Friday, December 19, 2014
I must have a sign on my forehead that says 'apply stress here'.
Found out that my work contract was underbid to another company. I'm a sub to this contract, so I'm even further out and won't be in the employees 'picked up'. I have to find my own way. My company is looking, but said they didn't know if they could find anything. Merry Christmas to me. So in the midst of the holiday season when everyone is on vacation, I have to start job hunting, and in a hurry. Add Christmas and all the over the top hype for that. What little Christmas spirit I managed to work up is long gone.
What next? I just wanna go hide from it all, but that won't help. Clenching my jaw doesn't help either, but that's not stopping me from doing it. Guess the dentist will be fussing after me too.
Stressed, now why would I be stressed. It feels so wrong to be buying for Christmas when this is looming over my head. I sure wish I had a better support network because I need to find someone to talk to. It gets tiresome when everyone just ignores the situation or caters to their own needs. Well I need help too. I can't do it all by myself.
I can tell I'm getting ready to crack, I get weepy, agitated and mean.
This too shall pass. Sure wish it would hurry up though.