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Lesson's learned

Monday, August 04, 2014

Well I have learned many lessons this last week. I just hope that it all sinks in and when an event or the binge urge comes that I will remember my lesson. I suppose it if I use it every day then it will help but I don’t want to be faced with events all the time or binges. I want smooth sailing so that my healthy steps become habits before the next event or binge urge arrives.

What are you talking about you may say? Well I will tell you.

My weight keeps going up the same 3-4 lbs and down the same 3-4 lbs. It’s like I am stuck between 205 and 207. I cannot break free and its downright frustrating.

Taking a look back at last week. I busted my you know what with working out and eating right and I was showing a nice loss on the scale. Then Friday hits. I am tired and worn out. I have to go get my groceries at Aldi on lunch that day but instead of doing that I decide to get Arby’s on lunch. Not a good idea. It took all of my allowance for the day and week in that one meal. Wow. It was an eye opener and I told myself lesson learned but was it? I got home and had a protein shake for dinner and worked out. Yay me! And by Saturday morning there was not much damage on the scale.

So then Saturday is here and I have breakfast, work out, go for a 3 mile walk and get ready for my busy day. Woo Hoo! I am at rock star status with my healthy choices. Even for lunch. Got subway and ordered a healthy sub. That was the first. Then we get to the dealer ship. I eat a cookie. Ok no biggie. I tracked it and moved on. Still in the green. Get to a party and have a couple appetizers and a few drinks. Well not the greatest but I will manage. Now to the mall. Had a really fattening cookie loaded with frosting. Could only eat half. Dinner was Dominos and we all know how that went! Saturday was a bust! Even with 14000 steps and a work out it was a bust!

Sunday I had to weigh in and measure for a group I am a part of. Well the scale was not so nice. I gained the 3 lbs I lost back – good thing I never recorded the loss yet. All in all I was only up 0.4 lbs from my last weigh in. Not horribly bad but then I think back to the end of the week and I was down 3-4 lbs plus TOM is here today for the monthly visit. Oh what a weekend will do. Now on to measuring. I had lost 6” last week! Pretty darn proud of that.

So the rest of Sunday goes on. It was my day off of working out and all was good until lunch. I hadn’t been drinking water so my thirst was taken for hunger. I had 1 pack of ramen, turkey sandwich, and 2 pouches of WW candy. Then Dinner rolls around and we had pasta salad and ribs on the grill. I over did it on pasta salad.

Now today, Monday, and I peaked at the scale. Really Really bad! I refuse to look at the scale again until WW WI on Wednesday. I know my lesson’s I have learned and I just hope they stick in my head. There won’t be a way to show a loss now that I have a 2-3 lbs gain but I can learn from this weekend and move on.

Lesson #1 – You cannot eat the way you did and expect the scale to be down. Weight loss really is 80% food and 20% exercise. All week I was eating healthy and not as much processed and then the weekend comes and I let all that I worked for go in 2-3 days. Not fair to me with everything I did to get down and change my eating.

Lesson #2 – You need to drink water NO MATTER WHAT! I have seen firsthand that thirst easily gets confused with hunger. The bad thing – I realized I was thirsty and went for the food anyways. Why???

Lesson #3 – This goes along with #1 but you cannot out work out a bad diet. Working out does not give you the green light to eat an abundance of food. All this does is wash away the working out and make you feel horrible and then the scale wins.

I do not want the scale to win anymore. I want to win. I am tired of doing great during the week while at work and then doing horribly on the weekends at home. Why is it when at work (controlled environment) I don’t binge but at home (uncontrolled) I do. I guess I just answered that huh?!

It’s time for a change and I need to be more aware of what I am doing food wise. I am getting there but I need to let my stomach (not hungry) win and not my head(thinks its hungry). I can do this and will do this. By the end of this month I will say good bye to the 200’s for the 2nd time and I will NEVER EVER go back.

But hey – 6” – Now that is one success this weekend! Next week will be one amazing loss – both with the pounds and with the inches again! I can do this. I won’t let weekends sabotage my efforts anymore!

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JEEPGIRL150 9/1/2014 5:06PM

    emoticon May September be much better. I hear ya though. Nothing worse than undoing everything in the kitchen or eating out.

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Hard habit to break

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Everybody has hard habits that are hard to break. For me it's snacking after work that is the hardest for me to break. When I get home from work I get ravenous and want to just eat and eat. I have tried to stop the habit but it's so hard. Really I have been pretty good about not snacking after work and if I do and make sure that it's within my points. What works for me is to make dinner right away when I get home or to work out right away when I get home. So far so good and I really hope I can stick to this.

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SUZECOOKS 11/17/2014 5:18PM

    This is a tough one. Crock pot meals can be helpful. I used to cut up an apple or put healthy finger food on a plate on the counter so I could nibble good stuff. You can do it!

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LJOYCE55 7/16/2014 8:44AM

  I agree with both of you. The only thing that has actually worked well for me is to either eat dinner then and have just a snack later OR run errands like robbiey so that eating is taken away from me. I am still hungry, however. Since it is 4-5 hours since lunch, I think it is natural to be hungry then. Hope you find a solution and share with us.

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ROBBIEY 7/16/2014 8:39AM

  I have the same bad habit, when I get home, I eat everything insight, even when I am preparing dinner. I am fine all day and can eat what I brought for lunch and my snacks and am not hungry, but as soon as I walk in the door I am starving. I am yet to find something that works. If I have to run errands, I am fine, but when I get home I have the urge to snack. I have tried having a snack in the card, but it does not work.

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Challenging goals

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

I honestly cannot remember the last time I had a challenging goal and actually achieved it. I always set goals and things I'm going to do and then don't pull through with them. It's been the story of my life.

Recently I got sized for a bridesmaids dress and was not happy with what they came back with size wise. I am determined to work out and eat right and go back in a month for different size.

So what is my action plan? I plan on working out and eating right and I plan on doing my running. In one month I plan to be one size down. I really don't think it will be that hard because I was between sizes with the dresses anyway.

I know my goals and I know I need to stick with that if I want to succeed. I can't keep stopping and starting because I'm not getting anywhere.

Quite frankly I'm tired of starting over so right now I'm giving up anymore. Goal here I come!

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MPLSKEN 7/15/2014 11:53AM

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NELLJONES 7/15/2014 8:44AM

    Remember it's easy to take a garment in, but tough to let it out.

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WANABHOT2 7/15/2014 8:26AM

  You can do it! I'm right there w / you - always lapse sometimes but just need to keep going! Good luck! emoticon

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Monday, July 14, 2014

So yesterday was my first 5K. I did the color run and it was amazing! I went with my best friend and two other girls and we had a blast. Two of the girls really did not want to run but that is okay because my friend ran with me for most of it. I definitely could have ran more but stayed with my friend. But what I am really grateful for is for the opportunity to be able to do this. Grateful to have a great friend who stood by me the whole time and grateful to have the support of my husband who watch the kids so I could do it. This is definitely an opportunity I will never forget. I am so pumped for the next 5K it's almost like a runners high.

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JEEPGIRL150 7/14/2014 6:43PM

    I'm so glad you enjoyed the color run!!! It's very much so a fun event. Hope you didn't get chalk all in your ear like I did last year. lol. It took two weeks for me to get it out. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MISTYDAZE42 7/14/2014 8:23AM

    emoticon I'm just starting to jog/run and am thinking of doing a 5k in a few months.

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Why oh why

Thursday, June 26, 2014

The question I need to ask myself is why. Why do I find it so hard to stick to my program? Why is it so hard to get up and run knowing I have my first ever 5k coming up July 13? Why is it so hard for me to just work out in general? Why is sticking to my points range so hard? Why do I always binge eat? Why, in general, do I eat when I am not hungry? Why is it so hard to stay motivated?

I honestly wish I knew the answers to all of my questions. I just don’t get it. Its plan and simple. Eat with in your range and work out. Black and white – but yet it is so hard to do. It doesn’t get any easier than eat right and work out but yet I make it hard.

I swear its that inner voice. “Oh you can start again tomorrow” it says. “oh one binge day wont kill you” it says. No one binge day wont kill me but it will wreak havoc on the scale in the morning.

Yesterday I was feeling so off. I cant even describe it but it was like a disconnected feeling. Tired and some dizziness once during the day. I got home and my sister and I made cookies. Of course I had dough and some cookies. Then that bad choice lead to another. I ordered pizza. It was a night of sabotage. Why do I do that?

Ok here is another why I ask myself. Why do I go into “zombie” mode with eating? My mind literally goes blank when I have the binge come on and there is no way to talk myself out of it. My mind is made up and then it shuts off until after it happens and I feel bad after. Can I please have a new mind that listens to me?!

I really need to figure out how to beat this. Sure I could hop on the treadmill for 15 minutes after work but then the guiltiness of not spending time with my little guy sinks in. But then I remember our routine. I put on Sherriff Callie and he watches that while I binge and think of something for dinner. Real quality time there lady! That needs to change!

I used to be really good about working out right after work and not bingeing. I think I need to go back to that routine. Get the little man to bed early so I can get up and run in the AM and not be so tired and hit snooze a zillion times. I just need to find what works for me because my trigger time is between 5-6pm. I need to figure it out fast because what good am I doing for my kids if I am sabotaging my own health. They need me! So I am going to stop the “why’s” and turn them into “how’s” and make the “how’s” into “doing”. It will be hard but it is something I have to do. No one ever got to goal by binge eating and not working out.

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V_IS_LOSIN 7/1/2014 9:23PM

    That same you can start again tomorrow voice talks to me too. You can do this you will figure out a good solution.

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GERIKRAGH 6/26/2014 10:34AM

    Think back if there is something in your past that you don't want to face. You might be afraid to go back to that time with a weight loss.

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