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Run, Forrest, Run!

Friday, April 19, 2013

Exercise slump broken this week after a month of "I really shoulds"

Don't know if it's because I have routine blood work that needs to be done on Monday, and I want to have good results - whatever that would be for me as a non-pregnant, non-heavy individual...I really don't know, so maybe it's me "putting my best foot forward".

But today's run was one of those "Well, I have all the stuff on, but I really don't want to, but really you should, but the kids have a half day, you really should get this done, just because" kinda runs.

So I did.

Glad I did.

I am the first to say that I am not a runner. I take a very laid back approach to the whole thing...with personal failure & skepticism always lingering on the back of my mind. That and the fact that I really don't want to hurt myself and not be able to do anything at all for weeks on end. So I take it easy.. I push, but not to hard. I guess I am a stamina builder.

Anyway, the point is, is that after 5 years of exercising "consistently" for me...it was good to actually run and just.....run.

I think I am learning that elusive "sweet spot" (somethint that I think runners have) that comes with a good rhythm and lope...one that is oblivious to the music in my ear and the thoughts in my head. My husband doesn't need music to run, and if he does it just as a add-on, not a tool... I guess I never understood how that is until today.

So me and Adele went on a run today and it was nice. She was nice to listen to as I let my body just "be" in the moment.

I had something in the stove, so when the timer went off...the run was done... 2.5 treadmill miles in 35 treadmill minutes. Pretty much a 5 mph steady rhythm. Totally doable. Totally happy with that.

Happy is good.

  
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DRB13_1 4/19/2013 10:07PM

    Run happy! emoticon

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CHRISKENANDKIDS 4/19/2013 8:43PM

    I think I've finally found that "sweet spot" but then my mom died and I have only run once since then. I will find it again, though. It will just take time. Great job!

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DALID414 4/19/2013 8:22PM

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-AMANDA79- 4/19/2013 5:59PM

    emoticon I always try to focus on how happy I will feel after my workouts. Funny thing. I've never been sorry once!

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NEW-CAZ 4/19/2013 3:19PM

    SO good when your run is so comfortable.
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EFOX2013 4/19/2013 2:50PM

    I love to run! But finding the sweet spot can be hard- especially when I'm running indoors. I can't wait for the snow to stop so I can start running outside! Also Nike has a really great running app that pretty accurately tracks your mileage and your speed if you are running in the great outdoors!

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NUOVAELLE 4/19/2013 12:26PM

    I think that "sweet spot" of running will always remain elusive for me. But I'm so glad you found it and enjoyed your run today.
Now, enjoy that great feeling of breaking the exercise slump. And keep a vivid memory of how good it feels.
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BROOKLYN_BORN 4/19/2013 11:24AM

    So nice when the run is comfortable. Hope you get great test results.

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TRICIAE2 4/19/2013 11:19AM

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I lOVE those kinds of runs!!

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Track it.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

For pete's sake....track your nutrition.

Be truthful and honest.

Take the time to do it....the more you do it, the easier it gets.

It works.

I wouldn't say it time and time again if it didn't work.

Whether you are just beginning or on maintenance....track your nutrition.... It will give you insight into yourself more than you realize.

That knowledge will become your power.

  
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DALID414 4/18/2013 11:55AM

    Just last night I told the boyfriend, 'hey, I'm getting good at this' (gauging what I can eat), I almost said maybe I should stop tracking for a week. Maybe I shouldn't.

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KANOE10 4/18/2013 8:37AM

    Too true..be honest and accountable.

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BONOLICIOUS2 4/18/2013 8:36AM

    I'm learning this one all over again. Every little bite adds up. You may think it doesn't count, but boyyyy does it ever. I've been trying hard starting this week to account for everything and it has been an EYE OPENER for sure! Nice reminder, thank you!

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SARIANEC 4/18/2013 8:32AM

    Couldn't agree more. My break through was being truly honest about portion sizes.

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Deleted blogs

Sunday, April 14, 2013

I am just going to save this now...and continue on it as time goes by in the next hour or two, so don't be surprised if things change while you are actually read this one.

WHY?????

Well, because at 4am, when I couldn't sleep - I poured my heart out into a blog and when I hit 'post' ...well...it was just not there.

It has happened before to me. Maybe I just take to long to post a blog...because I actually THINK and PROCESS while I write things out.

And this , btw, is me being PISSED because this one was awwwweeesssooooommmme.

And now it is gone.

Sure...I can repeat it, but it just won't be the same. I'm hitting POST now...let's see what happens.

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WELL WELL WELL....it seems that anything written under 2 minutes is saved! AMAZING! LOL

Yes, you are hearing sarcasm OOOOOZING out of my fingertips because there is nothing more annoying that pouring ones heart out and then having it erased. Like I said, it has happened more that once to me. Maybe it's the Safari platform I am using. Maybe I am just too wordy. Maybe there is a conspiracy theory out there that would suit my frustrated needs better...like aliens from Mars are stealing my words to write a ghostwriter book without me knowing it.

The deleted blog I was talking about was about my being sad. Funny how that changed over to being MAD as hell. So therefore, I must conclude that I am having raging PMS.

Yup....I get that way. Sweet little old me can be sarcastic, pissy, and grumpy all in a 12 hour time span ...and to keep my family happy today, I am trying to bite my tongue at all of their small things they do that are being zoomed in one hundred fold because of my heightened hormal state.

See....I am sensitive like that. (Hitting the POST button again.)
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AHA! It's saved again! Thank got for the EDIT button!!!

I know I am not the only one who experiences this on websites. I don't know what it is, but seriously... it can get SO frustrating! Like filling out a form and then the whole thing is just gone because you clicked the "back" button.

I was on a site the other day....took 40 minutes to get things just so and I hit send...and poof! Error. Ugh. Computers are great but not when stuff like that happens.

I sound like a broken record. Sorry.....it's the hormones talking. LOL

So back to the sad 4am blog.

I woke up sad.

Yesterday, it hit me at work that I was saying good-bye forever to people who have been in my life for 22 years. Figure 8 people a day, 3 days a week, for the next 6 weeks, I will be saying good by to many many more people. That's part of being in a service industry and then retiring/closing the office you are in...it's about closure, it's about sending everyone off on the right foot; it's about being encouraging and supportive to these people, but when you turn around... sometimes YOU are the one who needs the support.

_______ posting again, please stand by______


So yesterday, I said good-bye to a 23 year old woman who I will forever remember as a 10 year old....maybe even younger...like 6. I gave her a hug and just started crying, and so did she...and so did her mother, who happened to be going to our office since she was 8 years old.

The overflow valve on all of the pressure steamer finally gave way. Heck, just writing this makes me tear up. Hormonal mess, like I said.

While I totally get that closure is important and moving on is important...sometimes the emotions of things just sneak up and then you realize that some of the behaviors going on....and totally linked to those emotions....yup, I am talking about emotional eating. I wasn't even aware of it until this morning.

__________________ posting again....please stand by_______

This stress is completely different from the stress I had 2 months ago. The emotional eating that happened 20 years ago, which I THOUGHT was under control is peaking its ugly head out from under a rock...the only difference now is that I see it.

I acknowledge you - you ugly bastardo! emoticon

And sure, I am here on Spark, but not as a truly active, work through your stuff Sparker - I have been hanging out here as support, but let me tell you guys...I'm coming back with a need for support....big time.

This life transition might take me for a loop if I am not careful. I am aware of it, and that is half the battle, but even so, it is scary. I am scared. While I possess TONs of positive energy...there is that doubt that things can hit the fan. That is scary.

Add that scary on top of sad... not a good combo to keep bottled up inside.

______posting again....please standy by______

Basically....that was what I was posting at 4am that got deleted. This stuff above..typed uber fast and off the cuff of what I remembered...what I wanted to convey, but in a nutshell.

And I know that this is probably the most bizarre blog I have ever written too....but getting it out is better than bottling it up inside. Hey, I talk the talk to others....so here I am to walk the walk! Cathartic is the word...it's good to get it out there.

Hey. I never said life was peachy keen and all sunshine and roses, now did I ? Life is messy, scary, hard...but it's also wonderful, crazy, beautiful and exciting.

That last part is something I have to remember when I get hormonal like this. Now...it's time to yell at a lacrosse gave and then mulch the yard...exersion at it's finest!

Thanks for listening and I hope you had some fun with this crazy post!
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WORKNPROGRESS49 4/14/2013 12:32PM

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DALID414 4/14/2013 12:27PM

    I worked for a company that declared bankruptcy and the closing of it was so chaotic, I held myself together as best as I could and completely broke down in tears with an unsuspecting/inappropriate person. I felt like I should have opened the flood gates to the people who meant the most to me, not some random person who didn't fully get it. You getting to say goodbyes this way, although sad and possibly painful, is going to be good for your soul.
(Sorry for the long winded response, I may be hormonal, too.)

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SUSUSUZZZIE 4/14/2013 10:35AM

    I've had that happen too and always when I've just poured myself out. I now sometimes remember to type in Word and then copy-paste to the blog.

Good luck with handling the emotional triggers but it is great that you see it this time. It sounds like a very emotional situation - hormones or not!

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REBECCATKD 4/14/2013 10:25AM

    Deletes aside, hang in there with the emotional roller coaster! Go for a good walk/jog and get those endorphins pumping. Then come home, have a glass of water followed by a glass of wine. (Oh, it's still before noon? Well, have a mimosa, then. That's acceptable.) Cheers!

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NEW-CAZ 4/14/2013 10:25AM

    Annoying when that happens
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OZARKMARY 4/14/2013 9:10AM

  I've had that happen too. Take my time to word my blog so that all can appreciate what I'm saying then (enter) wooosh, it disappeared. Sorry you couldn't sleep. Hope you have a good day and that tonight you sleep well and wake rested. Have a blessed week! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KANOE10 4/14/2013 8:57AM

    Computers can drive you crazy. I am sorry you lost your first blog!

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Giving some kudos

Friday, April 12, 2013

Just received a nice email from a HUMAN BEING about a position in a corporate company about an application I put in.

So basically I wrote back a little bit, slightly long, but concise email (can that even be? LOL) back answering the questions and giving the weightloss history of me. Yup, Spark was mentioned - how could I not! LOL I hope it doesn't shoot me in the foot though! LOL

Anyway, It's all about what you bring to the table right? About another path in life.

I don't know where this journey is going to take me...I have a lot of paths still before me, but as days go by, the paths get clearer as to what to do and what not to do.

That's a good observation when you are faced with tons of question marks, so I will take it, especially to keep my sanity...for my family's sake! emoticon

As for Maintenance - SAME old SAME old here.... nothing new and exciting. Nothing profound to observe at all.

Maybe that is an observation in an of itself....that eventually, life is just ...well, life. As it should be...without worrying about this and that because in the end, it all becomes one good habit.

That would be a nice observation now, wouldn't it. THAT is worth blogging about!

  
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DWEXCEL 4/14/2013 7:31AM

    It is still exciting for someone or some company to be interested in you. It's their loss for sure!
You are still the best, most awesome, inspiring, motivating person!!!!

Love ya!
Donna

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KANOE10 4/13/2013 10:37AM

    I like that maintenance becomes one good habit..it is the same old, same old.

Good luck on your new path..hope you get the job you want.

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JESSICABOOTY 4/12/2013 7:37PM

    You are one well-put-together lady. I'm enjoying your blogs. Feel like I'm sitting down next to you and we're eating something healthy. Keep up what you're doing. emoticon
~Jessica

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ANNIEONLI 4/12/2013 7:30PM

    Thanks Dee....that path ended pretty quickly - they only hire from within the company, but at least I made a contact and she responded REALLY quickly... Basically if I want a job with them I have to join their group. No thanks, I will pass on that one. I didn't say that to her though! Trying to save money here, not spend it! LOL

Onward and upward!!!

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DALID414 4/12/2013 4:19PM

    One good habit, good way of putting it.

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The 5K Wog and other stuff

Friday, April 05, 2013

So last everyone heard from me is that I was training for a 5K...and the treadmill workouts were great (I only did 3 of them) but still, they were great because I ran 2 miles straight without stopping on the darned thing and I went from 26 minutes to 23 minutes in 4 days. Not too shabby for someone who doesn't run all the time and also for someone who really hasn't worked out in months. emoticon Thank you muscle memory. Thank you crazy life for keeping me always on the move so my cardio isn't at a complete loss. emoticon

Life here is kinda kookee for me right now. I am closing my office after 43 of it being open...and it's a good thing, because retirement is due for the lovely man I work for (my dad) and it's time for some closure for the staff and clients...and we are doing it the right way. That's all I will say about that...because I really have never talked about work on here, and I am not about to start now emoticon

HOWEVER... I will say this: I am now job hunting. Come June, I am a free agent! And there are many things to consider, many avenues to go down, and while daunting... I am keeping the faith that things will work out for a reason. They have before, so I will continue on that path.

Things I am considering are independent consulting and assembly programs...I just need to focus on the subject matter and keep up my research. The money aspect is the daunting part, because it's going to take a while to get things up and running and I might not see a profit on it for at least a year. SO....

That brings me to the immediate future and what to do about that. Single income on LI = not so good = scraping by. Just like anywhere else really, but inflate the prices of everything ten fold. Yay. Good times, good times.....

Anyway, I have put the feelers out there. Where? Well...I sent resume's out and I got a inquiry email request for more info. I have to call back today..we shall see what happens.

This change of life also means a big hiccup in my daily routine. Past behavior: Me home + hubby home (teacher) = we eat and gain weight together. Sweet huh? Not so much when old habits are easy to go back to and hellloooooo, we are emotional eaters here...and stress of no job is looming... SO we are both on guard for the bad behaviors to give us a challenge.

Go ahead....make my day, is what I am saying. Go ahead past devil behavior....TRY it.

That alone is the difference between passing and failing this test. Overcome or be overcome.

I choose to overcome.

I will pass this test.

I have the knowledge, I have the tools....I will win in the end.

Oh...I almost forgot...the 5K story: epic walk is what it turned out to be! LOL Freezing cold... hills... friend with bum knee... 50 minutes later they were closing up shop and all the walkers left on the course were forgotten about emoticon by all the runners...and we weren't even the last ones in!!! There were 15 to 20 people behind us! It was a disgrace in my opinion. The teenagers on the course left their posts, we got lost because the markings were terrible. We told the organizer and she was pissed at the report. SO, maybe next year, I will volunteer to put my 2 cents in just in regards to the walkers!! Hey, maybe next year, I will call on my fellow Long Island Sparkers to show this group how it's really done! Walkers COUNT even in a 5K!!

OK - I am off of my soap box emoticon But it really fried my fritter!

So that is that....I am off to NYC now to eat my way through an Italian dinner and drink and be merry with my sisters for a 40th birthday celebration! Woohoo!!

Oh...and I have to call that recruiter...almost forgot emoticon

Have a good one!

PS - Recruiter-schmooter....what a crock of horshsh!t that was!
a) you can't answer my questions b) you have attitude when I DO ask them c) you just badly represented the company ...good job lady. NOT cool. But THANK you so much for the insight into what NOT to do.. what I would NEVER do if I were in your position...and also, it opened my eyes a whole lot of other things and have me new insight about my own path.

  
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DWEXCEL 4/14/2013 7:37AM

    You will figure this out. And it will probably work out to be something you love, and something you are really good at!!!!
I always walk in the 8K races, and they even recognize us with a medal! That's too bad.
I'm glad you can run, though. I might could run 2 miles, as much as I train and as hard cardio as I do, but I don't know; I've never even given it a try.

Good luck in your quest :)

I know this will work out for you!

Love ya!
Donna

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KANOE10 4/7/2013 9:42AM

   
I am a walker also in some of the running races. That was insensitive of them to close the race before the walkers arrived!!!

I wish you well in your new career. It is stressful to change and to look for a job. I think you have developed such strong habits and behaviors in these last years, that they will carry through in the next difficult year.

Good riddance to that recruiter!

Have a great celebration with your sister.

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REBECCATKD 4/6/2013 11:49PM

    Hey! We've been living on my single income as a teacher for a year. (DH recently began working part-time.) Yes, it's a major lifestyle change. But now we look back and say, "What did we do with all that money?" We have an easy mortgage, food, clothing, and money going into the college funds. What more can you ask for?

Good luck as you look for a new path! in the meantime, don't stress out. Everything happens that way it needs to.

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JESSICABOOTY 4/5/2013 7:01PM

    You've got a great attitude. In this age of networking, everything depends on who you know so the bigger the pond you swim in, the more fish you will run into. emoticon
~Jessica

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DALID414 4/5/2013 11:42AM

    Wow, sad that they wouldn't even wait a full hour! I'd be on a soapbox rant too!

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-AMANDA79- 4/5/2013 11:34AM

    Good luck on this big change! emoticon

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