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Just what's on my mind....a bit "on fire"

Friday, April 30, 2010

Hey all!

I know I've been quiet, so here's just a quick update:

School is moving right along...tough week though, too many things going on - lots of distruptions, but whatever...it's going to be like that here & there!

Maintenance, just fine...my usual junk still...the monkey on my back, but I'm maintaining, so that is a positive in my book!!!

And just a quick note to those who feel the need to advertize on people blogs...it's a real thorn in my side, so DON'T do it on mine, thank you very much.

Why do I even bring this up????? Because it is a pet peeve - a BIG ONE.

I do NOT care if some pill or herb or drink helped you out, because, you see - I've done all that crap and ya know what? It does NOT WORK!!!!!! (in my humble opinion) Why would I be busting my butt eating right and exercising (when I can) to keep this weight off if there were a magic pill out there????? Why would I be going to school for Nutrition for Pete's sake if I didn't learn a bunch of stuff on HERE to go and want pay it forward by helping others?????

Oh yes, I will delete you as fast as it is put up...and in fact, I'm going to take note and jot some names down too, and report it to the higher ups.

If that is what you want to do on YOUR page....BE MY GUEST! but have the courtesy to keep it OFF OF MINE!

I don't go around preaching about anything in the form of politics, religion or race either. The only thing I could possibly be called preachy about is nutrition tracking! Repect other people and talk amongst yourselves in a team forum if you want to...just don't go splattering your stuff on random people's pages.

There - I feel better. Best of luck to you and your "whatever" too.

  
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OAKBORN 5/17/2010 10:03PM

    Keep on rocking the Jerks Annie!!! emoticon

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MKPQ51 5/2/2010 2:55AM

    You tell 'em, girl! I was put on alert by one of my friends who'd received several of the advertisements. Shortly thereafter an advertisement was posted on a blog I'd just posted; the advertisement had nothing to do with the blog! Before I could delete it, the post disappeared; I figured SP had been alerted and had taken care of the situation. It's a shame some people find it necessary to misuse the site!


Sorry you had such a tough week; hope this next one goes a bit smoother.

Hugs and Kisses,

MommaKat


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HEALTH4LYFE 5/1/2010 10:05AM

    Boy I hope I never tick you off, because girl, you get maaaaddddd!!!

I agree with you about the advertising. Even the people who are personal trainers, in part perhaps because of the weight they have lost on SP, their philosophies aren't always in sync with SP. That usually causes me to raise an eyebrow.

Glad to hear you are doing well. Have to get back to my ST. Exercise seems to be my one constant lately. Well, that's not entirely true, I seem to be eating constantly as well emoticon but not really lol. Take care.

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SUCHAHOOT 4/30/2010 1:28PM

    Hey girlie,

Just popped by to tell you about this new snake oil, I mean weight loss herb...JK!! I got one of those last week too. Couldn't figure out how to report the silly woman.

Anyway, good to see you even if it is just for a short rant! That ticked me off too.

Glad school and maintainance are going well. All's well here. Ready for a weekend. Keep up the good work!



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My comfort zone

Friday, April 16, 2010

Hey all!!

I'm BAAAAAAAAACK!!

Back to tracking.

Back to feeling the most normal and sane in a while...and yes, I will attribute it to the tracking.

Food tracking is my passion! There you go - I openly admit it...I am a nutrition tracking junkie!!

In front of me now is a calendar CHOCK full of well...you name it...but ya know what? It is not daunting me - laughing at me - or provoking me into insanity which, honestly a few days ago, would have.

A couple of calculations and writing things down helped a bunch, and just like Sparking, I'm attacking my calendar in the same way. Step by step....and day by day.

This is my comfort zone now...I will get everything done in due time. I will put the effort in when needed, but I will also note and pay attention when to take a break. There, in black & white, it is a bit easier to handle. Trust me, I wigged out and did not sleep well a few days once everything was put onto this calendar, but now that I'm implementing the first crazy part, it's not so bad.

Bit by bit....day by day...things will get done....just like weightloss, it takes perseverance. I got that...it's time to use it in a different genre, that's all.

Now....all I have to do is s-q-u-eeeeeee-z-e in some cardio time. What? are you surprised? Hey, there are only so many hours in the day! LoL Don't worry...I'm planning on walking to work a few days a week....see? Time management at it's finest!! emoticon

  
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TASOGAREBAN 4/19/2010 12:59PM

    That's RIGHT! Work it lady! It all takes small moves anyways, small changes, right?

I'm going to move in a month which means I'm going to have to go back to public transportation but I think I can do it! I'll probably have to get up an hour earlier to workout but i'm SO willing to do it, OMG! And if I can do it, I KNOW you can do it. :)

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SUCHAHOOT 4/16/2010 10:22PM

    Inch by inch
Life's a cinch.

I love planning! I've just got to get better at the follow-through!

Have a great weekend!

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BRIGHTSPARK7 4/16/2010 7:37PM

    Step by step and day by day works for me, too ... I like how you have imported what you've learned from Spark to another area of your life. Getting things down in a way that you can track them is really helpful. Remember to schedule breaks and rewards, too! Wishing you success!
xo
Usha.

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RAYLINSTEPHENS 4/16/2010 7:23PM

    I have never doubted you! I know you are living proof that One day at a time works!

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Put...the candy....BACK!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

That was a text I shot back at my girlfriend this morning....she asked me if jellybeans were fat-free! LOL Of course they are, but we just talked about how we've fallen off the wagon since Easter hit...so PUT...the candy....BACK!!! Or rather....put them in the garbage! Which she texted me back "Put in sink and soaped them up good" - well, that'll work too! LOL

What's funny about our 10 minute conversation this morning is that I confessed to her that I ate rainbow cookies and brownies in the last week ***GASP!!*** {Let me digress for those of you who do not know me very well - I usually stay away from these things ENTIRELY because they can make me sick...literally, if I overdo it. No joke.} and yes, my dear friend's face and jaw hit the floor in shock!! Yup...I ate a Keebler graham cookie on my nieces birthday on April Fool's Day...and I didn't get sick...and that lead to a bite of cake on her birthday again the next weekend...and some rainbow cookies...and then the brownies. There - the Spark confession is now over too. Whew! - now that wasn't so bad! LoL

But here is the kicker....if I keep doing these little snacky thingies...I really will get sick...which is HORRIBLE, so I think I'm done being naughty.

It's a bummer, because right now, all I do is study, work, mom, wife, study, work, mom, wife....you know - the grind we all go thru, and in talking with my girlfriend who is in the same boat as me....well, the food is that bit of control and comfort and guilt that we get to indulge in that is ALL OURS!!!!! and it's ALL ABOUT US in that moment there. A silly stupid moment that ends in regret as soon as it's over...and then the guilt starts in again and then there we go! the emotional rollercoaster of eating begins ONCE AGAIN!!!

....and to stop it is like going through withdrawal or detox - she was just telling me that too....how she gets the shakes (which I've heard before from sugar lovers like herself) and then satiates the symptom with the sugar again. So when she texted me....she broke her cycle a bit - which (to me) is awesome.

So today is my own detox day. I have a buttload of fruit I bought at Costco because it was cheaper..but geez it's a lot!! So instead of letting it go bad - I am on a fruit kick today. Between that and my water, I'm on the road to detoxing the refined sugars out of my body once again....and again...and again. LolL - I know exactly what to do, I've been here before you see, and I've come to far to let the sugary lovely baked good win. Strike that....to let the sugary EVIL baked goods win.

Funny - but I was thinking the last time I felt like this.....kinda stressed out, not happy about gaining a few back and not exercising, the eating drinking & being merry had caught up with me....and it was right around my 10th anniversary and 1 year maintenance sparkiversary in July of 2009. I took control then....I can take control again now. The last time I took control I lost 10 pounds. Hmmm....i wonder where this one is going to take me? My minigoal is 135 (honestly I haven't weighed myself in a week - I think I was 137 then) and I'm due for a SparkCheck tomorrow....but it's not so much about eating, it's about moving again!! The whole studying thing is me on my butt - the biggest change EVER! - and I need to get moving again - whether it be simple stuff at night or walking to work here & there during the week. Something is going to give....I just have to fit it in and do it once and for all.

Boy - I bet I sound like a broken record to a few people, but you know what? I'm keeping this journey real for you as well as me...it's about accountability...transparency....all those good buzz words people use. It keeps me in line. It's like that text that my friend sent me. In essence, this is MY text to you,

  
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HEALTH4LYFE 4/16/2010 8:50AM

    From one recovering sugar addict to another, thank you for sharing. I have been on my own non stop roller coaster ride with sugar. Go into rehab for a few days and then back out seeking the drug of choice. I know its' my own choice and I just have to decide how much I want to reach my goal versus how much I want instant gratification.
Keep on keepin on. Your strength is inspiring.

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TASOGAREBAN 4/14/2010 5:22PM

    Hey maybe you can freeze the fruit instead of needing to gobble it all down in one day, LOL! Well, depending on the fruit.

And I eat sweets very rarely. Like I bought a small bag of pretzel m&ms the other day just to try it, had two and then gave them to my boss since she was needing sugar. But beyond that I don't normally eat candy and sugar unless I suddenly want it. And that doesn't happen too often. My vices are usually fast food and alcoholic drinks which...sucks, lol!

Take control, homegirl! LOL! Run around your house like three laps and then have some water. BAM! Back on track, hahahahahaha!

Ok well that would work for ME anyways. :)

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OAKBORN 4/14/2010 4:47PM

    Hey Girl!!

I hear you loud and clear! I have been on this chocolate craving thing for weeks now. I just can't seem to get enough, so I've **MOSTLY** been budgeting for it. I don't have the sick thing... which is good and bad.

Might you have dumping syndrome? You get too much sugar and your gut says, "uh NO!" and draws all the water into your intestines and out it goes? My daughter has that... as does my MIL... connexion... prolly!

Keep bouncing back! We'll do it together!

emoticon Be strong!

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YAMINOKODOMO 4/14/2010 3:50PM

    I totally get you! I was like that last week myself! Normally I can do fine without sweets and I am an ultimate sweettooth! But ever since I started this healthy journey I have somehow trained my body to not crave sugary sweets as much as I used to! And I have 100 calorie snacks to help that craving when its to much to bare! But last week, I had a bite of a cake, and it went downhill from there! I was eating cake everyday after dinner! Bad me!

All we can do is just hop right back on that wagon and keep pushing forward. You definitely will get that boost of motivation, if not already! You can lose those 2 pounds I know you can! You are going to look those 2 pounds in the um.. face and let them know who is boss!

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FULLOFFAITH 4/14/2010 1:46PM

    Congratulations on getting back in control. I only know to well how difficult that can be. emoticon.

Keep on the road to success. You are a inspiration. emoticon

Lisa

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SCDALYNCH 4/14/2010 1:20PM

    There are so many of us like this. It is fat free and so it's okay. Sugar is my real downfall. My husband brings in the cookies I don't buy. That is one of my temtations. Very few things realy make me sick. Easter and fixing for everyone was also my disaster. Thanks for this text... I need to read it every day.

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Flipped the bird at my scale

Thursday, April 08, 2010

Everyday I weigh myself, or at least I try to....it's part of my maintenance.

And part of maintenance is to go up....and go down...and go up.....and go down...and go up...

Well, today was an up day. emoticon

And I HATE the up days.

I don't care WHO you are...those days are just NOT FUN!!!!

So I flipped the bird at my scale.

Juvenile - oh yes....did it feel good...meh (as my friend Taso would say)

It's just the constant reminder that this takes work...along with everything else, and sometimes, you just want something to be easy....just for once.

This ain't it...even on maintenance.

But then again....all things good in life do not come easy.

Raising a family - hard.
School - hard.
To find a job you like/love - hard.
Maintaining a marriage/relationship - hard.

But you know what....for all that hard work...to say you are happy, well, then... that is priceless and worth all the effort in the world.

  
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OAKBORN 4/14/2010 4:51PM

    I missed this entry (sorry emoticon!)... keep getting unsubbed and I don't know why. Big bah humbug on that!

But anyway, as usual... I hear/see/feel/taste what you are talking about!

Here's my saying, "The best things in life are paradoxical... they can take you to the highest highs and drag you to the lowest lows within virtually the same moment!"

Hang in there... you are are Mommy Strong! emoticon

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NIKKIG125 4/14/2010 1:07PM

    Love it!!
Thanks for the kind words on my blog!!
Have a great day!

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YAMINOKODOMO 4/13/2010 11:08PM

    I definitely flip the bird at the scale when I dont like what it shows me! It deserves it sometimes... But like you said mainting is hard and so now that I have basically reached my goal weight thats where I am at now and it IS tough to keep it around the same numbers.. but you are definitely doing a great job at mainting! and dont worry the next time you step on that scale and it will be your down day and thats when the scale gets the pat-pat from you! emoticon

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SHAYGETSFIT 4/9/2010 5:19PM

    Oh how many times have I wanted to do that!!!!

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HEALTH4LYFE 4/9/2010 5:11PM

    It's amazing how a number can change our mood from blissful to b1tchful! Amazing how we let a number define ourselves. But many of us do it. Kudos to the few, the lucky, who don't.
And, although it's hard to maintain, emotionally I believe it would be harder to regain the weight and work on losing it again, and again, and again. Hard on the body, hard on the mind. So, we continue to struggle, work harder toward our goals and hopefully, we don't continue to go up and up and up, because we are worth the effort!

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CARRAND 4/8/2010 8:43PM

    Great blog. You're right that things worth having are things worth working for. I always tell people that the first 15 years of marriage are hard, but after that it's gets easier. I've been married for 38 years, so I know what I'm talking about.

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TASOGAREBAN 4/8/2010 2:25PM

    LMAO! I love it. I've been flipping my scale the bird for the last month. And the last two days I've been sick with a sore throat and back pain so I've barely eaten. But I've lost 2 lbs that I'm hoping won't come back and I'm off for three days after today so I'm not too mad at my scale. I haven't seen a 132 in like three years, LOL!

At least we're healthy right? Kinda? emoticon

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SSDCQUINCY 4/8/2010 8:46AM

    emoticon for sharing!! This is a great blog and just what I needed today!! Thanks again, and keep up the fight it is worth it.

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Huh?? Holy big zit Batman!!!

Monday, April 05, 2010

OMG...this thing is HUGE!!!

GINORMOUS!!!

Right on my CHIN!!! Why oh why God, do you HAVE to still bless us with these huge, painful sebumlicious clear oil oozing things when we are in our 30s???? WHY!!?!?!?!

I must be going through some huge hormonal shift or something...my skin looks disgusting emoticon

Hmmm...maybe it's sympathy pregnancy or something...a bunch of people I know are expecting.,,,maybe it's the increased bit of carbs I've had...maybe it's the stress about NOT eating the chocolate and peeps and jellybeans sitting at my table.

I can be completely honest that it's NOT from eating the easter bunny's loot he left behind. I only had 1 measly piece of candy this year. Maybe it's because my body is stressed and it WAAAAANTTSSSS that ----but sorry Charlie...no can do....it's bad enough that I've eaten the hardboiled eggs. WHOA - hold on a sec....the EGGS!!!! I have had an increase in EGGS!!!!! More than any other time...since I can ever remember!! And in the last 3 day especially!!

Maybe it's that...I'm betting on that one now.

But in the meantime...my chin looks like Mount Etna is going to blow. No makeup can cover this thing up tomorrow...that's for sure.

I'll take suggestions...toothpaste? windex? I'll try anything!!!!!!

AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!

  
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AKASHA66 4/8/2010 5:57PM

    Yup, I thought the zits would be history too, eventually, not yet though at 43.... will it ever end?

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JENSHAWN 4/8/2010 5:43PM

    Just wait it gets better!! I am in my early 40's and I have more zits than I did when I was a teenager!@

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DWEXCEL 4/7/2010 7:25AM

    You are toooooooooo funny girl! I just love how you super analyze things........you are capturing me on paper. Ha! HA! Sometimes, I forget I am in my 50's (will be 51 soon) and you just in your 30's.

And, yes, you always make me smile too!

Love ya!
Donna emoticon emoticon

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HEALTH4LYFE 4/6/2010 11:53PM

    Have the same problem when I ovulate and sometimes just before TOM. I try not too touch it too much so the oil from my fingers doesn't make it bigger. It's usually gone in two days or so, sometimes less.
According to My Big Fat Greek Wedding, windex works on just about everything, but I haven't tried it yet. Let me know...

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YAMINOKODOMO 4/6/2010 12:24PM

    lmao! Your too funny! I still go through that *sigh*... Right before I get my period I break out and so I am like w...t....H! LOL I am sorry I dont have good suggestions for you! But hope you find something to get rid of that beast!

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OAKBORN 4/5/2010 8:45PM

    Sorry about the zit... I got one next to my nose last week but it resolved without much ado...

Your 40s can be doomed too!

I emoticon ed so hard that I shrieked!

You can always make me smile!!

emoticon You are teh emoticon!!!

Mark and Alan vote for the windex!

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MMPWYOSLP 4/5/2010 8:36PM

    Not that this is going to be at all helpful...but may make you laugh! I work in a middle school, and I too get the fine character building experience of dealing w/ acne...still! Seriously when does it END! But the highlight of my day is when a student comes up and says, "Hey. Ms. P didya know ya gotta huge zit right there??" - and points! I always respond with, "Geez thanks Captain Obvious - where's your cape??" Crack me up!

The thing I find that works is the acne mask at night - just a dab on the zit and then wash it off in the morning - at leat it reduces the size! And cleaning it with hydrogen peroxide seems to cut down on the face life of these things!!

Good luck emoticon

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