I heard someone say that any change that you want to initiate in your life will take longer, be harder and cost you more than you ever thought. That is very true for this journey to a healthier lifestyle.
But 8 1/2 months into my SP journey, I'm still here. I'm still committed to the vision I created for myself. I'm learning something new about myself almost everyday.
I know my triggers and even though I haven't conquered them, I take responsibility for them.
I am trying new things and excited about how much my endurance and strength has improved over the past several months.
For every unhealthy food choice I make, I know I make 3 healthy choices.
I am learning about HEALTH, not weight loss.
I am learning to love myself and my body while making the changes that will help me to live the life that I want to create for myself.
BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I STILL DON'T HAVE A LOT OF WORK TO DO.
I am still not comfortable in my body.
I too often see my flaws and not my strengths.
I give in to that negativity and make it so much harder on myself.
MARCH IS HERE!!!
Which means Spring is coming! Maybe there's a reason this month is called March.
Maybe we are being pushed to keep on "marching" and to not give up and give in to the doldrums of winter. Maybe we are to march into spring with a new attitude and new determination.
I have let fear rule my life in many ways. I'm not a person who spontaneously steps outside her comfort zone. I find that the longer I am on this journey to a healthier lifestyle that I am pushing myself to not let fear of what someone else might think or the fear of failure stop me from trying new things.
What good does it do to eat healthier and increase my energy and endurance if I don't stretch myself in other areas of my life? Even if I get down to my ideal weight and reach a higher fitness I have to push past fear to truly be who I am meant to be.
I heard someone say that unhappiness often comes when we look too much, too long or too hard at what we don't have. I would add that it also comes from focusing on "I can't" and the truth is that fear is the only thing holding me back.
TAKE A CHANCE....try a new exercise class, talk to a new person, go to a movie by yourself......whatever is holding you back from living your life to the fullest.
Too often I find myself beating myself up about what I did or didn't do. Yeah, we all know that we are to be kind to ourselves, be our own best friend, engage in positive self-talk, etc. But knowledge isn't doing. I was reading my Spark journal today and came across what I called my "Plan of Action for living a life where I am perfectly content in all aspects!" I know that sounds a little ridiculous to think a person can be truly content in all aspects of his/her life but I think it is definitely a goal worth striving for. Anyway, I thought I'd share.
When I started my SP journey in June of 2013, June of 2014 was a year away. See that's my "end date" to have lost 35 pounds. My niece's wedding. "Looking great at Katie's wedding" is one of my motivations for losing weight. I've had success and then relapse and success and relapse. I thought I was in a good place motivationally but I got a kick in the butt yesterday with the arrival of an invitation to my nieces bridal shower in March.
With the arrival of the invitation, the countdown is on. I have been around this mountain enough to know that waiting until the last couple of months is not going to get me where I want to be. It's time to kick it up a notch.
No more shortcuts, no more excuses, no more "it doesn't matter". It does matter! I know from past experiences that it matters. It will take commitment, dedication, making myself a priority and finishing what I started when I joined SP.
I ran across a video the other day of a woman who had committed to going to the gym for 100 days straight. I found out it was part of a website that has people committing to doing something for 100 days and video recording it. It was really interesting to see the different things that people were committing to.
Then as I was reading Lily Hills book the other day, she said that if you love your body 1% more today than you did yesterday that you would love it 100% more in just 100 days. That's 100 days of telling yourself something positive about your body.
It got me thinking about what other things I could do for 100 days that would impact my health and well being.....
100 days of exercise, even just the 10 minutes
100 days of checking in with SP
100 days of meditation/prayer
100 days of flossing
100 days of washing my face before bed
100 days of making my bed
100 days of blessing another person in some way
You get the idea...the list could go on and on. While I'm not ready to video myself doing these things, I am willing to give it a go. These are small positive steps that could be instrumental in creating positive change in my life and in the lives of my family.
This is an opportunity to inspire myself. It's great to look to others for inspiration and motivation and I love to read all the inspiring blogs and success stories. But in the end, this is about ME and sooner or later, I am the one who needs to dig deep and find the motivation and inspiration from within.