Friday, January 07, 2011
You can take the title any which way you want...LoL
For some it's WELCOME BACK!!! Spark is still here...and as you can see, so am I...nice to see you again!
and for others it's WELL, COME BACK it's been way too long...Spark is still here, waiting patiently to be used as the tool that it is...and if you need my help on your journey, well, feel free to just ask!
on both accounts, I am happy to see you here!
I'm going to apply this to me as well...I'm back from my own hiatus from Spark as well. I like to say that when I don't contact people I care about for a while - well, that "life sometimes gets in the way".
But I always come back...to use those trackers that keep me on point. To refresh the support that is VITAL to losing weight, getting fit and maintaining that forward progress. I think that is why this time losing weight was successful - because of the support system here at Spark.
I saw the Biggest Loser last week and it was the reunion show...the best thing that was stressed at that table from the success stories and from Jillian Michaels was that the support system is an important part of the journey. It was nice to see and hear that. While the personal journey is certainly an INDIVIDUALone that you alone control...sometimes it is the people around us that will be the biggest tool to pick up the spirit in order to keep going forward those 2 steps when you stumbles back the one.
Welcome back Sparkers.....make 2011 the healthiest one yet!!!
Sunday, December 19, 2010
ahhh...the time is FINALLY here!
The last minute things to buy...the last minute things to take care of....the whole hustle & bustle of it all!!!
And yet, what I look forward to the most is the after effect...the kids playing with their toys...the family praising the meal devoured in record time...the lack of cookie eating because we are so stuffed from the meal itself! The silliness of siblings being together!
I look forward to seeing an old friend or two....of driving 7 hours to have New Years at another old friend's house....a spur of the moment lark that has now become a tradition 4 years later!
Most of all, I look forward to the new year...in the last 4 years, no STOP! I take that back, make that 10 years, my husband & I never stay awake long enough to ring it in...but this year, we plan to. There is something about a new year that has all sorts of possibilies in it....maybe I will see someone I have yet to meet face to face! maybe I will run a marathon! maybe I will take ballroom dancing classes! maybe I will renew my wedding vows on a beach! Who knows what is in store? All I know it that the possibilities are endless!!!!!!
Years back, before kids & my husband...before Spark too, the new year was quite the opposite - it was depressing - already filled with things I would never do, of things I would never accomplish, of things that other people got to experience and I justgot to wonder about.
So glad that things took a turn around....yeah, I do thank Spark for a lot of it because I finally found a place and myself in the process.
That is what I wish for everyone who reads this...consider it a cyber Christmas gift Wish for you. If I were magic, I'd wave my wand and grant you whatever you desire...but I have this feeling that it's already right inside your heart.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Yeah - some times you have to just take it.
The lack of tracking, exercise, eating right. Admitting the hard plain truth that you are not doing what is right is the hardest and first thing to do in order to get back onto a more positive path.
So what do you do....or rather, what do most of us do?
We ignore that truth that is staring at us in the mirror and keep on going on the same road as before.
But the truth is there....and it KNOWS that it is eventually going to come out.
It takes it's time.
It can wait for yeeeeeaaars....and years....and years...
The veil is lifted and we see what is really staring back at us.
One does not have to be 400 pounds....or 300, or 200...That veil can come off of a 125 pound person too....
One does not have to be rich or poor or of any particular religious belief....the lifted veil reveals what is inside at our most inner core....the self that needs to be loved.
But self love is harder to figure out than self-loathing. It's easier to be mean than kind in many cases, and even more so when it comes to ourselves. Self love takes discipline and acceptance of things we cannot change, and of accepting the challenge to change the things that we can.
In finding our love for ourselves...that positive energy spreads into other areas of our lives and the people we come into contact every day: our direct families, our coworkers, our friends and our neighbors.
Finding that part of ourselves can take years, but it can be done.
The first step is to look in that mirror and take it on the chin: to say it out loud that things need to change and to immediately say that it starts TODAY....with one little step each day.
That one little step will eventually turn into a yard...the a mile...and a few stumbles along the way are just and only that, a few stumbles that make you learn to regain your stride and balance to take that continuing next step......and so on.
Before you know it. You find it.....
Monday, November 29, 2010
.....with what you may ask??
My stomach....my pizza dough tummy....my thinnest tummy I have ever had.
See what I mean?!?
No amount of stomach crunch is going to ever get rid of the skin. None. I have to accept that.
The stretch marks are like tattoo's or scars from an old battle. I have to accept that.
But I love the fact that I have definition where there was none.
I love the fact that when I try to wear something fitted I do not cringe inwardly and hang it back in the closet....although at times of the month, there is no way I would wear something fitted.
I mentioned it to my now skinny husband that it's amazing how men's bodies and women's bodies are so different....for pete's sake, he looks cut without even working out at this point...that son of a gun! He just looked at me and said, "honey, you've had 3 kids, it's part of you."......a compliment of "your still sexy to me" would have been a nice add, but I'm not going to split hairs here
So the moral of the story is to accept the things we cannot change, and try to change the things we can....preferably without major surgery although....if I were loaded....yeah, at this point in maintaining, I'd get a tummy tuck!
Monday, November 22, 2010
I had no intention of doing my makeup today....or even showering...until maybe later in the day, but not this morning. I figured I'd get the kids to school as usual, hit the grocery store, as is my routine, and then come home and shower up....but today, I jumped in the shower real quick, and my makeup turned into a test for my little sister's wedding next year...AND to try and cover this huge GINORMOUS ZIT that decided to say hello this week on my cheek. I played up the eyes mostly to distract people from the zit...and then I decided to try on my little sister's purple shirt she gave me in a bag of hand me downs (yeah, I need clothes and I am not afraid to try even my thin sister's stuff on now!) ...anyway, it fit! So that just made my day start even better!!!!
It's nice to start off a day feeling pretty (even despite a mammoth zit) and to be in a de-stressed and happy mood. I admit that it's been crazy around here, and today just felt different....less crazy, and you know what? I'll TAKE it! It's been a looong time to feel this way! LoL
Well, I am glad I looked pretty today....the produce guy certainly was attentive today! ROFL!!! and the young man in the book store certainly was as well...I think...or maybe me giggling over an Amy Sedaris cookbook caught his attention. Either way, I felt eyes on me all the way to check-out. ROFL!! Once in a blue moon, it's nice to feel like you got "it"...it took me a long while to feel this way, so why not enjoy it...just a little bit. In fact, last week, my son's friend's grandparents tried to guess my age.....27!!! ahhhh....THANK YOU!!!! ROFL Maybe that is why I feel so darned UP right now!!
I know that these relaxed days are few and far between with the onslaught of the holiday season...like the perfect buzz from a favorite beverage, and it's nice to acknowledge the universe for such a nice gift like today. So thanks, powers that be....Thanks! Even for something as shallow as a stroked ego....thanks must be given! LoL
On a more serious and less shallow note: my other thanks to the universe is to my Guardian Angel, for preventing an accident this morning....someone ran the shoulder and almost crashed into me because they were hurried to turn right.....it was a near miss. I'm a lucky girl.
Ying & Yang -Makes the world go 'round.
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