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Friday, November 21, 2014

Need a moment to rant…

This week has sucked, from a health standpoint. Between that crazy doctor and my non-results results and more.

I also kicked in the gluten free stuff this week and already hit a few walls. We play trivia on Wednesday nights at a brewery. They don’t serve food, so usually there is a food truck and the food truck this week just so happened to be a WAFFLE truck. I ended up getting a baked potato and side salad from Wendys near the brewery, which was not enough or with any protein. They also did not have any gluten free beers or ciders, so I watched my whole team eat waffles and drink beer and THAT feeling sucks. But I survived.

Then last night I went to girls night, which I was super excited about! Every place had free cookies and sweets out, which didn’t bother me because I actually don’t really care for sweets. We went to a Mexican place for dinner and I was thrilled to see that they could make the $5 quesadilla special with gluten free tortillas. Our waiter was such a jerk and when I asked for the gluten free option, he gave me a weird face and said “I guess” and then when he brought the food out he made some comment like “I sprinkled some gluten in there for you.”

Okay. Maybe he thinks he’s funny. He certainly didn’t look happy or like he was laughing, so maybe he was having a bad day and taking it out on others. I responded to him with “Yeah, those darn doctors telling me how to make myself feel better!” and he just walked off. WHAT IS WITH PEOPLE?!?!?! First this doctor calling me fat & crazy this week, then this guy knocking on me for gluten free?

Then last night when we were walking around I had a crazy neck spasm. I wasn’t even carrying that much stuff so I’m not sure how it got so stressed. I came home and just wanted to go to bed so badly, which wasn’t what my bf had in mind and I felt soooo bad having to be like “I hurt and want to sleep.” Then I woke up in the middle of the night last night with my left calf and foot in complete spasm. It was one of the worst charley horses I have ever had. I had all my water yesterday, so I know I wasn’t dehydrated. I guess I shouldn’t expect being gluten free for 4 days to reduce inflammation that much, but I also know my spinal structure can cause this as well. I think all signs point to me needing to go back to PT again. I’m thinking I need to find a new doc because I think the best way for me to fit it in will be to do it on my lunch breaks. It will ensure I start taking my lunch breaks again, and will let me get home in time for the pup at night. So I’m on the hunt again!

Anyways, I’m so glad it is Friday because I just want to sit at home with my Beatrice dog and not have to deal with crazy people for a few minutes. That being said, I have my family’s Thanksgiving tomorrow so it feels like the holiday season is really starting to kick in, so I know these “downtime” moments are going to be precious! Don’t forget to take time for yourselves!! I’m trying to keep that in mind and hopefully keep the crazy at bay. TGIF!!!!!

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SONICB 11/23/2014 7:30PM

    Oh gosh, I HATE charley horses. They're usually a sign that I'm not drinking enough water and/or not taking in enough potassium. :( Hugs!!!

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PHEBESS 11/21/2014 11:30PM

    People can be major jerks, so just write that dr and the waiter off.

Re the leg cramps - I found that if I untuck the covers at the end of the bed, I don't get leg cramps in the middle of the night. I tend to sleep on my back (pillows under my knees) and the tucked in covers pulled my feet down and caused cramps. Simple solution, made a huge difference.

Does ice help your neck feel better? Or heat? Try both and see which feels better, and give that info to your dr or PT person. (Ice reduces inflammation, heat relaxes muscles - so whichever feels better should be a clue as to what's going on inside.)

Hope you feel better!!!

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CHODGES83 11/21/2014 12:41PM

    So are you being treated for fibromyalgia? Your symptoms sound a lot like that especially the foggy feeling in combination with muscle spasms. I believe the treatments are pretty similar to what you do now, with some "non indication" medication and pretty strong focus on lifestyle. DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT HAVE A MEDICAL DEGREE OF ANY KIND AND MY THOUGHTS AND OPINOINS TO DO NOT REFLECT THOSE OF MY EMPLOYER.
Whatever it is, I hope you find something to help you feel better.

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BRAINYBLONDE5 11/21/2014 10:15AM

  my goodness girl. I am so sorry you are going thru this, but I am here for you! try keeping gluten free snacks in your purse. almonds, nuts, gluten free bars that Elizabeth Hasselbeck has are good too!! this was if something pops up, you have something handy at hand! as for the waiter, he is just ignorant. I want to trip him while he is carrying something hot so he spills it on himself. so rude!!!

KEEP YOUR HEAD UP! & try biofreeze for spasms. it helped me a lot!

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Results & Doctors

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

I am still trying to process yesterday but not in the way that I thought it would be.

My primary doc recommended me to see a “lady doc” specialist, but all she said was that all of the docs at this women’s practice were good. So when I called, they suggested this one doc and I agreed. They know best right?

This woman should come with a warning.

I have never had an experience like this in my life. She quoted poetry, maybe something in German, made one comment that was so off color I can’t repeat it here but included some strong opinions and words relating to the male anatomy. She pretty much said I was crazy because nothing showed up on my scan so why was I there BUT declined to actually “take a look inside” for herself, which now that I think about it makes no sense? And then she said: “You have three options, well really two. One we could cut you open and look inside. Two you can try this medication approach. And the third I wouldn’t recommend for you because you’re already carrying some extra pounds.”

Yes. That is what she said. And not nicely, or joking. As in “You’re fat, so we won’t let you have this third option.”

I get it, she’s one of those straight talking people. She’s a doctor. Maybe she just has become desensitized to this. But as I noted to my BF last night, what if I was a recovering bulimic or something and that is how she identified me so bluntly? It was really harsh. I left there not knowing whether to laugh or cry. I am glad my scan seemed “normal” but I also want to know why I get so much pain and all. I got no answers, instead I think I got attacked? It was very strange and completely opposite of what I was hoping would happen.

Then I left and came back to work, and my other doc called. All of my blood tests were okay. No lymes, no crazy inflammatory markers, nothing super off with my thyroid. They did note my cholesterol is slightly high. Really?!

I had a pretty strong meltdown last night. My poor boyfriend, I mean it was a big full blown meltdown. I pretty much got called fat, my cholesterol is high which is why I joined Spark years ago so it feels like nothing has gotten better, and I still FEEL BAD. I know my neck and back hurt because I haven’t been going to PT, but it doesn’t answer why I’m SO DANG TIRED all of the time or why my muscles ache or why I get so foggy some days (like yesterday when they called!) that I can’t even look people in the face. I got no answers whatsoever. I don’t want to give up, but it gets exhausting and expensive just trying to find some way to feel better.

I suppose I should be glad because I could always have had a really bad diagnosis like cancer or worse, but I still would have appreciated SOMETHING to improve upon considering how I feel.

I am giving the gluten reduced diet a try. So far this week I’ve been pretty good. I had a mini oops on Sunday night when my bf tossed a pretzel in my mouth hibatchi style, but it was only one bite. I made two killer new gluten free recipes! I may let myself have a beer tonight. We play trivia at a brewery… kind of hard to ignore that! I’m really hoping something positive comes out of this because I’m starting to feel a little desperate.

So there is my complaint for the day. Not much good news to report, I’m afraid. So here is a picture of my dog:

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SONICB 11/20/2014 5:55PM

    ... I probably would have responded to the doctor, "At least I don't have a sh*t personality." But seriously, a good doctor for YOU would be one whose personality works with yours. I would ask for a second opinion, if possible.

And then pan her on doctor review sites.

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SUMMER2203 11/20/2014 11:51AM

    oh my god that is awful. dump that woman immediately!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is SO important to feel comfortable with a doctor - and she sounds like the worst! in other news, i hope that you are able to find some relief for your symptoms! if nothing else, the gluten-free diet is sure to help with the weight loss!!!

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THELILEA 11/20/2014 11:39AM

    Arrrg, that sounds like the HEIGHT of frustrating. NEW LADY DOCTOR is needed, STAT!! I have had a similar horror type story, the nurse practitioner at my lady dr.... It's so disturbing, and yours sounds so much worse. I'm sorry she minimized your concerns and really didn't help you. OH, and lets not forget the INSULTING you part. WTF!!!
GRRRR, I'm mad for you!
I hope you will move on to a new one, seriously, immediately, and let us know how THAT goes, because, silver lining, it can ONLY be better!!

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BRAINYBLONDE5 11/20/2014 10:30AM

  emoticon I can totally relate to doctors and negative results...its disheartening but DO NOT GIVE UP. I am going to a homeopathic natural doctor who believes in symptoms not numbers which is helping. Maybe you should try a new doc for a second opinion? I still think thyroid is so misunderstood. When someone is medicated, their goal is a tsh of around 1 but 2.5 isnt hypothyroid...THAT MAKES NO SENSE. keep fighting for your health girl!

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PHEBESS 11/20/2014 10:17AM

    Ugh, I can't stand doctors like that. I've actually called a group and requested an appointment but NOT with Dr A who I thought was a total schmuck.

Have you tried fish oil capsules? Well, more like gel caps. Both my dr and my chiropractor recommended taking 1000 mg a day (in the evening, before bed) for both high cholesterol and for arthritis. Might be worth a try. Only side effect is that it can somewhat thin your blood, so tell a dr before surgery if you start taking it. But for me, it's the only way my hips don't kill me with all the walking we do.

Hope that helps!

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CHEMCHIC2006 11/19/2014 7:34PM

    Hmm.. I would seek a second opinion. Sorry this is so frustrating to you.. Don't give up hope in finding an answer. It IS really hard going place to place to get answers.. But at the end of the day you have to live with it.

I am the first person to roll my eyes when I hear people doing the gluten free thing in the name of health.. But what you are describing sounds a lot like what other people have said in terms of symptoms of a sensitivity. I would say really give that a chance.. It may help, but if it doesn't, least you'll have ruled that out. (PS- I am not a medical professional.. Simply stating my observations on the subject)

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IAMZBEE 11/19/2014 5:11PM

    So sorry that doctor was so mean! No matter what, you are coming to her for a service... and you can easily go to another doctor for similar services. She needs to treat you like a customer AND a patient. HMPH! Made me mad even reading about it... emoticon

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No Blame Game

Thursday, November 13, 2014

As I mentioned in my status, I finally went and got all of the doctors orders tests done.

I’m a gigantic baby and have been dragging my feet on the blood work. My doc prescribed me meds to help but I was having trouble even committing to a date. I have to fast and be driven there if I take the meds, so I would have had to make plans with my bf for a ride. Anyways, yesterday I went to the imaging place to see my insides and what was this? A blood place was in the lobby. And I had fasted and super hydrated. The conditions were perfect. I forced myself back in the building and got my blood done - no tears, no cussing, no passing out. I did it! It wasn’t so bad in hindsight. And now I just get to wait for all of the results to roll in. I have another doctor’s appointment next Tuesday so I’m hoping for more answers at that time. Good thing I won some money in vegas, because medical stuff ain’t cheap and I need brakes on my car too! Adulthood, awesome.

Nobody ever really wants a diagnosis of anything besides health, but I am hoping these tests have some answers for me as to why I’ve been feeling so achy and out of sorts. I plan on doing a big grocery shop this weekend to get my gluten free in gear. I NEED to feel better. My neck is acting up again so I may need to consider bleeding cash for PT once more… sigh. Why is health SO expensive?!

If the money wasn’t making me feel a sort of ways enough, my mom toss one on me yesterday that she feels bad that my sister and I have these health issues. She feels like she gave them to us. Maybe that is genetically true, maybe not? Maybe it is my dad? Either way, she kept saying how bad she felt. My sister uses these health issues as an excuse not to work. I don’t do that, but my mom allows that to make her feel bad too – that my sister is doing nothing because of the health issues she gave her? I guess? I refuse to sit here and play the blame game. Does my health give me more challenges than other people? Yes. But not as bad as it could be. Does my broken thyroid make losing weight hard? Yup, but again – not impossible. Do I struggle with eating and exercise habits because of the way I was raised? Sure, but I can change that if I really want to.

My life is up to me. I can work at it and make it what I want, but I don’t see value in blaming anyone for my condition. Some answers would be helpful in directing me in the next steps, but I know the basics – eat better, get more action, treat myself more gently. Making excuses will get me nowhere and I know it won’t be good to stay here! That is just my thought to get out for today… Thanks!

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CHODGES83 11/15/2014 3:30PM

    Hope you get some answers. You're always so positive, keep it up!

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KAMINEKO 11/14/2014 1:24PM

    Thanks for spreading that positive sunshine. I've missed that !

Agree completely on your sentiments about health care. It's ridiculous, right? Hope you don't have to hemorrhage too much.

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PHEBESS 11/13/2014 10:44PM

    All we can do is work with what we've got - and who knows where our health issues come from. We just learn to live with it and work around it, right?

Hang in there, keep doing the best you can, and yeah, don't give up and don't blame is the way to go!

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CHEMCHIC2006 11/13/2014 6:35PM

    Go you! A lot of fear in bloodwork is the anticipation. Love your attitude too.. Your life is what you make of it.. Giving up is not an answer! Hoping the best for your test results!

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GEORGE815 11/13/2014 4:40PM

    You are what you eat!

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Viva Las Vegas!

Monday, November 10, 2014

I know they say what happens in vegas is supposed to stay in vegas, but I had such a great trip that I want to share it!

My boyfriend’s vendor was holding a conference in Vegas and paid for our sweet suite at the Venetian, two nice dinners, and to see the Beatles LOVE. I basically got to tag along for the price of my airfare and it was awesome. Thursday was such a nice day that I almost cried from happiness. Our air travel was painless (seriously… that NEVER happens!), we got a margarita for lunch, got to look at super old collectible books (Raina – you know how awesome this is right?!), did some shopping, won about $600. The weather was in the 80s and sunny the entire time, so I got to get in a pool/hottub outside, walk around in a sundress and shorts, and soak in some sun. Speaking of walking – I broke fitbit records this weekend. We walked MILES and MILES. So I only feel mildly bad about my food choices – nachos, a burger from In and Out (I have never been before!) and our two fancy dinners. I actually didn’t drink too much but definitely saw people who had lol. And I thought LOVE was freaking amazing and the fountains at the Bellagio were incredible. The people watching was priceless and I adored being in the desert. Amazingly, I even got to relax a bit (work didn’t contact me once – miracle!) and I got some good sleep. We had such a great trip. I really needed it!
Some pix…

Us outside of our resort. Sunny and warm!

My outfit for Beatle’s LOVE. I bought this Lilly dress because it has my name (Stefani – nobody spells it like that but Lilly!) and it was PERFECT for the show!

The In and Out burger. Pretty good. Terrible fries.

The plane ride home had an amazing sunset. The world is a beautiful place! We forget that sometimes!

And of course – a Pupdate. Miss Bea is 15 weeks old tomorrow. The potty training is getting a bit better and she’s sleeping much more during the night. She’s definitely growing and losing her baby face but I love her so much! She was our little pumpkin for Halloween too tehe.

Now that I’m back from Vegas, I need to hunker down on my health. I have some tests to schedule and I need to kick the reduced gluten plan into high gear. I’m going to try walking at lunch more than I have been recently, it seems (knock on wood) that we may have a lull in the crazy here for a bit, but I know I need to stand my ground more and make sure I get away from my desk. I’m even reconsidering buying that bike pedal thing for my desk – I’m serious! Pedaling during the day should count for something, right?! If you have any good gluten free recipes, please share! I need to work on feeling better. I am trying not to focus on the number on the scale as much as how I feel – and right now I know I deserve to feel better. So that is what I want to work for! Here we go again….

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SUMMER2203 11/13/2014 8:07AM

    aw i can feel your happiness coming through this blog! i love it! also that dress looks amazing on you!!!

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KAMINEKO 11/12/2014 3:45PM

    Wow, this sounds fantastic! You looked great for the show! And dawwwwwww.....your puppy is adorable!

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CHODGES83 11/11/2014 11:54AM

    So glad you had a wonderful trip!

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PHEBESS 11/10/2014 11:38PM

    Sometimes those short holidays are more fun because you cram in everything in a few days - glad it was great!

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CHEMCHIC2006 11/10/2014 9:07PM

    Looks and sounds like an awesome trip! And the puppy is absolutely adorable! Glad she's adjusting better!

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DANIELLESAUTUMN 11/10/2014 12:34PM

    OMG VEGASSS!! Sounds amazing- and how awesome to get a free ride- thanks BF's work! I am jonesing SO SO hard for a vegas trip. But wont make it for another several years because of wedding and house buying and bring adult things. So happy you got to have a good time! Weather sounds aweomse! I went in mid December once and it was just a TAD too chilly for what i would want Vegas to be.

You can get yourself back on track no problem! Keep in mind the holidays coming up and what terrible things they make you ingest lol. Gluten free sounds like such a PAIN. Sorry you have to deal with that.

Glad to have you back- Bea looks like the cutest little lady!

Oh and totally get the bike thing- and let me know what it is and how well it works lol.

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IAMZBEE 11/10/2014 12:17PM

    WOW! Sounds like a marvelous time. Glad you had such a fantastic vacation. You definitely deserved it. =)

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"Pupdate" and Other Stuff

Monday, October 27, 2014

Long time no blog!

Been very busy at work. Worked a Saturday and through lunch most days. Lots of stress there.

I've also been feeling pretty lousy, health wise. I finally went to the doc today and have a whole battery of tests coming up. Checking my inflammatory markers, thyroid, and for things like lymes. It is pretty evident my thyroid has slipped again which makes me kind of sad. I wish I could make it better but it doesn't work that way. The doctor recommended I go gluten free again soooo gotta get that ball rolling once more. Shooting for the 80/20 rule of course so I don't go insane.

Miss Beatrice is already getting so big! She's about 5 lbs now versus the 3.6 when we brought her home. We got her a harness and have taken her on some very good walks. She loves the leaves and being outside. She's also a crazy lovebug snuggler, in fact so much we may have created a snuggle monster because she always wants to be near you. Potty training is every so slightly better but still frustrating. I'm still going outside in the middle of the night, only now its like 430 am instead of 2. Good thing she's so darn cute! So let's get down to it there...

My old boss gave her this crabby toy, we're working on teaching her sit:

Miss Bea working on her head tilt:

Bea not loving the rain:

Bea really loving the leaves:

Bea going to lunch with us and getting lots of attention:

Hope you're not all melted from the cuteness haha. My life has definitely changed since adding her to our family but she's so darn cute who cares?!

Gearing up for a trip to Vegas next week and hopefully some fun and non-work in our lives will do us some good. Maybe I should start the gluten free thing after next week? Hah. Hope you all are well!

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CHODGES83 10/28/2014 1:31PM

    That pup is just the cutest! I may need to bookmark this for a pick me up at work. Her head tilt game is strong, haha. Hope you're feeling well and that Vegas is a blast!

Also, a big thanks for the blog support. Trying to stay positive and push forwards. :)

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GONABFITCOWGIRL 10/28/2014 10:10AM

    I can't get enough of that little pup of yours!!!!!!!! so effin cute.

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BRAINYBLONDE5 10/28/2014 9:33AM

  oh my goodness I want to cuddle that precious little pooch! PS - I am getting lyme tested thru IgeneX on the 4th...I will let you know my results because I think its something you should really look more into!

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SONICB 10/27/2014 8:15PM

    I melted! XD

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IRP1114 10/27/2014 4:59PM

    Too cute! Thanks for sharing : )

Good luck with the tests! Hope you can ease back into gluten free and start feeling the benefits soon enough that you get motivated to keep it up struggle free ; )!

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JSPIN74 10/27/2014 3:11PM

    *melted into puddle on the floor*

LOVE her!

Hope you get some answers & to feeling better soon!!

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    SQUEE!!! Shes so adorable, and tiny! OOO going to vegas? Any special occasion or just needing a trip? With who are you going?? Fun- ive been crazing a vegas trip SO SO bad lately.

Oh man- sorry to hear about your thyroid! Sounds like it gives you a lot of issues, thats not cool. Gluten free... ugh. that sounds tough. Hope our week gets better!

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