Monday, February 07, 2011
3 years ago today I looked like this
I weighed 187 pounds because that is what the scale said that day....and I cut off all of my curly hair that I was hiding behind and I had the hairdresser blow it out straight. This is my first official before pic in regard to my Spark journey. It was a day of rebirth. A day of taking control and not looking back at who I was before, but who I WAS going to be.
Today is my 3 year Sparkiversary.
Ironically...I blew out my hair myself yesterday, just for a change to see it's new cut & color from the week before...and I realized that 3 years ago I had the "same" hair! So in homage to the day - I took this picture in the same exact spot I took my first official Spark before picture. I weigh 131 pounds today.
I don't know why, but this Sparkiversary is hitting me like a ton of bricks. Not only did I hit my original goal of 150 and maintained that and other weights along the way, but I am almost 20 pounds LESS than that original goal weight. Did I ever think that I would be "thin" like this?? No way. The numbers I see on the scale today are quite surreal at times...because it is still a daily battle to forget the number 187 and the image in my mind that I mentally connect with my self-image. Slowly, I bring that number down to 167...then 150...then 137 which I maintained for a long time....the current body self-image has been the hardest part to grasp for me. I think it always will be there in the back of my mind, but maybe that is what keeps me going forward to keep it off in the way that I am doing it.
In honor of today, I treated myself to a really great workout. I got some great tunes on my iPod and off I went. I played some that I started out with 3 years ago...some made me cry just thinking about how hard it was to do 3.5 mph on the treadmill. Today, with a new song - I ran 5.5 for 5 minutes straight with a huge smile on my face the whole time. Feeling my heart pound with that energy running through my body was exhilarating!!! It was SO good to run and remember where I was and how far I had come.
As for the future...I'm hoping I keep up my exercise that I have going on. I don't have any great plans to run a marathon or anything...at this point in time getting outside for a walk or a bike ride with my kids now that they are older would be something to strive for in my world. I plan on eating and tracking the same as I have been doing the last 3 years....it keeps me on point and accountable. I don't plan on hitting the 120s, but if I do, I will embrace those like all of those other unexpected numbers in my life. I plan on continuing my education so maybe, one day, I will be a registered dietician....now THAT is my marathon...it might take years, but I will do it.
In the meantime...it's time to get back to my reality of being a happy, healthy active mom...a mom who can run, dance, sing, laugh and love without thinking...because while I look back at the past and get a bit sad and teary...the present makes me so very happy...and the future is full of wonderful possibilities.
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
Every so often...I get an hankerin' for something. Sometimes it is reaaaaaly reaaaallly hard not to have_______________________ (insert item here) but most of the time, if I wait it out, and drink my water, and get busy with something or other....the hankerin' will go away...and then I know that it was probably more a moment of weakness because of stress, emotion or whathaveyou.
Now CRAVINGS...well those...well those, I usually just have to get it out of the way if it keeps occurring day after day after day. For example: a cheeseburger...just. a. cheeseburger. Keep your fries, give me the cheeseburger kind of craving. OMG, the last 2 weeks it was all I could think of, especially at night....very very strange. But then, really, it went away just as fast as it came....Today, however, I was in a diner with my friend, and I figured "better get it now or it's probably not going to happen until spring!" Our other friend - opened her mouth and just said, "How about the buffalo cheeseburger instead. They are really good here. Lower cholesterol, lower fat...I like them, you won't know the difference." REEEAALLY?? seriously, really? Well, I figured I'd give it a shot, even if we were in the local yolkal town diner. ( PS...I don't really like eating tons of beef just b/c of the calories/fat per size ratio...I eat it, but not that much anymore.)
I fell in love.
Dang but it was good!!!! I don't think I will ever get a beef hamburger again if the other is offered...especially after I put it into the Nutrition Tracker! It was insane the difference between the two! Go ahead, plug away...you will squeal with delight!!
It's nice to try something new and be pleasantly pleased with the outcome. This was one of them.
Friday, January 28, 2011
I owe SUCHAHOOT the low-down on a surprise party...so here it goes!!! LoL
Last Saturday was the 22nd...which happened to be the date of a rescheduled holiday party for my husband's co-workers so they could see our house (finally) after oh, 3 or 4 years of living here! LoL It ALSO happens to be one month exactly before my husband's 4oth birthday.
Well, he had been hemming & hawwing about doing something for his 40th for MONTHS now, because I had told him that when I turn 40, I want to do something with my girlfriends, in turn to be fair, he could go have fun with his friends....which would be something like golfing. Well, after his last comment of "I guess I won't do anything." I decided that that was IT!
and then I noticed the dates of the party...and I thought....HECK, why not! I called in the ranks: got emails from his coworker, got the cake ordered to his sister, got the emails for his bowling buds and Monday night football dudes....and WHALLAH - itstant Surprise party!!
The only glitch was that it was going to be at my house...with him there entertaining his coworkers...and I had to keep the non-workers at bay (with emails) until they were all gathered outside my front door in freezing cold weather. I had faith in those coordinating emails and the people involved......and you know what??? IT WORKED!!
I GOT HIM!!!
He opened the front door and a huge "SURPRISE" was screamed by everyone and then the uber-party began!
A flurry of people rushed in, coats were everywhere, food was brought in, balloons, audio speakers, 4 extra cases of beer, cake, laughter and smiling faces all were there for my hubby!
Yup, I will admit I was a hot mess worried wreck about if there would be enough food & drink...but family pulls together and it all worked out. My tummy was in a turmoil though for a good hour....until I had a good stiff drink instead of the sour junk I was sipping. Amazing what a shot does for ones nerves when they are 'fried'!! After that I finally relaxed and had a darned good time.
The best surprise was one of our really good friends happened to be in town from NC for that weekend and they came to the party too!!! It was just SO good to hang out with her...especially in the same place where we spent so many Friday and Saturday nights during high school!
I couldn't have pulled it off without everyone's help...that is for sure!!
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