Sunday, March 28, 2010
With the headsets on, everything is quiet and muffled.
And then, you turn the key and it's time to get moving.
Slowly, you push in the throttle and you go faster and faster down the pavement and before you know it, the throttle is full in, the lines on the pavement get closer and closer together, the fuselage shakes all the while the noise is getting louder...and then all it takes is your hand to pull back and there it is - the quiet rush of the air as you climb higher and higher into the sky as the ground falls away into a small and wonderous world of strange familiarity that only a bird would know.
Then there you are...up in the air with someone you hang out with on a regular basis at this point in your life. Imagine the fun of getting to know someone in such an enclosed space. Literally 6 inches away is another person who has a knowledge that you are yearning to possess and while you are paying for this experience...they eventually turn into one of your best friends. Their knowledge holds both of your lives in their hands, but you are the one in command.
"Here, now put these on."
What are those hideous things?
What are they for?
"So you can't see out....just the instruments"
Huh? Why? You didn't tell me about this part,
"So what? Just put them on and close your eyes and give me the stick. It's time for some fun."
So I did as I was told. I closed my eyes with the hideous glasses on...and I held my breath and tried to pay attention in the dark.
Silence....huh? what happened to the engine? Strange forces on my back and a buffeting sound....that's a stall going on. More silence and a steep pitch down.
"Open your eyes....save us."
Gauges are going nuts - hard right rudder, yoke down and in turned to the left, throttle in...fighting the urge to do the complete opposite and to react to what your body is telling you...to trust the instruments and the skills you learned before this moment.
I can still remember it to this day....the adrenaline rush, the motion of the world around me as instincts took over, and the feeling of accomplishment of completing the task at hand.
"Good. Let's do it again"
It was one of the coolest things I had ever done in my life and on clear spring days, I can close my eyes and go right back into that small 2-seater airplane and experience those feeling all over again without ever leaving the ground. It ranks right up there with meeting my husband, getting married and giving birth to my 3 kids. Pure joy.
And then I think of this place...Spark...the people....the feeling of accomplishment when a goal is reached. It's like saving yourself from falling out of the sky...and when you save yourself, it's joy. Pure joy.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
I swear to Pete! I was totally wigging out about school on Sunday, and got upset and everything about not understanding the material, blah blah blah....when I stopped everything, went outside in the sunshine and weeded my flower beds and raked the leaves.
OH MY GOD IT FELT SOOOOOOO good TO MOVE AROUND!!!!!!!
I didn't realize that I had become so stagnant since school started. I will admit that I felt like my butt is spreading at one point I can "b" about not finding time...yadda yadda yadda....I do have some time, it's just truncated to say the least. Ten minutes here, ten minutes there...so I've decided to use them more wisely. I'll figure it out - I'm not worried.
Foodwise, there has been some really cool stuff happening in my house. I've decided to buy fresh produce on Fridays for the whole week. My little guy and I head over there after we put the other 2 on the bus....and we stock up...we have a good time out of the house for a half hour and then back we go to prep the fruits for the week. It's normal to have pineapple always cut up in the fridge, ready to eat...and strawberries & grapes at hand. I've experimented with the older 2 with scored oranges in their lunches, and they love pealing them in school. Which brings me to school.
This month is Nutrition Month in my school disctrict - they launch a great program every year involving a 2 bite club, healthy breakfasts...new lunch menues to try on the kids. Imagine my surprise when my middle guy comes home all jazzed about trying new foods! He's my "I hate anything green" kid. Well....by mid-week, he tried broccoli and marinated chicken!! SHOCKER!!! SO happy...and all on his own! Ok, not totally, but you know what I mean. The kids actually are having more input into their lunches too...which is fun for me. I accidentally put one of my Kashi bars in the oldest bag for snack....he liked it and requested it for snack, so they I put one in the middle guys bag, his report back was "it was good, and I even ate the nuts!" LOL
With all of the fresh stuff in the house, hubby & I have tried to use EVERYTHING we buy before it spoils...so we have gotten creative here & there AND it makes us cook in and not take out as much AND it shows the kids more veggie combos more than ever now. With that being said...my hubby has lost a few more pounds and is now 190! and I am SO proud of him!
Which brings me to why he started watching his own food intake more carefully - HIS workplace started a Biggest Loser contest, so, while he did not actively participate, he did take note and lost a total of 14 pounds thus far! Woohoo! and nice and slow too!! Which is even better!!
I just love this! It's not like we're not eating treats at all, but the majority of the family consumption is on the healthier end more than ever before!! It makes my heart sing! I'm not being a healthnut zealot about it either, it has just been the natural progression of things...how cool!!
Camping season kickoff is this Sunday. We have done NOTHING to get ready for this short trek, but the kids are all excited. I'm looking forward to walking around the quiet campground with the kids. I'm not sure how much studying is going to get done, though! LOL One thing I'm looking forward to is a great big campfire!!! Sweet!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Hey all....Boy oh boy, it's been a while!!!
Here's what's been up. Studying hard, trying to balance everything (which was starting to work) and then BAM! the kids got a virus on Fri night, and that ended that studying steak and I got sick as well on Monday night. Probably a good thing in retrospect....I have been off the wagon for a while. The virus kinda reset my body, so to speak.
Maintenance is different when you lay off tracking everything you eat, so stress had unleased some bad habits (ie. the carb-lover) and the corned beef & cabbage & irish soda bread didn't have a chance in my house! I'll pat myself on the back for staying away from the sugary stuff tho - that stuff will kill me. Anyway - itt's all about balance, and eating right, falling off & getting back on is cyclical & normal, so I tend not to freak out as much anymore.
My energy levels are really garbage right now- totally because exercising has not been fit into my routine. Again, not going to flip out - I'll get back to it when I find that balance, but I'm starting to feel that "ITCH" you get when you slow down to a crawl. The change in time is playing havoc as well....again, not going to flip out - this too shall pass, like everything else.
I have to openly admit - I'm envying a bunch of you "fitness" people right now!! I'm using you all as inspiration to get moving again! You keep my brain on the fact that it's there and not going away! So thanks for that! Keep doing what you're doing - I'll be tooting my horn along with you soon enough.
I took my Spark Lifestyle Checkup today...Got a big fat red arrow pointing DOWN telling me to get my proveribial keester in gear again by tracking and exercising...... haha ...NO DUH!! Hahaha!!! I love taking those things and being honest...a great litmus test of what's going on.
Anyway - that's my 5 minutes that I have to spare....which of course went into 15 minutes! Haha!
Thanks for the well wishes on the status while I was all icky & gross! you buds are the bestest!!!!
Now....onward & upward!!!!
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Getting STUCK happens to a lot of us. For me, right now, I'm totally stuck on this chemistry chapter...I even hit the restart button and re-read the book, reviewed the lecture...and I'm kind of stuck in this fear that I'm not absorbing the material enough to take a 10 question QUIZ for pete's sake. I'm wading thru a brain that is stuck...very frustrating.
But sometimes, we get stuck for a reason. Some might call it Providential...others might call it Hell of Earth. It's all how you look at it...and how you handle it.
In weightloss...getting stuck is hitting a plateau....frustrating for sure OR it's getting caught up in ones negative self image which leads to a spiral of emotional eating. So...here, getting "unstuck" is our most important challenge.
Spark's Fast Break is great for getting UNSTUCK. I use it everytime I fall off the proverbial wagon, so much so that it is now a part of my daily routine. But sometimes the stickiness is still there - I can drink gallons of water and tell myself I'm awesome in the mirror a billion times, but depending on my brain...it takes waaaaay longer than I'd like to get unstuck. (I'm feeling a little like that right now because that "vacation" really threw me off in my school work & it is pissing me off)
When this happens, i usually blog it out - Boy, I highly recommend blogging. My family looks at me & says "I could NEVER talk to strangers online....why should I blab MY business all over the place like that." Weeeellllllll........it's cathartic, that's why. if you are feeling alone, depressed, overstressed, angry, frustrated....whatever... .well, it's like the old time trick of tying a note to a helium ballon & letting it go into the air, or writing something on a note & burning it. or going to therapy. Same difference if you ask me. Except here on Spark...you get immediate support, so why the heck NOT? Even if you just put out there something once in a while, for goodness sake, it's better off that keeping it inside! Am I right??
On the vice versa of this...it works for the happy parts of your life too! Noone there when you score big on a test? Shout it out loud! Lose a half pound - toot that horn - that is GREAT! it's a human connection that somehow gets filled in this crazy cyber-world we are all connected to right now, that gives that pat on the back when everyone else is caught up in their own daily lives and you need some recognition for that effort you've done for yourself.
I'll go back to my family's criticism on this point here too..."why do you want everyone to know your business"???? Hmmm....the answer for $1,000,000 is "well, you sure as heck don't ask me, so why not? and besides, it's not like I talk about heavy things on facebook (I keep THAT for Sparkfriends - teehee) and seriously, if you keep things on an even keel, why not?" It helps me get unstuck too.
So...the small point of this blog is this...get unstuck. Try you darndest and change things up and get unstuck. If something is not working, it means that you have to shake things up a bit. Not a blogger - go blog. Not an exercise nut - get a routine. An emotional eater - chuck everything (cathartic there too) and look at the issue head on and attack it. What are we waiting for anyway? Someone to save us? A knight in shining armor? guess what? no one can save you except yourself. As with most things in life - change starts with the person needing the change...so (as Nike say) just do it already. What are you waiting for? It's time to go get unstuck.
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