Monday, June 04, 2012
I have a running list of things that make me feel like crap...things that I LOOOOVE (or loved) too...it's a list that has taken years to compile with knowing what foods make me feel good and what make me feel sick (literally in some cases). It took me about 5 years to figure this out...and maybe it's something to write here because maybe...it will make others rethink about how their food choices are making them feel.
Here we go - starting at the very worst "make me feel real sick" food to the lesser ones:
Ice cream (this landed me in the hospital with a cloged bile duct...and no I am NOT lactose intolerant and I used to eat it all the time)
Cheesecake (such a bummer when I discovered this one)
Chocolate in large amounts
Baked goods - certain ones with icing..let's say ICING as more of the culprit here...forget butter cream!
well, not really shrimp...but LOBSTER!!! I used to love lobster dripping in butter...maybe it was the butter, but I can't have one without the other....so it's on my "eat at your own risk" list now.
Steak at a fancy restaurant...no thank you.
Pancakes with syrup...there better be a bathroom nearby....is that TMI??? Same with hubby....weird.
So now to the latest thing - Kielbasa!! Hot Dogs! and certain sausages! we have these things once a week....it's an easy thing to get and throw on the grill....the kids eat them too....BUT it makes my legs feel funny (I think) and I think it's all the nitrates and salt in the products. Too strange of a coincidence to not try and lay off of them for a while to see if the legs feel better. I've noticed it before, but never really put the 2 together until the last 2 weekends.
So now, I am vitamined and hydrating....laying off the salt, and the caffeine a bit too (gotta have my morning coffee still) and reassessing the weekly menu to get rid of our "easy meal" of kielbasa and pierogies...and steering clear of the hotdogs at the next few scout functions and family BBQs.
Between that and moving my butt....my legs should be feeling right as rain in a few days and if not in 2 weeks time, I will go get it checked out with the doc. (why 2 weeks?? it is something my grandmother used to say...and most of the time, she was right - most things, if minor, resolve themselves in 2 weeks...so it's just something I do now) 2 weeks is also how long it takes for my body to come back to normal after a weekend of excessive eating/socializing...my detox period, so to speak.
So that is that...maybe it will get you thinking about your own foods and how they affect you!!
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Every time I hear "ugh, this just isn't going to work." well, frankly, it drives me nuts.
Why not?? Why won't it work? Who says???
I get the whole "I don't wanna be here - this (insert occassion - like a birthday party you'd rather skip) is going to stink"...I admittingly have been the Queen of the party poopers on MANY occassions!
But seriously, when it comes to trying or thinking something new, I can be really upbeat and positive and JAZZED about it!!! and then...other people's negative garbage starts in and I become really annoyed that they burst my positive bubble, especially with those that play "Devil's Advocate" You know what? Go screw. Leave me alone...leave my positive energy alone because I am tired of being beaten down and having my voice and ideas belittled. There - I said it.
And then....it makes ME negative and grumpy....and sometimes, it is hard to fight against and then I reaaally get in the dumps.
Yup - it's totally someone else's fault.
Nope...not my fault. THEY made me negative.
Fighting a negative is a really hard thing to do. Staying UPBEAT is a battle in and of itself sometimes, especially when others around you are in a constant black hole because of their own issues and you are there dealing and forcing your mouth to stay shut so you don't make more of an issue at hand (the whole mountain out of a molehill expression comes to mind)...because what would a fight about this little thing do?
Well...there is a difference between shutting up & putting up and taking back respect from an individual that is unintentionally bringing you down by actually speaking up....it's just a matter of picking your battles, in many cases.
So that being said....this little bit of blog therapy is done for me....I am determined to remain positive and smiling as much as I can...as I always do, because let's face it....life is too short and this too shall pass. Who knows, maybe a time will come to actually say something without losing my cool and without making a mountain out of a molehill.
Hmmm....maybe I'm being uber-super-sensitive...there is a full moon coming down the pike for Monday! oooOOOEEEEooooooo!!!
Monday, May 21, 2012
A flash in the pan.
A wrinkle in time.
This too shall pass.
Can't say that I'm all that happy with being in the top portion of my range...so I actually vocalized it on Saturday to my husband.
Quick backstory: I listen to him talk about everything weightloss related since he is on maintenance too...and is going through his own exercise slump...and he's doing great....but for some reason, whenever I mention my own weightloss world, he turns the conversation to him...and then I just shut up and let him talk....mainly because I guess he needs to talk about it more than me, and that is OK....but....
On Saturday, in front of my closet...picking out clothes for work....he walked in and I just said this: "I'm not in a good place right now - I haven't seen that number on the scale in god-knows-when - I'm being more active than ever, and yet I feel ginormous. So please don't talk to me about where you are at right now, I just do not want to hear it."
And that was that. I went back to my closet and picked out oh-so-flaterring white scrub pants and a t-shirt to go under my scrub jacket. Loose fitting nonsense clothes...I'd figure out the rest later in the afternoon.
Here's the kicker....it's not like nothing fits. Hardly the case. Things fit, just not the way I am used to them fitting in the last 2 weeks. They are a oh so slightly snug - which means I'd better get focused on getting back control. and let's face it, mostly...I'm mental. I'm thinking it is really wors than it is, when really, it really is nothing that a few days of rigorous nutrition and exercise tracking can't handle....but SOMEtimes...it just gets so damn tiring to keep going on and on like this, day after day after day.
But then again....that's life...right? right.
So I logged everything, as usual, that morning after toast, and he came up to me and kissed me - looked me dead in the eye and said "Don't get discouraged, you are doing great, it's just a little blip." Another kiss and a hug and I was off to work.
It was nice to be heard (beside here on Spark - LoL) - It's hard keeping things on an even keel sometimes when all you want to do is scream "ENOUGH already!!!!" and that can go for ANYthing in life. Sometimes....it is just nice to be heard.
Anyway...just giving you a peak into my head right now. Honestly today is a strange "I don't feel like eating" day - these are rare in my world....usually I am eating every 2 or 3 hours! Maybe it's my body giving my brain a rest from thinking about food all the time. What a nice gift! Thank you body! LoL
Hope everyone is having a great Monday!
Friday, May 18, 2012
Ahh.....the scale has been doing that so much this week....and if I were in any other place other than Maintenance, I'd be upset....but this is what Maintenance is.....you get a range of 5 pounds and that is your goal - to stay in that range.
I will not lie though....when I read 134.4 on the scale today, I was less than pleased, but then I contracted my abs and loved my sore upper body and I knew that this is part of the game. Working out, leads to some fluid retention when one's body is healing itself...and that next week, The Scale might/will say something different.
I also have to remember that I mowed the lawn in an hour yesterday - a lawn that in the past has taken me 90 minutes to cut!!! So BOOYAAH!! More healing going on....and I am getting a tush where the was none before....so there IS some muscle building going on as well....I think.
So anyway, I have this bridesmaid dress that I wore last year for my sister's wedding...and May 7th was their 1 year anniversary, so I tried it on - and it was more snug than I liked, and I was at 132 that day. For fun, I tried it on today and it zipped up even better than on the 7th.
Why am I telling you this, part of it is for me to now wig-out about being in my higher range (please, you think I am all calm?? LOL - NOT!) and part of it is to focus on our NON-scale victories.
That dress....is a non-scale victory guage of mine. Next year, I will still fit in it. Vowed that a year ago, and here I am...still fitting in it.
Little things like this are what matter....if you have been struggling, and not going anywhere on that scale, well, take a step back and look at what you ARE doing and what other progress you have made:
- maybe you couldn't walk for 20 minutes straight at a 2.5 mph - 3 weeks ago, and now you can!
- maybe you couldn't run for a minute straight - and now you are up to 3 minutes of running!
- maybe you were binge eating - and now you are making progress on cutting back!
Understand that this takes time...and patience really is a virtue when changing your lifestyle. Patience to be kind to yourself when you are in the middle of beating your self-esteem to a pulp. Patience to think and rethink choices over, over and over again....and knowing that one day, all of your patience will have not been for naught.
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