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Resisted the temptation

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

OMG...EVIL flitted thru my brain today. Pure EVIL emoticon

I went to BB&B today to get some hair glaze and shampoo and it was right around lunchtime. There in front of me was BURGER KING! No line at the drivethru too. The thought flitted across my consciuosness "Go's been a's right DESERVE've been SO good...blah blah blah evile blah..." it said sweetly...beaconing...

I turned around SO FAST and drove right home for lunch.

Honestly, the next 2 weeks are going to be SO hard with food and celebrating with family. The only way I'm going to maintain everything through it all is going to be a) save my calories for those days and b) be extra conscious of eating healthy on those 'regular' days, which is hard to do with all of the yummy cheeses, crackers, dips and booze around (These are my downfalls lately).

This weekend is like seasonal kickoff....Hubby & I are going into NYC to see a show (a surprise Xmas present to me) and we have reservations at a steakhouse. That is going to blow me out of the water foodwise. Sunday is the cookieswap with my sisters & cousin...which means pizza! AAAAH!

Just thinking about the Christmas week is insane { forget about the Eve and the Day itself - sheesh!} - my girlfriend is coming over for a few days/nights with her family (SO excited about that) and then we'll be heading north to our other dear friends house for New Year. Everything is probably going to revolve around food and drink! LOL

We all have that going on this time of year...I guess we just have to be smart about our choices - even more so! In the meantime...I'm going to resist those evil thoughts. You'd think they'd go away completely...sorry, to tell you....but they don't.

OK - pledging to myself to resist evil when not at the appropriate time.
- I will not eat cheese & crackers alone anymore
- I will not make cocktails unless we have guests over or even if one of my kids has a whining fit for 5 hours straight
- I will drink all of my water
- I will practice breathing for at least 5 minutes a day
- I will not..scratch that...I will try not to yell when the kids are driving me nuts
- I will only order healthy takeout if that is the only option before me

I think that's it....for now...

Good luck everybody...'tis the season, but watch those reasons!!!

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GLOBALKEEWEE 12/16/2009 5:30PM

    Congratulations on resisting the Burger sounds like you have WAY BETTER splurges planned. Spend those calories where they really count, I say!

Have a great *season* and stick to your plan. We're behind you!
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RAYLINSTEPHENS 12/16/2009 3:00PM

    My "today" is totally shot, lol. But I don't do this often and I am prepared to forgive myself.

We are going to have days like this as long as we have to eat to nourish the body.

WTG on resisting BK!! Did you get back to BB&B?

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TASOGAREBAN 12/16/2009 2:31PM

    Wooooo, congrats on that willpower! I was actually laughing at the beginning of the blog because of the way you described it but I do applaud you. :)

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ANNALISA73 12/16/2009 1:33PM

    This was funny!...I like how you write very animated :) emoticon

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ITGALLO 12/16/2009 1:20PM

    Wow, what a great and insightful plan. You have really thought this out and are ready to face the holidays. I, too, have been dreading the holidays. Your plan will help me as well. Every time I pass a Burger King, In and Out Burger, McDonalds, Wendy's Subway--I face temptation and moral dilemma. Good for you that you resisted and have great activities to surround your holiday. Enjoy and best wishes, Ilene emoticon

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The final reward

Monday, December 14, 2009 at 25 pounds, I bought some Lia Sophia jewelry that I love and wear all the time. So in honor of the last goal hit...I treated myself to some more. MY Xmas present to myself and a treat that will keep me focused on WHY I did this in the first place and to STAY there forever more.

I wore the necklace yesterday and last night....I didn't know how it was going to be because it's a flat style & all my others have all flipped on me - it's 5 different gold shapes linked together and then a leather cord attached to each side which hooks in the back. It's called 'Shapeshifter' - how fitting, huh?

Well, the thing felt great all day, like I didn't even have it on. My hair didn't get trapped in the clasp; it stayed right where itshoud be; it didn't flip over; it felt warm and cozy all day.

I've found my everyday necklace to wear with anything...whenever. LOVE it. Wish I could post a pick...the necklace site won't let me. :( Guess I'll have to post my own! LOL Which I tried below...can't really see it...but it's gold & shiny!

Revised 12/14/09 10pm
That's my MIL in the pic with me at my nephew's birthday party. I've seen her go up and down 5 times over the last 12 years and now her hip is giving her problems and she's pre-diabetic and her cholesterol is high. After not discussing my weightloss for over a year with me, she finally said how proud she was that I kept it off. It's a hard subject for her. It's hard for me to help someone who is smart but who doesn't want to listen to someone younger. I love her to pieces and it breaks my heart to see her hurting and struggling. All the more reason to stay where I am...maybe one day she will ask me how. Sadly, until then, the ball is in her court.

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DWEXCEL 12/15/2009 6:56AM

    And, you know she some time. So you just keep on doing your thing, and sooner or later, one day she will ask you how you did it. Is that your necklace there in the pic?

What a wonderful way to reward yourself.

Luv ya!

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TASOGAREBAN 12/14/2009 11:16AM

    LOL isn't it great when you find that one perfect piece! And I hate getting my hair caught in anything, it's an immediate turn off for me. Woohoo and congrats!

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Monday, December 07, 2009

So after a hideous start to the dear hubby came home and we started going thru our Den meeting routine...and I asked him nicely to please do the meeting...he is my second in command after all.

You see...he's a teacher and usually the last thing he wants to do is be around kids who'd rather not listen because it's the end of the day; and teach after school hours because he is basically shot at the end of the day. Being a teacher isn't easy - I can tell you from first hand witnessing that it is a draining job. Most days, he wants to just decompress when he gets home...and we have 3 little boys who want our attention, so usually, that doesn't happen! LOL

Well - he knew my day...and he came in and did the whole meeting about tools to perfection. He is truly gifted and I am so lucky to have him at my side...especially after this horrible day...nay week, of just plain mental yuk.

I LOVE YOU BABE!! emoticon You are the emoticon

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MARINEMAMA 12/11/2009 6:24AM

    AWWWW....Men are great!!

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HEALTH4LYFE 12/7/2009 9:43PM

    Yeah for you for asking and double yeah to DH for accepting. What a great guy you have. Hope tomorrow is much better!

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SUCHAHOOT 12/7/2009 9:39PM

    Yea for awesome guys! I'm lovin' mine too! emoticon

Aww, renewing your vows, Oakborn! I love it!

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OAKBORN 12/7/2009 9:35PM

    They sure can come through sometimes or say the sweetest things when you need them to, don't they?

Markle asked me to renew vows on our 25th today..

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Remember to breathe!! Remember to breathe!!

Monday, December 07, 2009


Ever have a morning that just kicks off B-A-D BAD???

The house was cold this morning...the heat said 'ON' but it was 60. So I emailed the company who does our oil deliveries {which are supposed to be automatic} to order oil.

Guess what? The heat is on...we have oil...and now I'm getting a delivery. Oh well...better to do it now before it really does run out, right?

My middle son...the 5 hyear old drama-king...he comes into the bedroom looking like it's the end of the world. OMG - He has A RUNNY NOSE!!!!!! emoticon emoticon

I swear to all that is holy on this took every ounce of my being to control myself. The incessant whining...the single use tissue pile that just kept growing and growing in the trash bin and on the floor...the inconsolable NONSENSE! of it all! emoticon

We got thru the morning with the aid of some allergy medicine to dry him up a bit...but the damage to me was done. I can't breathe.

No, not really "can't breathe", but you know what I mean. I have to physically remind myself to inhale deeply to calm down. The kids are gone a half hour and I'm still practicing breathing.

Tonight is a den meeting with scouts. The subject.....TOOLS. An intro to tools. In my dining room. On my table. Thirteen 7-8 year olds who do not listen well.

BREATHE emoticon C'mon BREATHE!!!! emoticon DEEPER!! emoticon

So my day is a sandwich of fun. emoticon

I'm going to practice my breathing...go on the treadmill...and start my day over in a more positive light. emoticon

Really, what else can one do? Blessings to be health, my kids & husband's health, my extended family's health, my home, my friends, I can pay my bills, I have food on the table.

Restarting the day right NOW.

Hope you have a good one too!

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ANNIEONLI 12/7/2009 9:22PM

    Thanks so much ladies!!!!

I think a major thing is that it's the TOM coming seems like every other month I LOSE MY MIND!! I couldn't even tell you if I raised my voice once last month. Go figure!!

Anyway...much much better now.

Ommmm. Breathing...breathing....breathing.

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SUCHAHOOT 12/7/2009 11:37AM

    Here's another from Thich Nhat Hanh. A favorite of mine...

Breathing i, I calm my body.
Breathing out, I smile.
Dwelling in the present moment,
I know this is a wonderful moment.

Have a lovely day!

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OAKBORN 12/7/2009 10:04AM

    Yep... breathing... some days it's moment to moment... and just remembering to breathe.


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VALERIEMAHA 12/7/2009 9:52AM

    "Restarting the day right NOW." That's it! We can (and do, really) start over each moment with each new moment, each "now," each opportunity to be mindful of the one and only precious moment we have. YAY! (Wish I could remember that!)

Some of beloved teacher Thich Nhat Hanh's gathas, or verses, (1st line is the inhale, 2nd line the exhale, etc.) to help remembering to breathe:

Breathing in I know I am breathing in
Breathing out I know I am breathing out.
Breathing in
Breathing out

Waking up this morning, I smile.
Twenty four brand new hours are before me.
I vow to live fully in each moment
and to look at all beings with eyes of compassion

Brushing my teeth and rinsing my mouth,
I vow to speak purely and lovingly.
When my mouth is fragrant with right speech,
a flower blooms in the garden of my heart.

I have arrived.
I am home.
In the here,
In the now.

Breathing in, I know that anger makes me ugly.
Breathing out, I do not want to be contorted by anger.
Breathing in, I know I must take care of myself.
Breathing out, I know loving kindness is the only answer.

Words can travel thousands of miles.
May my words create mutual understanding and love.
May they be as beautiful as gems,
as lovely as flowers.

The mind can go in a thousand directions.
But on this beautiful path, I walk in peace.
With each step, a gentle wind blows.
With each step, a flower blooms.

This food is the gift of the whole universe - the earth the sky, and much hard work.
May we eat in mindfulness so as to be worthy to receive it.
May we transform our unskillful states of mind and learn to eat with moderation.
May we take only foods that nourish us and prevent illness.
We accept this food to realize the path of understanding and love and joy.

Blessed be!

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BZYBOYSMOM 12/7/2009 9:41AM

    God love you and enjoy the Scout meeting and keep breathing!!

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Daily average meals & a peek into my weightloss mindset

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Because you asked:
"Tell us your daily average meals, maybe I can lose the last 10-15 pounds that are so stubbornly hanging on. "

I will preface that back in July '09 - a lot of celebrating brought me from 146 up to 153 and I was totally pissed at myself...and I took control by tracking like mad again. I knew I could get the weight off because I did it and maintained well, I just had to focus - RIGHT AWAY. That focus has brought me where I am today - at 138. The following is in my shared food tracker - gaps usually mean I was sick, I was slacking, or I was in maintenanceland. The weightloss part of it always comes with mad tracking. It works, so just do it, ok?

Breakfast, snack, lunch....all the same, everyday pretty can time your clock to my hunger at these times too...very amusing to me :)

Morning - WAKE UP 6am
2 cups coffee with milk & sugar - check email in pjs (I don't use artificial sweetener at all - the only time I use it is when I buy fat free yogurt)

7:30 - my usual breakfast is a half cup of fat free pineapple cottage cheese with cantaloupe, or pineapple or a slice of wholegrain bread. I love fat free pineapple cottage cheese...really I do.

10am - SNACK at work - chewy Kashi bar - Honey Almond Flax or Trail mix or Peanut Butter - they sell the box at Costco, so it lasts me a while. I drink it with water because it is slightly sweet and a little dry, but I like it.

12:30 - LUNCH - a sandwich, usually on whole grain bread or a wrap, 2 thin slices of turkey or ham, 2 Tbs light mayo, lettuce, hot peppers, tomato....sometimes if a Kaiser roll is on the counter - it's MINE and I eat that in lieu of the grain bread (a nice treat)...and I usually drink more water...and I usually have some sort of chip. Yes, I said it, a chip! ~gasp~ Veggie crisps are my favorite, but I do eat potato chips too. One portion is all I need. The individual snack packs are great. OR I have fruit with my sandwich.

3PM - SNACK...whole wheat pretzels or tea or more water to get over the midday slump at home I usually have more fruit, or a cheese and cracker.

SNACK TIP** I LOVE pineapple & Cantaloupe and I have made it a point to always have one of each cut up and stored in my fridge (right next to my fat free pineapple cottage cheese supply) - the kids love snacking on it too., so really it's a win win situation!!

5 or 5:30pm - DINNER - this is where I have to lose a bit of control
My hubby cooks a lot, and I crockpot a lot...nothing really dietetic going on in either case. Plus -with the kids, chicken nuggets will be the meal...EWWW! I rely on portion control, good choices and STOPPING before I am full. This works 90% of the time. When I go to input it into the tracker, my instincts are right and I am usually right on track or under calories. If I have my way, I usually will have a veg, meat & potato/starch and that takes care of things for the night.


Now that is done, I will also share with you my bad habit. As you know if you read my page into, exercise is the last thing on my list to do. Between work, kids, house, and well, life, I have that one bad habit still. I do not walk everyday. I do not weight train regularly. I don't go to the gym. I have a treadmill and a stability ball with a big rubber band & some 10 pound weights. Almost 2 years later on Spark, I envy others for their stick-to-it-iv-ness with running and swimming. Someday, I'll get more consistent...probably when the kids are older.

I do, however, go in spurts. My fitness report looks like a roller coaster at Great Adventure. For example: Before I got sick with the flu, I was running and my arms were getting defined nicely from the pushups. I now have to get back to it...I'm feeling that itch to get moving again.

And then I think.....maaayybbbeee emoticonjust maybe, that roller coaster worked to my advantage. I never went that long not exercising. My body got a break. My metabolism slows and revs up again and's a theory that I'm going to stick with, because it's been working. Kind of like unintentional calorie cycling, I guess.

One thing is for sure...I never gave up.
The 153 was a slap in the face for me, because I felt those old bad habits creeping in along with its mindset of what once was. Hey, I MAINTAINED for a full year! Was I going to throw that away??? Hell NO! Trust me, I get blue, just like every other emotional eater out there, but then, I stop and I think "Hey, I've done this before, I know what to do, so for goodness sake, stop wasting time and just do it and get back to tracking and exercising!"


Now...does this help you lose those stubborn pounds...I don't know, but I do know it's what works for me.
- I eat what makes me feel healthy and the food that make me feel like garbage, well, that is where they go.
- I don't really eat sweets anymore (pastries & cakes are EVILE and my kryptonite) and I don't miss them at all anymore....they make me feel icky now anyway.
- I try to keep fats low...but I do eat bacon pretty much every Sunday.
- I don't drink carbonated beverages at all anymore...bloating and gas...Eww, no thanks.
- I don't drink anything with artificial sweeteners either...God knows what they are doing to your insides, and besides, I think your body and mind are not in tune with taste and calories expected to come out of a particular product....thus making you eat the wrong things later to make up for the cals missed by your body (another theory I read somewhere).
- I do have cheat days - you have to live life, but think of it as a special day and move on the next day as if nothing happened...track & drink that water and get back on the wagon!

I put my food tracker up a while back for spying....go ahead and spy away! It keeps me accountable. I encourage everyone to track everything they put in their mouths. If you think 3 cups of coffee with International Delight creamer for breakfast is fine, had a carrot stick for snack with a piece of cheese, then you skipped lunch, and then think that fried chicken meal from KFC is a good meal and you think you had a good day because you are in range or under calories, then I would like you to rethink your gameplan. Do not laugh or cringe...these trackers exist here, I have seen them myself, with my own eyes. They make me sad because really, how do you say nicely "I think you need to rethink your gameplan?"

This is my opportunity to tell you to look at what you are doing, open the diet tracker nutrition meal plans and see what Spark is telling you to do, and then compare and contrast what you input and what they suggest. You might be surprised at what a little tweaking will do to your gameplan.

One last thing (because goodness, this is LOOONG)....are you eating ENOUGH calories? VERY active people need to track that, because if you are not losing, you're maintaining, or in starvation mode if you are not eating enough cals....Read up on the subject in the articles, you might need to change your calorie range and eat MORE!

I hope this helps you out. Track it, baby, TRACK IT!

BTW - My November food tracker stinks, big time...I had the flu & stopped tracking most things....go to Oct, Sept, Aug...lots there! Have fun spying! ROFL!

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DWEXCEL 12/4/2009 7:17AM

    I just love it when you share your brain! You are a good nutrition tracker; whereas, I am a good exercise tracker. Now, if we could just absorb off of each other's strength.
After our chat the other day, I started writing down everything I ate the next day. Much to my surprise, I came up just under 1200 for the day. I know that is not enough to fuel all the activity that I do. I need 1800, at least. So I like your idea of having the individual baggies of cut up fruit ready to go. I don't think I need bigger meals, but probably more staggered snacks during the day. I usually take a Fiber One bar with me to tennis, but now I will take a cut up orange with me too. And I will track. I will track. I will track.


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HEALTH4LYFE 12/3/2009 5:28AM

    Thanks for the info. I told you I was going to be leaning on you for information and you have already sent some my way.
Have you started back running yet?

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DOLFYNDANCE70 12/2/2009 11:13PM

    You are a fun sparkster to read, I enjoy your blogs. It gets me motivated, I think it is that when I start tracking it lasts a day or two, then my two little kids are always at my heals to do things, and by the time I get around to tracking, I had forgotten to write it down, I pretty much know visually my portions from when I did track. and you are right about feeding the family at night, it is hard to make healthy meals, but I really have done a lot to change the way we eat. Period. I lost most of my weight when I stopped having soft drinks and white bread,pasta and rice. I am now maintaining like you said, however I just purchased a nintendo wii game "the biggest loser" and it tracks my calories burned,and such, so when I start that, I will try to blog about my progress with that. It may be something I can incorperate into my kids play time. Congrats on your success and keep it up. Keep on blogging, emoticon

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WATERMELLEN 12/2/2009 9:56PM

    Excellent blog and I'm with you: for me, tracking the calories is at least 70% of the battle!

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