Tuesday, June 15, 2010
I don't CARE who you are....how thin or thick you are....bathing suit shopping stinks.
For the first time IN MY LIFE, I was honestly and actually happy to go bathing suit shopping! Last year wasn't bad at all, Kmart did right by me in fact...with a cute skirt and halter top...but alas, the top is now big (bye bye girls) and the plastic clasp broke while kayaking (thank god for a coverup)
So THIS year - I said to myself: GO FOR IT...Spend the money on a more expensive suit with METAL clasps that will last 2+ years...so there I was today, at a specialty shop, surrounded by swimsuits - name it, they had it.
And the search began. I find a top in my size...there is NO bottom swimskirt (to hide my thighs). I find a bottom, there is NO top. I try a full cup pushup thing....hideous, I try a Miracle Suit....it was a miracle to even get it above my knees. I try on skinny straps, and finally find a top that I like...no size medium. No suit PART cost less that $57 too. The last swimdress thing I tried on was Donna Karen at $158 and I could see how the straps could possibly work...neither could the help in the store (who were more than ready to help and get a sale).
I gave up.
I headed to Kmart.
Attention Kmart shoppers...where the heck did you put the suits that were there 7 days ago?????
I search and search. I find.....THE CAST OFF DREGS.
I dive in to the measly racks...lo and behold! my size!! a whole slew of them! I grab them and RUN to the fitting rooms, All I need are some tops to go with the black bottoms I already have from last year.,.,and as I enter there is a aqua & gold cute swimdress I immediately like on the "put away" rack...in my size!!! I grab that too.
Victory with the aqua....vistory with the black.....vistory with the stripe (I KNOW - stripes are a no no but with my kids, who cares)...vistory with a twist top tankini...THANK YOU JACLYN SMITH!!!!
Out I go triumphant!!!!!!!
At the register....grand total of $53 with $35 (40%) saved.
All LESS then the fancy store where that amount would have bought me a BOTTOM to a top.
So...it ends in a happy ending...and not hideous in any (although the TOM bloat is upon me - oh well - and I am just starting to work out again after 6 months - it can only go up from here).
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
I'm still alive!! Just in case anyone was wondering
Holy crazy month Batman!
So I got some REALLY awesome news about school when I had a much needed advisement session a few weeks ago....I was told that all of my pre-requisites for the pre-requisites (that I thought would be null and void after this year) will not be at all....the 10 year cap set in place by the school is for the pre-requisites ONLY!! and I am working on them now, so I am GOOD TO GO! which also means that I DO NOT have to make my life a living hell by taking all of these classes within the year just to apply to the January session!!!! I also learned about a few things they look at and stress in the application portfolio - mainly being prerequisite GRADES - SO why???? am I going to bust my butt taking 2 classes at a time to get mediocre B's when I know if I slow down and concentrate I can get A's??? AND if I take an extra year to apply, I can also take some of the other nurtition classes that will lighten up the load for the following year as well!
SO - what I am going to do is this: finish up these 2 classes one at a time to get A's, get applied to the other 2 online classes...and take my fall class as scheduled. The 2 online classes, well, they are of a different sort, with no real deadline and when I get them done, I get them done...but without any pressure. Mind you, I also have to scout out internships too...SO if I get to that in the meantime, I will.....but here is the thing...I am a MOM and a WIFE and I WORK, so doing all of this probably before January is not very realistic (I realize that now), but it won't hurt to try to get into the 2011 class, but most likely, I will extend my learning and make my life easier and apply to the 2012 class instead.
Why am I switching things up like this? well, I CAN BREATHE for the first time in 6 months!!!! I can move my body again!! I can be a happy mom instead of a stressed out mom!! I can have FUN and not worry about a MAJOR LIFE CHANGING DEADLINE!! Things I learned - ask questions, go for my dream even though it might take longer, keep this bigger picture in my mindset than just that one tunnel. When I thought I was on another more doom-like looking path last month and I thought my dream was going down the toilet because of class schedules (lol-this was before my advisement session) I really really realized that I REALLY REALLY WANT and NEED to go for this career...which makes this AOK now that I can take and make my life and (more importantly) my family's life more pleasant in the process. I can honestly say this too....my husband has been WONDERFUL and SO SUPPORTIVE of my career path...he deserves a more pleasant life with me as well too!! Eventually, when the program starts, things are going to be nuts once again, but in the meantime, a little less nuts is better for him too.
This kind of goes into my nutrition lifestyle mindset anyway....two steps forward, one step back, just like Spark.
BTW - for all my buds here...I think of you all everyday...coming back to the fold soon to chitchat!!! Thanks for always being there when I need you! You are all AWESOME and AMAZING people!!!! Glad to call y'all my Sparkfriends!!
Friday, May 28, 2010
I feel like an expert in the topic...I play with and fight with my head all the time. I know I was depressed at one point in my life (and no, a doctor didn't need to tell me that becuase hindsight is 20/20) and that was probably when I was my most heaviest - well, as a single person at least. But I can remember back to that time and now go to myself - WTF were you thinking? Where was the self-love? Where was the self-esteem? Not once did I think that I'd be anything except heavy and unloved, so that is where I was...stuck in a quagmire of self-pity.
OK - so it might not have been written on my sleeve, or tattoods across my chest, but underlying, it was there - all you needed to do was dig a little and it was there...hiding from everyone's view except my own...which mentally, I thought was really out there for all to see - written on my face. But it wasn't.
Anyway - eventually the story changed...hey, I found an awesome guy - when I was heavy too - who loved me for me, and had 3 great kids! But underneath, something was still there - that cruddy self-esteem of mine. You can laugh at this next part - I still mentally visualize myself as heavy...I'm still working on changing that mindset...it takes a long time to change that mental image...1.5 years later, still working on it.
So when I started Spark, I had to physically change my mindset. Why do I say "physically" for something mental??? Well, because if you don't say that you are "awesome" and "loved" - "smart" and "funny" outloud - well, then, sometimes the mind just won't hear you. Kinda like a 7 year old going, 'yeah yeah mom' but not really hearing for the 100th time to pick up his room. So everymorning, doing my makeup, I look in the mirror and say those words to myself. Even now I do this when I need a pep-talk. I'm not screaming them, it's just a whisper at times...and I become my own cheerleader.
Now stop - reverse that thinking....in my depressed stage of life...I was whispering how fat, ugly and useless and unloved I was...so really, it does make a lot of sense to change your mindset in this new way. I'm not even making this up - One of Spark's fast break things to choose is the 5 minute pep-talk...I picked that one and still use it today! I'm just saying - there is something to it.
So if you happen to be really beating yourself up for something? take a minute to look in the mirror - in your pretty eyes and say "hey you, cut it out! stop beating yourself up and move on and do something about it! You can do this!!"
Become your own cheerleader - you'll be glad you did.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Wow....I left off the last blog with a bird pooping on my head...and this is the thank you to the birdie for the poopage.
The weekend that just past was awesome for many reasons...the first being my younger sister became a Doctor...a Dentist actually and I am SO very proud of her!! Yay!! It was awesome seeing my father and his brother and sisters have an awesome weekend with each other too! They were so cute. 22 of us had a great time on Saturday touring Boston and having a pre-graduation party..it really was great.
A few of us hit some snafu's along the way...mainly my poor brother's back going out..and my stress levels at an all-time high regarding school and last minute solo-roadtrip travel...but ya know what? a bird pooped on my head, so it was all going to work out....right?
Well, that was the mantra for the weekend that I used, "a bird pooped on my head,and that is lucky, all will be OK."
Hey, I made it to Boston and back, I got help from my family when I needed it, I used my cellphone like a pro - talking to university admission administration while in dead-stop traffic...I accepted the fact that my school career might have to be put on hold for another year even.......all while muttering the mantra of "a bird pooped on my head, and that is lucky, all will be OK".
Yeah...about the university stress...a self-inflicted glitch of idiocy back in Feb lead me to believe that I had PLENTY of time to register for my summer class. Between that and having to reapply for summer admission, things got even more behind. So, um - No, you didn't have time and now you are blocked from not only one important class....but THREE! Nope, no stress AT ALL.
I emailed the prof...of course there isn't going to be an answer...hello it's the weekend!! So I waited to start my school project on Monday. Monday was very productive....I emailed the prof...I made important contact with his dept...a secretary got me into the FALL class (which newly opened and altho not summer like I wanted - I took it) and I still had a shot at the summer class if the prof said 'yes'. But alas, the prof came back and said 'no' because of the fall class that had opened up....well, at least I tried! But in the meantime, I shot out another email asking my nutrition advisor to explain a few things...and guess what, all the answered were 'YES" and I even have an advisement call set up for June 8th!
SO today the best news was this: Not only can I take one of the closed classes online thru another university, I can OMIT my Psych 100 class because I took it as an undergrad! So what if my fall and summer plans are switched... WOOHOOO!!!! This is HUGE!!! Time and money SAVED!!!!
But with all the nuttiness that went along with this past week of kids being sick, plans not going right, blah blah blah.....I kept saying that it all would be alright, and it turned out AOK after all.....but I also learned that I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to get into this masters program REALLY REALLY REALLY bad....and that I will be a Registered Dietician one day, no matter what.
When faced with the possibility of it not happening according to my "plan", it just made me want it even more...oh yes, I was like a woman possessed to find a solution to my problem this week, and it worked out. I'm not saying I have figured EVERYTHING out yet, but I sure as heck am on my way.
Nope, there is no settling or giving up on this dream. No way. No how.
So thanks little birdie for pooping on my head. Thank you universe-god-fate-whatever for the test...I passed. The score is me-1, failure-0.
Funny....even with a full moon on the rise....I feel just fine...all because of some bird poop.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Yesterday, the rain let up, so I went outside to look at my herb seed sprouts to see how they were growing and a bird pooped on my head.
"They" say that it's good luck.....whoever "they" are. Even my Indian friend said that that is what her mother said to her back in India, so there ya go....it's globally known as "good luck" to have a bird crap on your head.
Now maybe, just maybe, the bird in the nest by my door was getting back at me for always going in and out, but hey, it's my door, go build your nest somewhere else tweetie. Maybe it was a sign from above that things were going to start to look up this week. Either way, I had to wash my hair.
A ton of stuff has gone on..mainly my 5 year old getting an illness that lasted for 4 solid days of fever, a stomach ache, then a headache, then a trip to the doc, then a negative strep, then a script to get CBC Blood tests done, then an embarrassing screamfest at the lab that resulted in no blood being drawn, then a call to the docs office to get an antibiotic just in case this thing was a bacterial infection, and not viral. And that was on all done on my Tuesday lunch hour. Well, the antibiotic seemed to work, and he's all pink & smiling again....and now at 1am...I just took my 3 year olds temp and it's 99. And we are going to Boston tomorrow. And I need another 5 days of fever like a hole in the head.
But then again...I have to count my blessings. I don't have a husband in hospice like my friend. I have a loving family that means the world to me. I have a hubby that is my other half. I have a friend who was there for me today just when I needed her. I have a graduation weekend with my entire family in Boston starting tomorrow...and we are all going on the ferry together!
Now...I have had other things that truly and honestly stunk this week, but I am not counting my chickens before they are hatched. Remember....I got pooped on by a bird, and that is good luck, so chances are that all will be fine.
Yup...a bird pooped on my head...and I am AOK with that.
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