Saturday, November 23, 2013
Blog about the top 5 to 10 things you are thankful for this Thanksgiving.
There are many things that I am thankful for this year.
I am thankful for my family for they have been such loving and supportive through the struggles through the time we have been in Texas. Last October/November I started on a new regiment of medications and started therapy. I had days and weeks in which I felt awful and had some adverse reactions to medications and my children and husband took up much of the slack the I was unable to do myself.
I am thankful for my therapist. She is the most wonderful and understanding person I have had the opportunity to have been assigned to see. I had very bad experience with therapy before so I was really sceptical of the profession itself. Over the last last year I have been going to see her and have worked through a lot of issues that I was having. Then around July I had a breakthrough and things seemed to be looking up again but then a new problem emerged, I felt empty, had no want to do much of anything. I had been working through my issues since I was a child and now its gone and resolved. So now I am having to look for more meaning in my life, which she is helping me work through now.
I am thankful for the creativity God has given me. I am self taught in most of my crafts, crocheting, poetry, prose, and knitting which I just picked up in January. I love making things, I also love doing latch hook projects which I have done two so far this year. I also have some talent in drawing using pens.
I am thankful for the Autumn and Winter for I love snow. I love the crisp smell of the cool air, the crunch of leaves. Just the "feel" of these seasons make me feel the beauty that God can show us.
I am thankful for online schooling so that my children don't have to be subjected to the horrible bullying going rampant in the public school system. My daughter was subjected to it so bad last year that she was contemplating suicide. She ended up in the pavilion hospital for a week going through therapy which had concluded to continued therapy which she is doing much better now and have only had one incident since the start of this school year, around Halloween when a friend of her's planning for about 3 months and she bails on my daughter which triggered a reaction.
I am thankful for the love in general, it makes things bearable during the low times in life and can lift you up to a better place of thinking. Love from all that are around us to include strangers on the streets, working in the stores we visit. Giving a smile to all those that are around you making the happiness to spread becoming contagious to everyone around. When one is happy, love has a way of sneaking into your heart.
I am thankful for having a roof over our heads, assistance to help provide our family with food, We don't make much money at this time, but we are grateful for what we do have, my disability and my husbands VA and what he gets from going to school. We live in a two bedroom apartment because that is all we can afford even though we really need a three bedroom to be comfortable. We have given up a living room area to block off an area for our son to have a bedroom, but we are grateful because we have more than other out there.
I am thankful for my in-law family, they are wonderful loving people that I know I can turn to anytime I need anything. They are supportive and care about our children. They love their grandma and loves to spend as much time they can with her.
I am thankful for my spark family. Many spark friends have been here through some of my toughest times and pushed me through. I have been a member of this family since 2007 and restarted again with a new profile in 2012. I never left for very long, always coming back being drawn in to the awesome friend support which I am always in need of. I am thankful for all the support of teams and challenges to keep me going even when I am struggling they are there to push me forward and not to give up.
I am thankful for music, soothing calm music to take my mind off things and pain that I have. I love operas so calming and sets my mind at ease and relaxes me. Aceppela is in its own category for me, lifting up for the soul. Music is a common language that speaks to one to make meaning of ones own choosing. I also like up beat music to just dance around to when no one is looking. Great to exercise to and get you into whatever mood that you need to complete certain workouts.
I have many more things that I am thankful for, way to many to list them all here in a blog, if I had more time and lots and lots of time I might be able to list them all.
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
Once again I am having to start back even farther than I ever have before. I have been pretty sedentary for the last month and a half. Before that I rarely did exercise but I would do about 30 min 2 to 3 times a week. I have had issues with medication reaction which put on about 10 lbs of all water and was given water pills from my DR so that cleared up for me by August so I stopped taking them but now my edema is coming back, not as bad as before but I can feel it, I have put a request in to my dr to have that particular prescription refilled soon
I missed the whole month of July and August and September of BSG challenges on Aspire/Inspire Team. Last month I was not active the last two weeks or so, I just have no motivation no matter how much I tried. I have been trying this month, but I know my fitness minutes are almost non existent and feel like I am letting myself down. On about the 12th of this month I had my medications updated and had some changes that my body still is adjusting to, which can take up to as long as 2 weeks. However, I really need to get going on the exercise before I can no longer be able to move. On November 15th I joined two more teams in hopes it would boost me to do more and keep in touch with more people, to be a little bit more social. I joined Little Black Dress, which is very active and support is everywhere and just really friendly feeling. Also joined Done Being The Fat Girl and joined another challenge called the Through the Holidays Challenge, a challenge to get a your exercise minutes in to help your team succeed.
I know I have issues with myself right now and am not really happy with myself because of how bad I let myself go. Just 5 years ago I weighed 135lbs and felt great fitting in my size 8 jeans. I also know I have the capability to work out hard having completed P90X July of 2011 and was at 157 but still fit into my size 8's because most of it was muscles. Now I am unable to even do a few minutes at a time on my fold up bicycle and as far as walking I seem to only be able to do 5 minutes at a time of WATP. I know I should give myself credit for even do that with how much I have gone through this last year and a half. I started therapy and a whole new medication list in October of last year. I had a severe reaction to one of my meds causing me to get pitting edema. Depression has gotten in the way several times along with no motivation that I could find. However from July of 2011 weight of 157 I have gone up to 223 lbs to which now I have 100 lbs to lose to be in "normal" range for my 5' height.
So here is to starting over once again and hopes that I will stay with it even though I am so frustrated.
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Taking a walk through the woods glancing up at the trees
Peaceful quiet whispering through nearly empty branches
A haze through the clouds in the sky giving a gloomy feel
Drizzle beings to fall, slightly sprinkling into a nearby brook
The wind gently moving leaves swirling around your feet
The crunch sound taken with every step on the worn path
Breathing in the cool crisp air as leaves fall to the ground
A dampness to be felt along with the dry leaves crunching
Oak changing yellow almost bare of all its leaves of color
The empty birch bunch drawing attention for its white bark
A maple in the distance standing out red through the gloom
Bringing attention to the home of an owl in the dark trunk
The beauty seen while walking through an autumn forest
A beauty that is indistinguishable from anything else in life
Friday, November 08, 2013
Sending my friends a bundle of roses full of color and gorgeous smell filling the air. Each one having a meaning all of their own. The abundance of feelings to be shared, and reminder of what we are worth.
The Black rose, Farewell, Death to old habits
Beginning of a New Journey through courage
The Peach rose, Sincerity, Genuineness
Closing of a new deal, A change
The Turquoise rose, Constant rejuvenation of spirit
Self-respect and well being of yourself
The Dark Red rose, Unconscious beauty
Readiness for a commitment for oneself.
The Orange rose, Fascination, Enthusiasm
Energy, a way of saying you're proud of yourself
The Blue rose, extraordinarily wonderful
Mysterious beginnings of new things
The Lavender rose, Enchantment at first sight
Wonder and impossibility to accomplish
The Pink rose, Grace, elegance
Admiration for beauty and refinement
The Yellow rose, delight, warmth, good luck
Unabridged joy, promise of a new beginning
The Red rose, desire, courage passion
Respect and appreciation, Honest beauty
The Bright Pink rose, Appreciation,
Recognition Gratitude, Admiration
The White rose, Humility, Youthful
You are worthy of you, Beauty
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