Saturday, April 20, 2013
No joke. The septic system is completely and utterly full. Main tank AND overflow tank... so last night after dinner, what we THOUGHT was a clogged main line thanks to my youngest's poop wiping mitt...was in fact NOT that at all (and I apologized to him for accusing him of the clog - trust me, I did).
So now what do we do, besides wait for the truck to come and pump us out....we called last night too, at 6pm, but they were basically done for the night and it was raining - can't rightly blame them now, can I. So they called back and said they'd get to us late morning (which is now) or early afternoon (which is approaching fast).
Meantime, back at the ranch - my youngest has his opening day of baseball parade...and I am missing it.
Meantime, back at the ranch - I cannot drink my water, because it will make me pee...and I can't really because where oh where will it go?
Meantime, back at the ranch - since I cannot drink water, I cannot really exercise, because then I want my water even more...and that is not happening.
Meantime, back at the ranch - I really need to pee, like every 10 minutes now - and I know it's psychosematic - but still.... it's ANNOYING!!!!!!
So, here I am ... waiting... needing to pee (or at least I think I am)... can't do much about anything at all because everything I usually do requires water ...and therefore a functioning septic system... which is down for the count right now.
I have done the FB.
I have done the Spark reading.
I have done some socializing.
So here I am.... beotch blogging about my full poop tank and the fact that I cannot do ANYTHING at all.
So now I will count my blessings.
a) today is Saturday and thank goodness I don't have to work...that would have made today ever MORE better
b) while I may be missing my child's parade and possibly first bb game of the season, it's kinda chilly out, and I am cold, so the blanket on the couch is going to be welcome in a few minutes.
c) we are probably going to have pizza tonight, especially if the $hitter is still full to the brim and I can't do dishes (which are half-done in the washer btw - that is NOT going to be pretty if it doesn't drain soon)
d) we ate ALL of the leftover in the house for lunch - yay! no waste!
e) I didn't have to do my hair today...or shave my legs. A nice break if you kinda think about it.
f) I just got a call from the cesspool guy!!!! and he will be here by 1pm!!!! YAAAAAAY!!!
OK everyone - now I need some good vibes for this:
-they find the overflow cap without needing to rip up my patio and
- they pump out everything and that is that...done for another few years
SWEET! I can't wait to PEE!!!!!!!
Is this TMI?
Friday, April 19, 2013
Exercise slump broken this week after a month of "I really shoulds"
Don't know if it's because I have routine blood work that needs to be done on Monday, and I want to have good results - whatever that would be for me as a non-pregnant, non-heavy individual...I really don't know, so maybe it's me "putting my best foot forward".
But today's run was one of those "Well, I have all the stuff on, but I really don't want to, but really you should, but the kids have a half day, you really should get this done, just because" kinda runs.
So I did.
Glad I did.
I am the first to say that I am not a runner. I take a very laid back approach to the whole thing...with personal failure & skepticism always lingering on the back of my mind. That and the fact that I really don't want to hurt myself and not be able to do anything at all for weeks on end. So I take it easy.. I push, but not to hard. I guess I am a stamina builder.
Anyway, the point is, is that after 5 years of exercising "consistently" for me...it was good to actually run and just.....run.
I think I am learning that elusive "sweet spot" (somethint that I think runners have) that comes with a good rhythm and lope...one that is oblivious to the music in my ear and the thoughts in my head. My husband doesn't need music to run, and if he does it just as a add-on, not a tool... I guess I never understood how that is until today.
So me and Adele went on a run today and it was nice. She was nice to listen to as I let my body just "be" in the moment.
I had something in the stove, so when the timer went off...the run was done... 2.5 treadmill miles in 35 treadmill minutes. Pretty much a 5 mph steady rhythm. Totally doable. Totally happy with that.
Happy is good.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
For pete's sake....track your nutrition.
Be truthful and honest.
Take the time to do it....the more you do it, the easier it gets.
I wouldn't say it time and time again if it didn't work.
Whether you are just beginning or on maintenance....track your nutrition.... It will give you insight into yourself more than you realize.
That knowledge will become your power.
Sunday, April 14, 2013
I am just going to save this now...and continue on it as time goes by in the next hour or two, so don't be surprised if things change while you are actually read this one.
Well, because at 4am, when I couldn't sleep - I poured my heart out into a blog and when I hit 'post' ...well...it was just not there.
It has happened before to me. Maybe I just take to long to post a blog...because I actually THINK and PROCESS while I write things out.
And this , btw, is me being PISSED because this one was awwwweeesssooooommmme.
And now it is gone.
Sure...I can repeat it, but it just won't be the same. I'm hitting POST now...let's see what happens.
WELL WELL WELL....it seems that anything written under 2 minutes is saved! AMAZING! LOL
Yes, you are hearing sarcasm OOOOOZING out of my fingertips because there is nothing more annoying that pouring ones heart out and then having it erased. Like I said, it has happened more that once to me. Maybe it's the Safari platform I am using. Maybe I am just too wordy. Maybe there is a conspiracy theory out there that would suit my frustrated needs better...like aliens from Mars are stealing my words to write a ghostwriter book without me knowing it.
The deleted blog I was talking about was about my being sad. Funny how that changed over to being MAD as hell. So therefore, I must conclude that I am having raging PMS.
Yup....I get that way. Sweet little old me can be sarcastic, pissy, and grumpy all in a 12 hour time span ...and to keep my family happy today, I am trying to bite my tongue at all of their small things they do that are being zoomed in one hundred fold because of my heightened hormal state.
See....I am sensitive like that. (Hitting the POST button again.)
AHA! It's saved again! Thank got for the EDIT button!!!
I know I am not the only one who experiences this on websites. I don't know what it is, but seriously... it can get SO frustrating! Like filling out a form and then the whole thing is just gone because you clicked the "back" button.
I was on a site the other day....took 40 minutes to get things just so and I hit send...and poof! Error. Ugh. Computers are great but not when stuff like that happens.
I sound like a broken record. Sorry.....it's the hormones talking. LOL
So back to the sad 4am blog.
I woke up sad.
Yesterday, it hit me at work that I was saying good-bye forever to people who have been in my life for 22 years. Figure 8 people a day, 3 days a week, for the next 6 weeks, I will be saying good by to many many more people. That's part of being in a service industry and then retiring/closing the office you are in...it's about closure, it's about sending everyone off on the right foot; it's about being encouraging and supportive to these people, but when you turn around... sometimes YOU are the one who needs the support.
_______ posting again, please stand by______
So yesterday, I said good-bye to a 23 year old woman who I will forever remember as a 10 year old....maybe even younger...like 6. I gave her a hug and just started crying, and so did she...and so did her mother, who happened to be going to our office since she was 8 years old.
The overflow valve on all of the pressure steamer finally gave way. Heck, just writing this makes me tear up. Hormonal mess, like I said.
While I totally get that closure is important and moving on is important...sometimes the emotions of things just sneak up and then you realize that some of the behaviors going on....and totally linked to those emotions....yup, I am talking about emotional eating. I wasn't even aware of it until this morning.
__________________ posting again....please stand by_______
This stress is completely different from the stress I had 2 months ago. The emotional eating that happened 20 years ago, which I THOUGHT was under control is peaking its ugly head out from under a rock...the only difference now is that I see it.
I acknowledge you - you ugly bastardo!
And sure, I am here on Spark, but not as a truly active, work through your stuff Sparker - I have been hanging out here as support, but let me tell you guys...I'm coming back with a need for support....big time.
This life transition might take me for a loop if I am not careful. I am aware of it, and that is half the battle, but even so, it is scary. I am scared. While I possess TONs of positive energy...there is that doubt that things can hit the fan. That is scary.
Add that scary on top of sad... not a good combo to keep bottled up inside.
______posting again....please standy by______
Basically....that was what I was posting at 4am that got deleted. This stuff above..typed uber fast and off the cuff of what I remembered...what I wanted to convey, but in a nutshell.
And I know that this is probably the most bizarre blog I have ever written too....but getting it out is better than bottling it up inside. Hey, I talk the talk to others....so here I am to walk the walk! Cathartic is the word...it's good to get it out there.
Hey. I never said life was peachy keen and all sunshine and roses, now did I ? Life is messy, scary, hard...but it's also wonderful, crazy, beautiful and exciting.
That last part is something I have to remember when I get hormonal like this. Now...it's time to yell at a lacrosse gave and then mulch the yard...exersion at it's finest!
Thanks for listening and I hope you had some fun with this crazy post!
Friday, April 12, 2013
Just received a nice email from a HUMAN BEING about a position in a corporate company about an application I put in.
So basically I wrote back a little bit, slightly long, but concise email (can that even be? LOL) back answering the questions and giving the weightloss history of me. Yup, Spark was mentioned - how could I not! LOL I hope it doesn't shoot me in the foot though! LOL
Anyway, It's all about what you bring to the table right? About another path in life.
I don't know where this journey is going to take me...I have a lot of paths still before me, but as days go by, the paths get clearer as to what to do and what not to do.
That's a good observation when you are faced with tons of question marks, so I will take it, especially to keep my sanity...for my family's sake!
As for Maintenance - SAME old SAME old here.... nothing new and exciting. Nothing profound to observe at all.
Maybe that is an observation in an of itself....that eventually, life is just ...well, life. As it should be...without worrying about this and that because in the end, it all becomes one good habit.
That would be a nice observation now, wouldn't it. THAT is worth blogging about!
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