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How do bulimics do it?

Monday, March 21, 2011

Hey all. nice title huh?

I came up with that one while I was hurling my guts out on Saturday night.

Seems that I ate something that did not agree with me during antipasto/dinner (blaming the bleu cheese since I was the only one who ate the most of it)....and within 3 hours, my stomach was making all sorts of weird noises, and I felt nauseated to the max...we got home and I literally waved to the kids at bedtime and I stayed near the bathroom for the duration.

Not a pretty picture...at. all.

What's amusing to me ist that that morning, I weighed in at 131 (I weigh everyday b/c of maintenance - keeps me on point)...........I weighed myself after the puke/diarrhea-fest.....127.5. So THAT's what I weigh when my body is completely void of water, food, stomach and intestinal contents! Loooooooovely huh?

Yeah, not stoked on that scale number OR the way I got to it...and slowly I am getting my appetite back...I gained a pound over night, so that was nice to see, it means that my body is righting itself slowly.

Last night, at 9:30, I was starving...I usually never eat at night that late, but there is always an exception, especially when the body is screaming for it. I had the best bowl of raisin bran I ever ate in my life! LoL

It's amazing what your body tells you if you just listen to it....it knows and it takes a long to time figure it out, but when you do, it really is amazing.

and really, how and why would anyone want to throw up on purpose??? it ravages the whole system. Totally not fun.

  
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GONNABEFIT27 3/29/2011 10:48AM

    Glad your feeling better! I hate hate hate throwing up and the way you feel after...

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SUZYWM 3/22/2011 10:21PM

    Hate being sick, and really hate throwing up! Bet your abs were sore! :(

Hope you're feeling much better, and that you're having a great week. We're still making the slow adjustment to the time change and we're just a little bit grumpy. Nothing a good night's sleep won't fix!

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ASUPERCOOLCHICK 3/22/2011 12:26PM

    Oh that sucks! I truly hate being sick, I can almost dela with any other sickness but THAT. I had always wondered how much of loss it would be when completely empty but I've never wanted to find out :)
I've actually done the bullemic thing before when I was in high school and I could not stick with it (Thank GOD) It was the cool thing to do back then and thankfully I gave up and just kept eating as if I were still throwing it up. I thought it could be my secret but I eventaully felt like I had failed at yet another thing. For the short while I did it though it was the worst I had ever felt. I look back at these things now and wonder what was I thinking and truthfully I wasnt thinking I just knew I didnt want to be big anymore. Where was this site when I was young but at the same time if I had stumbled on it then I probably would NOT have appreciated it as much as I do now!!

I'm glad your feeling better!

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YAMINOKODOMO 3/21/2011 9:00PM

    I saw the title and I actually laughed out loud LOL I was like "oh ann.. you so silly!"

But seriously I am sorry you got sick like that! That really sucks and thankfully *knocks on wood* I have never had a bad reaction to food like that. I hope you are feeling much better!

And I totally get you, when I do throw up, normally that only happens if I drank a leeeettle too much.. heh... but I am at the toilet practically crying because I HATE throwing up! Its the worst feeling in the world and I have thought that too myself every once in a while when I am laying down on the tiled bathroom floor because its cold and it feels good, like why in the HELL would anyone do this on purpose! This is horrible!

lol But like I said I hope you feel better today and I am glad your appetite is coming back!

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FULLOFFAITH 3/21/2011 1:35PM

    I Am glad to here you are feeling better.That is never any fun.

Don't know if I have ever had food poisoning (Where is some wood to knock on) emoticon

Lisa

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OAKBORN 3/21/2011 1:20PM

    Oh honey, I am so sorry you were sick! GI is the worst!

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Glad you are feeling better! (You have my every empathy!)

It's amazing how much weight you can lose when your sluices are open at both ends... and how UNFUN that is! Why anyone would choose that sort of self torture is beyond me too!

Stay better and well!

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ANNIEONLI 3/21/2011 12:50PM

    Feeling much much better! THANK YOU! More and more as the day goes on! Too much stuff to do this week to be held down by the ick! Yesterday was the day-o-rest and sleep....any sleep debt I had is gone now!

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TASOGAREBAN 3/21/2011 10:52AM

    FOR REAL! I can't stand throwing up. Like if I drink too much, after a bit I realize that I've had too much. I just suddenly sober up for a minute and zero in on the fact that it was too much and my plan of action after that is to go the nearest bathroom before I go to bed and just stick a finger down my throat to bring it up and out. And I CRY when I throw up. Like heaving sobs, lol! It's funny talking about it but not when it's happening. I think the last day I felt like that was Christmas Eve. So not bad with the drinking lately, huh??

Also, that seems to be how I lose weight too. I was hitting plateaus, hit two of them. And the last one brought my weight from a 131 down to a 128 where it stayed from there until cardio brought me down to my goal. So now I know that whenever I need to break a plateau, get sick! LOL!

How are you feeling today??

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Today's horoscope

Friday, March 11, 2011

I don't really have anything to say today, besides the fact that in the world there are a lot of people who need prayers and that we, here today, should be counting our blessings.

So here is my horoscope, direct from its source:

"You are likely to feel a bit lonely and perhaps even isolated, Anne. Perhaps you think that no one else has the same wild thoughts running through their heads that you do. You'd be surprised to learn how many people actually do. It is unlikely, however, that you will share these thoughts with anyone - especially not at this time. Don't feel like you have to. Just know that you are not alone and that you have a tremendous network of people to support you at all times."

What was my first thought about when I read this?? Sparkpeople.
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ANITA_NM 3/15/2011 3:40PM

    LOL, that does make me think of SP. :)

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YAMINOKODOMO 3/12/2011 11:11AM

    Great horoscope! And yea that would be my first thought too lol

Yes lots of praayers need to be sent out.

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SUCHAHOOT 3/11/2011 10:32PM

    Ha! That is spot on, isn't it? It sounds like a comment a SparkFriend would leave on a blog or your page! That is so cool!

I hope you are having a terrific weekend.
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Atlantic City afterglow...

Monday, March 07, 2011

....it only lasts so long when one comes back to reality! LoL

Well...I can tell you this right off the bat....I was a WINNER!!!

No, I did not win any money at all...that is because I don't gamble at all (I like keeping my $ in my pocket....especially since I don't have much to burn).

I'm talking about another type of winning, of course!!

Go back in time...oh, about 15 years. That was the last time I went out to a club with my beautiful exotic looking girlfriend Ann. I was the 'wing-girl' and the 2 of us were hanging out with 5 or 6 guys regularly because we were all in the same field....we were a pack of sorts - 3 of the guys were 6 foot 4, so as you can imagine, there was no way in heck a guy in a bar could approach either of us! But, like I said, she was a the 'it' girl, and me....well, being the 'wing-girl', I was otherwise known as the friend with the great personality. I think she'd kill me for writing that, but let's face it, I'm a realist and it was what it was. I weighed 187 and while I loved to dance, I was not approached by anyone while on the dancefloor, not only because of my 6 foot 4 guy friends, but because all eyes were on the other Ann.

Meh...it's history, and I eventually started dating my husband and everyone got different jobs, so hanging out with the gang and going to clubs ceased quickly afterwards. That's just how life is...we grow & move on. My friend Ann & I lost touch but 6 years ago, we reconnected and it has been really nice having her around again!

Fast forward to now. I am a mom of 3...married for (oh geez) 12 years to that great guy who saw me for me...who let me grow into who I am today because he supports me and loves me. I truly cannot express how much he means to me. He is awesome. So when my girlfriend Ann's 40th birthday to Atlantic City came up - he was like "Go, have a good time, don't worry about a thing here....have fun!"

So...I did.

Let me just preface this next part, that for some reason, not everything in my world goes uber-smooth. With every bump twist and turn, however, it usually works out nicely. I guess it is part of acceptance of fate! Well...not only did we get lost going down there (a nice detour through Manhattan was lovely, thanks to too much talking and the sound on the Garmin navigator turned way down low)...but we were located 2 miles away from the major party at another hotel!

Now, I'm with 2 single (and physically active) women, so their timeframe is a LOT more relaxed than mine. Mine is regimented and scheduled because that is how life is with 3 kids. It was so freeing to just go with the flow...not only did I walk the Atlantic City Boardwalk in 2-inch heeled boots for 2 whole miles, I did it gladly! My cardio is in such tip-top shape it was a great pleasure to not huff & puff and slow them down - I even told them that.

We went to a buffet for dinner that night...I hate to say it, but I am NOT the buffet type, but it's your girl, so you go with the flow once again. I was the first one done after eating a salad and some fried chicken. Yup, I passed up all-you-can eat lobster and filet minon, a mile-long dessert island, the bisuits and gravy that went along with the fried chicken...you name it, it was there, and yup, I passed it all because knowing me....I'd have an upset stomach before we left the table. Not worth it...I was a woman on a mission Saturday night.....I wanted to dance!!!

After dinner, we went back to the room for some shots of some grass-vodka, which turned out to be an acquired taste...it was AWFUL! And then everyone went back to rooms to get ready for our 10pm rendezvous at the club.

It was SO fun getting all dolled up!! Simple enough, a black high-necked, sleeveless sheath dress for me with some black heeled boots was all I needed to be ready to go. Throw on a good necklace and some body glitter on the arms and whallah, a complete look! Out of respect for my husband I went for the more covered up look too - I think if he really had a say, I would probably have been completely covered! LoL Just joking, but seriously, I did consciously do that for him. Trust me, this little body hugging number was absolutely perfect for this night. I went with the "you don't have to show the goods" reasoning for the night. Sometimes, the less you see, the better :) I felt fierce!!!!! and tiny and thin and fit.....and SO the opposite of the last time I had went to a club!!!

The hotel where the club was was BEEEOOOOTIFUL!! OMG, just walking into this place with the buzz we had going on was terrific! Just picture a short, curly haired chick in black dress flanked by 2 tall women (one with curly long hair, the other with black sleek hair) with cool tops, jeans and heels. Not something you could miss, that is for sure! Our friend Ann was not there yet, so we went on line to get in.

Something was just SO odd about this waiting line. We were the only women on it! LoL I kid you not! We were like "Umm, where are all the women?" It was just too funny. and Yup, we were definitely checked out on that line. Just wrapping that thought around in my brain was perplexing. I have never been "checked out" according my past recollections...so this was just plain weird for me....weird and FuN! Don't worry, I didn't let it go to my head...LoL

It was on the earlier side because the club just opened, but by the time we got some drinks, went to the bathroom to check it out (because that is what girls do), scoped out the layout, checked out groups of guys for my single roommates, and got some more drinks...the club filled up in no time. Eventually my friend got there...and we got to dancing...YAAAAAAY dancing!

Maybe it's the "I don't give a dang about guys here because I'm happily married" vibe...or the confidence of feeling like I finally look good (I'm saying that not to be conceited, but to just be plain truthful)..or maybe the combo of both....but this time....THIS time...I, yes I, was the magnet on the dancefloor. I wasn't even intentionally trying...but somehow, it just happened. Everyone was like "what? Anne's got another guy attached to her?" It was like every single time I moved off of the dance floor and back on...another guy was dancing....with ME! Flattering, heck yeah...a little uncomfortable, yeah...but nothing that a few drinks couldn't fix! LOL Don't you worry...my girls had my back, and a little flash of the wedding band was all I needed to keep them at bay, which was just fine....but just the fact that I was dancing my little butt off and enjoying myself was perfect...absolutely perfect!! Those moments you have to tally up in life...and this was one of them for me.

We could have danced all night long...but by 2am, the birthday girl Ann was done, which left us 3 still on the dance floor. A little drunk 'miscommunication' had us out of there by 2:45 and giggling in our room my 3:15. I laugh about the 'miscommunication' because the next morning, we all said that we all would have stayed dancing, except we all thought that the other wanted to leave!! Too funny! In hidesight, we knew it was better that we left when we did....and the girls are thinking that maybe they should wear engagement rings to clubs from now on! LoL

Well...the happy ending ended with the exiting of the club. The next morning was the "oh geez, we have to get up and get ready to go home now" routine...and it was pouring rain, and the other girls I drove with wanted to shop in the outlets...in the rain. Did I mention that NOW I had an upset stomach?? Oh, yeah, all that effort NOT to have one the night before was in vain...but I'm not surprised at all...that is how things work with me...it's a cosmic balancing game the universe and I play at. AND the weather just got worse and worse during the drive home, and we got lost...again because of a wrong turn...and both things combined to add an extra full hour to the ride home. Oh well....

...it was AAAAALLLLLL good though....for those 5 magical hours of reclaiming the powers of confidence and attractiveness that were hiding for so long. It was SO cool. SO very cool.

I was greeted at the door by my loving family...and we jumped right back into the craziness of life right from the get-go.

I was a nice break...and a nice memory to keep...and now, I can check that off of my bucket list.

  
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ASUPERCOOLCHICK 3/9/2011 10:50PM

    you go girl! I bet you were a hottie in that little black number struttin it out on the dance floor :) I'd be wearing a grin from ear to ear emoticon I have those exact kind of friends and it would be nice not to be invisible around them but to actually stand out thats got to be super awesome! You've worked hard and now it's time to bask in the glory emoticon

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YAMINOKODOMO 3/8/2011 4:54PM

    I didnt get a chance to read your whole blog because I have to get off desk in a few and I am sneaking this in lol But you are making me want to go to AC SO bad! I LOVE going to AC and I will admit I do play the slots lol My boyfriend and I have one that we always HAVE to go to when we are out there lol We just play for the bonus rounds, if we win we win but it feels like an arcade to me so I really dont care what happens!

I am SO happy that you had a grea time and you just went with the flow. Sometimes just going with the flow makes going out on a little trip A LOT more fun! And woohoo with the heals! I bet you looked hawt!
I will try to read some more of your blog later but I am so glad you had such a great time!

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OAKBORN 3/8/2011 8:03AM

    What a magickal experience! So proud of you and happy for you!

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ANNIEONLI 3/8/2011 6:48AM

    Thanks gals!! and I really really wanted to post pics (what I have, my camera is not great), but my computer drive is acting funny emoticon I was trying to fix it, but it was just not going anywhere, so before I forgot what I wanted to write, I just got to typing away! I have time this afternoon, maybe I'll add some pics then!

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SUZYWM 3/8/2011 12:52AM

    I'm so happy for you! The energy, the confidence, the ability to let go and have a blast with your girls! It sounds like you allowed yourself to claim your feminine power, Ms. Fierce! Huzzah!

You MUST do this again!
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FULLOFFAITH 3/7/2011 11:32PM

    I Love your stories. I felt like I was there with (I wish) Glad you had such a good time. wish you had taken pictures of you in you little black dress I bet you looked cute.

Lisa



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BECKYAD 3/7/2011 11:19PM

    It sounds like you had an AMAZING time...Sooo glad you got to feel good about yourself...We sometime forget to take a step back and see who we really are or what we have become...Life is a crazy roller coaster at times but to be able to reflect on moments like this...Is priceless...Can't wait til I get where you are in your weightloss journey :)

You have done Awesome...Keep on truck'in...lol

Becky

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Birthday fun...as only I can do it!

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

Might as well log it in on this auspicious day right?
It has been an interesting day - I knew it was going to be busy and crazy and sort of a loss because of Wednesday life in general and I had a really awesome day yesterday anyway....but I digress - Let's recap, shall we?

- at work I felt brainless and ditzy for some reason and it was a busy day today (ie.: my 2nd kid went to school without his backpack without me noticing until I got home from work, so the ditziness began early in the day),

- for snack I had my usual kashi bar and some new dried fruit my dad picked up at Costco - tried 2 slivers of mango and half of a dried peach - fruit in for the day! Woohoo!,

- during a short lunch I answered emails,

- after lunch I developed wicked wicked gas pains that lasted waaaaaaay into my birthday sushi dinner at a restaurant (45 minute time record on that one - 3 kids + empty restaurant = perfect storm) - through angelfood cake with berries (note: hubby had bowling league tonight, so he sadly kissed me goodbye and whispered "Sorry honey" before he left - he got me flowers, the cake, and got us to the sushi restaurant and home in record time - he's good like that) and then it happily continued through dropping my 2nd son off to cubscouts alone because I couldn't be at the meeting because I was in just too much pain....

- the evil culprit that caused the memorable hideous birthday gas was: the dried fruit.

Note to self: skip dried fruit henceforth.

Happy Birthday to me!!

It is slowly ebbing away now. At least now I can laugh about it!
Woohoo!!

Is this TMI???

Honestly....the best part of my day was here at Spark - I have the best Sparkbuds a girl could ask for!! Lots of old and new friends combined create a great and supportive group and I just wanted you all to know how much I appreciate each and every one of you!

  
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ASUPERCOOLCHICK 3/9/2011 11:02PM

    Its been a crazy week and I'm sad to say playing catchup reading blogs emoticon I'm so with you on the gas and or any tummy problems in general. I always have them / get them at the worst times too emoticon I almost missed my Mom's 50th birthday party that I was throwing for her.

I'm glad that minus the tummy thing you had a great Birthday and you enjoyed spending it with the ones you love :)

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RCOLSON97 3/7/2011 4:37PM

    sorry I missed it happy birthday!

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YAMINOKODOMO 3/3/2011 1:08PM

    lmao! Stupid dry fruit! *in french accent* I spit on you!

Glad you got to enjoy yourself, minus the gas pain, with your family! Still sounded like a very nice bday!

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FULLOFFAITH 3/3/2011 12:09PM

    Awww sorry to here about the effect the dried fruit had on you.

Happy Belated Birthday!!!

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OAKBORN 3/2/2011 9:21PM

    Having trouble getting the comment posted... weird and annoying.

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OAKBORN 3/2/2011 9:19PM

    Glad you had a good birthday despite being a spacecase and having gas from Heck!

We emoticon you too!

Hippo Birdie Two Ewes... imagine me singing loudly on your doorstep!

And to quote a favorite birthday card of mine in years past...

To wish you a Happy Birthday emoticon
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And collapse...
Exhausted & muddy...
On your carpet!


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SUZYWM 3/2/2011 9:02PM

    LOL - hate the after effects of dried fruit! Dang! Glad you had a goodish/kinda day. Have a fabulous time in Atlantic City - live it up!

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DOLE10 3/2/2011 7:50PM

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Happy March!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

I absolutely LOVE March!!!

and not just because my birthday is tomorrow.... which usually gets "forgotten" because of the whole calendar flip thing and the small fact that I never really shouted from the rooftops "IT's MY BIRTHDAY!!" ...well, ever....and I have a hard time with gifts (another thing I am working on - the whole self-worth thing takes time)...but I digress....that is not the point...

I LOVE MARCH!!! It's so springy and green and fun and goes in like a lion and out like a lamb and flowers poke up and winter finally says "Adios!!" and you can go out with lighter coats and you can walk outside and ride your bike and kick the kids out after they get home from school and you can grill without freezing and like I said, all things springy and good!!!!

I don't think I've ever said that I liked March like this before! Maybe it's my brand new underwear having it's effect on me. Nothing like a new set of undies that fit properly to boost one's mood right? LoL

Anyway....HAPPY MARCH everyone!!!!

Have a wonderful day and make the most of it!!!!

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TASOGAREBAN 3/2/2011 6:36AM

    So...I've decided that sometimes...your TMI meter is like...non-existent...LOL!

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lad that underwear is working out for you, rofl! I just sent you a birthday goodie that I feel reflects the inner you...after a rough day that just makes you want to RUN PEOPLE OVER...

Doesn't seem like today is that kinda day though. emoticon

Enjoy your birthday!! emoticon emoticon It's mullet party time!!

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FULLOFFAITH 3/1/2011 1:17PM

    Yes, March is nice that much closer to summer. I Love it Hot!!!

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In Advance HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

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Lisa

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ASUPERCOOLCHICK 3/1/2011 1:03PM

    Winter, slumbering in the open air, wears on its smiling face but a dream of Spring. My fav quote from Groundhogs Day lol

And what better way to start off March... with some new undies :) It's the little things that give us the most pleasure.

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BECKYAD 3/1/2011 10:50AM

    I'm with you on this...I too like March but, I think I like April a little better ( Get's a little warmer where I am from ) I'm just so tired of the snow already...It's beautiful when it first starts to snow and once the snow plows start it suddenly turns ugly...lol

I wish you the "BEST BIRTHDAY" ever tomorrow!


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OAKBORN 3/1/2011 10:29AM

    What you said! So happy that spring is really starting to show her lovely green head. This winter was long, dark, cold and all too snowy. OY!

I have cabin fever big time... spring just could not come soon enough.

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SARAH_HOPE 3/1/2011 9:06AM

    emoticonHappy March to you too! I'm so excited for spring!!! emoticon

Happy Birthday too! I hope it's a wonderful day! emoticon emoticon

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