Wednesday, October 12, 2011
All in all, pretty successful I reckon. High weight of 270, current weight 184. Target is 178, have been "trying" to lose the last 10 pounds for 2 months now, lose 2, gain 3 back, lose 3, gain 2 back and on and on. I keep sabotaging myself, I eat great all day and then from 10 till midnight I'll eat blocks of cheese, 3-6 beers, cookies etc. Not every night but 2-3 times a week, enough to sabotage me for sure. I think the biggest reason is I don't know what I will do once I reach my goal of 178, I have invested so heavily in my days of weight loss and stroke recovery and once I hit the weight loss target, I'll have to find something else and I don't have a clue. Hoping writing this out shames me enough to get it done, tired of the struggle.