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Vitality Challenge Day 1

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Day 1 done!

We drove out to the country today to pick up the kids who had stayed the night with my dad. I always love driving out there because the scenery is just so beautiful.

On the way home, I sort of completed my self-love challenge, to meditate. The windows were down, the wind blowing my hair, staring of into nature whizzing past me. (I wasn't driving!) Of course it wasn't an actual meditation, but I was certainly practicing mindfulness and enjoying the beauty of the moment. It made me feel happy and alive, which is just as good as any meditation. So, I say it counts!

I didn't track today, because I didn't eat at home (food at my dads, and one meal eating out) so it would be guesstimation at best and hardly accurate.

I didn't workout today, but with the walking I did today, I certainly got in my 10 minute goal. Tomorrow, I'll have a 20 min walk (to and from kids bus stop) plus at least 10 more mins of exercise (core ball video if my abs aren't still hurting, otherwise I'll do another video).

2 out of 3 isn't bad! Ready for tomorrow!

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GRLEGRL9 5/21/2012 7:33PM

    emoticon with your meditation!

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SPARKGIRL32 5/21/2012 1:16PM

    Awesome job on committing to meditate!! It makes SUCH a difference, in my opinion!!! :) Congrats for giving yourself a little wiggle room, as well :) emoticon

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TERRIEHICKS 5/21/2012 11:44AM

    Way to go. Talking to ourselves in a positive and nice voice has amazing results. I also like to visualize my muscles getting bigger and the fat melting off my body while I am working out. I stay connected to my body during my workouts and I have been seeing a lot of inches melt off my body. You are doing it right with 10 minutes at a time. I usually do 2 workouts per day at 30 minutes each. I love splitting them up because it does not seem so bad that way.

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MARYHOLMAN 5/21/2012 7:50AM

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CELIAMINER 5/21/2012 7:40AM

    I'd count the ride home as meditation. I find I can be most in the moment when my senses are partially engaged at a low level. Lately, the shower has become a meditation sanctuary for me. The hands know which bottle to grab next, the warm water feels so healing on my achy back and shoulders, and my mind is free to focus or drift. Glad you had such a good day.

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TEDYBEAR2838 5/21/2012 6:59AM

    You are doing emoticon

Conscious awareness is the best way to go

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BLUE42DOWN 5/21/2012 3:16AM


Had to chuckle at your reassurance that you weren't the one driving.

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MEAG9686 5/20/2012 10:38PM

    Its always nice to sneak exercise in during your normal, every day activities! Keep it up! emoticon Looking forward to seeing you on the 15 day Vitality Challenge!

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SEATTLE58 5/20/2012 10:34PM

    Good for you for taking advantage of the present. That will truly help you to go further and your 10 min. here in there is a plus too! You're doing good work!

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10 Ways I Can Take Control of My Own Happiness

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

emoticon1. Refuse to let the past control my present.
emoticon2. Live mindfully in the present moment.
emoticon3. Be thankful daily.
emoticon4. Accept the impermanence of all things/situations/emotions.
emoticon. Let go of things I can not change.
emoticon6. Forgive.
emoticon7. Realize that those who do lash out with anger are coming from a place of hurting. They need compassion, not my anger.
emoticon8. Give love freely.
emoticon9. Expect nothing from others.
emoticon10. Believe in all of my wonderful capabilities.

I made this list as part of a journaling prompt for the team I created recently. This is my personal list of 10 ways.

What are yours?

(Note: If you'd like to participate in all of the challenges and prompts, check out the team here: teams.sparkpeople.com/challengeinspi

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BLUE42DOWN 5/19/2012 3:03AM


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THEEASYKILL30 5/17/2012 9:50PM

    Great list. I'm still working on so many of them. Hopefully, one day...

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CANDOK1260 5/17/2012 12:40PM

    great list you ard really growing,.

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LOSINGLINNDY 5/16/2012 11:36PM

    Maybe I can just use your list. It is very well thought out.

Can we put this on Inner Journey in June as a prompt not as a challenge?

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TEDYBEAR2838 5/16/2012 5:41PM

    Letting go of the past & forgiveness are
very important steps to healing & losing weight


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SEWINGMAMACDS 5/16/2012 11:39AM

    emoticon Heading over to your team now emoticon

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SUNRISE14 5/16/2012 11:26AM

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CRINKLYMONKEY 5/16/2012 10:48AM

    This is a great list. I will check out the group. Sounds fun!


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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 5/16/2012 10:41AM

    I LOVE your list...except for #9

I am living my best life ever due to my expectations being formally written, uttered and invited into my life!!

My journey right now is to re-learn to be "naturally slender" and I am living that dream every day "expecting" that what is inside of me right now will manifest itself on the outside sometime in the future.

I'm curious, but not overly demanding of the time frame :)

Best regards and have a blessed day!


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Vitality Pre-Challenge Blog

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

I heard about this 15 Day Vitality Challenge by SPARKGIRL32. I had attended one of her SparkLive! classes a while back and really enjoyed it. I found out about the challenge today and decided it is just the thing I need right now. :)

So, the pre-challenge assignment is to answer a few questions.

What goals are you setting for this challenge?
* Self-love- Meditating once a day
* Nutrition- tracking my meals, no matter how "off" my plan I am
* Fitness- Do 10 minutes of cardio in addition to my walk to the kids bus stop each day.

Why did you choose these goals? I picked meditating because it really calms me and makes it much easier to reflect on what I really want. I chose tracking because I have realized that I have distorted ideas of how many calories (and other nutrients) are actually in the food I eat. Tracking is the only way to know for sure! And I chose 10 minutes of cardio because I need more exercise. I stay at home all day, except for the slightly over half mile walk to and from the kids bus stop. I don't do much moving around at all. I feel better when I move and more importantly, my foot feels better.

What do these goals mean to you? These goals mean freedom. WHEN I accomplish these goals, I'll be able to accomplish anything.

Why did you choose to participate in this challenge? Because while I have come a long, long way in changing my thinking, I haven't done a lot with my weightloss.

At the end of these 15 days, what do you hope to accomplish? I'm trying to find a way of merging this happier mentality with my goal of getting healthy.

What do you want to feel like? Powerful! Confident!

What is going to tell you that you are headed in the right direction during this challenge? Being about to maintain what I'm doing.

What is going to be different when it comes to how you approach your weight loss this time? Slow and steady! I have a habit of jumping in over my head and giving up. My aim this time is for the long haul, not a quick fix!

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LOSINGLINNDY 5/16/2012 11:27PM

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SEATTLE58 5/15/2012 10:01PM

    I know you can do it, because you wrote it all down and it shows. Once we write things down, it helps us to see it better in our minds. I'm sure doing it slow......have lost 52# in one whole year. The year was up this last April. Slow is the key no matter how long it takes us to get to our goals! You go, Girl!!

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TEDYBEAR2838 5/15/2012 9:32PM

    Slow and steady is a good way to be. IT takes time to get
off what took us years to put on. Patience and keeping on
keeping on!


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Change is in the Air

Sunday, May 13, 2012

After growing bored with my routine, diet, and just general day to day things, it's time to switch things up a bit.

I joined a few new teams and created one of my own. (Here's the link if you're curious. *wink, wink* teams.sparkpeople.com/challengeinspi
)I've noticed I do this every few months or so (join new teams) and leave the ones that just aren't active or aren't providing anything for me. Of course, I have a few that I'm positive I'll always be in, because they are just that awesome.

Interesting that this also coincides with the end of the Spring 5% Challenge. I didn't participate as fully as I wanted to in the challenge. After I moved, I just sort of felt overbooked and I "took off" more days than I really intended to.

Anyway, back to the subject at hand. So I joined some new teams, one of which was for the spark 5K programs. I can't run yet, but I can jog for a little bit without my ankle yelling at me. My goal is to get myself jogging more, walking less. At this time, I don't really plan to compete in a race, but I'm not completely ruling it out either. I'm just going to go slow and listen to my body and see where this takes me.

Another change is that my fiance was told by his doctor that he has prediabetes. Which of course changes everything. We'll be re-vamping everything we eat (and the way we eat it) to nip this in the bud before it has a chance to become full blown diabetes. And while I don't have this condition (though diabetes runs rampant in both sides of my family), changing things can only be good for me. His doc is setting him up with a dietician and I plan on going to that appointment with him. I've never had the opportunity to talk with a dietician, so this will be extremely beneficial as I'm the one who shops and cooks 99% of the time. His diet will be my diet, as I'm not in a position to be cooking separate meals (nor do I want to).

But I believe that this one change will be the most significant. Nutrition has always been the hardest part for me, and now that we're in a position of "having to" fix it, I think it will make it easier for me.

So anyway, good changes in the days to come!

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CELIAMINER 5/14/2012 10:23AM

    Love the way you dive right into the challenge of keeping your fiance (and YOU) healthier. Should be some good eatin' with lots of fresh fruits and veggies!

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TEDYBEAR2838 5/13/2012 7:55PM


You have the spirit & you want to.

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GUNNSGIRL91303 5/13/2012 6:13PM

    Change can be scary but also exciting! This is a change that will help you both have better health! What a great way to start your life together!

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SUNRISE14 5/13/2012 6:08PM

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SEATTLE58 5/13/2012 5:43PM

    Sounds like a good plan to me! Go for it, girl! It'll be so nice to help your boyfriend too! I was told that I am Insulin Resistant and to me that's the same as Pre-Diabetes, so that scared me and got me thinking and wanting/needing to lose weight. Well, it's working so far, but slow with being on Prednisone! If we put our mind to it, we can do it! I'll have to look up the SP team that you created. Cool girl! I know, I'm like you, when I get bored with a team I just get off unless it's really related to me like the RA team. Good luck to you!!

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"But it's not fair!"

Wednesday, May 09, 2012

We've all been there. And by "there", I mean anywhere.

Sitting in the break room at work munching on your third salad of the week while oogling the slice a pizza a thin co-worker is eating.

At a party doing your very best to steer clear of dessert table even though you know that EVERYONE else is gorging on the cheesecake your friend made (and talked about all week).

Sitting across across from a friend who says "It's just one burger. What harm can it do?"

Anyone who has been overweight and tried to lose that weight has been in some type of similar situation. And we all know what was going through our heads...

"It's just not fair! Why can't I eat that all the time and be that thin?!"

Well, let me let you in on a little bit of enlightenment that I learned a while ago. Not everything is as it seems.

TWO-THIRDS of Americans are overweight. Yes, folks, I said two-thirds.
ONE-THIRD of Americans are obese.

For those of you who shut down when someone mentions fractions (yeah, I have high school algebra nightmares too) let me give you a slightly better visual.

2 out of every 3 people are overweight
1 out of every 3 people are obese

Please excuse my inability to draw lol

Anyway, my point is that yes, the person that's eating that pizza or dessert or whatever it is that's making you hate yourself, is a lie.

A big, fat lie.

If she remains thin, then I promise you she's exercising. She's watching what she eats most of the time. She doesn't live off of fast food. And it's extremely likely that she's cooking her own meals the majority of the time.

And if she's not?

It's not going to take too long, and she'll move right into that two-thirds category along side the rest of us.

It's that simple. She doesn't have a magic metabolism. She isn't someone to envy.

So the next time you're in a situation like that, just sit there quietly eating the healthy and nutritious food you made for yourself, give yourself a smile knowing that your weight will be going down. You don't need to begrudge someone else a tasty snack because you know all you have to do is plan it into your day and adjust as necessary.

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KALISWALKER 5/12/2012 11:39AM

    You are so right!

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CANNIE50 5/11/2012 11:00AM

    For some years of my life, I was that slender woman, eating whatever I wanted, and wearing a teeny little size and my heavier co-workers envied me because they told me so. Then, OOPS, it caught up to me and by the time I was in my 40's, I was officially obese. The ones that get me are the "foodies" - people who adore food, who are constantly baking, cooking, trying out new restaurants, entertaining - and they stay very slender. I think there are people who have a combination of a good metabolism, a healthy thought process about food, and natural self discipline around food. I am not one of them. I do find that where my weakness is food, other (often slender) people may struggle with compulsive shopping, or gambling, or in other areas that don't pose a problem for me. We all struggle, it just so happens that the area where you and I and others like us struggle, shows up for the world to see. I stopped by to thank you for reading my blog (this is what _ looks like) - I appreciated your comments. Here's to making our strengths stronger, and our weaknesses weaker. Sparkle on!!

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CELIAMINER 5/11/2012 10:02AM

    Great blog and great comments! I especially appreciated Ballpeen's male point of view. I've long marveled at how thin my husband stayed, even with no exercise, while I gained and gained. Then I took a look at his eating patterns and noticed he would frequently forget to eat. Forget to eat?! Never had that problem in my life. Anyway, even his current eating pattern is starting to catch up with his fast metabolism, and I see the changes in him.

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LUCIOUSKITTY 5/10/2012 10:54PM

    You know my roommate is extremely thin,doesn't exercise, eats eh and drinks soo much soda...I think that is all he drinks. I always envied it. But,I might be heavier then him and not in the right "weight zone" to be considered healthy by doctors but When he got his physical they told him to change his eating habits and drinking habits because is Cholesterol was very high and they worried about him. When I went to the doctor I was told I was fine but just needed to work on my weight but all my test came out great. They just suggested me to get in my Healthy BMI range. emoticon

So just remember, Those skinny I eat anything I want people might just be blessed with fast metabolism but that only goes so far...on the inside they might not be so healthy. People like us who have to watch what we eat...Might be a blessing. We are reminded we need to not just look healthy on outside but be healthy also on the inside. emoticon

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    Nice read.

We've all seen the cartoon...a fairly normal weight woman wearing...well, lets say underwear to keep it PG, is looking in to the mirror and the mirror image is this obviously heavy, droopy woman.

The next image is of a fairly overweight, droopy man and the mirror image is this buffed out lifeguard type .

I mention this for a reason....I feel for you gals....you have to fight these unrealistic images that hit the screen and magazines every day.

You need to think a little more like men, and your post hit on it. Don't think all of these women sit around and eat cheesecake all day and keep that "classic" hourglass if there is such a thing. Many starve 2-3 days a week.

Oh, and for what it's worth, most of us normal guys are intimidated as heck when around a poster girl. We understand that isn't normal. It just brings out our insecurities.

The message from me is be proud, healthy, and be the best you can be and to heck with ET and People Mag images.

That isn't normal, so don't think it is.

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CANDOK1260 5/10/2012 3:23PM

    great blog thanks you

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CAMAEL100 5/10/2012 6:20AM

    Amazing insight, and you are dead right. Nobody stays thin eating pizza all the time. I envy my husband who never had a weight problem as sometimes I think he can eat what he want. But when I stop and really think about it - he eats well most of the time, would never think of having a desert after dinner. Stops eating when he is full even when he likes what he is eating! And is very active. I think that his ability to stop when he is full is the best one.

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SUNRISE14 5/10/2012 5:55AM

    If you get in control you can have that pizza ect. I go to subway and have them fix me their single pizza with pepperoni and veggies . Tell them to cut it in 8 pieces and eat 2 there take the rest home and eat 2 aday for a meal or 1 to two for breakfast ! 130 calories each ! That way i can have pizza anytime i want ! Not enough to eat eat a salad before it ! emoticon

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ANGELWENDYMAMA 5/10/2012 12:33AM

    Amazing stats.. just amazing.

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MKPRINCESS007 5/9/2012 9:21PM

    You know I think you are awesome, but I have to respectfully disagree.

There are some people, with killer metabolisms that can eat crap and completely get away with it. I have known those people, and they can just eat the stuff and don't workout and don't gain a pound. Genetics does play a role sometimes.

I am sure there are people that do all of the things that people are naming above, probably the vast majority.

This is a great blog, and I love the positive mindset.


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TEDYBEAR2838 5/9/2012 9:09PM

    Just remember all the harm that pizza etc is doing
to our bodies. Like you said, you might not see
it now, but the future will tell.

I aim for a Good future


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ROCKINMOM776 5/9/2012 6:21PM

    Well said (and I enjoyed the illustration:)!! It's so easy to envy thin people without even knowing what they do behind closed kitchen doors (or in the gym). I can't wait until the day that I can eat a bite of that cheesecake and say 'that's enough'!!

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TERRIPAL1 5/9/2012 5:45PM

    Thanks great blog I've seen proof of this my co worker eattng the pizza took me out to climb stairs today , not only is she in much better shape she does the stairs 2 at a time. So you're right not everyone is naturally thiin and they too work hard, which gives me motivation!!

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    Very good point blue42!

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DEE797 5/9/2012 4:32PM

    Thanks for putting things into perspective. Wishing you continued success on your journey! emoticon

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BLUE42DOWN 5/9/2012 4:22PM

    Very good point (and cute drawing).

The other thing that often gets ignored is the fact that the "naturally thin" co-worker might only eat one slice, may not finish it completely, probably doesn't lick the paper and mouth-vacuum every visible crumb, then eye another slice. Others enjoying that slice of cheesecake may decide they're not really hungry at dinner and eat less by default.

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    I agree with you. It does not bother me anymore but it used to bother me as a teenager. I remember growing up that I was the only one in my family "on a diet". My brother and sister were both skinny and could eat and not gain an ounce. It was horrible when we'd be watching tv and everyone would be eating a donut, bowl of ice cream, etc. and I would come down with a piece of cheese or nothing at all. I felt like I was all alone in that respect. It was also hard with my friends when they could eat and not gain too.

Now my brother watches what he eats like a hawk and does plenty of exercise because he will now gain weight if he eats unhealthy.

I do what's best for me and try to work these foods in if I wish. I will have 3 small slices of cake on a small bowl or pizza occasionally for example.

Good blog.

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CHEETARA79 5/9/2012 3:26PM

    Yay! I love your attitude. It's true - even if a slim person eats a caloric meal, they usually balance it out with the rest of their food intake. They seem to do this naturally, the lucky dogs! Nonetheless, if you eat junk all the time you are putting your health at risk. Even skinny people can have health problems from a bad diet.

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