Thursday, August 07, 2014
I took some time away to get myself pulled together. I gave myself a break to pull myself together, get through the worst of my grief, spend time with my sweet niece, and just breath for a while. Yes, I gained more weight. I ate out a lot. I got a lot of emotional stuff out of my system. My clothes have gotten tight. My cholesterol is up. I hadn't been exercising. I have to say now I am ready to begin again. I feel much better emotionally. I feel like working on myself again. I am going to begin with baby steps again. That was how I started before. I want to start little and build on each day. I don't want to overwhelm myself. That was the problem I was going through after my sister died. Everything overwhelmed me. I didn't let myself just go emotionally and let it all out. I stuffed my mouth with food instead.
I plan on changing the things I can and pray about the things that can't be changed. I went for a 30 minute walk with my hubbie and dog, today. It was really hard on my legs, hips and back. I will start to do my therapy exercises again to strengthen my legs, hips, and back. I want to ease my way back to healthy eating and use my nutritional tracker. I did use it today. I didn't eat as healthy as I could have. I tracked after eating. I need to plan my tracker the night before, as I did before. I will know exactly what I am eating throughout the day. I have been drinking my water. I was drinking soda again. So bad for me. Hubbie has gained quite a bit of weight too and is out of shape as well. So we are going to pull our resources together and support each other. Hubbies AC1 was up last checkup. He doesn't want to give up the sweets and carbs. If I plan our meals he will be alright with it. He was before.
As for my little niece. She had a blast staying with us. She didn't want to go home. We really miss that little chatterbox. She turned 14. We celebrated her birthday with her a week early, before taking her home. She is my sister's granddaughter. My niece and I needed this healing time with each other. She is coming back next summer. We can't wait.
Sorry I was away for so long. I was struggling so bad and needed the time. I look forward to talking with everyone again.