Wednesday, March 26, 2014
The last two months in my personal life I have been struggling quite a bit with things. My depression has been very severe, which is why I have been absent. I hope sp friends understand. I am starting therapy and am trying to build myself up again. I also decided to make a "forgiveness list" which is something that I read about in a book. You write a list of all of the people you have ever felt resentment towards or still harbor ill at ease feelings with when you think of them, even people as far back as grade school. You write down the reason you are angry with them, the lessons you learned from them, burn the paper, and make a promise to go on with your life and release the negativity and hatred. I realized that there were people in my past I was still holding grudges towards that I did not even think about until now, and it felt really good doing this.
I have just been really struggling with some things that are hard to describe in words, but had to work on myself and just really get to the bottom of some core issues in my life. I just wanted to let everyone know that I really have missed everyone. Its always amazing how if you dont come on awhile, friends still care sending notes of encouragement goodies. I just love Spark. There is no other website I have encountered in my life where people promote such kindness and motivation. I just really need to get started again.
I have also been trying Emotional Freedom Technique. If anyone who doesnt know what that is its where you tap on certain accupuncture points on your body and relieve stress and it releases seretonin in the body, I believe there is a spark team for it here too! Its very easy to practice. Its been helping me, and instead of snapping at people or runnning to the kitchen, I have been doing this and am noticing myself feeling better. I recommend this to anyone reading.
I really hope I can get in touch with friends and that I can find my way again.
Monday, February 10, 2014
This is for the A&I Pink Candy Hearts challenge team:
A is for Angels, I enjoy reading books about the subject
B is for Bubble Baths. I love them.
C is for Candles because I enjoy aromatherapy and lavender
D is for Dreams. I have lots of big dreams and goals I want to achieve
E is for Energy. I am starting to like exercise because of the energy it gives me.
F is for Fairies, which I also like & fantasy art
G is for Guitar, I am teaching myself to play
H is for Honey, for putting it in my tea
I is for Imagination, writing poetry and being creative
J is for Jesus, my Lord and Savior
K is for Kerli Koiv, who is my favorite singer/inspirational person
L is for Loving myself, which I am trying to do & to take care of myself better
M is for Mystical, because I like the word
N is for New Beginning, which I am trying to create in my life
O is for Open Minded
P is for Passionate
Q is for Quirky because I am unique
R is for Roses
S is for Spark of course
T is for Teddy Bears
U is for Underwater, I like to swim
V is for Victoria's Secret, a store I like
W is for Work Hard which I want to do this month
X is for XXL, a size I am tired of being
Y is Year, as in 2014 is going to be my YEAR!
Z is for Zodiac, I am a pisces
Saturday, February 08, 2014
Looking back on January, I am proud that I lost a good amount of weight! Towards the beginning of the month I was on a roll! Then towards the end of the month I started to waver a bit. But my attitude is still pretty good, even though at the end of the month I didn't do so hot. But I'm not going to beat myself up over this, it does no good. I am going to learn from it and press on! So that's why I've decided to UP the fruit and veggies. Here is a peak of some things in my fridge: strawberries, apples, kiwi, pears, blueberries, broccoli, cauliflower, radishes, zucchini, and peppers.
It's only been a little while, but I can not tell you the ENORMOUS difference I feel in my mood. I still eat oatmeal, crackers, peanut butter, or yogurt sometimes and of course dips with the raw veggies but I am eating healthier, more natural foods. Basically, If it doesn't feel right, then I'm not eating it! I am letting my addiction and emotional cravings go on vacation and take the backseat for awhile, and I feel like this is a vacation I don't want to come back from. I am trying to look at it as "Eat to live, and not live to eat."
1. Eat the rainbow
3. Exercise Bike
Sunday, January 12, 2014
So far I feel I'm doing pretty well. I have hardly overate at night, that is a big plus for me. I have been trying new recipes. And I believe this is all about small changes and baby steps! Here are my plans:
1. Go swimming at the YMCA as much as a I can
2.Try to drink my 8 glasses of water daily
3. Avoid or at least make healthier choices when I eat fast food
4. Try to get in exercise each day: walking, biking, Wii Fit
5. Continue to make new recipes
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