to eat the whole dinner, not with all of the appetizers before the meal! LOL But it was a good day.

I will rescind a portion of my last blog. I don't hate the holidays. I hate the fact that I do a majority of the work, that is all. So in honor of that blog, I asked for help today with my apple pies. Side by side, hubby and I peeled and sliced apples. & I made the most delicious pies ever! My family loves my pies...they look like a postcard and taste like, well, the best apples ever. The best thing my hubby could do was come directly over to me in front of the family and kiss me and say, "that was heaven, thanks hon"...all over an apple pie! emoticon That was as sweet as the pie.

So I hope everyone has a stress free happy holiday. I'm thankful that all the kids behaved today, that no one really overate, that everyone shared in the prep and made a delicious spread at my brother's house. Most of all, I'm thankful for my health, my family's health, and for Spark and all my Sparkfriends.

Hope you all had a great day.
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HEALTH4LYFE 11/27/2009 7:09AM

    Happy day after Thanksgiving! I did not read your earlier blog until after I read this one, and I basically skimmed the 11/25/09 one.

I could almost smell the apple pies baking in your oven. I'll bet they did taste delicious. We made apple crisp. Less crust, a little less calories, but tasty nonetheless.

I am thankful you have become one of my sparkfriends. As I continue on my journey, and eventually reach my goal weight, I am really going to be leaning on you for advice and support. The maintenance part really scares me sometimes, because I have lost weight before, but have not maintained the loss, and ultimately ended up bigger, but definitely not better, than before.

I ate more yesterday than I have in a long time, and am hoping with all my cardio, that even though I was over yesterday, week wise, I'll be okay. Also ran a 5K yesterday with dtr.

Family visiting, so not too much time sparking. Hope you have a great weekend emoticon emoticon emoticon

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OAKBORN 11/26/2009 10:18PM

    Hey girl! Glad to hear you are in a better place today! Glad you had a good day and got such compliments on your pies... which I saw that pic of and they are picture perfect... and if they taste even half so good... oh my goodness, they MUST be amazing.

Hang in there girl! I ate a fully loaded plate... and then had punkin pie later... and a few snackies after a healthy breakfast. Very relaxed all day... yay!

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HAWT_CHICK 11/26/2009 9:05PM

    hey sweetie hope that you had as fantastic a Thanksgiving as I did and judging by what you wrote you did :)

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Drowning on dry land.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

I hate the holidays.

There, I said it.

Every year, I miss my mom horribly.

It's been 20 years and you'd think it would get better, but it doesn't...I think this year is the worst and the earliest for such a statement.

My dad actually said to me this morning when I said the words "I hate the holidays and I miss mom horribly"...he actually said, "well why don't you just be her and not be like that"

20 years ago, he said NOT to be her...I'm my own person and have to live my life and not worry about everybody else. WTF - now he says this?

I know it's frustration that makes me hate the holidays...decorating is all me....gifts are all me...few & far between are gifts that I honestly love & enjoy because hubby is the last minute guy...wrapping is me...organizing teacher gifts/class mom is me. Notice the word ME being repeated over & over. Go ahead...tell me I am being selfish...go ahead - I f-ing DARE you.

Boy oh boy....this rings of ANGER and frustration doesn't it; but if I don't vent - this is going to really eat me up inside.

I really just want to go back to bed and sleep...whoa..that is depression talk.

Ever just want to run away from the norm? Fantasy Island...I need Fantasy Island.

I have to snap out of it.

Is this helping right now? I don't know.

I think it's time to hit the treadmill again. It's been a while since I was sick a few weeks ago. I think I can get back to my normal routine. Forget that....I HAVE TO for sanity's sake.

Maybe I might not hate the holidays as much if I exercise everyday.

Mental note made: get back to my exercise today.

Kind of a scary blog for someone who is always happy crappy on here and in life in general...but like my page says, it's all about the journey and keeping it real. Right now, this is real and how I feel.

OK - back to work...and to breathe. I feel like I'm drowning on dry land....well there it is...my title. Was wondering what I was gonna put...there it is.

  
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MELTEAGUE 12/1/2009 3:51PM

    I am facing my first Christmas without my mom this year...and it is difficult.....and I was also sick ....so I know how you feel there , getting back to routine and exercise again!

we have decided to create a little Christmas tradition in memory of my mom and it is a special time!

take care and hope you woke up the next day feeling better, in my mind a good sleep fixes everything!
all the best ...



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OAKBORN 11/25/2009 10:52AM

    Annie dear,
You amaze me constantly with all that you do. You are the mom I wish I could be. REALLY.

But that being said, you need to find YOUR time and YOUR space... and you DESERVE it. Remember that if you don't take that time for yourself and recharge yourself you will have NOTHING to give to others. Even if you feel locked-in by your obligations/duties/gotta-do-it-caus
e-nobody-else-wills... take that treadmill time or meet a girlfriend for coffee time... it doesn't matter WHAT... what recharges you, gives you a little room to breathe is what you need to TAKE and not wait for it to be given.

Being honest with yourself in whatever format... I have personally found that blogging/journaling has afforded me a way to work stuff out... is a great step to getting yourself back on track. It's YOUR blog, if people don't like it... oh freaking well...

And on the missing mom thing... I hear you loud and clear there. It's been just 4 years for me... and the holidays are when I miss her the most. She made this time of year magickal for me when I was a child... and did her best to instill some of that even when she was wheelchair bound when we were adults. Last night I found an audio tape that she sent us when we lived in Germany 20 years ago. It was wonderful to hear her voice again... I cried but not so much sad as so good to hear that voice again.

And if I become independently wealthy, I'll take you with me to the Caribbean Beach with the cabana boy & slushy alcoholic drinks!

Hang in there girl... and don't forget to carve out the time for what you need... and I know sometimes it takes a pickaxe and mining helmet to do so!

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BENSNANA2 11/25/2009 10:51AM

    If you find that island, let me know. I want to go with you!! I know what you mean about the "me" thing. I'm the one in our house that has to "do it all" also. My husband is just as surprised when everyone opens their gifts, because he has no idea what was bought. I decided one year that the reason no one else did anything, is because I was the one that just"took care of it all", and that year I wasn't going to do it alone, and gave fair warning. Did this change anything? Did DH step up to the plate? Heck no! And when things didn't get done I was running around last minute, which just increased my stress level more than if I would have done it all myself.
I lost my mother 3 years ago and I miss her, but holidays are the worse. I love my mother, but since she died every holiday is filled with, that's not your mothers recipe is it? your mother always served____ with that, I wish you could cook as well as her, and no one could decorate like your mother. I AM NOT MY MOTHER!!!
Sorry, I ramble on...must have hit a nerve! I guess we just have to do what we have to do for those we love.

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Marital celibacy???

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Yup, I just wrote that. Marital celibacy...it does happen, and if you are thinking "Me & hubby? NEVER!" Well, then, I don't believe you. So there emoticon

I think it's been about 2 months - yup, 2 months since you know what. I can tell you when things ceased in that department. Hubby got a cold, and I SURE AS HECK was not going to catch it. NO WAY!!! This mommy is too busy to get sick....let's just say, there was a point the poor guy was on the couch.

And then...things get busy (no, not that busy) emoticon and he gets better...and another 2 weeks goes by and then the kids and I all get sick....3 weeks later and 2 months in total we have...marital celibacy! Tada!!!!!

Can't believe I'm writing about this subject right now, but it kind of just struck me as funny...and this is why....

2 months ago, I was probably 6 pounds heavier. That's a big difference!

This morning, in bed, my hubby rolled over and touched my waist and said "Where'd you go?"

He's just been clued in on the 50 pounds gone and I guess with the whole marital celibacy period, he kind of had a little shock this morning. I've been there the whole time...it's just that he's been a little preoccupied and sometimes we don't realize what is right in front of our eyes. Too funny.

"Where'd you go?"

"Nowhere, honey....I'm still here... and don't worry, I'm done now."

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MEADSBAY 11/25/2009 4:44PM

    Time does slip away, doesn't it?
Sometimes we get too busy to get busy.
Hate to put it on a to-do list but we do have to make it a priority or it may not happen.
Thanks for sharing- I bet our numbers are legion.
Happy Thanksgiving!
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SIRIRADHA 11/21/2009 4:14PM

    Life has a way of intruding on that non-stop connubial bliss! Still, had to laugh imagining your DH's discovery of the weight loss. That was great!

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OAKBORN 11/21/2009 2:36PM

    I don't resemble this blog at all! (and if you believe that, I have a bridge to sell you)

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JAZZERCISEGENIE 11/21/2009 1:56PM

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REVDUPCHICA 11/21/2009 12:55PM

    LOL..great post:)

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WANDAC2013 11/21/2009 12:48PM

    Nothing like a happy ending! emoticon

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50 pounds - DONE!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

I'm making it official today!

I'm NOT waiting for the number to say 137.00, because when I started this journey, my scale was CRAP and it said 187 - I think...could have been 188 for all I know! But that is it! I am making it official - I LOST 50 pounds on Sparkpeople!!

Now you all know why I was uber-happy on my status yesterday! When I saw that '7' on my scale, I fairly jumped out of my skin! I've done this with every pound that I have lost....I catch a glimmer...then it goes away...and then I get more determined to see that number again...and then it comes back and smiles on me once more. So after 2 days...it's staying, which means that it is official in my book. 137.

I laugh a bit here & there...like take off the 4 pounds off for sagging skin and I'm totally under that! LOL I do, I have a bunch of that...but, that is AOK...I am healthy and that is what matters most. I have energy, I have lost the wieght of one of my kids! I picked him up yesterday just to feel the difference....WOW is all I can say.

I don't really talk about how much I have lost with my husband...he has always loved me as heavy and he doesn't mind one way or the other. This is the thinnest he has every seen me since we are together....and he doesn't mind a bit, I don't think. Well, he came home yesterday, and saw that I was super-happy. He gave me a hug, and in his arms, I looked into his eyes and I told him that I have lost a total of 50 pounds.

His look was priceless! A mix of shock and happiness and surprise.

Being around me all the time, well, I guess he doesn't see the weight on or off...he just sees me...like he always has. He sees me...and that is why I married him. Met him when I was 188, wed at 157 (my lowest since highschool - can we say yo-yo diet here) and I ballooned up from there...and all that time, he saw ME. Loved ME. Not the body, not the weight... just ME.

He's not a guy to give compliments on looks either, but this time, he honestly said that I did everything the right way - slow & steady and that I should really think about helping people professionally. LOL - you see, I have talked to him about going to to school to become a Registed Dietician, but before, as with any kookee idea I have ever had, he kinda brushed me off. (I will add that this pisses me off considerably, & have said so...& he has apologized for it)...but I digress. This was the first time, out of his mouth, that he thought I could do something more than being a wife, a mother, a manager of a dental practice. Talk about seeing me...for the first time....again.

When I saw myself in the mirror today, I was a bit in shock myself. I saw a new person there. Being on maintenance for 146-150 for a year changed my mindset about my body image, and that was a very good thing. I think if I went directly to this weight back then, I don't know if I could have maintained it as well as the 146-150 range. That being said....I KNOW that I can maintain the 130s. It can and will be done. I don't think I'm done learning either...I have mushiness to work on and do some toning...and if more wieght comes off...that is fine...I always said that a body has it's own equilibrium it will settle down at...when it settles, I will maintain there.

There is always something to learn...onward and upward. I'm curious as to where I will land...we shall see!

Before I sign off on this post....Just want to thank ALL my Sparkfriends...Oakboarn & Iamlion & Fulloffiath & MommaKat...I give you the biggest shoutout right now because we have been Sparkfriends for over a YEAR AND A HALF! That is a long time in cyberworld...thank you for all of your support and for being there whenever I needed you. My newest Sparkfriends...thanks for all of your encouragement and inspiration as well. I am here whenever you need me - I love your new friendships and the support that you have given me most recently.......THANK YOU!!!!! I take Sparking very seriously...I wish you all the best in life and love and success on your own life's journey.

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SIRIRADHA 11/21/2009 4:20PM

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We're on the same ride! I just lost 50 lbs, too. I'll be looking to you for inspiration on maintenance!

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BIKERDIANE 11/18/2009 7:16PM

    emoticonGreat job! Keep up the good work! I have been stuck at 168-170 for years, so I am adding strength training to my workouts! I have been sore a few times, but I know in the
end it will be worth the pain! emoticon

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OAKBORN 11/18/2009 11:51AM

    Massive congrats on reaching the 50 lb mark! I remember how that feels! It's amazing to me how those numbers can mean so much... and 50 is a HUGE number.

It's funny, my family thinks I'm whacked for insisting on exercise and try to tell me I exercise too much... and Jess (my bud) thinks my love of The Biggest Loser is "just one of those damned reality shows"... but until they have ridden the weight loss success bus they will never understand.

Last night was the BL makeover show and I chose to go downstairs and walk treadmill rather than watch a movie with the family and I am so glad I did. I was so inspired and re-inspired by the show and reinforced in my decision to take the time for myself, my health and ultimately for my loved ones upstairs too.

You are most welcome for the support! So happy that we have become friends! You keep me going too, trust me... emoticon

So, lady, you are emoticon in my book!

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BZYBOYSMOM 11/18/2009 10:14AM

    Wow 50 pounds gone way to go!!! emoticon

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TASOGAREBAN 11/18/2009 10:06AM

    You know, I also wondered for a little bit about going to school and trying out to be a dietician or even a nutritionist just because I get completely caught up in working out and eating right and then I'll slide back to my bad eating for a bit so I tend to yo-yo as well but if you really think it's something you want to try and it's sticking around, the idea, I say you go for it. You're a real motivator so you would be fab at it too! :)

Congrats again!

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EVILKLOWN 11/18/2009 8:30AM

    Way to Go! 50 pounds. That is a LOT of a small person like you. WELL DONE!!

I know what you mean about being hesitant to log a weight when you aren't confidant it's going to stick. I used to wait a while before I logged a weight because I didn't want to see the scale go back up. I still feel that way but I go ahead and log it now anyway. Whatever the reading is, I log it. As a result, I've had to post a lot of one-pound gains here and there and it makes the graph look funny ... but at least it's honest and probably a truer picture of what a person would expect to see in terms of progress.

Anyway, god for you ... I saw your pics, you look like an entirely different person. Your page background makes me hungry ... but in a funny sort of way.

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NEWLIBRARIAN 11/18/2009 8:13AM

    Congratulations!

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BILL60 11/18/2009 7:56AM

    You're an amazing lady. I congratulate you on your accomplishment. I think that your husband is really proud of you. Hang tough and go for those dreams.

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