Friday, February 24, 2012
Hmmm.....where to start with this one without being negative.....I hate being negative, but sometimes, you have to just get it out in order to get the positive back. So here it goes.....
It seems that I will not be doing the 5K run that I have been planning to do since I heard about it last September. Yup....will not be able to do it. and it was a cool one too......a 5K on the airport down the road....the airport that I used to fly out of when I was getting my private pilot's license in college....the airport that I drool over as I drive past, especially past a particular stretch of road that I have driven since I was a little kid, that I drooled over even back then. I was even recruiting local mom's to do the run with me....a bunch of first timers too!
The race is not going to happen for me.
WHY???? you may ask?
Well, because on that very weekend, well it happens to be the ONLY weekend that our Cub Scout Pack can go camping!!! OF COURSE!!! And we HAVE to be there because we are the coordinators and the leaders trained for the whole thing.
Yeah....yeah....yeah....the greater good for the kids and all that jazz....I get it.
But it DOESN'T mean that I am not disappointed.
Oh wait....it gets better!
Next week is my birthday....on Friday. Niiiiice huh? A great day to have it right? I should be getting a sitter and partying up my 39th year! ...ummmmmm....nope
Again....Cub Scouts has reared it's ugly head. And I have known about it since last September, but still it is not easy to take without being disappointed. We HAVE TO go because my husband is taking over the Cubmaster role officially that night and he has to speak.....and I HAVE TO make the cake for the group graduating because I have done it for the past 3 years....and we HAVE to go because NO ONE else is going to go because this group is not liked very much at all and noone is going to go at all and that is just sad and pathetic.
So for my birthday night....I will be making a cake for others and spending it with people I do not necessarily enjoy all because I HAVE to.
When you HAVE TO do something sometimes......it really kills the joy. And I have been TRYING and TRYING my hardest to bring things into a positive light, but to no avail.
Thus, the reason for this blog. Most of the time it really helps to get things out there and I am hoping this is one of them.
Eeessshhh....I am hoping this works.
Breathe...breathe.....this too shall pass.
e....breathe...think happy thoughts....bring out the good of each situaton instead of focusing on the annoying and negative.....breathe....breathe...breathe.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
That is what some of my FB friends said yesterday. Teeheehee
Yes, I said that...no wine during Lent.
And no bacon on Sunday's anymore for the whole family and no iPad games like Angry Birds for my husband.
but the no wine thing has been VERY interesting, even with the first day and now into my second day....here is why:
I went to visit my sister in Boston this past weekend: a bottle gone every night.
I get home and there are 2 open bottles on the sill for that glass with dinner, and I did buy some very cute cheap glasses that I now leave out for all the world to see
In observing my past behavior over the past month, I have consumed a little bit more wine than I usually have in the past and sometimes it is good to reign it in...so I put the open bottles away in the cupboard, to use only when cooking....and I even removed my cute little wine glasses and put them in a cupbord too. Outta sight - outta mind.
I have done this before during the fall and I think it's time again to partake in the ritual because if you really think about it...sometimes those calories are as good as having a soda...and yes, it does cause bloat too (ahem, if you drink more than one)....so the decision was really pretty easy to make for me.
But it was really funny how yesterday I kinda missed it. Just hanging out and waiting for my hubby to get home so we could go out to his birthday dinner I wanted a glass of wine. Then we went out to dinner and lately I have been ordering wine. I even said so in front of my kids, and they agreed. EWWWW! My. kids. agreed. (Insert a shudder down my spine right . here .)
Again: EWWW!!! my KIDS notice that I drink wine and you know what???? THAT IS UNACCEPTABLE!!!! to me at least. Kids see everything. They also imitate everything. If I am being a good example to them in regard to fitness and nutrition, I really should do the same with the alcohol thing as well.
I grew up with parents who had wine at dinner...a beer here and there too. Nothing too extravagant or talked about. As kids, we noticed; and sometimes, we were even allowed to taste a sip of beer when we asked (about 2 times in my lifetime around the age of 7 years old) - which resulted in a yucky face and a laughing parent! The same went for black coffee too! Probably a good thing to do if you think about it. It was not something that appealed because it was just there, for adults, and besides, it tasted horrible!!!!
But I am finding in today's world (at least in my community) - parent's joke around about the "Mommy's sippy cup" wine glass that is out there and they talk about NEEDING a glass of wine more often than not. Kids hear this crap...and you know what? It just ain't right in my humble and probably uber-conservative opinion. I'm not saying that we don't or won't partake, but talking and flaunting about adult things is a little much sometimes, and call me old-fashioned, but I think I am going to change my environment back to old-school and only partake on special occassions or parties.
Ooooo......I just sort-of ranted a bit didn't I. Sorry 'bout that.
So back to my train of thought. No wine during Lent.
What will it give me??
Less bloat! YAY!!!
Less calories consumed! YAY!!
More room on my shelf where the wine glasses were - YAY!!
A better example to my kids!! YAY!!
I sound like a wino with all this YAY!!!-ing going on. but you know what? Sometimes, you have to re-assess your world around you in order to improve upon it.
Now here's a funny for you....I'm going out with my girl-friends tonight and we get a free wine with dinner!!! Wait until they get a load of me and my Lenten obligation! LoL
Tuesday, February 07, 2012
Wow - 4 years of Sparking.
Giving a big SHOUT OUT TO ALL YOU SPARKFRIENDS OUT THERE!!! You all ROCK!!!!!!
4 years of this:
19,056 Fitness Minutes
23,228 hits on my Sparkpage (that one blows my mind!)
4 Years of logging nutrition, blogging, reading, learning, encouraging, relearning, exercising, falling, dusting myself off, getting back to basics, learning, reading, tracking, etc. etc. etc.
4 Years of being consistently active on Spark. Sure, I have taken tracking breaks here and there...but they were just that...mini-vacations from the lifestyle journey I am on.
I have been thinking of what has become a solid part of my life over these 4 years, and here they are:
I drink 9 glasses of water a day - in fact, I have the same water bottle I started with 4 years ago...it's a part of me and my kids know not to touch it - it's MINE!
I track my nutrition 90% of the time - yup, second nature by now and I know exactly what the calorie count of a meal is by how my body feels. Kinda cool huh?
at 10am - I eat 10 almonds and I miss them if I don't!
I eat one pineapple every week...buy it, cut it up, fridge it, ready to eat.
I never gave up bacon on Sundays...because I track my food, I never deny myself - all things in moderation!
I do not exercise regularly - I go in cycles depending on my life. In fact, on my reports, I see distinct patterns for each season and time of the year...very interesting!
I do NOT beat myself up when I don't exercise - I am VERY active and I rarely sit down...when I am not actively exercising ( ideally, 3 times a week, for a half hour) - I pay attention to my nutrition by tracking it. Simple as that.
I accept "bad eating" days as part of life...these too shall pass, and life is meant to be enjoyed!!! So birthdays, celebrations, holidays, PMS - come and get me! I will enjoy you in moderation and when you are over, you are over and I AM BACK to my normal the next day.
Day ones - I have had a BUNCH of them...and I get back to my Fast Break step each and every time.
I remember that getting back on track is HARD...and all those "Days ones" and "Week ones" are HARD because it's "here we go again!" ..again! But I accept that as part of my life and I pick up the pieces and don't dwell on the past. What's done...is done.
As you can see...things become a habit if you do it long enough. It's making the good habits out-weigh the bad. It's making the bad habits a "once in a while" and the good habits the "every day"....like ying & yang - one cannot live without the other.
Over the last 4 years I have read...a lot! I have read blogs about every different scenario under the sun : from losing weight for a special event........... to using a specific product to lose weight......... to guilt about not getting one's exercise in......to people tracking nutrition but tracking donuts and heavy creamers on their nutrition trackers as their breakfast (I kid you not) and never once changing over to a healthier alternative......to people who are 120 pounds and want to become 100 pounds (that blows my mind - to each his/her own)......to people preaching about this & that.......to people insulting one another........even to Spark Success stories and Motivators that are completely out of date. There are THOUSANDS of other scenarios and stories, but these stick out in my head the most.
My heart breaks for people I friend and never hear from again....and for others who cannot find their way in other ways.....so much struggling which makes me wonder why something finally clicked for me after so many years of my own weightloss attempts.
It makes me think about my overall philosophy on weightloss that I have now and why maybe I have had such success...aside from getting such great support from my awesome SparkFriends and my Maintenance buddy Jenni (Oakborn)....
I never sought out to be "thin by this date" - I just wanted to be healthier than I started because I wanted to be able to run and play with my kids without getting winded.
I wanted to stop feeling like crud - and I had an underlying feeling that changing my diet would be a solution to the problem. After reading and getting Sparkpoints for it, I realized I was SO uneducated about SO many things in regard to nutrition.
I think that being involved in a community has helped me tremendously...I have a voice here, and sometimes, I even get heard! LoL
I am VERY realistic about life! I read about people running this race and that race, and while it's inspiring and it does get me motivated - I have no real desire to over-push my body because, let's face it, can I really keep that up when I am 60 years old?? Some will be able to, and that is admirable, but I know myself too well. What is the phrase: "Know thyself."
I keep my eye on the horizon and at the bigger picture because every day in a new day, with no mistakes in it.
Here is my future goal: When I am 60 years old, I want to be doing exactly what I am doing today: maintaining my weightloss through nutrition, being active, and exercising in accordance with my life at the moment.
It is not a glamorous goal-filled future.
It is boring.
It is simple.
It is life.
And now... on to another year!
Monday, January 23, 2012
Oy! having such a hard time today for some reason!
I know I have to make a list and prioritize, but even with that I just cannot focus on more than one thing at a time today!
Very frustrating and very rare that I am this distracted....I was hoping getting it out would help me focus my attention back to the billion tasks at hand, but as of right now...it's really isn't.
Ick...I hate this.
Well, we had some heck of a weekend...Saturday was work, then a birthday party (traveling on icy road a long ways to get to it too) and then, we got a call from our friends down the road from our house that they were having a last minute get together at 7pm....kids included! From the birthday party, we left at 6pm, got to the other party after dropping off my nephew at 7pm and then, the kids got a second wind and we staying until 11pm!! It was an unexpected fun day and night that was totally out of the norm for us to do...a good thing!
Yesterday was football day....Hubby is a huge NY fan, so he invited people over to watch the game...but the time slot & all the action kept the kids up until 10:30pm!!! Ugh...they are going to be GROUCHY today...hopefully not at school, but after school I am not looking forward to it! Maybe they will be OK. Either way, they are going to bed at 8:30 tonight!
Tonight I have scouts...we are meeting at a school and not my house to talk about "Positive attitude" and the School System. Hubby is a teacher, so I am hoping he takes the reigns on this one. But even so, I have to prep for this a little bit. Afterwards, we are going to get the kids a slice of pizza across the street as a treat.
We also have another scout thing on Friday - the pinewood derby race...or as I like to call it, Hell night. I don't care how organized we make this thing each year...it still has its headaches with 48 families coming together all at once. This year, we get to go to a completely different location too!!!! So you KNOW people are going to screw this one up - BIG TIME. And my kids haven't even done one lick of making or painting their cars or stands. It's going to be a long week....or probably a short one because you know how it goes...when things HAVE to get done, time runs out fast...but if you have NOTHING to do...time just drags along. Murphy's law! LoL
Maybe my subconscious is wanting to just go back to sleep and hide until next week.
On an upside - I have my workout gear on and I am planning on getting in 10 minutes of treadmill time with each wash load I switch out!
Wish me luck that I get my focus back before school let's out! LoL And if it doesn't....tomorrow is a new day!!!
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