Monday, May 26, 2014
Well, I am actually DOING it. I have lost almost 15 pounds so far and am finally starting to make headway.
One day I just started to read blogs on here, how people were making progress, how GOOD they felt, and all of the hard work they did. I was so happy for them, and yet so motivated to reach that feeling as well.
I think I just needed to reach that point where I said, you know, there IS no easy route around this. If I am going to do this, it IS going to be difficult. I am going to have to not overeat at times, not go overboard in the kitchen at night and to stop the bargaining thing: "Maybe I will eat just a little. Well, ONE extra piece wont hurt me. Or, the classic: "I"LL START TOMORROW!"
Well guess what! I have been saying that for YEARS and it never happened. One day I just decided, no more tomorrows! NOW is the time! I feel I am finally starting to break the habit. Some nights it is more difficult then others. But I am just plain tired of feeling low energy and not being able to fit into nicer clothes. I am almost pre diabetes, and my triglyceroids are high. this is a WAKEUP call for me. Two family members of mine both had heart attacks in their 30's, and I am 28. I want to change and take care of my body, improve my health.
My depression feels more stable, my anxiety level is going down, and best of all I have HOPE. And Gratitude because I know God is bringing people into my life to motivate and support me. And that I am not alone on my spark journey. People are here, and know what I'm going through. I want you to know friends I am always here, and if you need support/friendship Send me a spark mail. I have always held the attitude a person can never have too many friends.
I am feeling good, and if only just 15 pounds so far, I worked very hard to get rid of those 15, and now I KNOW I am going to keep going!!! I'm not exactly where I want to be, but I know that I am on my way!