Spark Coach asked me to blog on my favorite saying or quote that inspires me every time. Can't say that I really have one, but the title of my blog is a humorous quote from Larry the Cable Guy (I believe) that epitomizes the way I feel sometimes - I'm exhausted or I'm stressed out or it doesn't seem like there's enough time in the day to fit everything in, but you just have to "git 'r dun".
Calorie count too high today (and yesterday!) - didn't even track on the weekend - but I'm moving forward, I hope.
Done more walking in the last week than I have in months - keep telling myself it's progress, but I get depressed when I think of the massive amounts of exercise I've done in the past without really blinking an eye. Now I get out of breath bending over to put my socks and shoes on so I can get out and walk (big belly forces air out of lungs when bending, y'know).
Felt embarrassed when I went to eat with my wonderful hubby on Sunday - almost couldn't get out of the booth - wanted to sink down into the floor so nobody could see me - my hubby tells me I worry too much what other people think and he's right - but how do I turn that part of my brain off? I know he loves me just as I am and I so want that to be enough, but shame still floods over me sometimes.
It's hard to get past the fact that I lost so much weight, then let it all creep back on and then some. Makes me feel like such a failure and makes it hard to rejoice in the baby steps back to health.
I'm not really sure what the point of this blog is - guess I just need to say some of these things out loud, as it were. Maybe there are others who are feeling somewhat like I am and need to know that they're not alone.
but the day is getting better. A wonderful co-worker brought in goodies for the office this morning, which included 2 fruit trays. I had yummy honeydew melon with breakfast and lunch. I also had a little pack of bite-size chocolate chips muffins, so I wasn't totally good, but such is life.
Have you ever noticed that the honeydew melon tends to hang around the longest when there's a fruit tray? Strawberries and watermelon disappear in a hurry and pineapple goes quickly also, but the humble honeydew gets left behind. That's fine by me, cause I love the stuff, especially when it's sweet and juicy like the batch today.