Friday, December 28, 2012
Yup! It's that time of the year once again!!!
It's time for the GREAT COOKIE TOSS!
I do this every year because a) it gets the crap out of the house because by now, really noone in the place needs any more of it and b) it just feels soooooo gooooooood to do it.
Yeah yeah yeah... all that work I put into them - the time, the money... oy what a waste! Ummm... well, I'd rather see it go into the trash than onto my ass though at this point so, out they go - for the good of all!
And you know what? I even cut back this year on the number of cookies I made because it was actually WORSE in the past....and still, not everyone is eating them. So let's look at the big picture here... it's a good thing for everybody that they are actually a bunch left, even with my cutting back baking by half! YAY FAMILY - both immediate and extended!
So everybody grab that plastic garbage bag and have at it!!! It will make you feel SO FRICKIN' GOOD!!!!
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
When I started SP in 2008, I was in AWE of the people who were successful. I friended, I got to know their stories...I also got my own plan together and I figured to use the Spark nutrition tracker diets as a guide, but I basically built my own plan from what I saw but mainly from what I had in the house. I stayed in my designated range and that was that. I drank water. I exercised. I lost weight.
And I saw on another page, a woman's journey in a month by month form, and I copied it, but I did it week by week, event by event...better than a blog because I don't have to sift though pages upon pages to see where I was and what I was doing. It was, and still is a good thing.
With my success, I also kept watching the success stories touted by SP. And soon, a lot of them started becoming quiet. No updating...no new pictures...no action whatsoever. The motivators I held up so high on my pedestal were silent. Where had they all gone? Sure, a few remained...let's say 5% of the 100 that I was intently watching and idolizing...but seriously, if you have stumbled, then say it - OWN IT! We got your back - don't hide and be ashamed - if anything, that will make things WORSE!!
I questioned to myself why? Why are they still motivators? Why isn't SP updating and keeping track of these walking billboards on the success page if they aren't active? A whole lot of other why's are mixed in there too....but you get my drift.
And that is when I decided that I wasn't going to just disappear on SP..ever, especially when I became a "Motivator" ..because you know what? To have that tag and not be one available or updated is (to me) kinda hypocritical. There....I said it. For me, personally, if I wasn't trying my damnest, then I didn't want the title either. Take it back SP... hold me accountable on another level - I can take it.
Anyway, my page now is super long because I never stop updating it. Sometimes it may be a month now, but hey, at least I'm still here! It's kept me accountable on an entirely new level. It has gotten me through some pretty rough patches too (ahem, the holidaze).
So go ahead and steal the idea from me....try it out - the worse thing that it will do is make your page super long like mine! LoL
Monday, December 10, 2012
I will NEVER say that getting back in the saddle is easy.
Never, ever, EVER!
But sometimes are easier than others, depending on how off it's been.
For example: I mentioned that I was going to get derailed this weekend...and you know what? I sure as heck was!!! To the nth degree too!!
There was "visiting eating" - I also call this "polite" eating because you are the guest and it's a special occasion and there is NO WAY you can avoid this specially prepared meal of greasy latkes and brisket. There is NO POSSIBLE way. And the special dessert the hostess made for us because we mentioned we liked it so much! Can't forget that. And of course there is your favorite wine they bought ...Can't not have a glass!
So you see, I had no real choice in the matter. Hey, sometimes you don't! I've been a guest at this meal for 6 years - I know what to expect too!
And then there was the football game yesterday with it's mini-hotdogs and nachos. That meal was a 4 to 1 decision NOT in my favor to have. Ugh. By then, all I wanted was a salad!!!
So here I am today and OH THE BLOAT!! So bad my wedding band set it tight!
So now it's time to get back to better eating - which means that anything fried, sweet, salty - Ugh.. just the thought of it is turning my stomach!
I'm CRAVING green things. Crispy, green things.
I'm not craving my water just yet, but I'm chugging it nonetheless - and it's helping me feel more normal.
I have a scout den meeting/holiday party tonight - ziti and cheese and crackers... and a NICE BIG SALAD!! But it's on MY turf and I have control over what I eat, as opposed to the visiting scenario. And that makes me feel
In the next few days, things will slowly start to feel more and more normal...it takes time, I get it. No worries.
Saturday, December 08, 2012
So today, the scale was up.
3 pounds.... WhAt!?!?!?! OMG!!!!
Most of us would be having a sh-t fit, but after a while of learning and relearning, the first thing I do is look back at the last 2 or 3 days and see what was going on...here's the last 2 days:
- Pizza for dinner last night (no big whoop - I ate 2 garlic knots and a slice and a half)
- 2 glasses of white wine (over 2 days - ooooOooo)
- ran 3 miles (Woohoo!)
- water not up to par overall (slacker!!!)
- haven't had a real good, satisfying, colin cleansing, well...you know....in 4 or 5 days (is that T.M.I. ?) LOL
And tonight....well, tonight is our annual Hannukah dinner with our adopted Jewish grandparents...so basically, I've got another meal not in my power to control (and you can't control this one...everything is fried and yummy, and that is AOK, it's a special occassion).
Things I know: wine is NOT good for my body - I blow up like a tick. Haven't had any for over a month and it just sops it up like a sponge!! Yay evil wine! (you delicious evil bugger!)
Things I know: got salt?? I sure have it in my system...you want some? I'll gladly share with you.
Things I know: exercise water retention - after I exercise, my muscles are healing and thus, the water retention. I feel good to, not sore, so let the healing continue!
Things I know: I didn't drink ENOUGH water the 2 days prior to my exercise so now that my body HAS water - it's gonna stay, especially with my salt intake.
Things I know: I need to drink my water today. Like, the whole 8 glasses for sure.
So while others might flip out - I tackle these things logically and calm.
LoL - Oh.. don't get me wrong, there was a day (Ok, many a day) that I WOULD flip out, but time and learning how my body works has changed all that.
Being an observer in your own life is sometimes your greatest ally.
I'll get back to my "normal" in a few days. Between the special occasions during the year, that is what you do - get back on track in between and the up's won't be as difficult to see or bear.
Friday, December 07, 2012
I have this tendency to start a blog...and then delete it lately. I'm up to counting 4 in the last 2 weeks. And there are various reasons I do this, but it's mainly because sometimes I get to thinking that since I am steady and stable, no one is going to want to read what I write...and other times I am thinking that maybe I am coming off too harsh in what I'm writing... because after a few years of reading some things, or observing things, I can get a bit pissy and it comes off in what I write.
So instead of being negative, I just hit "delete" and then move on with my life... leaving my Sparkfriends who actually read what I write and who have stood by me over the years wondering "where the heck is Annie?" Sorry about that guys.
So today, I am putting out an observation that I have had for a long long time. To share it with you and see what you think.
The other night, I watched a 2 hour story about "The 600 Pound Mom". I usually don't watch these kinds of shows but this compelled me because of this doctor helping this woman. The doctor's goal was to get her down to 500 pounds so that she could have bariatric surgery.
The man set her up with a 700 calorie diet - bed scales to monitor her weightloss - constant one on one attention and support.
Did she lose weight? yes she did...but not without difficulty. This difficulty came in the mood swings and diet rage. (something we all can relate too - at least I can, and it compelled me to watch the show more)
Did she follow the doctors order? for a while - heck she lost 100pounds! but with her success also came complacency...and she began cheating the system thinking that just because her "watch-dogs" (ie, her children and the doc was not there 24/7) were not watching her and she was successful, she began to sneak eat. (ahhh....another point I can relate to!! so I keep on watching the show to see how she fares with her weigh-in)...
The bed scales broke eventually.
Weigh-in day at the hospital came.
They got her there and weighed her on a special bed....and to everyone's shock (especially the poor doctor who staked his reputation on his regimine) she gained back over 100 pounds she had lost in the time period of 4 months. She was eating approximately 7000 calories a day.
They thought she was closer to 500 pounds...but she thought she was smarter than the science and used a sprinkle powder on her meals to counter-act the calories. (aahhhh, the quick fix! Been there, done that method too)
To say that the doctor was devastated is an understatement. To say this woman was devastated and shocked is mild. But it was what it was and it was evident that she had a serious serious problem...and eventually, a doctor was found that would do bariatric surgery on her at 689 pounds.
(I'm still watching the program . . and now I'm thinking this: this woman is screwed. I'll get to why later).
So they do the surgery, they get her in rehab....and she leaves it. Flat out discharges herself. Why??? Because they made her work. They made her exercise. They wanted to make her WALK! for Pete's sake! To HELP her. (But evidently, she had her quick fix right?)..and she wanted to go home.
Long story short. She died a month or so later. It was too late for her to be helped.
NOW - here is my take on this whole thing - and it was just touched upon ONCE during the WHOLE ENTIRE PROGRAM by a nutritionist/psychologist lady:
This psychologist came on to say that her issues were too much to handle and if she didn't get help with resolving those long suffering issues, she would never be successful with her weightloss.
GIVE THAT WOMAN A PRIZE!!!!
DING DING DING DING!!!!!
A 15 second blip on the tv summed up this entire woman's crisis in a nutshell.
And now - all you Biggest Loser Watcher's out there: what's the turning point for most of the contestants on the show???? Anyone? Buehller? Anyone?
It's when Jillian Michaels is yelling in someone's face about something in their past - confronting their demons - coming face to face with the HARD STUFF that happens in life... and instead of bottling it up inside, they HAVE TO confront it and SAY it because Jillian and Bob aren't going to go away until they do.
It's a process.
It is mental.
It is digging in deep and saying out loud that things hurt, that there has been loss and pain... and that you are worth fixing.
No one is going to do that except you.
Not a pill... Not a doctor prescribing a pill... not a trainer making you do squats... Not a package of food that is delivered in the mail is going to fix things.
The work happens in your head and in your heart, and healing and finding that you are worth loving and being loved.... THAT is where things start to change.
Why did I go and give you this 600 pound mom's story? Because maybe, just maybe, if they started talking and counseling while she was eating those 700 calorie meals, MAYBE she could have made it and stayed at 500 pounds and MAYBE she'd be alive today.
Go find it and watch it online. You will see what I mean while you are watching it.
Why and I telling you about inner demons today? Because more than not, you probably have them...and MAYBE that is what is holding you back in being successful in this whole weightloss journey.
I tried to lose weight for 20 years...and then I learned/realized what my demons were when I hit 35 and had 3 beautiful kids to get healthy for. They deserved a healthy mom with less demons...and while those demons still lurk in the darkest corners, my light is stronger than their darkness.
They say that 95% of people who lose weight eventually gain it all back.
That makes only 5% successful at maintaining.
My wish for you this holiday, it to start your journey on the inside, look deep at what's there, and together, let's make that successful maintaining stat grow... and prove that it can... and WILL be done.
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