Monday, September 15, 2014
Well, what can I say: these interim weeks could have gone better, but they could have gone much worse, too. It's been stressful, and I spent a lot of time eating my feelings. (Hey, I really like that expression, which I just heard today...) But I have kept up with my Spark friends, and I have kept up with my exercise. So while I haven't gone forward, I haven't really gone backwards, either. I am looking forward to the new challenge, which starts in two days. I know myself well enough to know that I do better when challenged, and I do look forward to the fun that the cappies are cooking up.
Tuesday, September 02, 2014
My small goal for the month of September is to get my eating back on track. Notice I said back on track, and didn't choose to say I will control my eating. Good intake is not something to be wrestled to the ground, like a wild animal, something to be controlled. It's like a friend that you gently want to lead back to the correct path. After all, food is my friend, right? And not my enemy.
Many reasons why my food choices haven't been the best: both Ed & I are experiencing job issues, and health issues. While mine are nothing new, knee pain is something new to him, and he's having a hard time handling it. We are also in the midst of remodeling our bathroom, a job that we were told would take two weeks, and it's been over a month now. Not to mention the fact that we're $2K over our budget... And I hate to admit it, but I'm easier on myself when the Biggest Loser Challenge is on hiatus. And face it, I can tend to be lazy when I don't have a reason to not be.
On the plus side, I have upped my steps to 6400 per day, and have started with a new gym, and new personal trainer. That is probably all that has kept me from gaining wait these last six weeks or so.
So my goal is to get back on track, to wean out the less than desirable foods, get back to the cleaner eating I was doing during the spring months. Food is to be enjoyed, but every day doesn't have to be a party in my mouth!!
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Well, it's been a different sort of day here. Back to work after more than 2 weeks off for vacation. Had to do a route, which I did slowly so I didn't mess up my knee again. Waiting for Ed to get home because we're supposed to help buy the dry wall and beams we need to start working on the bathroom, after a week of it being torn apart. (Don't even get me started about having the pee in the woods behind the house!) And just found out from older son that younger son broke up with his girlfriend. I thought they were doing so well...
So I'm having my own versio of a coffee coolatta: coffee, half a serving of Carnation Breakfast mix, a squirt of chocolate syrup, and ice cubes. (Thanks for letting me use your blender while you're at work, Nick!) No, it's not the same as Oreos or a candy bar, but I'm wise enough to know that once I start down that Path of Sugar, I won't stop. So this will do.
Tuesday, August 05, 2014
Everything I've learned the past year? It can all be put down to a few words: I'm stronger than I think I am. And I can almost always push myself a little bit more.
I've had a tough year... my mom died, my cat died, I've gotten older, my younger son quit college, my older son got engaged, I've hurt my knee countless times, we've had endless insurance issues, and on and on. But I haven't thrown in the towel, haven't given up on SP, haven't give up on myself. One of the reasons is that I know once I stop, I will go back to the way things were; mindless eating, less exercise, no accountability to anyone.
So I have learned that I'm not perfect, but I can get over my mistakes. I'm not as strong as I once was, but I can continue to work on getting stronger than I am. I tend to need to learn the same lessons over and over, but at least I'm still learning. And I will endure.
As the saying goes: never give up, never surrender.
Thursday, July 31, 2014
Hello, my name is Rebecca and I am a sugar addict...
Went to have my nails done at my friend's house and she offered cookies and zucchini bread, one of my faves. Our roomie brought home little pies and cookies from work. There is chocolate left over from the long trip to Maine. Ice cream in the fridge...
But today I was strong; today I found things to do when I started to think of sugar; today was better than yesterday. And in reality, that is all I can ask for.
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