Tuesday, January 17, 2012
ohhhh....I got it baaaaaad!
Probably one of the worst cases you will ever see.
Somehow, I have this guilt that I have to be with my family 24/7 when they are home, whether it be on vacation for one day or one week....and when summer hits - forget it!!
You see...my husband is a teacher, so we are together A LOT with the kids. More than other families for sure...and I consider this a good and lucky thing because let's face it...not everyone can be with kids and present like my husband.
There is that maternal need to be with them 24/7 no matter if my husband is home...no matter if they are just sitting there playing with their games..no matter if they are playing outside...no matter if they are all in the family room watching a football game....and you know what?????? I don't do anything that I would consider uber-productive for myself when they are around!! I do not work out even though the time is there....stretching before me and I'm even find myuself saying to myself "good heavens, there is nothing to do!"
So you can see....I have a bad habit of being a hovering mom. Not like I'm doing anything great with them all the time...I'm just there....just like my mom was.
This goes with wife-guilt too....like going out with my girlfriends for happy hour...but for some reason, I have less guilt seeing her when we meet for lunch and everyone is at school. Seee!?!?!? They are all OUT and busy and thus the no guilt feeling on my part!
I even get anxiety in trying to figure out how to say "I would like to go out to the mall when the football game is on" because, for some reason, I have this stupid GUILT! And trust me....my husband could care less sometimes if I were hanging around because he goes about and does what he has to do without a thought...I'm telling you it's all me! Oy!
I know I'm not alone in this one...this is going to be a work in progress...as the saying goes "Knowing is half the battle" so maybe now that I verbalized it...I can help myself get through it and be a little more proactive for myself.
Hey - you know what? We went shopping yesterday as a family (shoe shopping and stuff) and while hubby tried on a suit, I entertained the kids in the accessories dept.....and then I got a chance to look through my ladies dept...and yup, had to try stuff on, which he was glad to let me do while he entertained the kids a bit. I think it was the first time we ever split up and divided and conquered and stayed in a store for more that a half hour with all 3 kids in tow!!! Sure, them getting older has a lot to do with it....but it's also me saying "Hey, I want to check something out for me....will you wiat a bit everyone?" 2 clearance items and one new shirt later - I'm really glad I took that initiative!
Baby steps in everything right???
Woohoo - Blog #4 DONE!
Have a nice day everyone!!