Monday, December 09, 2013
So I won a contest and got a $200 Apple Gift Card and decided to get an iPad Mini. I obviously got the SparkPeople App, but any fun apps, games or otherwise I should check out?
Not much going on life wise. Work continues to be stressful. My assistant's contract ends December 31, and the plan was to have a new job posting listed in December so we'd have someone hired and ready to work by January 6, but that position hasn't even been posted. So I feel a bit on the edge of the brink, and am worried about when I come back from break and no longer have help and will have to do all my work alone. Plus, I'm not sure when the position will be posted so that could mean months without an assistant. I think I'll manage, but I'm already stressed so I'm just hoping it will all work out.
Last week wasn't a great week for me workout wise, but I stayed relatively on track with food and managed to lose 1.6 of the pounds I gained over Thanksgiving. I'm in a bit of a funk. I think it's a combination of the cold weather as well as JD being gone, that I just don't feel like doing anything. I know I should, but he's such a good motivator and when he's home in Dayton, I'd rather just catch up on my laundry, and sleep. Maybe the seasons affect me too.
Who knows. At least I'm still headed in the right direction. I had hopes of hitting 170 by New Year's but that is a bit of a stretch now, so let's just focus on feeling good and destressing. Maybe I'll try some YouTube Yoga videos.
Love you Sparkfriends!
Tuesday, December 03, 2013
Two years with Sparkpeople.
To think I started this journey two years ago, with very little faith in what I was capable of, only to be where I'm at now is just overwhelming.
If I've learned anything through this process, it is that progress, no matter how slow, is still progress. Yes, I lost 90 pounds my first year with SparkPeople and only 10 new pounds in my second year. But the point is that I didn't give up or go back to my old ways.
In my first year, I developed eating and exercise habits that I think I'll keep with me the rest of my life.
As I start my third year on this weight loss journey, I still have about 30 pounds I'd like to lose, and seeing how my second year went, I know that I will need to stay more focused and continue to track my food. I think the wedding next November will be a huge motivator to stay on track, but also, I realize I could already be at goal if I had stuck closer to my plan in my second year.
But life happens. My grandma died last December, I was stressed out with Graduation, I started a new job.
And I don't look at these as excuses. Just things that took my focus off my health momentarily, so that I stayed in a 10-20 pound range from 180-200 for almost an entire year.
But that also let's me know that I can be successful at maintenance. Because during that time, I wasn't really tracking much, just was more aware of my eating habits than I had been in the past because of the knowledge that SparkPeople has provided me.
I guess what this rambling blog is getting at is, two years down, and many more to go. I think that SparkPeople will always be a part of my life, because it has helped me become the person I always knew I could be.
So here's to year 3!
Friday, November 29, 2013
I thought about writing this blog on Monday night, but I wanted to wait until I had the time to sit down and really think about what I was saying before I did. You see, Monday, I planned on skipping the gym because I couldn't find my tennis shoes or gym bag. But when JD texted me that afternoon asking me if I was working out, and I told him that, he searched our house, found my shoes and bag, packed me work out clothes and met me at the gym after work. And even writing that now it makes me emotional. So I wanted to write this letter to J.D. but also share it with you, because I think it's important that you all know what an amazing support system I have.
Thank you for loving me at my largest.
By loving me at my largest, you loved me when I didn't love myself. I know that my insecurities and my lack of self-esteem led to problems. I was so jealous, and so scared that you would fall out of love with me, due to the way I looked. I was so frightened that eventually, you would realize you were out of my league and just leave. But you never did. You stayed with me through many unsuccessful diets.
You always tried to help in any way that you could whether that was gently asking if I really wanted that extra helping, or inviting me to work out with you, you tried very hard to help me,long before I was willing to accept the help. But you never gave up on me, even when I gave up on myself. And for that I can't thank you enough
When I finally found SparkPeople, and got into a groove, you couldn't help but tell me how proud you were. You were constantly commenting on my weight loss and mentioning how light I was every time you picked me up.
And you weren't just picking me up literally, though you do enjoy that.
You pick me up from my lowest of lows. When I've had a bad day eating, or a day when I don't want to go to the gym, you pick me up and make me better. You make me a better person. You've been along for 6 and a half years of this roller coaster and I feel so lucky to have found you so early in life.
You've shared in so many of my triumphs. You proposed the weekend of my half-marathon, and yesterday, you ran your first 5-mile Turkey Trot with me and your mom and sisters.
On a day where we reflect on what we're thankful for, I'm thankful for so much. I'm thankful for my wonderful family. I'm thankful for SparkPeople and finally gaining control of my life and becoming a healthier happier person.
And I am so incredibly happy to have you in my life J.D.
You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. And I'm so glad I get to spend the rest of my life with you.
Thank you for your love and support, J.D. You're stuck with me forever.
Monday, November 25, 2013
This weekend, I went shopping for some new work clothes because my size 14 and size 12 dress pants have gotten a little baggy and saggy.
Well, I'm still a bit of a negative Nancy because when I take things off the rack, I almost always preface it with "I doubt these will fit."
Well, I ended up with 4 pairs of size 10 pants. TEN! I'm almost into single digit clothes!
And I bought a large shirt that doesn't buckle at the bust line, which is crazy!
Sorry for the bathroom pic. I was in a rush to get to work this morning, otherwise I would have taken the pic at home.
I gained one pound over the weekend, but it was my dad's birthday, and we ate out and had cake and ice cream. And it was funny because the next morning, I almost felt hungover. My body isn't used to eating crappy food anymore and I spent the majority of the weekend trying to recover. It just goes to show that this is truly a lifestyle change because even my body is rejecting high-sugar, high fat, unnecessary food.
I think Thanksgiving will be much easier because turkey, green beans, potatoes, salad, and all that jazz is all okay for me to have. And one slice of pie won't kill me either, especially after the 5-mile Turkey Trot that morning.
I hope you all had a great weekend!
Thursday, November 21, 2013
When I stepped on the scale and saw 174.8, I became overwhelmed.
I honestly stepped off the scale, sat on the ground and felt tears fill my eyes. 100 pounds.
It seems so unreal to me that I started this journey this large and this unhappy a little less than 2 years ago.
When I joined SparkPeople, I was searching for people who knew what I was going through and I found a community of friends that have kept me accountable and given me the support I needed to succeed on this journey.
When I wanted to pig out, I thought about having to admit it to all my SparkFriends. When I wanted to skip a workout, I thought about all of my SparkFriends who weren't skipping their workouts. As much as you say I inspire you, you all have been my inspiration.
Here I am today.
But just so people know that I'm not perfect I wanted to show you what 100 pounds of excess fat does to your body, even at a young age, just in case you're only 10 pounds or 20 pounds overweight and need a reason not to let it go any farther. Here is the apron of extra skin I now have as a reminder of the old me.
I show you these so because I think honesty is the best policy. I'll probably wear Spanx the rest of my life. And I'm 24. And I'm just gonna have to be okay with that.
Whether you are doing this because you want to maintain your health, drop 10 pounds or drop 200, I don't think it is possible to do it alone. I couldn't have done it alone. I couldn't have done it without all of you. Every day that I logged on to more comments of support and encouragement was another day that I stayed on track.
Another thing I've learned is you've got to start now. Not next week, or next month. Today. This moment. This meal. If you have a bad lunch, make a good dinner. Don't allow yourself to continuously slip up you feel like your out of control. It is a hard hole to climb back out of. Not impossible, but very difficult.
Finally, you are worth it. You were meant to be happy and healthy and deserve to be able to enjoy life. You are capable of doing so and have the will power inside. It may take many attempts. I have been on many diets in my life, probably 8 or 9 since 6th grade. But I never dedicated my mind to any of them. Never did I ever really tell myself I was worth the effort to truly try and succeed until SparkPeople.
I did this. You can do this. I promise you that you can.
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