Monday, August 04, 2014
Well I have learned many lessons this last week. I just hope that it all sinks in and when an event or the binge urge comes that I will remember my lesson. I suppose it if I use it every day then it will help but I don’t want to be faced with events all the time or binges. I want smooth sailing so that my healthy steps become habits before the next event or binge urge arrives.
What are you talking about you may say? Well I will tell you.
My weight keeps going up the same 3-4 lbs and down the same 3-4 lbs. It’s like I am stuck between 205 and 207. I cannot break free and its downright frustrating.
Taking a look back at last week. I busted my you know what with working out and eating right and I was showing a nice loss on the scale. Then Friday hits. I am tired and worn out. I have to go get my groceries at Aldi on lunch that day but instead of doing that I decide to get Arby’s on lunch. Not a good idea. It took all of my allowance for the day and week in that one meal. Wow. It was an eye opener and I told myself lesson learned but was it? I got home and had a protein shake for dinner and worked out. Yay me! And by Saturday morning there was not much damage on the scale.
So then Saturday is here and I have breakfast, work out, go for a 3 mile walk and get ready for my busy day. Woo Hoo! I am at rock star status with my healthy choices. Even for lunch. Got subway and ordered a healthy sub. That was the first. Then we get to the dealer ship. I eat a cookie. Ok no biggie. I tracked it and moved on. Still in the green. Get to a party and have a couple appetizers and a few drinks. Well not the greatest but I will manage. Now to the mall. Had a really fattening cookie loaded with frosting. Could only eat half. Dinner was Dominos and we all know how that went! Saturday was a bust! Even with 14000 steps and a work out it was a bust!
Sunday I had to weigh in and measure for a group I am a part of. Well the scale was not so nice. I gained the 3 lbs I lost back – good thing I never recorded the loss yet. All in all I was only up 0.4 lbs from my last weigh in. Not horribly bad but then I think back to the end of the week and I was down 3-4 lbs plus TOM is here today for the monthly visit. Oh what a weekend will do. Now on to measuring. I had lost 6” last week! Pretty darn proud of that.
So the rest of Sunday goes on. It was my day off of working out and all was good until lunch. I hadn’t been drinking water so my thirst was taken for hunger. I had 1 pack of ramen, turkey sandwich, and 2 pouches of WW candy. Then Dinner rolls around and we had pasta salad and ribs on the grill. I over did it on pasta salad.
Now today, Monday, and I peaked at the scale. Really Really bad! I refuse to look at the scale again until WW WI on Wednesday. I know my lesson’s I have learned and I just hope they stick in my head. There won’t be a way to show a loss now that I have a 2-3 lbs gain but I can learn from this weekend and move on.
Lesson #1 – You cannot eat the way you did and expect the scale to be down. Weight loss really is 80% food and 20% exercise. All week I was eating healthy and not as much processed and then the weekend comes and I let all that I worked for go in 2-3 days. Not fair to me with everything I did to get down and change my eating.
Lesson #2 – You need to drink water NO MATTER WHAT! I have seen firsthand that thirst easily gets confused with hunger. The bad thing – I realized I was thirsty and went for the food anyways. Why???
Lesson #3 – This goes along with #1 but you cannot out work out a bad diet. Working out does not give you the green light to eat an abundance of food. All this does is wash away the working out and make you feel horrible and then the scale wins.
I do not want the scale to win anymore. I want to win. I am tired of doing great during the week while at work and then doing horribly on the weekends at home. Why is it when at work (controlled environment) I don’t binge but at home (uncontrolled) I do. I guess I just answered that huh?!
It’s time for a change and I need to be more aware of what I am doing food wise. I am getting there but I need to let my stomach (not hungry) win and not my head(thinks its hungry). I can do this and will do this. By the end of this month I will say good bye to the 200’s for the 2nd time and I will NEVER EVER go back.
But hey – 6” – Now that is one success this weekend! Next week will be one amazing loss – both with the pounds and with the inches again! I can do this. I won’t let weekends sabotage my efforts anymore!