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It's time to toss your cookies!!!

Friday, December 28, 2012

Yup! It's that time of the year once again!!!

It's time for the GREAT COOKIE TOSS!

I do this every year because a) it gets the crap out of the house because by now, really noone in the place needs any more of it and b) it just feels soooooo gooooooood to do it.

Yeah yeah yeah... all that work I put into them - the time, the money... oy what a waste! Ummm... well, I'd rather see it go into the trash than onto my ass though at this point so, out they go - for the good of all!

And you know what? I even cut back this year on the number of cookies I made because it was actually WORSE in the past....and still, not everyone is eating them. So let's look at the big picture here... it's a good thing for everybody that they are actually a bunch left, even with my cutting back baking by half! YAY FAMILY - both immediate and extended!

So everybody grab that plastic garbage bag and have at it!!! It will make you feel SO FRICKIN' GOOD!!!!


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ANNIEONLI 12/29/2012 6:54AM

    All of you with garbage disposals make me jealous!

I WISH I could hear them just get all chomped up in one!!! But alas, Long Island is not a land of disposals because of our septic systems emoticon I have one on my ultimate wish/bucket list if it ever comes to pass that it's allowed! LoL


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KANOE10 12/28/2012 3:28PM

    I am with you..toss those cookies and candy..Out, out, out. I put some in the disposal and tossed others out. Like you I made less food this year and felt better.

Have a great day Spark Friends. emoticon

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OAKBORN 12/28/2012 2:00PM

    I have been waiting for this post! I knew it was coming! It's becoming somewhat of a holiday tradition.

Bye Bye emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon!!!

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PRESBESS 12/28/2012 1:06PM

    I hear ya! Toss those cookies!

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-AMANDA79- 12/28/2012 11:08AM

    Thanks for making me LOL this morning! Better in the trash than on the ass!!


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NEW-CAZ 12/28/2012 10:32AM

    My left over mince pies and biscuits are going to the charity shop for my fellow volunteering colleagues to devour, all other "naughties" have been slung! emoticon

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NELLJONES 12/28/2012 9:33AM

    I send most of mine home with the grandkids. Anything left, down the disposal. It's very satisfying to hear the whoosh of disappearing down the drain. Very final.

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FIRECOM 12/28/2012 9:33AM

    We are hosting a brunch on New Years day so I will throw them out on the 2nd. Your humor is great and really puts things into perspective.

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PJH2028 12/28/2012 8:55AM

    Uh-huh!! Moi aussi mon amie! Thanks for the fun post, too! Good company!!! xo

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KITT52 12/28/2012 8:17AM

    I threw my away on the does feel good to be rid of them...

Have a healthy day and a Happy New Year

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Why my page is the way it is.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

When I started SP in 2008, I was in AWE of the people who were successful. I friended, I got to know their stories...I also got my own plan together and I figured to use the Spark nutrition tracker diets as a guide, but I basically built my own plan from what I saw but mainly from what I had in the house. I stayed in my designated range and that was that. I drank water. I exercised. I lost weight.

And I saw on another page, a woman's journey in a month by month form, and I copied it, but I did it week by week, event by event...better than a blog because I don't have to sift though pages upon pages to see where I was and what I was doing. It was, and still is a good thing.

With my success, I also kept watching the success stories touted by SP. And soon, a lot of them started becoming quiet. No new action whatsoever. The motivators I held up so high on my pedestal were silent. Where had they all gone? Sure, a few remained...let's say 5% of the 100 that I was intently watching and idolizing...but seriously, if you have stumbled, then say it - OWN IT! We got your back - don't hide and be ashamed - if anything, that will make things WORSE!!

I questioned to myself why? Why are they still motivators? Why isn't SP updating and keeping track of these walking billboards on the success page if they aren't active? A whole lot of other why's are mixed in there too....but you get my drift.

And that is when I decided that I wasn't going to just disappear on SP..ever, especially when I became a "Motivator" ..because you know what? To have that tag and not be one available or updated is (to me) kinda hypocritical. There....I said it. For me, personally, if I wasn't trying my damnest, then I didn't want the title either. Take it back SP... hold me accountable on another level - I can take it.

Anyway, my page now is super long because I never stop updating it. Sometimes it may be a month now, but hey, at least I'm still here! It's kept me accountable on an entirely new level. It has gotten me through some pretty rough patches too (ahem, the holidaze).

So go ahead and steal the idea from me....try it out - the worse thing that it will do is make your page super long like mine! LoL

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SIMPLYDALENA 1/1/2013 7:57PM

    hmmmmm, this is an interesting blog, thought provoking, as I'm into my 1st day on SP and not sure how much time I'm going to have to devote to all this. I'm going to be reading some more of your blogs. I like your thinking.

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NUMD97 12/27/2012 11:47AM

    I've been mulling over what you have written here for a few days now. There's really two schools of thought on this: People reached their goal, and feel that maintenance is something they could manage without SP. For some this was not meant to be a permanent addition to their lives, and I do understand that. For others, as you have said, they are starting to revert to old habits, not knowing that the losing part is the easier of the two tasks, and have not been able to shift into maintenance mode. Having realized that, and after getting a motivator medallion, they feel like frauds once the weight starts climbing back on. Out of pure ego, some of these folks are afraid to come back. Which, frankly, is just plain silly. If we had all figured all of this out, SP wouldn't exist in the first place, nor their competitors.

All in all, it's an evolving process. And each must decide for him/herself what works best. Getting a motivator medallion means you "get" some of it. If those that left really need to, they should just figure it out and get their rears back here and in gear. There's much work yet to be done!

Merry Christmas, Annie, belatedly, and many good wishes for the new year,


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FIRECOM 12/27/2012 11:07AM

    People will come and go. That is the nature of all things. I just hope that your page gets longer and longer.

Cheers and kudos

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SWEDE_SU 12/27/2012 4:43AM

    you really make a good point here - motivators should continue to motivate!

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-AMANDA79- 12/21/2012 9:19PM

    When I lost weight the first time, I kinda felt like I didn't belong if I didn't have any weight to lose. But everytime I become an inactive member, I put lbs back on. I've decided that I'm going to be here for life!

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WATERMELLEN 12/20/2012 6:48AM

    Totally agree with you: there's something eerie about motivators in maintenance "disappearing": make use of the Spark community resources to achieve "success" and then . . . . not give back? Hmmmmm.

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MANDELOVICH 12/20/2012 4:20AM

    Great idea. Maybe I will try it too. Thanks.

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DALID414 12/18/2012 7:34PM

    Wow! I love that! I agree, SP should do something about inactive motivators.

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TINAJANE76 12/18/2012 6:00PM

    You've got me nodding right along with 'ya! Maybe being nominated a motivator should only be good for a year and then you'd have to re-earn the title each year. Success stories only come out about once a month, so it would be nice to see them followed up on and removed if the people featured are no longer active here. People who don't exist on SparkPeople anymore really shouldn't continue to be held up as role models in my opinion because disappearing and pulling away from your support systems usually means that you've embarked on a backslide (I recently wrote a blog on this very topic!).

Anyway, thanks for staying successful and active here and showing others that it can be done!

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MSPATOOTY 12/18/2012 10:33AM

    I LOVE how long your page is! It gives me hope when I can read another person's ups and downs over time. emoticon

Especially when they've been successful in the long run. emoticon

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CATMAGNET 12/18/2012 9:46AM

    I just became a Motivator last week, and as I was reading your blog, I just kept nodding, because I feel the same way. I want to stay on track in maintenance and I want to make sure that I keep documenting my journey, because it's one that I will be on until I die. If continuing to share my story with others helps others as much as it helps me, then more power to them.

Thank you for this post! It has inspired me to continue to share what I learn as I maintain my weight loss!

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NUOVAELLE 12/18/2012 9:31AM

    Thank you for putting my thoughts into words! I've had exactly the same questions in my head about all the people who disappear. To me, you're one of the best motivators here on SP. Simply because... you're here! You share your story, you offer advice, you give your support, you stumble because you're human, you learn from your mistakes and you share your lessons with us. And that's my own definition of Sparkpeople Motivator.

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CJMOK1121 12/18/2012 9:12AM

    Thank You so much, This is a GREAT blog and I too have wondered what has happened to some of these people, I know its hard to loose weight only to gain it back and just give up, and I know how much accountability is important. I use to hate that word, but we do so very much need that in our lives. ACCOUNTABILITY, there I said it. LOL.

Thank you again: CJ from OK.

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LJCANNON 12/18/2012 8:57AM

    Hmm, something to think about!! I seldom Update my Page but I think I am More Active on here Now than I was Before I got to my Goal. I will have to give this some Thought!
emoticon I do agree with you, Being a 'Motivator' does carry some responsibility with it. But I am sure some people are not as "Invested"(?) in the Program as others so they would not feel as Responsible or Accountable to the Group.

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GIVENTHANKS 12/18/2012 8:41AM

    emoticon blog! I agree with what you posted and I decided about a month ago that I will always be active on SP even after I reach my goal.

Have a great day!


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KANOE10 12/18/2012 8:39AM

    It is always interesting when people disappear on Spark..motivator or not. I agree with you..keep sparking and staying accountable, no matter what rough patch you go through. I tend to forget to update my page, but you have inspired me to make a few updates!

Hope the holidaze are going well for you. Interesting blog.

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Back in the saddle

Monday, December 10, 2012

I will NEVER say that getting back in the saddle is easy.

Never, ever, EVER!

But sometimes are easier than others, depending on how off it's been.

For example: I mentioned that I was going to get derailed this weekend...and you know what? I sure as heck was!!! To the nth degree too!!

There was "visiting eating" - I also call this "polite" eating because you are the guest and it's a special occasion and there is NO WAY you can avoid this specially prepared meal of greasy latkes and brisket. There is NO POSSIBLE way. And the special dessert the hostess made for us because we mentioned we liked it so much! Can't forget that. And of course there is your favorite wine they bought ...Can't not have a glass!

So you see, I had no real choice in the matter. Hey, sometimes you don't! I've been a guest at this meal for 6 years - I know what to expect too!

And then there was the football game yesterday with it's mini-hotdogs and nachos. That meal was a 4 to 1 decision NOT in my favor to have. Ugh. By then, all I wanted was a salad!!!

So here I am today and OH THE BLOAT!! emoticon So bad my wedding band set it tight!

So now it's time to get back to better eating - which means that anything fried, sweet, salty - emoticon Ugh.. just the thought of it is turning my stomach! emoticon emoticon

I'm CRAVING green things. Crispy, green things.

I'm not craving my water just yet, but I'm chugging it nonetheless - and it's helping me feel more normal.

I have a scout den meeting/holiday party tonight - ziti and cheese and crackers... and a NICE BIG SALAD!! emoticon But it's on MY turf and I have control over what I eat, as opposed to the visiting scenario. And that makes me feel emoticon

In the next few days, things will slowly start to feel more and more takes time, I get it. No worries.

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SASSYSACY 12/12/2012 2:07PM

    Ah girl but you've taken control, as usual, and are back on track!

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STODD251 12/10/2012 3:15PM

    I hate days like that... My new strategy is to really just have a little bit because I hate feeling sick afterward. Most people can understand if you say you don't want to leave feeling physically ill...

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Why I don't flip out:

Saturday, December 08, 2012

So today, the scale was up.

Big deal.

So what.

3 pounds.... WhAt!?!?!?! OMG!!!! emoticon

Most of us would be having a sh-t fit, but after a while of learning and relearning, the first thing I do is look back at the last 2 or 3 days and see what was going's the last 2 days:

- Pizza for dinner last night (no big whoop - I ate 2 garlic knots and a slice and a half)
- 2 glasses of white wine (over 2 days - ooooOooo)
- ran 3 miles (Woohoo!)
- water not up to par overall (slacker!!!)
- haven't had a real good, satisfying, colin cleansing, 4 or 5 days (is that T.M.I. ?) LOL

And tonight....well, tonight is our annual Hannukah dinner with our adopted Jewish basically, I've got another meal not in my power to control (and you can't control this one...everything is fried and yummy, and that is AOK, it's a special occassion).

Things I know: wine is NOT good for my body - I blow up like a tick. Haven't had any for over a month and it just sops it up like a sponge!! Yay evil wine! (you delicious evil bugger!)

Things I know: got salt?? I sure have it in my want some? I'll gladly share with you.

Things I know: exercise water retention - after I exercise, my muscles are healing and thus, the water retention. I feel good to, not sore, so let the healing continue!

Things I know: I didn't drink ENOUGH water the 2 days prior to my exercise so now that my body HAS water - it's gonna stay, especially with my salt intake.

Things I know: I need to drink my water today. Like, the whole 8 glasses for sure.

So while others might flip out - I tackle these things logically and calm.

LoL - Oh.. don't get me wrong, there was a day (Ok, many a day) that I WOULD flip out, but time and learning how my body works has changed all that.

Being an observer in your own life is sometimes your greatest ally.

I'll get back to my "normal" in a few days. Between the special occasions during the year, that is what you do - get back on track in between and the up's won't be as difficult to see or bear.

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NUOVAELLE 12/10/2012 2:05AM

    Thank you for this blog, Annie! I needed your positive and calm attitude and your advice today. I'm sure you're already back on track and feeling better. I had the same problem with salt and water this weekend and today I have to do something about it!
So, cheers!
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-AMANDA79- 12/8/2012 9:23AM

    Great work on staying calm. emoticon

Hope you get rid of that bloat and the scale complies quickly...

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KANOE10 12/8/2012 8:27AM

    That is a great blog. I did not know that exercsie could cause water retention. I think you have a great positive attitude and understand how your body works. Great on staying calm and understanding that yes, you can go up 3 pounds and that it will go down.


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DARIALEIGH 12/8/2012 7:31AM

  Thanks for sharing and being so positive. I find that I do flip out when the scale goes up. But I think I might have to reevaluate that. You seem to have a good idea about what works for your body. I am going to have to listen to mine. lol. Take care! emoticon emoticon

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Fight the demons

Friday, December 07, 2012

I have this tendency to start a blog...and then delete it lately. I'm up to counting 4 in the last 2 weeks. And there are various reasons I do this, but it's mainly because sometimes I get to thinking that since I am steady and stable, no one is going to want to read what I write...and other times I am thinking that maybe I am coming off too harsh in what I'm writing... because after a few years of reading some things, or observing things, I can get a bit pissy and it comes off in what I write.

So instead of being negative, I just hit "delete" and then move on with my life... leaving my Sparkfriends who actually read what I write and who have stood by me over the years wondering "where the heck is Annie?" Sorry about that guys. emoticon

So today, I am putting out an observation that I have had for a long long time. To share it with you and see what you think.

The other night, I watched a 2 hour story about "The 600 Pound Mom". I usually don't watch these kinds of shows but this compelled me because of this doctor helping this woman. The doctor's goal was to get her down to 500 pounds so that she could have bariatric surgery.

The man set her up with a 700 calorie diet - bed scales to monitor her weightloss - constant one on one attention and support.

Did she lose weight? yes she did...but not without difficulty. This difficulty came in the mood swings and diet rage. (something we all can relate too - at least I can, and it compelled me to watch the show more)

Did she follow the doctors order? for a while - heck she lost 100pounds! but with her success also came complacency...and she began cheating the system thinking that just because her "watch-dogs" (ie, her children and the doc was not there 24/7) were not watching her and she was successful, she began to sneak eat. (ahhh....another point I can relate to!! so I keep on watching the show to see how she fares with her weigh-in)...

The bed scales broke eventually.

Weigh-in day at the hospital came.

They got her there and weighed her on a special bed....and to everyone's shock (especially the poor doctor who staked his reputation on his regimine) she gained back over 100 pounds she had lost in the time period of 4 months. She was eating approximately 7000 calories a day.

They thought she was closer to 500 pounds...but she thought she was smarter than the science and used a sprinkle powder on her meals to counter-act the calories. (aahhhh, the quick fix! Been there, done that method too)

To say that the doctor was devastated is an understatement. To say this woman was devastated and shocked is mild. But it was what it was and it was evident that she had a serious serious problem...and eventually, a doctor was found that would do bariatric surgery on her at 689 pounds.

(I'm still watching the program . . and now I'm thinking this: this woman is screwed. I'll get to why later).

So they do the surgery, they get her in rehab....and she leaves it. Flat out discharges herself. Why??? Because they made her work. They made her exercise. They wanted to make her WALK! for Pete's sake! To HELP her. (But evidently, she had her quick fix right?)..and she wanted to go home.

Long story short. She died a month or so later. It was too late for her to be helped.

NOW - here is my take on this whole thing - and it was just touched upon ONCE during the WHOLE ENTIRE PROGRAM by a nutritionist/psychologist lady:

This psychologist came on to say that her issues were too much to handle and if she didn't get help with resolving those long suffering issues, she would never be successful with her weightloss.


DING DING DING DING!!!!! emoticon

A 15 second blip on the tv summed up this entire woman's crisis in a nutshell.

And now - all you Biggest Loser Watcher's out there: what's the turning point for most of the contestants on the show???? Anyone? Buehller? Anyone?

It's when Jillian Michaels is yelling in someone's face about something in their past - confronting their demons - coming face to face with the HARD STUFF that happens in life... and instead of bottling it up inside, they HAVE TO confront it and SAY it because Jillian and Bob aren't going to go away until they do.

It's a process.

It is mental.

It is digging in deep and saying out loud that things hurt, that there has been loss and pain... and that you are worth fixing.

No one is going to do that except you.

Not a pill... Not a doctor prescribing a pill... not a trainer making you do squats... Not a package of food that is delivered in the mail is going to fix things.

The work happens in your head and in your heart, and healing and finding that you are worth loving and being loved.... THAT is where things start to change.

Why did I go and give you this 600 pound mom's story? Because maybe, just maybe, if they started talking and counseling while she was eating those 700 calorie meals, MAYBE she could have made it and stayed at 500 pounds and MAYBE she'd be alive today.

Go find it and watch it online. You will see what I mean while you are watching it.

Why and I telling you about inner demons today? Because more than not, you probably have them...and MAYBE that is what is holding you back in being successful in this whole weightloss journey.

I tried to lose weight for 20 years...and then I learned/realized what my demons were when I hit 35 and had 3 beautiful kids to get healthy for. They deserved a healthy mom with less demons...and while those demons still lurk in the darkest corners, my light is stronger than their darkness.

They say that 95% of people who lose weight eventually gain it all back.

That makes only 5% successful at maintaining.

My wish for you this holiday, it to start your journey on the inside, look deep at what's there, and together, let's make that successful maintaining stat grow... and prove that it can... and WILL be done.

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NUOVAELLE 12/10/2012 2:22AM

    I'm going to ask a favor from you. Please, don't delete any of your blogs again! I always read your blogs, and even if they're harsh sometimes, I don't mind because an ugly truth doesn't need to be sugar-coated!
The 600-pound mom's story made me really sad but your approach on the whole story was a great lesson. Our inner demons never disappear but we have to meet them, face them and make our light strong enough to force them to lurk in their darkness.
The secret lies within.

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KANOE10 12/8/2012 8:33AM

    That was an excellent blog. That woman should have had counseling before the surgery. You are right. No one can do it for you. You have to decide yourself to stay on the road to health. I plan on being in that 5 percent who keep my weight off!


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-AMANDA79- 12/7/2012 6:39PM

    Great blog!

P.S. I get pissy too...

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PHEBESS 12/7/2012 4:54PM

    ABSOLUTELY!!!!!!!!!!! (sound of applause)

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OAKBORN 12/7/2012 3:55PM

    As usual, my friend, you nail it ... to the wall, on the head... the location doesn't so much matter.

I have had a weight up-creep and I think it has to do with being away from home all year and having the blues and kind of feeling "suspended in Gaffa" (on hold) for the that time... I was soothing my boredom & blues with food.

Gotta work on that, and get used to being home again... and having all these crazy people around!

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NUMD97 12/7/2012 2:18PM

    You must have been reading my mind. I just sent these very same thoughts to a Spark newbie today. This whole process is not about weight loss. It's about self-examination and WHY we got to where we are in the first place.

One Sparker, whose name I do not recall (but wish I could), noted a while back, that "with each pound lost, a new drawer needs to be examined." This is so incredibly true. In order for this "venture" to be successful, one must shed light into the deep recesses of one's psyche and explore all those dark corners. Not an easy task. But a most necessary one.

As for your 600 pound woman example, the immediacy of the situation called for drastic measures: She needed to lose enough weight fast enough to get her on an OR table to literally save her life. I totally get what you are saying, but the doctor's intervention in this instant was meant to be life-saving, and immediate. The ancillary stuff to explore her reasons for her excessive weight, could not possibly have been successful in the time frame allotted prior to her surgery. I've made my peace with people who are that morbidly obese who need a crisis intervention. First thing is to keep them alive, and literally save their lives; then afford them the therapy they need to stay at goal weight, even with surgery. It's a crisis intervention in the instance that you describe, and the immediacy of the situation was paramount.

But I wholeheartedly agree with everything that you said. And don't worry about being brutal. Many have posted similarly in the past. That's the beauty of SP. We can blog, with no holds barred, as long as it's within the guidelines of the SP moderators.

Thanks for the post, and best of luck as your journey continues,


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EFAY32 12/7/2012 2:14PM

    You completed nailed this one on the head. I really enjoyed reading that because it's so completely true. Thanks for sharing. I couldn't agree more. emoticon Oh, and I tend to write and delete posts too. Mostly because I believe they come off way too harsh.

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