Friday, June 20, 2008
I don't really B-blog, as I like to call it. And it seems that every Friday is when I want/need to do it...so I guess I am going to give into temptation today and just vent. And all I want to do is eat, so I might as well do some therapy blogging to try and circumvent the situation!
I give. All the time. Almost to a fault. I never say no. I never ask for things in return. It is just the way I am.
I've been watching my sister and sister in law's children every Mon & Fri for 6 months. Free of charge, of course. I even asked for my nephew to come on M&F because I never see him and it would save my sister daycare money. Long story there. Very sad too. It could be a book that would wrench your soul. But her life has taken a 180 and is really happy now, so there is a happy ending after all. My SIL, well another story there. Long and short of it is that she has never payed for daycare in her entire child rearing career. Someone (me or my MIL) is always there to say yes to her and since her work hours are weird b/c she is an after school early intervention person - my MIL is right in there to say yes. Thus, I never ask MIL to watch my kids b/c god forbid, she is always next door watching the other 2 golden grandchildren for her own daughter. Is there bitterness here? Hell yeah!
Let's just say - I have A LOT of payback to cash in this summer. But the chances of me cashing in are very slim. You see, DH and I are proud of the fact that we can do things on our own. We don't rely on others. It's almost to a fault. In fact, I'm trying to overcome that tendency of not asking for help. For example: My son's 4th birthday is on Sunday - well guess what? I asked everyone to bring some healthy side dish enough for 20 adults. And you know what? They all said yes. Makes it a lot more economical to entertain...and we are the entertaining family with the good entertaining house, of course!
Another thing is the tendency to rush back home because I feel, let's face it - guilt! Whenever I am alone - you name it, doing whatever - I feel the need to relieve whoever is watching the kids because that's MY job. Even when me and DH have that rare date, so sad, but once a year on our anniversary, we feel the need to rush home!! SICK! What the hell!?!!
So now it is the last Friday of the school year and I am almost free of my nephew...one more day on Mon for him AND my niece and then I get a deserved break from babysitting. Don't get me wrong - I love him as my own son, I call him #4 even and treat him as my own. That's why he loves me. But I need a break. My daydreams today are of me on a massage table for an hour & a half...then a facial and pedicure.
So now today is get ready for party day because tomorrow morning I work til 1pm and DH has the kids and is going to a 6 y.o. birthday party until 3pm. So tomorrow last minute prep is going to be just that. Clean. Bake. Weed. The whole kit & caboodle for a party. Oh and buy a gift for the little guy - I can't forget that. I probably will. Lol
So after a B-blog, it's time to count blessings, because God knows, other people have it way worse than I do. I'm thankful for the following:
- nice home
- healthy kids
- loving husband
- healthy family in general
- good climate (God help those in the flood zone)
- my new lifestyle change
- the fact that I can run & play with the kids w/o getting out of breath
- a good job that I love
- good people that I work with and the people we treat
I said to my co-worker the othe day that I took some selfish time to myself the other day and did 50 minutes on the TM while there were other things waiting to get done. Her immediate response was this - "you're the least selfish person I know - so don't you dare feel that way or say that" It's nice to hear that once in a while. Too bad the people you are not being selfish for and helping don't say thank you enough. That's why I always say thank you to everyone for the smallest things.
One thing about SP that I love - I always get a thank you for well, whatever, most of the time. And that is the nicest thing for me to get. Really.
Friday, June 13, 2008
So I got into the thing 3 years ago - short lived event...baby #3 came right after I zipped it up. LOL I wore it for Halloween, believe it or not! I truly was a sight walking around my Wisteria Place neighborhood in full bride gear! Bustier corset underneath & veil included! But it was a little snug, even then - hell, even when I got married 9 years ago!
So this time around, it was time to try it on again....and it fit! The funniest thing is that the shoulders are big! No joke! I was a little snug around the middle b/c I haven't workout in a week, but there was no corset on me this time. Teeheehee!
Believe it or not - 2 previous blogs were deleted because of distractions, I guess there were never meant to be seen! Finally, this is the blog I was supposed to write! At LAST!
NEW MINI GOAL - lose the last 5 pounds and make that dress swim on me by July 16, my 9th anniversary. Wear my wedding night trousseau again and have it look EXTRA good this time around - why not! I payed plenty for that stupid night gown set that I've worn only twice in the last 9 years! The last time I wore it - baby #3 came along...no chance of that happening now! LMAO! I feel giddy - this is what I'm supposed to do...
The other blogs before this were very yukky - b&@%$ blogs, I like to call them. I was feeling like I had no oomph or direction and feeling a little lost in my own skin, I guess. Who figured trying on a dress would turn my head around so fast.
FUTURE GOAL - My hubby doesn't know it yet, he thinks that I am joking, but it is going to happen. On our 10th anniversary, we are going to renew our vows in the back yard and have a big party - BBQ on the grill, and play a game of touch football. That's what he wanted to do 9 years ago, but in a park. My friend got his license to wed over the internet, so I'll have him officiate for us. This will happen - I can promise you that! Even if I have to surprise him - it will happen!! And I'm gonna look hot!!
Sunday, June 08, 2008
It's about 97 degrees right now - we're kicking back in the house after a couple hours of being in the pool to keep cool...the house is about 15 degrees cooler than outside, and we don't have a/c either. So in short, today was a bathing suit day!
I broke out the one I bought for myself 3 years ago...a size 14...and it fits!! It looks pretty good too! I can sit here and b*@$%# and moan about cellulite and thighs, but really - my DH could care less and my kids too...I've had stretch marks since my boobs came in when I was 11 and chubby...I'm so over that stuff. My only thing - I have NO behind. None. Like someone took it and forgot to return it. So that is what a skirt and sarong are for, right?!! LOL
This is the first time in a long time that I walked around without being self conscious. Even in front of by uber body-conscious sister. I guess when you get older, you just don't care as much as you used too. I love being 35 and not caring about crap like that!! It's great. Really.
Friday, June 06, 2008
We were just at a minor league baseball game tonight. My middle son is not one for crowds, noise, mascots....mascots. The kid is afraid of Chuckie Cheese for goodness sake and birthday parties. One of those kids. Much to my chagrin. But when I look back, I was the same way...still am to a point, but I digress.
All he wanted was to go home. My DH and I took 2 cars and we were with a whole gang of people. So Dh says he'll stay with sons #1 & #3 while I took ds #2 home. So we left. And this is where I was scared to death.
As we were leaving, 2 men followed us out. One was shouting and asking if we needed tickets. Scalpers. I'm easy pray with a 4 y.o. in tow. Two fit guys against me and my 4 y.o. Not good odds. So they are about 100 feet back and I am walking hard. I had shouted back no thanks too. I tried calling my DH, but the fracking phone is never on. A lot of good that does, right? So I keep a good pace and a road is coming up...and a car. A sheriff's car! I almost cry. I waved him down, and he stops and I tell him that I'm not feeling so safe and if he'd be so kind as to follow me to my car, which he did. He kept an eye on the guys too. Thank god. He stayed until I pulled out of my spot.
Have you ever had that feeling? Like something was going to happen? I had it all evening up to the game - I thought I was having an IBS attack. I just thank god that my DH had #3 with him and I did not. I would have been screwed if they were real attackers. Who knows, maybe they were? you never know these days.
Blessings counted for the night. God and mom in heaven were watching out for me tonight. Thank heavens.
Monday, June 02, 2008
Some people mentioned that they would be camping soon, and food taken on the trip is super important - especially on a diet.
Here's my standard healthy list.
- 100 calorie packs of your choosing - good portion control
- regular chip snack packs - again, portion control
- Peanut butter granola bars
- roll-up wraps - Roll-up brand is great...square shaped; we like the flax seed kind - 140 cals each.
- turkey coldcuts
- egg beaters - you can freeze these too for the cooler
- Crystal lite - on the go water bottle flavoring packs....changes up the usual water
- a case of water
We do some make ahead meals:
- take a skinless, boneless half chicken cutlet, butterfly it, make a stuffing of breadcrumbs, parmesan cheese and fresh parsley - roll it up and tie it - spray it with Pam oil, season the outside, and wrap each piece in foil. When you make a fire with wood or coal...put the meal packets right into the coals for around 20 - 25 minutes. Add a foil wrapped baked potato and your meal is done. You can do it on a grill, but something about the coals is so yummy! You can do pork chops like this too.
Chicken on a stick - you need a food saver for this one
- season & slice chicken cutlets and thread them onto soaked bamboo skewers...make a marinade (we like lemon juice, parsley, garlic). Put them into the food saver bags with the marinade and boom - there you go! One meal down!
Make ahead S'mores
- instead of the traditional way - way too long with little kids in tow - we pre-make the things with lowfat graham crackers, chocolate pieces, and believe it or not...marshmallow fluff. The stuff melts together way smoother than traditional marshmallows. Wrap them in foil and throw them on the grill or grate or coals for a few minutes. Whallah!
Chocolate - marshmallow stuffed banana
- split a banana in half with the skin still on to make a pita-like pocket. cut up some marshmallows and stuff them and chocolate pieces inside the banana. Wrap in foil and throw it in the coals. They come out so-o-o good. Hubby loves them better than s'mores.
We're constantly cruising the camping boards for new ideas....one neat one we found was the use of leftover marshmallow peeps for s'mores and for roasting. They say the sugar caramelizes nicely and gets a little crunchy. We haven't tried that one yet.
I love camping! Thinking of it always makes me feel better!
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