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Ruth Casey Quote

Friday, June 14, 2013

"It only takes one person to change your life: YOU! "
~ Ruth Casey

  


Down .4 pound at WI today

Tuesday, June 04, 2013

I was actually expecting a gain because I lost FOUR pounds last week! To have any loss at all this week makes me very happy.

I also have a silly NSV. Today I went down the kiddie slide at local park, per request of my 8 year old & I DIDN'T GET STUCK! When she asked me to go down this very same slide 2 years ago, I couldn't because my butt was so big it wouldn't fit on the slide!

  


Down 20 pounds !!!

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

WOO HOO! I'm a bit excited today!

After NINE months on Weight Watchers I've finally lost 20 pounds! Yes, it felt awesome! Yes I've been frustrated but it was great!

As great as it felt to get my second ribbon, it felt even better to have both of my girls at meeting there to see it!



As my youngest put it..."It's taken 6 months for Mr. Ribbon to find a Mrs. Ribbon. Now they can have a bunch of baby ribbons!"


Hopefully sooner rather than later the "Ribbon family" will grow to three, then four & so on.

What a sweet way of seeing it. After all it does take 2 before you can get to 3!



  
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ARIZONAMARY 5/31/2013 10:51AM

    Thank you very much everyone.

Yes, I'm very proud.


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SWEETROSIE2 5/28/2013 11:44PM

    emoticon you must feel so proud well done.

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TRYINGTOLOSE64 5/28/2013 9:49PM

    Congrats!!

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CLAIRE_LEFT_SP 5/28/2013 7:52PM

    Totally kewl. Congrats.

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KIWINURSE 5/28/2013 7:08PM

    Perfectly put by your daughter! I look forward to seeing the family of baby ribbons!
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ARIZONAMARY 5/28/2013 3:58PM

    Thank you very much


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DIETER27 5/28/2013 3:39PM

  Congrats.......

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Hot Chocolate 5K Goal, Virtual 5Ks & NSV's!

Monday, May 20, 2013

Since I cannot afford to do every 5K I want to, I've deceided I'm going to do either a virtual 5K (just me timing a 3.1 mile wog like I would my 5K's) or an actual 5K once per month to keep me motivated.

Why? Other than I want to, most people my size would think I'm nuts, but because to take part in the Hot Chocolate 5K in December a 15 minute mile is required. It was the one 5k I said over a year ago that I wanted to do & again I said it in January.

I looked back on my Noom ap at some of my 3 mile walks & if I take the time of each mile total & divide by three, these are the results.

Jan
19.39+20.58+20.56=60.53 minutes divided by 3=20.17666
February
19.35+18.19+18.10=55.64 minutes divided by 3=18.54666
March
20.09+20.17+18.17=58.43 minutes divided by3=19.47666
April
17.41+18.41+17.26=53.08 minutes divided by 3=17.69333
May (today)
16.41+17.27+16.28=49.96 minutes divided by 3=16.65333

I CAN do this. I'm not crazy am I? I don't think I'm nuts & it will help keep me focused.

As for the NSV's I mentioned....

Last year I had to squeeze into a size 3X swimsuit. In April when we went to Lake Havasu this same swimsuit fit comfortably. Yesterday the very same swimsuit is nearly too big! WOO HOO!

The size 3X exercise capris I wore today are baggy in the belly, rear & thighs! I love this pair of capri's but I'll be glad to see them go to Goodwill...very, very soon.

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LITTLETEALOVER 5/21/2013 10:02AM

    I think you have a very achievable goal, and a great plan to get there. You are making great progress! Congrats!



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Happy Angry Mother's Day

Thursday, May 09, 2013

I know the title doesn't make much sense to anyone but me. Maybe it will when you're finished reading this entry.

This is a picture of my mom & I.



I'm sad to say there were only 2 more pictures ever taken of her after this, one of which was at my vow renewal.

I'm STILL so ANGRY with her because I truly feel as if she SHOULD still be here. Here for my dad, her kids & her grandkids. She left too soon & part of it is her own dam fault!

Last year I was so sad & still consumed with grief that I hardly got out of bed. I did the absolute bare minimum on Mother's Day for my kids. I didn't deal with the feelings the day brought about last year because it was all I could do just to get through it. This year I find myself really, truly ANGRY & I don't like that. Yes she was brave in going for quality of life by having the surgery, but she waited too dam long! Maybe I'd feel differently if she had taken care of herself, but we'll never know!

My girls will never get to grow up having a Grandma to take them places, to look at them from the stands when they graduate or watch them walk down the aisle when they get married.


I can see her suffering in her final hours when I go to sleep at night. I haven't seen that for awhile. It's only been in the past week as Mother's Day approaches. I can hear my dad's voice as his heart broke when he accepted that she wasn't going to make it. I can hear him say this to me when I asked what I could do for him before she died "Get me wife that won't eat herself to death!". I don't want to go through that myself, nor do I want my husband or kids to see me that way. I'm still so angry with her & I don't know how to get past it.

Her death is what pushed me to Weight Watchers in August. Her death is what gets me back on track when I have a bad day or bad week. Ultimately, her death was her final gift to me because it knocked me out of my own denial about my weight issues. Her death FORCED me to deal with my own declining health.

Yesterday I went completely off program & ate whatever I wanted & did no exercise. I didn't go hog wild, eating to the point I was going to burst. I ate until I was satisfied, but I ate anything I wanted to.

Today it's back on program for me. I could be into all of the snacks we have in the house for school lunches, but I'm not. I'm here instead. I'm drinking water instead. I'm crying instead. I'm working through my emotions instead.

I had my husband take us out to dinner last weekend for an early Mother's Day because I KNEW if we did it this weekend, I'd eat myself sick because I'd be so upset. He didn't even have to ask why. He already knew the answer.

My mom raised me to be strong, confident, caring, kind & she told me I could do anything I set my mind to. We had many issues also, like most mothers & daughters do, but on the whole she was an incredible woman. A woman I was fortunate to be able to call "Mom"....but I'm still angry at her & I need to find a way move past it.



This is how I NEED to remember her, but it's hard when I'm still so angry.

  
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ARIZONAMARY 5/20/2013 1:51PM

    Thanks everyone.

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OBIESMOM2 5/9/2013 2:10PM

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I am so sorry you and your family are dealing with this. For your own sake, and the sake of YOUR family, you need to work thru your anger...but you know that.

If you can find it, read Zig Ziglar's "Confessions of a Grieving Christian" (I'm pretty sure it's out of print). Also Stephen Covey's "The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People".

Zig's book is very specific, about dealing with losing his daughter.

Dr. Covey's book is more general about taking charge and not letting things you cannot control...well, control you. It literally changed my life. But I was not dealing with anything as drastic as what you are dealing with.

lots of virtual hugs & prayers for you & your family



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AKATHLEEN54 5/9/2013 1:39PM

    I am so sorry for you, but what you are doing now in her memory is the greatest gift that you can ever give her and I know if she could she would say thank you. My being healthy for yourself and your family is the best way to honor her. I'm sure she would be so proud. In your sadness you did right by going off your program for a day, but you did even better by getting right back on track. We do need those days to keep us from going completely insane at times. Try to do something special with your beautiful girls on Mother's Day. I'm sure your Mom wouldn't want you to sit around crying and feeling sad. Maybe plan a trip that doesn't revolve around eating..... a family hike, a trip to the zoo, bike riding.... anything to keep you busy and make your day a happy memory. In your heart your Mom will ALWAYS be with you, but don't let the grief destroy you. You have a beautiful family who loves you and needs you. Remember your Mom for all of the good things she taught you. It is truly unfortunate about the way it happened, but ultimately your Mom forced you to change your life!! Stay strong and you can do this!! emoticon

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ELIDET 5/9/2013 1:06PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. A person, especially a mother can never be replaced. emoticon

I think it is great that you are using it to save yourself from offering the same grief to your children. I think your story might help inspire that one person who is on the fence about working out to get up and at least go for a walk.

Happy Mother's Day to you!


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