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Tuesday, July 10, 2012



Being sick has really thrown a damper on my activity levels. I went from going to workout/swim daily to nada. zip. zilch. ZERO exercise.

I week or so ago I watched the recorded Live! session that Coach Nicole did for planning workouts - She discussed working out when sick and her recommendation was if it's in the head, its ok to workout, if it's in the chest, skip it.

Well, mine has been all in my head, but dang, the fog and the pressure (and subsequent headache) certainly DID NOT get the memo. I didn't want to BREATHE let alone exercise lol.

I still have some lingering stuffiness, but no headache. I still can't force myself outside into the heat, but I am going to put on a cardio video and do it here in a few minutes. It's time this potato crawled off the couch.

Hope everyone is enjoying their week!

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CELIAMINER 7/13/2012 2:26PM

    I read your blog for July 13 and realized I had no idea you were ill since I've been away for a couple of days. Glad you are moving again, and I hope whatever has ahold of you lets totally go soon.

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GRATEFUL_BEING 7/12/2012 1:09AM

  I know what you mean. I have been sick for nearly 3 months, living out of two houses for 7 months when I am home I'm on the couch or in bed. I do the bare minimum of house and yard work. Then there's the heat. I think I need to take control of my own destiny. Lite yoga is better than no movement at all. Something to stay in the habit of exercise. The more the mind and body become accustomed to the couch the harder it is to get going. I hope your back to yourself soon.

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MBLIFE24 7/11/2012 8:48AM

    Hope you are starting to feel better today! emoticon

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STARGAZER16 7/11/2012 8:31AM

    I hope you get to feeling better soon.
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KATHRYN1955 7/11/2012 7:59AM

    Hope you are soon on the way to separating from your couch! Try a little exercise, but there is no benefit to overdoing it or you will just end up prolonging your illness. It has been too hot to do anything outside anyway!
Take care,
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ANJAYS-JOURNEY 7/10/2012 9:57PM

    feel better soon, and take care of yourself

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MAIDAMONTREAL 7/10/2012 8:17PM

    Sorry to hear that you are sick. I hope you will feel better soon and then can get back into the swing of things. I can relate, last year I kept getting sick with colds or stomach upsets every month or two so did not work out and everytime I was ready to go back to the gym I would get sick again. I was completely frustrated and at my wits end. I was practically saying 'what is the point of going on, guess g-d did not want me to be healthy.' Thankfully this year has been better.

Get well soon.

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BLUEFAIRYTALE 7/10/2012 6:34PM

  Hope you feel better soon! The people below me posted good advice. emoticon

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PINKYGALMISH 7/10/2012 2:55PM

    I agree - summer sickness is the worst. Do what you can, but listen to your body. You'll be back into the swing of things soon! Its only a couple of days :)

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GETFIT2LIVE 7/10/2012 12:25PM

    Summer sickness is the WORST--hope you are back to 100% soon! Any extra movement you can get in now will help you get going again, even if it's just walking in place during commercials every hour or two.

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LINDAK25 7/10/2012 11:49AM

    Sorry to hear that you're not feeling well. I can't exercise when I have a headache with a cold, either. Hope you feel better SOON!

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TARAH85 7/10/2012 11:21AM

    I don't even have any good excuses for my lack of motivation these last couple of weeks. But I hope you feel better and get back to it soon. Rooting for you!

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EARTHSEAME 7/10/2012 10:58AM

    emoticon Take care of yourself - even a little exercise helps a lot when you are sick. emoticon

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Light Your Fire

Friday, June 29, 2012

I know this blog is a bit off-topic, but it's been on my mind for some time, and I feel this is as good of a place to unload it as any other. And it does tie in with weight loss, sort of. Anyway...

I've struggled most of my life with feeling inadequate.

And I think I'm finally beginning to see why- I let others dictate how I should think/act/work. And by "others" I'm referring to friends, family, strangers, and the commonly accepted ways of appropriate behavior and thinking that this country seems to have adopted (such as finding "the one thing" I'm "meant" to do, etc etc)

I've always felt that I have zero drive to get what I want. Lazy, procrastination, lack of desire - always seem to get in my way when I've set my mind on something.

As a child, I decided I wanted to be rich - as if "Rich" were a job in itself and not something that happens when you land a great job.
In third grade, I decided I wanted to be a writer. I've yet to write a book.
In 11th grade, I decided I wanted to be an EMT. I haven't worked as an EMT a single day. - though I did graduate with a 4.0.

The three years I spent getting my AA, were spent in confusion. I JUST DIDNT KNOW what I wanted to be "when I grew up". This led me to getting a general AA degree, which, if you're not transferring to a university, is useless in the job world.

All of this is because I allowed "common thinking" to tell me that I had to pick JUST ONE thing and do it for the Rest. Of. My. Life. And that this thing, and how aggressively I pursue it, will define me to the rest of the world. Hence the feelings of inadequacy previously mentioned.

I graduated in 2005 with that AA and haven't gone back to school. It's an interest of mine, as I love learning, but certainly not a priority.

ARE YOU CRAZY?! You must be saying to yourself, right now. Well, maybe I am, but not as crazy as you might think.

I decided years ago, though maybe not consciously, that I don't want to have a "job" in the traditional sense. I read recently that work should be something you do, not a place you go. How many times have you said "I have to go to work." or " so & so is at work" as if it's a specific realm of purgatory or something.

And doesn't it feel like that? (if you LOVE your job, feel free to tune out for a bit here). I haven't worked in over a year, and I can't begin to tell you how much better my life is because of it.

And I've decided, short of a dire financial emergency, I'm not going back. UNLESS, I can find something I LOVE. Something that speaks to me - calls my name, like I've been missing and it's been looking for me for years.

And you know what? I KNOW it'll find me. Whether it exists already, or whether it comes to me in an idea (or more probably, a mix of the two), it WILL find me.

It's taken me a long time to realize all of this, and, especially, that I'm not lazy or unprincipled. I just haven't found the thing that sparks me to continue, to persevere... YET.

Same goes for losing weight, you know. Feeling inadequate because you aren't the weight society dictates that you should be. How many times have you given up because you felt so overwhelmed trying to meet a goal that has nothing to do with YOU, and more to do with what's acceptable to society? How many times has your light burned out because of this?

I've been there.

How can this be a good way to approach things? I mean each of us is different from everyone else, even twins aren't truly identical, so why should we follow a one-size fits all way to live? What I've found is that one-size fits all, usually doesn't fit anybody.

So I'm going my own way. My own path. My own way of doing things. And that's what's right for ME.

If you haven't found the spark to light your fire, keep going. Keep waiting. It'll come. Just you wait and see.

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IYA_EKUNDAYO 7/14/2012 9:18PM

    I really can relate to this post.
I hate my job...
I'll do something about making a change there
as soon as I can.

I hate my weight - I am doing something about that now.


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Are You Someone's Pet? (aka Put Yourself First)

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Normally my fiance has the morning "shift" of walking the dogs because he's always up getting ready for work anyway. But today, was his day to sleep in, so that left me with poop duty.

It was early, the sun was up, but it was so cloudy, you'd hardly know it. The grass was wet from last night's rain and this morning's dew. My dogs hate wet grass with a passion. Give em a pond and they're happier than a cat at a fishing tournament. But wet some grass and suddenly a quick potty trip becomes a Test of Wills: who will give in first?

Eventually, in exasperation, I forfeited my claim to the winners trophy and began heading back inside. Precious, my chihuahua mix, was pulling with all her might to get off the grass and onto the sidewalk. Once on it, I swear I could feel a collective sigh of relief from the both of them.

Once back on the sidewalk, Precious got a whiff of some interesting smell right there in the middle of the sidewalk. She stopped dead, plastering her nose to the bricks. I pulled, and she resisted with all the force she could muster in her tiny 5lb body. I tugged again, out muscling her, and said "You don't get to do what you want to do, until you do what I want you do." (If you tell me you've never talked to an animal as if it were a human, well... I call your bluff.)

As soon as the words were out of my mouth, a realization hit me - how many times in our lives have we, essentially, been "pets" to someone else, waiting to do what we want, until we're done serving the wants of others?

Sure, sure sometimes it's necessary - sleep deprivation is necessary when taking care of an infant, and you can't exactly tell your boss where to shove it when he insists making you stay late.

But a LOT OF THE TIME, we do this without even realizing we're doing this. Or we realize it, but have been so socially conditioned into believing that what we're doing is something we have to do.

Do you have to sign your child teen up for 5 different after-school activities and then proceed to taxi him to each one? NO. Cut that down to one or two, or even better, make him/her get a part time job to PAY FOR THEIR OWN CAR, so they can drive themselves.

Do you have to sign up for (yet another) work/school/pta committee? NO

A friend asks you to help them move. Do you say yes, even if you have no idea how you'll fit it into your schedule?

Do you say yes to going to the park after your kids have asked you for the umpteeth time, even though you have stuff you need to do, you're tired, and they just went 3 days ago?

How many workouts have you skipped because you overbooked yourself?

How many times have you gone through the drive-thru because the kids begged you for it?

When someone says "jump", how often do you respond with, "How high"?

We reason with ourselves, trying to make self-neglect a good thing. We're a good friend. We're a good employee. We're a good parent.


There's a reason that the airlines have the rule "Put your oxygen mask on first, before anyone else" and there's a reason many have quoted that line over and over...

If you die, you can't help anyone else. If you're not eating healthy, how can you teach your child healthy habits? If you don't give yourself time for yourself, who will? If you don't love yourself, who can even know you well enough to love you?

YOU must always put yourself first. It's not selfish - It's a necessity.

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TAMPATINK67 6/24/2012 9:34PM

    Awesome, and thoughtful! Thanks for sharing!

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KATHRYN1955 6/24/2012 9:01AM

    You don't get to do what you want to do, until you do what I want you do."
The sad part of that is often even when we do everything that we think others want us to do, we still don't get (or allow ourselves) to do what we want. We may be so entrenched in "helping" others that we have lost ourselves completely. So you are so right about the whole self-love...we just have to figure out what that even means.
P.S. I need to take some lessons from my cat....they have this self-love thing down pat!!!

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BOGUSANNIE 6/23/2012 9:30PM

    Loved your blog today...THANKS!

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LINDAK25 6/23/2012 5:14PM

    So true. You're right we really do put everyone else first and neglect ourselves. We forgive others, but not ourselves. Being gentle, kind, and loving should start with ourselves.

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CELIAMINER 6/23/2012 4:04PM

    OMG, I was reading away, chuckling at the fantastic imagery your words evoked, when you smacked me upside the head with the notion of being someone's pet. Immediately, I thought of an example or two, and I am going to add this idea to my meditation. Thanks!

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PINKNFITCARLA 6/23/2012 11:53AM

    Great blog!

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_JODI404 6/23/2012 11:29AM

    Excellent blog!

I love best what you said to your dog:

"You don't get to do what you want to do, until you do what I want you do."

I *will* remember that! Great point! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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THEEXERCISER 6/23/2012 11:13AM

    It is a necessity!

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EARTHSEAME 6/23/2012 11:12AM

    You're on to a very important fact of life. What a wonderful epiphany!

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Thursday, June 21, 2012

Right now, I sit here, with an indescribable emotion flowing through me. This is good, but I just can't name it. I dunno.

I've been thinking a lot about life, career, health and what I want out of all of them. I know what I don't want, but narrowing down what I DO want is decidedly more difficult to pinpoint.

The thing is... where my mind is taking me right now, is somewhere 5 or 10 years ago, I'd never have contemplated. So, it's hard to decide if it's my brain going on yet another tangent (it has tendency of doing that) or if it is indeed the direction I should be going. Either way, my idea is full of holes that I have to fill in, in order for anything to make sense, and I'm getting the feeling this is going to take a lot of soul searching.

I know I'm being very vague right now, and for that I'm sorry. I'm not quite ready to bare all of my thoughts just yet. But I can guarantee that when I am, you guys will be the first to know.

Just know this: I could be on the brink of changing my life in amazing ways, or it could be just a fleeting whimsy. Only time will tell.

I will give you a hint - It involves writing, helping through motivation, and career. It's also about being me, and being me MY WAY.

oh and W1D3 of 100PuP: 4,5,4,4,6. Week 2 begins Saturday.

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LOSINGLINNDY 6/23/2012 4:00PM

I love the posters with their sayings.

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CINDY_LYNNE 6/22/2012 10:45PM

    I adored this blog, and how insightful it was. :) Whatever you do, I wish you luck in!

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CHRISTINA791 6/22/2012 5:02PM

    Best of luck, no matter which way you go.

Sometimes, even just playing with an idea can be valuable. It can lead to amazing things, or it can lead to more subtle changes. Either way, it's always worth rolling it around and seeing where it takes you.

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KATHRYN1955 6/22/2012 10:31AM

    Sometimes one just needs to sit with those emotions, thoughts etc. without judgement and let them take form without any forcing from ego. (This sentence has just come from a slowly recovering control-freak!!) I believe that we need those "fleeting whimsies" ....they are what gives the big life-changing events their shape.
Take care, and let us know what happens!!

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LINDAK25 6/21/2012 10:23PM

    I love the poem, the quote and the pictures. They really reflect your thought process. I hope you find what you are seeking.

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BLUE42DOWN 6/21/2012 7:39PM

    I really like that second picture and quote. What a great motto to live by.

And good luck on filling in those holes. Even if it does turn out to seem more whimsy, remember that there are reasons that it appeals to you and see if you can't find those in some manner.

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JOURNEY-2-JOY 6/21/2012 6:12PM

    Sounds like you are on the verge of some amazing things in your life!! Hope it becomes clear to you soon. LOVE the pictures! emoticon

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100 PuP, 15DVC, 5% Summer

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Just a little update on the random challenges/prompts I'm participating in:

100PuP: Yesterday was Week 1, Day 2. I completed the schedule (3,4,2,3,5) with little difficulty. I felt it though! And I'm reminded why I'm doing this- not just to tone my upper body, but to help my right shoulder which is still very weak since my accident.

15DVC: Write an exhaustive list of the reasons why it isnít a question whether or not you are going to lose this weight, it is just a matter of time. Include your skills, talents, education, experiences, personal characteristics, support systems, and anything else you can think of (examples: you've done it before, you've learned so much about what doesn't work during your past attempts, you are participating in this challenge, a job promotion you worked for and got, specific projects you have completed, etc.), DON'T BE AFRAID TO SOUND LIKE YOU ARE BRAGGING...that's the whole point!!!!

*I'm not a quitter.
*I enjoy the feeling of completing a workout.
*I pride myself on my logical abilities.
*I know what I'm doing. Despite sometimes telling myself I don't know enough, I do. A dietician confirmed it!
*All the time I'm learning what doesn't work for me. I use that knowledge for my benefit.
*I'm not scared to try new things. In fact, I enjoy it.
*I am curious. I'm always finding ways of altering things to fit me and my personality.
*I enjoy a wide range of hobbies, which I'm successful at. All are self-learned. If I can teach myself to knit and sew, why not teach myself to be healthy?

I'm not sure if that's an exhaustive list, but I like it. Lauren, absolutely awesome prompt btw!

5% Summer Challenge: List YOUR reasons/excuses on why YOUR diets and exercise plans have not been well executed in the past.

1. I let uncontrollable outside influences get me off track and out of habit.
*The last two times I've "fall off the wagon" per se, were due to moving and losing my internet. Lost my habits, lost my motivation. I will not be moving any time soon... but there can still be things that try to throw a wrench in my habits- holidays, friends visiting, vacations, and the number ONE thing - the kids being out of school. I will navigate these problems, by refusing to get out of habit. It may take some creativity, but I vow to maintain my good habits by planning ahead.

In fact, in the last three days, I've hit the gym ALL of the days, which is MORE than when the kids were in school.

2. I get bored with workout videos quickly, which leads to "but I don't wanna..."
*If I find myself getting bored with something, I will immediately switch it up for something else. Get several things I like and rotate it.

3. Feeling alone
*Sometimes, I really feel alone and disconnected, which decreases my desire to participate in groups and such. But I have to remember that I need only to make a post and I will have many people to cheer me on!


In other news, I've enjoyed two wonderful, peaceful, kid-free days (grandparents are GREAT!), in which I was able to de-stress and complete some great workouts and some serene alone pool time. It was fabulous.

They are on their way home right now, and my goal for tomorrow is to maintain the schedule I've gotten used to in the last week. I won't let the kids being here derail me! Plus, they'll enjoy the pool time.

Hope everyone is having a good start to their week!

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SPARKGIRL32 6/22/2012 10:16PM

    Loveeee it! ! :)

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PATRICIAIN2014 6/22/2012 2:25PM

    I love the honesty displayed in this blog. Keep it up!

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JOURNEY-2-JOY 6/21/2012 7:04AM

    You definitely have what it takes to reach your goals!! Wow! emoticon

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AEROGIRL1594 6/20/2012 2:58PM

    Hey girl! I loved your blog! I think the list that you made was perfect!! Sometimes it can be great to get some alone time, and I know that you deserve it! Keep up the good work!

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BOGUSANNIE 6/20/2012 12:02PM

    emoticon blog

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GRATEFUL_BEING 6/20/2012 9:40AM

  You got this! Your motivating and inspiring. I know you will be successful.

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BLUEBIRDSFLY 6/20/2012 8:56AM

    Wonderful blog. Really well thought out. I wish you great success.
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PINKYGALMISH 6/19/2012 7:56PM

    I'm doing the Vitality Challenge this round too! You've got a great foundation for success - it's only a matter of time before you reach your goals!

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