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I just can't

Thursday, February 03, 2011

I'm one of those bleeding heart people who wants to fix everything and make everyone's world better for them.

But......I just can't.

I read things on Spark that people write and I see things going on in the world that I would love to fix.

But.... I just can't.

I would LOVE to do SO many things...but maybe, right now, where I am in my life...Well, I just can't.....but that doesn't mean I won't in the future...

On the silly side, I would LOVE to eat icecream again...
But.... I just can't (long story there...but I digress)

But I DO know of things that I CAN do, right here and now:

- I CAN touch one life by a word left in kindness.

- I CAN raise a spirit by a smile and a wave.

- I CAN make better choices because I have the last word when it really matters most.

- I CAN be an example just by doing the right thing and I can hope that it is good enough for others watching.

- I CAN be encouraging to others who need help.

- I CAN be there to listen when someone needs to be heard.

There is also this part of me that is dying to scream out that once you can, there is no reason to drop back into the "I can't" because, you know what?? You already you already KNOW that you can...and with a WILL you can do ANYTHING your heart desires.

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SUCHAHOOT 2/11/2011 8:31PM

    Yes, you can! And you are always inspiring others with your insight.

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AMJSATURN 2/5/2011 9:36PM


You have always been a good listener here. And I thank you.
I enjoy reading all of your blogs even going back and reading some of them older ones. so positive keep the coming,

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OAKBORN 2/5/2011 8:15PM

    Meant to comment the other day... but what you said is so so true and one of those things that we (especially women) have to remind ourselves of nearly every day!


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FULLOFFAITH 2/4/2011 2:43PM

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DIANE2110 2/3/2011 8:11PM

    I like this. Thanks for posting!

Diane : ) ** Make it Happen in 2011 **

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YAMINOKODOMO 2/3/2011 1:34PM

    Well said!

Here is a good quote that basically measn everything you just said!

"I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do something that I can do."
-Helen Keller

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LISSAGIBSON 2/3/2011 1:31PM

  Thank you for posting this, I feel like I want to help others and feel bad when I can't. It is a nice reminder that even when there are things we may not be able to do there are small things we can do to start with.

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Buffalo - the meat, not the city

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

Every so often...I get an hankerin' for something. Sometimes it is reaaaaaly reaaaallly hard not to have_______________________ (insert item here) but most of the time, if I wait it out, and drink my water, and get busy with something or other....the hankerin' will go away...and then I know that it was probably more a moment of weakness because of stress, emotion or whathaveyou.

Now CRAVINGS...well those...well those, I usually just have to get it out of the way if it keeps occurring day after day after day. For example: a cheeseburger...just. a. cheeseburger. Keep your fries, give me the cheeseburger kind of craving. OMG, the last 2 weeks it was all I could think of, especially at night....very very strange. But then, really, it went away just as fast as it came....Today, however, I was in a diner with my friend, and I figured "better get it now or it's probably not going to happen until spring!" Our other friend - opened her mouth and just said, "How about the buffalo cheeseburger instead. They are really good here. Lower cholesterol, lower fat...I like them, you won't know the difference." REEEAALLY?? seriously, really? Well, I figured I'd give it a shot, even if we were in the local yolkal town diner. ( PS...I don't really like eating tons of beef just b/c of the calories/fat per size ratio...I eat it, but not that much anymore.)

I fell in love. emoticon

Dang but it was good!!!! I don't think I will ever get a beef hamburger again if the other is offered...especially after I put it into the Nutrition Tracker! It was insane the difference between the two! Go ahead, plug will squeal with delight!!

It's nice to try something new and be pleasantly pleased with the outcome. This was one of them.

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YAMINOKODOMO 2/2/2011 10:11AM

    I have tried a buffalo burger and yea they are really not bad! I liked it a lot!

I totally get you tho! I am good most of the time but when I get those cravings its torture! lol

Glad you enjoyed the burger!

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HEALTH4LYFE 2/1/2011 10:17PM

    All this talk about burgers and cheeseburgers has got me salivating for something. emoticon

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LUCKY89071 2/1/2011 9:16PM

    I LOVE buffalo burgers!!!! My family used to eat them when we had to have hamburgers. I completely forgot about them , thanks for reminding me!

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The Surprise Party

Friday, January 28, 2011

I owe SUCHAHOOT the low-down on a surprise here it goes!!! LoL

Last Saturday was the 22nd...which happened to be the date of a rescheduled holiday party for my husband's co-workers so they could see our house (finally) after oh, 3 or 4 years of living here! LoL It ALSO happens to be one month exactly before my husband's 4oth birthday.

Well, he had been hemming & hawwing about doing something for his 40th for MONTHS now, because I had told him that when I turn 40, I want to do something with my girlfriends, in turn to be fair, he could go have fun with his friends....which would be something like golfing. Well, after his last comment of "I guess I won't do anything." I decided that that was IT!

and then I noticed the dates of the party...and I thought....HECK, why not! I called in the ranks: got emails from his coworker, got the cake ordered to his sister, got the emails for his bowling buds and Monday night football dudes....and WHALLAH - itstant Surprise party!!

The only glitch was that it was going to be at my house...with him there entertaining his coworkers...and I had to keep the non-workers at bay (with emails) until they were all gathered outside my front door in freezing cold weather. I had faith in those coordinating emails and the people involved......and you know what??? IT WORKED!!


He opened the front door and a huge "SURPRISE" was screamed by everyone and then the uber-party began!

A flurry of people rushed in, coats were everywhere, food was brought in, balloons, audio speakers, 4 extra cases of beer, cake, laughter and smiling faces all were there for my hubby!

So awesome!!

Yup, I will admit I was a hot mess worried wreck about if there would be enough food & drink...but family pulls together and it all worked out. My tummy was in a turmoil though for a good hour....until I had a good stiff drink instead of the sour junk I was sipping. Amazing what a shot does for ones nerves when they are 'fried'!! After that I finally relaxed and had a darned good time.

The best surprise was one of our really good friends happened to be in town from NC for that weekend and they came to the party too!!! It was just SO good to hang out with her...especially in the same place where we spent so many Friday and Saturday nights during high school!

I couldn't have pulled it off without everyone's help...that is for sure!!

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SUCHAHOOT 2/11/2011 8:27PM

    Ahh, you guys are soo cute! YOu did a wonderful job and it sounds like you all had a GREAT time! What a sweet thing to do for your honey. You rock, Miss Anne!!

(sry I was forever getting over here to see you. I've been missing out.)

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FULLOFFAITH 1/31/2011 12:13PM

    Oh Glad it turned out. I beat the look on his face was priceless emoticon.

Your picture is adorable you make a really cute couple.


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YAMINOKODOMO 1/28/2011 7:06PM

    Aww you are such an awesome wife! I bet your husband loves you to death for doing this for him!

I am glad it all went as planned and you guys had such a great time!

You won Best Wife of the Year award! emoticon

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HEALTH4LYFE 1/28/2011 6:00PM

    What a great story! And both you and DH look very engaged and happy in the photo. Glad everything worked out. emoticon

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OAKBORN 1/28/2011 4:03PM

    So glad your party came off without a hitch! Sounds like it was an ab-fab blast too for all involved!


He's lucky to have you! And your love for him shows through!

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from out of the blue...

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

I got my exercise Spark back today!!! FINALLY

As some of you may know, I am a cyclical exerciser: when I find the time, I do it consistently until one of the following things happen: I get sick as in a head/chest cold (first & most common derailer) or I just get too busy with 'life' (which is easy when I am concentrating on my studies in addition to work & family).

Getting back on that horse is the hardest part of my journey...and it's just the way it is right now, so I accept that with open arms. One day, that will change too, but for now - it is fine. Cyclical is fine.

So my inspiration today happens to be my husband. After working on his maintenance, he has finally decided to try and exercise! He has his own hangups which could be a separate blog on it's own....but mainly anxiety has held him back in that department. So nice and slow...and steady, he has made the leap to just start moving once again!! Very cool! Very proud of him!! and all is well!! No anxiety!

What is exciting to me is that we can do this part together! Inspire one another to get on the treadmill and onto the mat and the machine while the other takes care of the kids upstairs. That takes all the mom-guilt out of the equation completely. You can laugh about the 'mom guilt' if you's what I like to call that pull I have to get home, even though everyone is just fine with daddy....the pull toward the family just to be near one another, even though an hour of exercise would be more beneficial than hanging out watching "Phineas and Ferb" on TV. I have lots of "mom guilt" going has gotten's just, what's a good word to use here....oh yea, it's cyclical!!

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SUCHAHOOT 1/25/2011 7:47PM

    Hey Girlie!
I think it is wonderful that the two of you work out together or just plain support each other to do it separately. MY DH and I exercise separately, but support each other to make it happen!

I'm pretty sure mom guilt is part and parcel with the whole Mom gig!!

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HEALTH4LYFE 1/24/2011 9:52PM

    how fortunate you and DH can share in a healthier lifestyle. I keep doing, hoping some of my example will run over into my DH's life... but not yet. It has, as well as some peer pressure I imagine, run over into Brendan's (son) life. He looks Great!

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AMJSATURN 1/21/2011 12:06AM

    emoticon,Go momma !!,
I think you are healthy with the momma guilt.

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SUZYWM 1/20/2011 4:10PM


Good job Mama! The kids definiely rule my schedule. If you & hubby can help each other, that's just cool!

Have a great day!

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OAKBORN 1/19/2011 10:11AM

    It's so much easier "together"... Mark and I have inspired one another quite often.

Good for the HubbyMan! Good for you!

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DWEXCEL 1/19/2011 7:02AM

    Way to Go Girlfriend! And I'm thinking what good examples Mommy and Daddy are setting for those young boys to follow! emoticon

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Thursday, January 13, 2011

my bathroom wallpaper! Get your minds out of the gutter!

emoticon I got a bunch of you on that one!

But seriously, I am stripping my wallpapper in the bathroom. SO glamorous right?!?! It's been in this state of un-finished-ness since I ripped the peeling paper back a few months ago...then let it sit...then did a wall...then let it sit...then I did another I'm on the home stretch of getting all of it off....but then, I have to wash/sand the glue off of the now bare walls.

Such a pain.

and then I was's just like this journey here. I start. I stop. I start. I stop. Honestly it is a terribly bad habit...but it is one that has been part of my mindset for a long time. Others I know (and admire a bit) plug away and want things "just so" before a certain date. Me - yeah, not so much. Are my "standards" in this regard skewed? or am I just that relaxed and low-maintenance now that I am older?

Eesh, who knows. I wish I had the drive to have higher standards on some things, but when I do, and things do NOT come out the way I want them to, I have gotten terribly disappointed in the past. Is my low-maintenance attitude part of a coping mechanism to avoid disappointment? or am I too much of a realist, where things are never going to be perfect...ever?

Anyway...this is what goes through my head when I am doing a mundane task like stripping wallpaper.

Now to continue and finish the task...I want the room to be painted by May. The way it's going, it might actually get done!

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FULLOFFAITH 1/16/2011 11:32PM

    emoticon You got me with the title my mind is always in the gutter emoticon.

so funny I was just talking to a close friend who I have been thru emoticon with and I asked this very same question. why do we set these goals/challenges and we seem to give in within a week or two never seeing it thru. and then trying again over and over again. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon.

2012 Is our year to finish what we started.


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YAMINOKODOMO 1/13/2011 4:33PM

    lol I was like ooooooh is she going to talk about strip classes or something! lol!

That's what happens, we stop we go we stop we go but all that matters is starting up again and getting s*** done! LOL And that's what you are doin! You got your burst of energy and you mind just clicked and now you are ready to take on the world! er.... the bathroom at least emoticon

Just think of the finishing results of the bathroom! Its gonna look bootiful, your gonna strip away all those layers and make it into a place where you will love just walking in and admiring, where you know all your hard work payed off and you cant imagine WHY you let it take so long! Sort of like losing the weight and getting to your goal eh emoticon

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JANNIEWANNIE 1/13/2011 3:26PM

    Catchy title! I also have many piles of half-finished projects. I think I have adult attention deficit disorder. Anyway, keeping picking at the walls and you will get there. Myself, I like a more leisurely approach to life now that I am retired. My ability to rush into things has died a natural death I believe. But day by day, I keep going at my own pace. Hugs from J in central Illinois.

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OAKBORN 1/13/2011 2:41PM

    I thought we were back to Sprockets!

And you never answered my question!

I do too many proggies just like you described, my entire house is half-finished everything, including cleaning... but my gum I managed to clean those shelves and move them upstairs... but I didn't realize I'd gotten enough furniture polish on the floor to turn it into a skating rink... and my poor Son in law got injured... emoticon

Get that bathroom! You will win! emoticon

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TASOGAREBAN 1/13/2011 2:02PM

    You TEASE!! I was so excited that when I found out you were teasing I blanked out on the rest of your blog, hahahahahahahahahah!

I'm just kidding, lady. :)

People are all sorts of different. Since hitting goal, I've completely lost motivation to the point that I come out disappointed in myself and no longer even appreciate how far I've come. I think a low maintenance attitude has its own perks especially in regards to maintenance. Are you still looking to lose? Are you looking to maintain? At this point I can't even really answer those questions because I'm so blah, lol! But how about you? Maybe you need a pick me up?

ALso, surprisingly, stripping walls DOES burn calories! GASP! OH SNAP! Hahahahahahaha!

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BAILEYS7OF9 1/13/2011 1:19PM

    well... ya know... you lose the weight, you feel sexy.. what was a girl to think?

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BAILEYS7OF9 1/13/2011 1:19PM

    well... ya know... you lose the weight, you feel sexy.. what was a girl to think?

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