Tuesday, November 04, 2014
As I sit here thinking about how "not wanting to look fat in a wedding dress" was a driving force in the beginning of my journey, even though I'm not at my "goal" wedding weight of 149, I'm still so much happier and healthier than when I began this journey nearly 3 years ago.
Since I joined SparkPeople, five official 5ks with countless others in my neighborhood or on the treadmill, two 5-mile Turkey Trots, and one half-marathon. Considering, I was the girl who played goalie on my soccer team to get out of running, I consider these races to be huge accomplishments.
I've also become much better at tracking my food and being more aware of the food I'm eating. I generally make healthier choices rather than binge eating junk food. I've learned about moderation, and plateaus and whole food diets.
I've maintained a 90 pound weight loss for 2 years and there's something to be said for that. I've hit my bumps in the road, but as I said in a previous blog, this year I've been bouncing around in the 170-180 range, whereas I was bouncing around in the 180-190 range last year. So hopefully I can continue to gradually make changes and eventually reach a goal weight that I'm truly happy with.
I read somewhere that people have more success keeping weight off when they lost it with a normal diet and exercise, rather than restricting calories down to 1200. It said something to the effect of, if you're losing weight at 1200, the moment you start eating 1300 you could see a gain.
And I think that's where my mindset has changed. I worked extremely hard that first year to lose those 90 pounds, rarely ever outside my 1200-1500 calorie range and working out regularly. But when I got into the 180s, when I tried on my first pair of single digit pants, and when I ran my first sub-30 minute 5k, I just stopped focusing so much on losing weight. Because yes it would be wonderful to have a "healthy" BMI, though we all know that's not the best judge of health. And yes, a lower body fat percentage would be great. And knowing I haven't been in the 150s since I was in 7th grade, it would be awesome to be there again.
But I am enjoying life too much to place the same restrictions on myself that I did when I started this program. At 275, I needed those restrictions and strict exercise regimen. I needed my life back. But now that I have it back, I'm happy.
And I'm getting married in 11 days.
And our cake is going to be delicious.