Sunday, December 26, 2010
I have learned a lot this year. I started out in July, looking for ways to make myself better and to lose weight. I found Spark People on July 11th and could not be happier! Spark People has taught me so much in just 6 months.
I have learned 1. About myself - physically and probably more importantly mentally. The way we think really has an impact on all that we do. We want results now and if we don't see them immediately we get discouraged and quite, thinking all the while that we are worthless and we can't do it. I have learned to think about myself and weight loss in a whole different way. I have found that just because I didn't lose 50 lbs by the end of the year doesn't make me a failure, I didn't lose 50 lbs, but I did lose 15 lbs and that is a start! Slow and steady wins the race.
2. I have learned that goals are great and can be kept. They don't have to be really hard either. Starting out small works better than starting out big. Sure, it is good to have a main goal, but at the same time if it is a little to unrealistic and you don't set smaller, easier to obtain goals, you will get discouraged pretty fast and probably fail. I always thought about my goals, I thought that all I wanted was to lose 60 -70 lbs. I didn't care how, but I did care about the when. And the when was now. I have now found that I went about it all the wrong way and I was thinking negatively. I found out what I really wanted and started making smaller, more realistic goals that I could actually reach and feel good about myself.
3. Weight loss was not the only thing that I wanted, sure I would have felt great losing weight, but would I have been happy? No, and Spark People has made me see that I need more than weight loss to make me happy, I need to make myself happy and take control of my life.
All that Spark People has taught me these last 6 months has really made a difference, but so has the people here. I have never met a more understanding, kinder, helpful, willing group of people! Everyone has given me so much love and support. I am so excited for the New Year! I will keep on pushing towards my goals, meeting each one and continuing on. 2011 Will be a great year, I will make it so. :)
Saturday, November 06, 2010
I am usually so tired that I don't get much done. I have chronic fatigue, chronic headaches, and chronic back pain. I have now decided that these are all excuses. Sure, I really have all these things, but I need to push past them. (not easily done, but I am going to get past these.) I usually stay in bed till 10- 11 am. ridicules! I have missed breakfast, and its almost lunch time! I think this makes me eat more each day cuz I think that "its ok to eat that because I didn't have breakfast". Not a good mentality! But here I am at 7am, ready for my work out and getting some much needed motivation from Spark people! I will eat a healthy breakfast and actually accomplish something today. I already feel better then most "mornings" (I use this term loosely here, lol)
I am more awake and aware of everything around me. I need to do this everyday I know to see real results, but if I feel this good just getting out of bed, how good am I going to feel in the long run? Great!! I need this for me and my daughters. Recently my 5 year old asked me
" mommy, why do you sleep so long?" It was then that I realized that 1. I was setting a bad example for her. and 2. that I wasn't spending much time with her because instead I was "too tired" and still in bed, or laying on the couch.
This has been my motivation to get up, work out and live life to its fullest!!!
Friday, August 27, 2010
Recently I have been to the doctor/hospital more times in one month than I have in a year! I started by going to my general physician to get a check up and a referral to another doctor, While I was there he had a few blood tests done. a few days later I got a call from his office, the test results were back, I have very high thyroid levels and very low vitamin D levels. How can that be?! I am out in the sun a lot and drink a lot of vitamin D fortified milk. I was prescribed a vitamin D pill once a week and levothyroxin for my thyroid once a day every day.
I have been feeling better since starting on the thyroid meds, I'm not sure if the vitamin D is doing anything but I have only taken it twice, so who knows? I guess I'll find out.
I had to have a repeat MRI that still shows white matter lesions, consistent with MS. After seeing that doctor and getting the MRI, I had to go to the hospital to have a spinal tap to get a spinal fluid sample to check for OC banding to make sure if it is MS. I am still waiting for the results of that and having to wait it driving me crazy!
After the spinal tap I was supposed to lay flat on my back for 24 hours and then I was supposed to be fine. A few days later it wasn't any better. My husband took me back in to the hospital because it was a saturday and I was just getting worse. 5 hours and 3 bags of IV fluid later, they send me home with some codeine and tell me to lay flat for 24 more hours.
By monday I was still not better, I called my doctors office, The doctor said to wait a couple more days flat on my back and if it wasn't any better by thursday then they were going to put on a blood patch, which is supposedly pretty painful. I waited till wednsday and was finally able to get up without wanting to pass out from the pain in my head.
Today is Friday and I finally can get back to working out, but not to hard.
I haven't tracked anything for a week because it is kind of hard to use the computer when you are laying flat and raising your head even six inches makes it hurt! But I am now going to get back to tracking everything and working out! I have felt so crummy not being able to exercise I am happy to get back to my work out!!
I have especially missed interacting with my spark friends and being on spark people!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
I have lost almost 10 pounds!!! I am so excited! My husband is supportive, but he doesn't really understand how excited I am and how hard it is to lose 9 pounds! I have been so grateful for Spark people, everyone has been so nice and understanding and supportive! Thank you Spark people and everyone! I have only been on here for a few weeks, but I can see that it Spark people has a really great supportive group and they are all so nice!
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