Friday, January 13, 2012
I've been tending to the fire a lot lately.....no, this is not a figurative thing....it is a literal thing! We are heating our house this winter with a new fireplace insert....and so far, I have stacked 5 cords of firewood, brought at least 2 cords into the house myself, and have re-lit the fire more times than I can count...and I'm good at it 95% of the time! The things we learn in life! LoL
Anyway, we've finally hit the less-seasoned wood and now we have a lot of hard to light and smoldering pieces of wood. You have NO idea how frustrating it is!!!
But then again.....maybe you do.....
In my various states of pondering while staring at the fire, I have seen many a log smolder and smoke until it just kinda burns internally, gets weaker and weaker, and ultimately turns to ash - sure it gives off heat, but it certainly isn't that pretty to look are or interact with when I open the fireplace door to try to stoke it into a flame....all it does is smoke and sizzle at me & stink up my house!
Logs like this need oxygen...some air to breath in order to get a pretty flame...a flame that will catch other pieces of wood and continue on to not only make heat, but to make a real great show for everyone to watch....even the coals glow and radiate heat & beauty when the flames die down.
It's amazing when I get the smoldering log to finally catch fire...WHOOOSH! it goes right up with just a crack in the door...but sometimes I have to really put effort into it and break out the hairdryer and really get a flow of air in there, and even then, a stubborn smoldering log can take time to catch fire.....very frustrating.
I'd say that most of the time, I can get the smoldering log to light with a bit of oxygen and some poking and prodding... all it takes is a little effort, of knowing what to do, and then just doing it.
It's a dirty business too..the stink, the flying dry ash...especially when I have to clean out the ash pile. It could be 2 days of resting and still.....I will dig into the fluffy ash with my shovel and find it warm and at the very bottom....there they are, the few tiny pieces of coal still burning red when the air hits them, ready and waiting to bring forth a new flame to a log.
Hmmm......am I being literal or figurative now....
Friday, January 06, 2012
So it's been a few days of tracking once again...encouraging those I know on how to get back in the saddle of post-holiday eating better too...and it's tough, trust me, I know....I'm doing it myself!
All during the month of December, it was a rough one for me....basically, I signed up for a 5% winter challenge to work on exercise consistency and then...I got busy, then the kids got sick, then I got sick and then WHAM! the holidays were here and while I was better, I was still busy getting ready for the holiday week....and eating was a challenge in and of itself! forget about getting in my exercise!
One thing I know for a fact is that I am a cyclical exerciser and I also get back to it eventually,...and that I cannot force myself into it. I have tried and all that comes out of it is resentment...for what I do not know, but that is the feeling that goes with it. Not fun to feel like that....sooooo instead I watch my diet...and that works for me. (FYI - This is all because I have learned a lot about myself in the last 4 years of being on Spark consistently. Amazing what you learn when you document things!)
So back to the dress: In the basement were my jeans....my smallest pair...hanging there waiting. The last week of December, like I said was rough....Oh, and I forgot to tell you, it got my "little friend" too....so add that bloat onto whatever I was eating that made me feel "meh" and then I noticed that hubby put all of my larger jeans in the drier and they all shrunk, so add a mental blow to the "meh" and smaller larger pants that used to be semi-loose on you! LoL Yeah me = hot mental mess!
I took down my hanging jeans and they fit....thank heavens right? Today, I looked at the blue bridesmaid dress from last May, that one I was gauging my body against in October....which I then used as a goal to fit into again and did eventually in November...(oh, there are blogs about it somewhere! LoL) well, long story short, I tried the dress on today and it fit just fine! Another Whew! on my part. I love head-games....they are so relaxing right?
I guess the moral of the story: don't put your jeans in the dryer and don't let shrunken clothes play headgames with you!
Oh...June 2nd is another 5K. I'm signing up for it as soon as it gets posted. Tonight I'm having a few local girlfriends over for dessert (lowfat) and drinks (wine) and I am going to ask them to do it with me! It's been an idea to do this for a while...to get things moving locally as a little mini-cheerleader for healthy moms! I hope I get a few supporters and joiners!
Wish me luck!
Monday, December 26, 2011
Yes, this is my own made up holiday....and one that I think everyone should do! This is my 4th year in doing this and not only is it a healthy practice to do so...it is very practical as well!
Holiday cookies are great when they are fresh...but seriously, after a while, they get nasty and stale....and then you still feel guilt about all thie time, effort and money you (or someone else) put into them and THAT is when we get into trouble with finding ourselves eating one or two or 5 throughout the day with cups of coffee..."just because."
Who said that you had to eat all of them that are sitting in the house?
Who said that your aunt's cookies are "to die for" and all must be consumed after she came, visited, ate some with you, and left?
Who said that you had to keep them for all posterity until after god-knows-when?
Well, I came to this realization years ago....that NOONE IS GOING TO KNOW if I chucked my aunt's cookies the day after Christmas....that noone is going to eat these getting-stale-by-the-minute cookies because everyone is cookie-d out by now and noone in the house needs to eat anymore of them...that the guilt I feel is really just feeling bad about time, effort, and money wasted...and that really is not a reason to eat these sillly cookies!!!
Here is a trick I also implemented years ago - so someone brings cookies to your house....a new recipe...whatever. Take a bite of each one...taste them...aaaaaand you're done!! Noone is insulted.....90% of the time, you've eaten them before....or the other 90% of the time well, they just stink and why would you eat anymore than a bite if it stinks? LoL
And now....why would you keep these things around any more????
You are done! See? Simple . as . that .
Been there.....done that! now say
And have fun while you are doing this....make it an event the whole family can get in to...each take a last favorite cookie even if you have to...but seriously, just start chucking!!!
Toss those cookies.....you will feel SO much better after you are done!!!
And no feeling here....you will feel like when you are done.....trust me!!
Now go....toss your cookies!
Friday, December 09, 2011
Lately I have been thinking a lot about what it takes to do this whole weightloss thing and stick to it for the long haul.
Persistence and Patience are the first and foremost that come to mind. But there is another element that needs to be tapped into....to be brave.
It's an inner bravery that needs to come out of one's soul to say: "Absolutely not - I will not be this way any longer...I will change and not turn back...no matter what."
With weightloss...there are so many obstacles: people (the doubters), situations (the social scene), the emotional, the mental, the physical...I can go on and on and on. But I think the one that comes out the most is fear.
Fear of failure.
Fear of what people will think if we try and then fail...again.
Fear of trying something new.
Fear of deciding that no matter what, no matter how many times you screw up, you will eventually succeed....and then what do you do when you get there?
Fear of basically...the unknown.
It takes bravery to stand up to those food demons, the doubters and the situations that come up like road bumps along the way.
It takes bravery to say, "no thanks" to someone who thinks that just because you are heavy, you want to eat everything in sight.
It takes bravery to walk that extra quarter mile, even if it takes another 10 or 20 minutes and your knees are hurting.
It takes bravery to look in the mirror, look yourself in the eye and say, "I love you" to yourself because god knows, there are some days when noone utters the words except for yourself.
It takes bravery to keep going the very next moment after one falters.
It takes bravery to LEARN from those moments of weakness and try better the next time.
It takes bravery to look deep inside and figure out your demons....because everyone has them you know...everyone.
It takes bravery to track every single thing....and to be completely and utterly HONEST with yourself.
It takes bravery to donate every single piece of clothing that doesn't fit you right now - whether you are at goal weight & holding on to the big pants or if you are far from getting into those skinny jeans from 10 years ago!
It takes bravery to come out and say "I need help, I am faltering a bit now - please help me back up."
It takes bravery to be persistent and patient for the long haul.
My wish for all that read this is for you to be brave...for yourself, for those who love you, for the future healthier you....because that person is in there and deserves to have someone on their side.
PS...just so you know, I'm not implying that if one fails they are not brave...things take time...and that is where the patience & persistance part come into play. God knows how long it took me to figure this all out...20 years? LoL OK, probably not that long, but sometimes, it sure as heck feels like that. And if you think that I am always brave...think again! ALL of this takes practice...and just like the meaning of life, it is a constant journey to figure out.
So in the meantime....be brave!!!
How are you going to be brave today????
Sunday, November 27, 2011
You are all going to hate me...I never got a full body shot from the reunion!! I hate to even admit this, but I barely took a dozen pictures! as soon as we entered the room, I was everywhere and chatting it up...and if not that, I was on the dance floor with my old gang.
Thank heavens my friend got a few shots!
You can see that I paired the little black dress with a silver belt (um, it was really a necklace - LoL call it creative accessorizing!) and a dangly set of silver circle earrings.
As you can also see....the silly grin that did not leave my face the entire night!!!
We really had a great time...it really was neat seeing familiar faces from the past, reconnecting, and seeing & talking with actual people that I chat with all the time on FB.
My feet are still recovering from dancing the night away...my knee-high black heeled boots paired with a textured stocking finished my look perfectly but boy, the poor feet were hurting by the end of the night!
I felt great going into this, thanks to getting healthy over the past 3 years... really glad I decided to change up my lifestyle way before this event. Feeling and looking good were the icing on top of the cake for me!!
Part of me is sad that the reunion has now come and gone...it was one of my mini-goals to go into it feeling & looking good...now I need another mini-goal to focus on. I already have the 5% winter challenge coming up and I think after that is a 5K in June. What I have learned from doing this for so long is that we always need something in the distance to focus on - to strive for.
So now it's on to another chapter in this journey!
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