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Questions for self-discovery

Monday, October 13, 2014

Why am I my own worst enemy?

Why do I self-sabotage?

Why do I work so hard and then get to a point where I begin to ease up and think it's okay to eat more than I should or ignore working out?

What separates me from the people who reach their goals and continue to eat right and work out?

I don't know the answers to these questions but I do know that they are the most important questions I have to contemplate if I am ever going to reach my health and fitness goals.

IT goes beyond the "I can do it" mantra....I know I CAN do it. I need to find out what takes me from CAN to WILL to I AM.

This may not make much sense but it is where I am right now. It is the position that I have found myself in time and again and with time comes the realization that I either commit and do it now or I may not have the choice to do it "when".

It's not about self-love or self-control or will power. It's about that voice on my shoulder that keeps whispering "why bother?" I need to find the strength to silence that voice and say "If not now, when?" because no one is guaranteed tomorrow and I must begin to live for today....accepting myself as I am while making the choices today that bring peace to my soul.

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4ANEWME2DAY 10/13/2014 12:16PM

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WIFE49 10/13/2014 11:34AM

    You have got this. Focus on the positive. emoticon You WILL do this. Positive, Positive Positive!!!!

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Magnify the Positive...Day 1!

Monday, July 07, 2014

What we focus on is what we tend to magnify!!

Not sure where I heard this but It is definitely true when it comes to this journey towards health and fitness.

Some of us focus on the number on the scale emoticon and that number becomes our "happiness bar". If it's lower than emoticon. If it stays the same or emoticon goes up a little, we get down on ourselves and begin to say negative things like "I'm such a failure" or "I can't do anything right".

For others it's how much time we spend working out. At the beginning of the journey that 10 minutes is a huge accomplishment but soon we are pushing ourselves past our limits and then we get burned out and can't understand why it's so hard. emoticon

All day long we might think about our food choices and worry about whether or not we will stay in our calorie range or get the right balance of protein, carbs and fat. emoticon

I know 3 things for sure:

So why do I focus so much on these things. Each and every one of these things is a small part of who I am so why am I spending so much time and energy focusing on them. Yes, I want to continue to eat healthy foods and work out and lose weight. But I have a life to live and to enjoy and that means focusing on the positive aspects of this journey to health and fitness and letting go of all the negative.

I will stop concerning myself with the number on the scale and the size of my clothes.

I will only engage in enjoyable activities that provide me with a good cardio and strength workout.

I will eat fresh, nutritional and delicious foods and not force myself to eat something because it is "good" for me or avoid foods that are "bad" for me.

This is DAY 1 of my Streak to Magnify the Positive in every day.

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SLIMMERJESSE 10/13/2014 11:17AM

    Nice reminder blog.

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SHAMROCKY2K 7/11/2014 12:37AM

    Yep.. don't think about the negatives. Enjoy your activities. I think it's a battle we all fight with ourselves.
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Comment edited on: 7/11/2014 12:38:19 AM

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BABY_GIRL69 7/8/2014 6:19PM

    I'm back & forth daily to keep my mind stayed on the prize.

God bless,


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One year with SP...and counting!!

Wednesday, June 04, 2014

I'm approaching my one year SP anniversary and although I have been rather inactive on the site in the past couple of months, I have carried what I have learned with me. I have continued to go to Zumba and to get in my 6 freggies a day. Could I have done more in the past few months....definitely!!!
Am I beating myself up about it....absolutely not!!!

I am proud of the things I have accomplished this year, even if losing as much weight as I had wanted to is not one of those accomplishments. Perhaps the most important thing I have learned is that I am not alone on this journey and that there are so many people who have many more physical problems than I do and that I should be grateful every day that I can move my body with ease.

That said, it doesn't mean that I don't want to continue to work on getting stronger, increasing my endurance, trying new forms of exercise and activity and continue to reach out and encourage and support others as well as look to others for encouragement and support.

When I started this journey it was with the intention to lose weight for a family wedding that is taking place this weekend. It's a big event and I wanted to feel my best and I thought that would mean I would have to be a certain size....but what I know now is that it means that I need to do my best with where I am right now. I need to get enough sleep so that I am in a good mood and can view myself positively. I need to eat the right nutrients so that my body can perform efficiently. I need to buy dresses (yes, I needed to buy 3 dresses because I am invited to 3 events) that not only fit my style and body, but are comfortable to wear. I need to make sure my hair is going to cooperate with the weather so if I need a haircut, I will have to get one and not simply hope for the best. I even went to a make-up counter and let someone put makeup on me so I would have what I needed.

In other words, I prepared my mind and body in advance so that I could enjoy the entire weekend.

That is what SP has taught me....don't wait to live it now. I may never get to the weight that I think I should be and then again I might. But a number on a scale or a size of a dress is not going to stop me from enjoying my life NOW.

I am going to continue here on SP with a renewed commitment to live a healthy, active life for as long as I am physically capable of doing so.

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SHAMROCKY2K 7/6/2014 11:34PM

    Perfect attitude for everything going forward. Get out there and dance and have fun!

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BAMAJAM2 6/4/2014 10:09AM

  Sounds like you have a great attitude--- indeed!
Enjoy the wedding; have a fabulous time!
YOU are fabulous !!

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This time is MY time!

Monday, April 28, 2014

I have used the above motivational quote time and again and every time I realize that taking TOTAL RESPONSIBILITY is really, really, really hard. Making excuses, blaming, pointing the finger, passivity....whatever the attitude or situation that keeps me from being totally honest with myself is exactly what keeps me from reaching my goals.

It's been a rough couple of weeks for me in ways that I don't want to get into. I've taken a look at certain aspects of my life and have realized that along with responsibility comes accountability and that doesn't mean just for me, but for those close to me. I have failed to hold people I love accountable and have taken on responsibilities that aren't mine.

We are each responsible for the choices we make. I will no longer allow the choices that others make impact my choices. I am rededicating the next 6 weeks to ME. I am letting everyone else take care of their needs and I am holding them responsible and accountable.

Why 6 weeks? Because I started this SP journey with one of my goals being to look great at my niece's wedding. Whereas I may not meet my original weight loss goal, I am still capable of looking and FEELING great on that day. But it's up to ME to take control and regain the motivation and drive that started me on this journey. Other people will always have problems....but I do not have to let their problems, opinions or actions bring me down.


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THRIVE2DAY 4/29/2014 2:52AM

    The bible tells me for instance to:"Work out you own salvation..." It goes along with what you're saying Each of us is responsible and accountable for us, and others for themselves. You are completely right! Don't let others take the wind out of your sails. emoticon

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BAMAJAM2 4/28/2014 11:43AM

  This quote is excellent! I think it is the definition of maturity---- when we take responsibility for our attitude and our actions. Thank you!
By nature, I want to be the fixer for everyone's problems. It is tough on my spirit that I simply cannot do this. Your statement, " I have failed to hold people I love accountable and have taken on responsibilities that aren't mine."---- Me too!! This has burdened my heart, and I must try to let go of this unfair burden. I am not capable of fixing my loved ones' problems. It must be their responsibility.
This blog delivers wisdom to many of us, "fixers"--- Bless us all!

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    great attitude and great blog .. and so absolutely true .. we can't take on the responsibility for others choices or let them bring us to a point where it effects our choices and joy .. emoticon

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PEG2584 4/28/2014 10:53AM

    What an excellent attitude. We too often forget to think of ourselves, let alone put ourselves first.
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An experiment of one!

Saturday, April 05, 2014

I discovered that, at least for me, the biggest obstacle along this healthy lifestyle journey has always been me and the expectations that "this time will be different." The thing is, what has to be different is my mindset towards this journey and over the past 10 months I can honestly say that I have a much healthier attitude about myself and my lifestyle.

How many times do we make "plans" and then find that we didn't leave ourselves a "margin for error"? Then what often happens is we just give up and wander off the healthy lifestyle path altogether.

"We make plans and God laughs"'s a great saying because everyday we get up with some sort of "plan" to do this or that and then all of sudden LIFE gets in the way.

A couple of weeks ago I had a great week of exercising...even received a Gold Medal for reaching over 60,000 steps. Then I woke up with a sore ankle and I have been dealing with that ever since. I am back at working out but now I realize that over-use injuries do occur and sometimes "less is more" in the long-term.

Taking each day as an opportunity to do something positive for myself and others is how I am choosing to look at life these days. Losing weight is definitely a goal but it isn't the end goal anymore. If all I wanted out of this was a number on a scale or a size on a pair of jeans, I would see myself as a failure. I am not now, nor will I ever be, a failure!!!!

I may or may not reach the weight that I set as my goal when I started SP. However, I have learned so much about myself through this journey. I have come to recognize that my weight issues pale in comparison with the struggles that some members have encountered and their stories have inspired me to not take my health for granted but to work on improving it daily.

For all of those who are struggling with the maintaining those "plans" they set out for themselves, I want to encourage you to allow yourself a "margin for error" flexible, adjust and readjust your plan, have a meeting with yourself to tell yourself all the great things you have accomplished.

As SP says "I am an experiment of one"!

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EMPRESSAMQ 4/5/2014 11:28AM

    Excellent insight and continued good luck with your "experiment of one."


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