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Wednesday, November 20, 2013

I have had a major setback in the last few of months. Between the stress of this new job and the changes being made within the company I am about to explode. I usually counteract stress with exercise, but not lately. I have to walk so much on my new job (plus climbing steps and ladders) that I have hurt my left knee and cannot get it to feeling better no matter how much Advil, ice, heat, or rest will make it feel better. I need to lose weight to make my knee feel better, but I need to exercise to lose the weight and my knee will not let me do much.

Today I decided I have had enough! I am tired of hobbling around and tired of sitting on my butt! I found some stretching exercises especially to strengthen knees. I can still ride my bike without pain, but the weather has turn rather cold. I wish there was a pool nearby where I could exercise.

Tomorrow I will start with the stretches and see how my knee reacts. If isn't too cold, I will take a short bike ride to the park. I am also getting an appointment with an orthopedic doctor to make sure there is nothing else going on.

I will let you know how it all works out.

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NMEE07 1/2/2014 5:41PM

  Hope all your knee and stress issues are resolved - or at least moving in the right direction.

Re the stress - I don't know if you have ever heard of , or taken, 5-HTP - but if not you should look into it. I have found it helps -especially when I have too much to deal with and it adversely affects my mood and sleep etc. .... What I like about it is (1) it really helps, (2) there are no side effects, no prescriptions etc - personally I am not comfortable with happy pills (i.e. prescription meds) though I know people who swear by them. But this stuff is great I don't take it all the time - very rarely in fact, and I may take it for anywhere from a couple of days to a couple of weeks depending on how long I need help with stress/mood.

Anyway - Stay strong and keep on moving forward... emoticon

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CATLADY52 11/20/2013 12:29PM

    Hoping it is nothing serious with the knee. I know that it can be. 8-)

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ELAINESHAFF 11/20/2013 7:57AM

    emoticon Glad to see you back posting.

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Monday, July 15, 2013

I am trying to recover from my family's visit this past week. I love my children and my grandchildren. I was so looking forward to their visit, but to my surprise, I was equally as glad to see them head back home yesterday.
I have been trying to understand my feelings. Part of it is having lived by myself for the past 3 years. I have gotten used to the solitude and I rather like it. I can't deal with all the chaos that is my children's lives as well as I once did.
I love my grandchildren, but I just don't have the energy that I had 10 years ago when my little redhead was born. I have been so whipped since they left, I didn't even want to ride my bike.
I think the biggest reason I was happy to see them leave is that they were invading my "Ohio" world. It is okay to go home to VA and see them. That is their space now and I am just visiting, but up here they were taking over the new space I have made for myself...apart from them.
I was quite surprised at my feelings. I didn't realize how much I have changed in the past 3 much I have separated myself from my former life, former friends, former "issues".
I will have to do a little more soul searching to get to the whole truth of the matter, but I think I have made a big step in my recovery from the drug that was my children's lives...their addictions...their love lives...their not "launching"...everything. Also finally getting through the fog of my husband's has been 10 long years, but I think I am finally ready to breath again.

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ELAINESHAFF 7/15/2013 11:20PM

    I feel the same way when my son visits. I love the kid, but I am glad when he goes home.

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HAPPYMENOW58 7/15/2013 4:54PM

    Well put! I think everyone needs a little peace and quiet!

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KATIBUG49 7/15/2013 4:20PM

    It's hard to admit , we love our children but we also love our peace & quiet that our lives gives us as we get older. I'm about to leave to go see my mom & I'm taking my 6 year grandchild with me & she is worried about the noise. I told her everything will be ok, she is really good & we will have lots for her to entertain herself with but I know how she feels. we still love our children but we also have grown to love our lives as they are, it's ok!

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Saturday, July 06, 2013

Sitting here on my patio on a warm summer night, listening to my neighbor's radio playing good old down home bluegrass music....makes me a little homesick for the mountains of VA. I'm just an country girl at matter where I might be living.

So glad to be off for the next nine days! I am muddling through okay on this new job, but the atmosphere there is so depressing. It is hard to be working for the power industry in a coal-fired power plant these days. I think I know how the dinosaurs felt before they became extinct. I know that the world has to change...I just hope it all holds together for the next five years and I can retire and leave it all behind.

On to good thoughts. My kids and grandkids will be here tomorrow night. They will be staying until next Sunday. We don't plan to do a lot except swimming at the local water park and visiting my cousins in Canton, but I am going to enjoy having this apartment full of giggling little girls...and getting lots of Grammy kisses and hugs. My son will have his 29th birthday while they are here, so we will go out and celebrate all together for a change.

For all the trouble they have been in, all the heartache they have caused me, and all the aggravation they have given me...I love my kids to the moon and back....and I love my grandbabies even more.

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PEZCATHY 7/8/2013 10:29AM

    Totally there with you! My children sometimes are hard to take even though I love them. I KNOW they think I am hard to take all of the time. And my grandchildren are indescribably delicious! I would love to visit them more, but I have to fly and get a hotel room because they don't have room for me, so I don't go as often as I want to. Even though your job is difficult, it does give you contact with people, keeps you out of the house and away from the kitchen temptations, and INSURANCE! Have fun with them, enjoy them, love them, make lots of wonderful Grandma memories :D

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CATLADY52 7/7/2013 2:17PM

    That makes it all worth while, doesn't it? emoticon

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Monday, July 01, 2013

Well there is some great news, some good news and some bad news to report from this week.

The great news is that I stayed on my eating plan all week with just one day of a little treat. I really am not sure where I was at the start of this (didn't want to see the scales). I know where I was awhile back and I am down 6 lbs. from there. I won't be celebrating until I see that number go back under 200....2 lbs. to go.

On the good news front, I worked off on a three-day break this morning. Three days that I don't have to think about what is broken, how to work around what is broke, and who to put where to work without pissing anyone off.

Other good news is this time next week my family will be here to visit. This is kind of a good/bad thing really. I will love to see them and let them see my new place here, but I will have to pay for the gas, the food, and any fun we do while they are here.

The bad news is that I am so stressed from some recent events back home that I am ready to scream. It just seems the more things change, the more they stay the same. =
Other bad news is the rain. It has rained and rained, and rained some more. It is hard to get motivated to get out on my bike when I get wet every time. I still get between 4 to 5 miles on average walking at work, but I miss my bike time.

One day at a time, one foot in front of the other...soon I will be miles down the road....sure hope it isn't all uphill.

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Thursday, June 27, 2013

Another crazy day at work today. Every day I survive at this new job is one day closer to retirement. That is the only way I can get through the next 5 day at a time. I am trying so hard to change my mindset about it. I know that I need to just embrace it and go with the flow, but it is so hard some days.
On a good note, I have a secret fairy that has put new hubcaps on my car. It had to be one of the guys at work, but I am not sure who it is ( I have an idea though). It actually makes me cry to know that someone here thinks that well of me.
I came here as a stranger to everyone...a stranger that took one of the jobs that they may have been promoted to. I had one of the guys I supervise on my new job tell me yesterday that he was worried about getting a boss he knew nothing about. He said he was told by one of the people I had supervised in my first job here that I was a very genuine person. That made me smile. That is the highest complement I could ever receive. I strive to be just B.S.
I was also glad to learn that the one employee that I thought just didn't like to work for me was like that with the old boss too. I think I might have found the reason for his sullen behavior and may even have a remedy for it. He is going to be my "work in progress".

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IMAVISION 6/28/2013 2:11AM

    Your attitude seems thoughtful & considerate & this gal believes that you will weather the next fire years very well.

God bless!

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